Very nice, I love chanting 
wakes up the beast from the depth
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I had an idea today with regards to recon during washout. I experience the most intense recon final week of cycle and during the washout.
What if my mind is stuffed with new info (subs) and it only get time to process it properly during washout? Hence recon.
Maybe it’s time to experiment with longer than one day between listening times? 
Another experiment I want to try is to run only 2 subs, Khan ST1 and Khan Black ST1 and listen to them on alternating days. That should also lower the density of messaging to process. Because I only run one sub in listening day and I have cut off ASBR.
Anyway, we do cycle 4 of these bad boys. I’m not done.
Also my energetic practices are going well. I’ve started actively working with discovering and releasing blockages I have in Twitch streaming. I have blockages and it’s like I have my feet on both the gas and the break and this causes pressure, tension and puts me in restricted/coping mode. The blockages are felt and experienced as anxiety and fear and overthinking. Which leads me to cope and escape. Now I’m facing it head on and breathing through it, breathing it out. Energetic release work.
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An hour or so after writing the above I started feeling these warm fuzzy feelings and bliss in my body, a body high, as the recon settled.
This is a reminder to keep going when the cycle feels tough, but also a reminder that washout is important. I’m definitely going to experiment with finding the sweet spot for my cycles and listening schedules.
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I only do one loop, more makes it useless.
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I think you might have misunderstood me, with cycle I mean the recommended schedule of listening for 21 days, alternating listening days and rest days, and then taking a 5 day washout. So I am on my fourth such cycle now.
I don’t listen to more than one loop of a sub on listening days and it has usually been a 3 minute loop only too.
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Tomorrow is the day! So this cycle, round 4 of the double K’s:
- Round 4 of Khan ST1 and Khan Black ST1.
- Only running two subs (removed ASBR)
- Running 15 minute loops on alternating days (KB1, Rest, K1, Rest,
) so up doing microloops to do loops. It’s an experiment. - I’m also going to listen right before sleep.
So this is something new, especially the sleep part. We’ll see how it affects my sleep, hopefully it doesn’t keep me up.
I’m also increasing my focus on energetic breathwork and still doing my Zhan Zhuang.
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This stack so far has helped me with stopping being a self-help junkie and focus on one self-development aspect, therefore increasing quality and decreasing stress.
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Also, I’ve stopped coffee and energy drinks.
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Increased my awareness towards blocks, for example blocks around the fact that I’m a chatterbox while socialising in real but am an extreme introvert while streaming. Also blockages such as anxiety while streaming etc. I think this will get even better once I move up in the KB stages and further along my energetic practices.
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I feel more confident and capable, self-esteem is going up.
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PMO is still there but not even close to the intensity as before. I tried to stick to once a week, but did it 2-3 times one week. But it’s alot less than before. So I aimed for the stars but ended up on the moon, still further ahead and better than before.
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I sleep better, still got long ways to go.
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More attuned to my body and inner workings. More aware of how things affect me physically, mentally and energetically I guess. (Sensations)
I was super sleepy yesterday, then got very pissed because of some random thoughts about things that happened that day. But somehow I was also aware of the energy, like real energy, my eyes stopped being sleepy, I had the energy to go for a run or lift weights or work on an intense project. I went from being ready to sleep to let’s conquer the world. And that taught me the power of anger and how good it would be to transmute that energy to something proactive. I haven’t felt the sexual energy the same way yet, but I imagine that energy as well is potent and will be insane if one could redirect it, transmute it.
Anyway, this awareness and experience made me really understand how powerful certain states are, like anger is such a powerful force, and could be used for something proactive as a powerful energy source. That’s why many “energetic” schools when they label energy in a spectrum, they put anger above states like apathy or fear. Because anger can be used to break out of negative cycles. It’s such a powerful energy source. It can push you up, it can push you outside your comfort zone and really make a change to get out of lower paradigms or states.
Of course it’s volatile, but powerful nonetheless. Also there is a difference between being angry and being in an angry state. Feeling anger is good I guess, but being constantly angry is a state and probably not optimal or healthy.
Cycle 4 - Khan Black ST1 & Khan ST1
Ran Khan Black ST1 for a full loop yesterday before bed. Had a weird long dream about a certain fear I have.
Weird, it feels like my subliminals and energetic release work I’m doing is making my body bring up fears and worries I have, neurotic subconcious beliefs and anxieties, and helping me deal with them in dream world. Face them in dream world and then end up on a lesson or wisdom moment of clarity. That clarity also brings clarity around my priorities in life.
The things that produce the most anxiety and fear can also be the things you cherish the most, and you realize in the dream how you will feel when you lose them. It’s like they say, “You don’t know what you have until you’ve lost it.” They cause anxiety because you might not be aligned with your deep values.
Effing awesome!
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Intense recon day today, but it got better after some breathwork and walk outside. I’m excited for this cycle, it will be challenging, but worth it, I just know. But it’s off the utmost importance to engage in self-care and taking massive action so that the recon isn’t all for nothing. It’s never for nothing, but it will be nice to squeeze the juice out of this challenge.
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Will listen to Khan ST1 tonight, before bed.
Last night I listened to a full loop of Khan ST1 and woke up with intense recon. Nonetheless, got my ish together, ate breakfast, had some oolong tea and then engaged with breathwork, qigong and Zhang Zhuang. I felt so much better. I felt better than I’ve felt all week. Amazing 
Went outside and breathed even more. Had some lemon water and just feeling great.
Recon was surrounding other people’s expectations of me and it’s never for me. You have to stand for yourself and remember your self-care and time can’t be all devoted others. It’s for everyone’s best.
For instance, if I get free time it shouldn’t be all be spent in the family. Some of it must be sacred and used for me-time. It’s weird when something that obvious is not obvious to everyone.
So I guess the recon was about boundaries. Healthy boundaries because these things are not always obvious to others. Humans can be habitually selfish without knowing it. So I have sympathy, and learned alot from this experience.
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(Khan Black + Khan) * (Breathwork + QiGong + Zhan Zhuang) = OP!
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“If it’s a good deal now, it’s going to be a good deal tomorrow.”
Priorities change like the seasons. It’s natural.
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This year is mainly the year of the Khans, but I am pondering that later I will build a spritual/esoteric custom with Khan Black/Revelations of Spirit or something. The ideas focus is on my current take on spirituality, unthethered yet grounded, the tree that rises up into the sky, with roots deep down the core of the earth. I am unsure because perhaps I want to add RoB too, if it also fits the goal of increasing groundedness, physical aspect of things, then again, what is more grounding than sexual energy?
Great stuff.
Other ideas.
ASBR + IG:UPG + Limitless custom
Genesis + Genesis: Mogul custom
Also, this is also an indicator of recon 
other obsessions: microphones, microphone arms, stream gear, working out, priorities
it’s part of my process…
There’s many aspects to approach anxiety. Some would say it’s inherited in our primal makeup and can’t be fully eradicated.
But it’s complex and usually requires you to take massive action, learn to accept and almost enjoy the action more than the result, and relax.
For me it disappears quickly if I relax, stop caring, stop trying and just mingle with people. But most guys view their approach as a Olympic gold medal performance and the anxieties bubble up. It’s all or nothing thinkin. Its competitive. It’s too much pressure dude. It’s tense, it’s draining. It’s easier said than done, but nonetheless I’m trying to reflect on how I dealt with it while being active in the dating scene.
It’s not Squid Game.
Try adding Sanguine to the mix!
There is much untapped potential in Sanguine. I’ve only had it for one cycle so far, but it was easy to run(full loops caused no noticeable recon) and its effects are immediate. I think that for deep meditation, be it standing or sitting, Sanguine’s potential could be explored for years to come- there is probably no upper limit.
Ah, I wish there wasn’t a three sub limit and that our minds were able to handle more. I’m about to get into a math intense program and would benefit a lot from cognitive enhancers like Limitless and IG. But alas, I really got to stick to that Khan journey to make the most out of it and Love Bomb is just so lovely, can’t let go of it. And with Khan Black in the mix as well I literally have no free spots for months to come lol.
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Haha yeah the recommended limit is annoying but necessary. 
I’m going to read up on sanguine again. I liked what you wrote about it and I might add it. I’m currently running full loops of Khan / Khan Black ST1 (went from micro to full) so I run only these two this cycle. But next cycle I was thinking to add a third again. Was thinking of sanguine, RoM or maybe Limitless as I’m studying these esoteric practices. We shall see… 
Well the spot is taken by an awesome program! How’s Khan Black treating you?
What math program?
Interesting thing from the NSE of my double khan stack: to get out of your head, do things outside of your head. Trying to think yourself out of your head is still you in your head.
Lol
Anyway, I feel alot of resistance at times when I should do chores and basic stuff, and I realised this resistance is what keeps me in my head. If I go out and do it I usually get out of my head. But of course the self-sabotage wants you to stay down, block you from your potential. But nothing changes until energy moves is what I’ve learned from a energetic/breathwork coach.
So now whenever I feel resistance I know it’s good for me to do. Especially if it’s something I view as something my ideal self would do. But my resistance blocks me from that and I fall for the trap of “let’s think ourselves out of this mess, let’s study and learn more…”
Shut up and go!
Anyway, I usually don’t write all these NSE epiphanies because I feel like a stoner-bro that says the most obvious things but they are so profound for me. That’s how I feel NSE is like and I’m not high. It’s hard to always remember these things, specially because they are subtle at times or feel so obvious I feel dumb to share, but it feels like they get integrated quickly too OR a course of action to integrate the lessons emerges. @SaintSovereign @Fire great stuff friends
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I can feel it’s a dense sub! Just like Khan. After three cycles of Khan TB, I was able to run it at full loops without too much recon(helped by Sanguine and lots of meditation). With Khan Black, I am more careful now than I was when I started out with Khan(was quite stupid to get into full loops pretty much from the start), so I am staying in the 3-5m territory for now. Getting a lot of violent dreams that are related to sex and having some very palpable energy movements that I usually don’t write down here because their description doesn’t help anyone who does not do these practices themselves. But it’s a great sub that I can imagine running pretty much indefinitely. What is unexpected is that I felt much more resistance to PMO on Khan TB than on Khan Black Stage 1. I thought it would be the other way around.
It’s a program that involves mathematical statistics, complex analysis and so on. I don’t have a pure math background, so there is a lot of catching up to do. I’m really tempted to include Limitless in my stack for this reason, but this Twin Khan+Love Bomb combo is just too good to pass up on. I simply don’t know what to exchange Limitless with, or whether I can do without it, There are conflicting priorities. Wanting to do well socially/romantically, but also hoping to be on top of my cognitive game.
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It is tough with multiple goals, like we all have. I try to view it like a degree in something, like university, you spend a semester on a certain subject or a few subjects, it course the semester is up to you to decide how long. It’s still tough!
That’s awesome and I feel you bro. It’s hard to explain to words and can be misunderstood. That’s awesome though! I’m definitely considering sanguine!
There so many flawed and limiting beliefs in us that rarely come to the surface to be scrutinised by the sun. Just journaling, whatever your thoughts are while running TB they almost automatically dissipate. Some linger around to be processed emotionally, but they lose some of that power they have in you. You undergo the process you have resisted and pushed down, because the process has to happen. You can’t hide from it or hide it. You’re only fooling yourself.
Had a powerful release and journaling experience today and I’m reminded yet again of what I’m missing out on when I forsake my practices and journaling. Of course it’s all about balance, not spending your whole life journaling and exploring the psyche, waiting to live. But you have to find that delicate balance.
Another interesting breathwork/energetic release and reflection.
Priorities: Family, Work and streaming.
I love streaming and gaming, I don’t like the work required to make it a career, social media, YouTube video making and editing, marketing. It’s not fun and makes streaming and gaming not fun. So I might have come to the conclusion I’ll just do the thing I love, gaming and streaming, not caring about growth. Easier said than done of course. I have other priorities right now.
Feel a deep sense of ease, confidence and focus today. I thank last nights run of TB and the past days shadow work and reflection.
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