Ran my dose of EmperorQ and Inner Circle today.
Today it was 2 x EmperorQ and 2 x Inner Circle.
I think a limiting belief that I still haven’t been able to get rid of is how much I deserve success in life.
Like everyone else here, I want to achieve success in terms of my financial and social status (hence I am running Emperor).
However, I still have that voice in my head telling me ,
"Those people you wish to be as successful as worked very very very hard in their lives to achieve the level of success today. They went into battle many many times, they took every opportunity that was given to them, they were exposed to a lot of hardship which shaped them into what they are today. And you? What have you ever done to deserve success like them? You had quite a comfortable life and didn’t experience the type of hardship and trials that they went through? You’re much of a strawberry and you wanna be a success like them? Haha, you have been a private in the army for 10 years and you want to be a general next year? Dream on man, dream on.
This has been partially due to the way many people around me both professional and personally assess my value as a person. To many of these people, my life is like that of a report card and I am assessed on the basis of my past and present achievements. It’s like I only have a few chances in life - usually at younger age - to prove that I deserve to be a member of the club and once I fail, the doors are shut.
I’ve posted previously in some other threads of mine about my experiences which shaped the way I am but I will not repeat here as digging up the past does not help me to achieve my current goals. I have to detach myself from those limiting beliefs as above - they are just thoughts, thoughts and thoughts. Thoughts are nothing unless assumed into reality. But I have to know that they are there in order to let them pass.
On the positive side, this coronavirus pandemic has given me some room to reflect on what I should do in the long-term for myself to achieve my goals. In the short-term, the ride is tough and the storms are severe, but I do foresee some areas of recovery at the moment that I can take advantage of.