I’m logging here how this overwhelming fame changes me.
And what insights I gain on the nature of power while on this journey.
Few things that have happened since I wrote the review in the Stark Black thread:
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Everytime I go out to a public area, people around me begin to take THEIR pics and making tiktoks. Sometimes asking me to hold their camera. I once asked whose pic they wanted (mine or theirs) coz they looked so unsure.
I think they think that I’m social media famous. And are trying to show me that they also understand the game of fame.
(I get surrounded by people everytime I go out in public area, needless to say).
(I wonder when they will start taking my pics, its just a matter of some loops of stark black i think). -
My fame makes my mistakes super noticable. My deep fears manifest directly when I interact wid people attracted to my fame. One realization: I tended to form a quick emotional connection (coz I thought I wouldn’t be loved otherwise) while talking to people. But If I do it now, they really want to take advantage of me. So I have to STOP forming emotional connections willy nilly.
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I destroy manipulation/fear based social heirarchies. Just my presence begins to f*ck up their heirarchy.
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Here is a weird/awesome thing. Things just tend to work out. Whatever I try. If I try something impossible, it will still work out. And if I analyse why it worked out, there would be an exploit that noone saw till I took action upon it.
I’ll update this journal frequently.
Hope y’all glean some value out of this, and maybe even try stark black yourselves.
This is undiluted FUN, to say the least.
My stack is 5 min Stark Black + 5 min Pheonix.