[STACKED] Raphael's StarkQ Terminus Journal

Journals - Major Programs
#21

PS: am fascinated by programming too. A Tony Stark definitely would love to master coding.

#22

What defines Tony Stark?

  1. Super-Genius Intellect (Learning)
  2. Master Engineer (Creating)
  3. Expert Tactician (Executing)
  4. Millionaire Businessman (Wealth Generating)
  5. Cocky Playboy (Abundance Mentality for Sex)
  6. An Iron King (Leadership)

Some of the qualities I personally feel are worth acquiring on this journey.

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#23

Day 5:

StarkQ Terminus x 1
Ecstacy of Gold Q ST1 x 1 (Day 5 of 30)
Emperor Fitness Q ST1 x 1
Godlike Masculinity Q x 1

  • Even though my stack is heavy with main programs, I added the stacking module Godlike Masculinity Q just to see what would happen. The non-Q version of it was one of my favorites when I was running it along with non-Q Khan in a previous stack.

  • As a result of the above stack, I had this vivid dream where my mom and I were in a cab where we were going home after my dad’s funeral (in real life he is fine). And I had this sinking feeling in my stomach that I didn’t know how to manage my life especially my finances without my father.

  • The dream further pointed this out to me when I took the wallet out of my pocket, put it in the cab and left it. And as the vehicle drove away, I was shouting that I left my wallet in there.

  • It was a very significant message from my subconcious (and from Ecstacy of Gold Q + Godlike Masculinity Q too possibly) that I needed to get my money and masculine energy in order. Because a man needs to know how to take care of himself and those under his care. And also know how to keep his independence and the freedom that money provides.

  • Will continue with keeping Godlike Masculinity Q in my stack and see if I can learn anything more from it.

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#24

Day 6:

StarkQ Terminus x 1
Ecstacy of Gold Q ST1 x 1 (Day 6 of 30)
Emperor Fitness Q ST1 x 1
Godlike Masculinity Q x 1

  • During a very short afternoon nap, I had a dream that my smartphone broke. Must be something to do with my addiction to it. Certainly to use less of it.

  • Found myself watching less YouTube today. Getting easily bored with entertainment videos and more interested in watching about Masculinity, Writing and Pick Up Game.

  • Did more reading even though it was a book of fiction (re-reading Malazan Book of the Fallen fantasy series by Steven Erikson).

  • Have decided to cut down my stack to just StarkQ Terminus and Ecstacy of Gold Q since SaintSovereign mentioned that a maximum of 2 major programs is recommended for the updated Q programs.

  • I don’t know how this will affect my purchases from the Q Store when it releases (w.r.t my stack) but I will think about that when we get there.

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#25

@Lion i know that Saint mentioned that with the Q technology best practice would be to minimize the stack.

I am going to run just ascension and terminus stark followed by a daily run of commander

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#26

@TheBoxingScientist - that stack is perfect to add the coming Q Store Modules to too :wink:

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#27

Day 7:

StarkQ Terminus x 1
Ecstacy of Gold Q ST1 x 1 (Day 7 of 30)
Emperor Fitness Q ST1 x 1

  • So yesterday I had decided to only run StarkQ Terminus and Ecstacy of Gold Q but ended up waking early in the morning with a slight cough (most probably due to swallowing my saliva down the windpipe as I lay down). In that little “health-scare”, I ended up switching on Emperor Fitness ST1 and went back to sleep lol

  • a thought entered my mind today: “if I was as inspired by my purpose as I was about getting laid, I would be so much more fulfilled. And get more money and get laid more in the process too”

  • had a vivid dream overnight which I remembered when I woke up but lost the memory of it in half an hour. Should have written it down as soon as I awoke.

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#28

Day 8:

StarkQ Terminus x 1
Ecstacy of Gold Q ST1 x 1 (Day 8 of 30)

  • One of those days that I woke up from a night with terrible dreams and felt a huge sense of relief that it was just a nightmare. Not that it was something frightening happening to me but I was allowing a horrible crime to happen and was picking up the body to be buried when I was asking myself “why did I allow it? Why did I allow it?”. And that’s when I gratefully woke up.

  • Must admit that am quite bored with my OMAD+Keto diet. But I know that if I stop it, I will just regret it later. Let me think of the long-term benefits.

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#29

Day 9:

StarkQ x 2

  • So I wanted to know how the Non-Terminus version of StarkQ would stack up against my previous stack so I played just 2 loops of StarkQ overnight.

  • I did feel pretty good when I woke up. So will try this out to see whether I will feel the same way tomorrow.

  • More women messaging me on Facebook and showing me slight hints of sexual interest. Also more friend requests from women compared to before.

  • Feeling less affected by other people’s sarcasm directed at me. More confident in myself I guess.

  • But did feel very tired in the afternoon after a nap in which I didn’t play any subs. Must be my OMAD+Keto

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#30

Day 10:

StarkQ x 4

  • Played 2 loops of StarkQ overnight and another 2 loops during the afternoon.

  • Slept late yesterday night. Need to stick to a set time to sleep and wake up.

  • My body needs more healing so will add Emperor Fitness ST1 back onto the stack.

  • Will also add Aegis Covid to my stack since the lockdown has been opened up here and even though I won’t be moving outside as much, I still need to protect myself since am still interacting with my folks at home who go outside frequently.

  • Relapsed on nofap today. Starting over again. You know the drill.

  • To be frank, am pretty eager for the Q Store to be released. It could be here any day now. Saved up some money for it.

  • Highly probable that my stack will change not only because of the Q Store but because am playing subs that I feel I “ought to listen to” instead of playing subs that I “really need and desire to listen to”. Will elaborate more when I pick a new stack again after the Q Store opens.

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#31

Day 11:

StarkQ x 1
Emperor Fitness ST1 x 1
Aegis Initiative Covid 19 x 1

  • This seemed like a good stack for me. Time will tell but so far so good for day 1 of this playlist.

  • Possible that the immunity boosting component of Aegis C19 is assisting the healing aspect of EF ST1. It’s just a feeling though and as I said before, time will tell.

  • I used to write some soulful poetry before and I think StarkQ is encouraging me to write books of poetry. At first glance, this doesn’t seem like a profitable idea, but thinking about it further, it is more desirable that I enjoy writing poems instead of forcing myself to write fiction/non-fiction. Also possibly, poetry might just be the thing I need to jumpstart my writing career before branching into other categories of writing. Either that or I just might end up being a wealthy and famous poet. Who knows? But it is exciting to try my hand out at something I love (like poems) as opposed to pushing myself too much to write things I don’t know or have no inspiration for.

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#32

Day 12:

StarkQ x 2
StarkQ Terminus x 2
Emperor Fitness ST1 x 1
Aegis Initiative Covid 19 x 1

  • okay to make things clear, I had played one loop each of StarkQ, EF ST1 and Aegis Covid overnight and woke up early. So when I did, I played one more loop of just StarkQ

  • Played 2 loops of StarkQ Terminus in the afternoon. This was way too much for me and I woke with a mild headache after a long nap. Not gonna play that much amount of StarkQ and StarkQ Terminus together in a day. Atleast it is too early to do so.

  • But I could see StarkQ (and its Terminus) helping with my charisma and communication skills both online and offline. Felt more confident making my points and less needy that people agree to what I say. Previously, I used to feel the need to block people especially on Facebook, if we disagreed. Today, it felt easier to just ignore them after stating my points. And also easier to listen to them although this needs even more work.

  • The second more salient point is that StarkQ is definitely helping me with finding my purpose. It manifested a very cool TedTalk which was released just 9 hours before I viewed it. Will link it at the end of this post. It was about the healing power of poetry. And like I mentioned yesterday when I said that I felt the inspiration to explore writing poetry books, it felt very similar today too and even more stronger, inspired even harder by the awesome Tedtalk I saw and heard. It also solidified the belief in me that I need not pursue goals that I “ought” to pursue. Because I believed that if I wanted to write, I “should” do either fiction or nonfiction instead of considering my love for poems.

  • If anyone wants to find their purpose, StarkQ will help especially if you type it in a post that one of your goals with it is to find your purpose.

  • There is also a lot more attraction from women, mainly from social media. More women on FB inboxing and whatsapping me so that’s cool.

  • Also my energy today is excellent. So once again EF ST1 and Aegis is working well together. Will give it one week to make sure of this.

Here’s the TedTalk:

https://youtu.be/7VQNTiwOEXM

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#33

That was a nice TedTalk thanks for sharing! I haven’t been into poems previously but that one opened my eyes on them. He made it sound like the genre is recently booming too.

Finding your purpose has definitely been a core experience of Stark for me too.

I’m also considering using Aegis from your posts now that I’ll be out more. I had some concerns it would make my stack too dense.

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#34

@Fractal - you are very welcome, man. Yes, it was a beautiful and heart-warming tedtalk. A bit unlike anything I heard while at the same time being deeply healing. He’s made to curate that “poem pharmacy” and he definitely is living his purpose.

It opened up my own eyes to the value of the poems I used to write, instead of thinking that poems are beneath other categories of writing. And StarkQ did manifest that surety to me. And the very next day while that surety was forming within, this video came up and sealed the deal. Now am feeling pretty unburdened of the search for purpose. Now it feels lighter.

And yeah, you can try Aegis out and see how your stack feels when you do. You will know if it is the correct decision when you try it out. Definitely necessary in our toolbox in today’s world.

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#35

Day 13:

Overnight playlist:
StarkQ x 1
Emperor Fitness ST1 x 1
Aegis Initiative Covid 19 x 1

Afternoon playlist:
StarkQ Terminus x 1

  • I had forgotten to mention for a couple of journal entries that am consistently waking up early in the morning. Mostly half an hour before the alarm clock rings. In a rare day or two, I woke up one hour before the alarm. StarkQ definitely has scripting related to waking up early.

  • Felt even more confident today compared to yesterday. My rational thinking skills during discussions have improved significantly. Calm is easier amidst other people’s flaring tempers. And am not afraid to encounter a tough argument from the other side. Both online and offline.

  • My voice is louder most of the time without it sounding like whining. It does have a feeling of authoritativeness.

  • Relapsed again on NoFap today. A part of me is feeling that am depending too much on subs to help me control my urges instead of doing the heavy lifting myself and use the subs as a bonus. Need to take care of this.

  • Am now very non-needy when women message me. I don’t feel the need to seduce them and that makes them try to impress me more. But I am still witty when I want to be, making them laugh without much effort.

  • Today’s stack was comfortable. Will continue it.

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#36

Day 14:

Overnight playlist:
StarkQ x 1
StarkQ Terminus x 1
Emperor Fitness ST1 x 1
Aegis Initiative Covid 19 x 1

Afternoon playlist:
StarkQ x 1

  • After I have come to know of my purpose to write poetry, am suddenly slacking off on making moves to take action on this. There is definitely fear of success in this one since normally (in the past) when am wondering whether something i choose is the correct purpose or not (like programming or writing fiction), I used to wonder whether I will succeed or fail. But when it comes to poetry, there is a high chance of success for me because I have enough stamina to last writing poems since I have never found it to be boring. So need to resolve this and stick to practicing and learning the art and science of this.

  • Becoming even more fearless these days. From just plain confidence to roaring courage, I don’t fear the loss of friends anymore when I talk to them in a frank manner and not bothering whether they like what I say while at the same time being as clear with myself on what am talking about. The journey to truth is a never-ending story and all one can do is try our best, instead of falling into particular ideologies which seem to be the fashion these days and which I admit I used to be a part of my life before. StarkQ rocks!

  • Am very happy with my EF ST1 + Aegis components in this stack too. Another day of relaxed energy. Good times. Possible that am healing in ways I can intuit but will not say anything for now until am sure and can objectively test after covid times. Not related with my eyes but some other issues which are not as serious but would still be ecstatic to improve on.

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#37

I relate to this. With subclub and even before sub club i relied on sublimnals or hypnosis to help fix my porn/ fapping problems. The problem with this was i was never fixing or dealing with the root cause of why i fap and watch porn. So 2 weeks ago i wrote down why i want to be porn free, my tools for recovery, and i listed all my triggers, i also listed tools for me to use in the moment when im thinking of fapping. Each morning when i wake up i look this over and pick a few tools of the day i will use. At night i do the same.
Im being proactive now. I dont want to be reactive. It can get annoying to do this daily but i realized i need to prioritize recovery for the rest of my life. Without it ill keep going 1 step foward 2 back with relapse. Ive battled this damn addiction for a decade it was time i took recovery serious. Heres a list of some stuff i wrote , i look at daily and nightly

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#38

Tools and Strategies to overcome porn addiction

  1. Always carry a piece of Carnelian gemstone on me.

  2. Put Carnelian gemstone under pillow when sleeping

  3. Listen to quadible integrity sacral chakra brainwave frequency

  4. Listen to other sacral chakra meditations

  5. Listen to stop fapping and stop porn hypnosis from hypnosis downloads

  6. Journal daily

  7. Dance in your room to Bollywood music

  8. Sing kumar sanu songs

  9. Do the exercises in the smart recovery work book

  10. Read rational recovery book

  11. Attend Saa meetings/ smart recovery meetings

  12. Listen to porn free radio podcast

  13. Listen to ascended mogul and godlike masculinity during the day since ascended mogul has anti porn scripting. Godlike masculinity to increase discipline

  14. Visit the nofap subreddit for motivation

16 avoid spending a lot of time on Facebook and
instagram
17 . Prayer
18. Listen to legacy supercharger for greater mental strength
19. Urge surfing
20. Halt
21. Playing the tape

My nofap triggers

  1. Seeing girls on Instagram or Facebook
  2. seeing a video of girls twerking
  3. Asmr vids
  4. Being angry
  5. Sports team losing
  6. teams I hate winning
  7. Boredom
  8. Loneliness
  9. Craving intimacy by a women
  10. Sadness
  11. having to poop makes me feel like fapping at times
  12. Tired
  13. Stress
  14. Wanting to self soothe myself because I feel bad
  15. Repressing my sexuality
  16. Erotica
  17. Porn
  18. seeing attractive women outside especially when they are half naked
  19. Being hungry
  20. Drinking alcohol
  21. Caffeine pills
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#39

@Grimm1390 - bro, that’s some excellent suggestions. I will incorporate some of them into my day and make some new ones of my own. Thank you!

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#40

I forgot to post this other category. Good luck

how to handle cravings and urges to fap in the moment

  1. use the captains of crush handgrip
  2. Pick up the 5 pound weights and start boxing
  3. Listen to the stop porn hypnosis
  4. Rub the Carnelian gemstone or rub the bracelet
  5. Journal about urges and cravings
  6. get on a Saa or smart recovery meeting
  7. Visit the nofap subreddit
  8. Listen to motivational music to stay on track
  9. listen to a sacral chakra meditation/ brainwave
  10. Start dancing to Bollywood music
  11. Start singing
  12. Read rational recovery book and read about the beast Brain aka primal brain
  13. Prayer ask god for help
  14. Listen to legacy supercharger for mental strength
  15. Ride the wave
  16. Halt
  17. Playing the tape
  18. Do a cost benefit analysis
  19. read hierarchy of value list
  20. Watch fearless dan YouTube nofap vids
  21. Watch universal man YouTube nofap vids
  22. Watch YouTube Nofap vids not just fearless dan or universal man
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