I started EmperorQ (EQ) yesterday, and decided to get a feel for it by itself for a couple of days before adding in the rest of my stack, which at the moment is Quantum Limitless ST2.
I listened to it just after lunch. I listened again after returning from a walk later in the day, and had a bit of a headache so decided to lay down and read while listening.
As I mentioned in my other journal, lately I’ve been reading medical and health-related books. I had a few of them beside me yesterday but instead picked up an adventure fiction novel, which I haven’t been reading much lately. I felt like reading about something more exciting than telomeres.
I read for a while, until EQ ended, and I was about to hit repeat and keep reading, but instead I put the book down and went to YouTube. I wasn’t looking for anything in particular, and then I found a video of a custom electric bike (tadpole trike) with an insane battery system. This thing was able to do 50mph and was keeping up with cars, and even out-accelerating them. I watched for a few minutes, and then I realized… why am I watching this? I’m not especially interested in bicycles. I thought about it for the moment, and realized that it was because it was something different. Something novel, that I don’t usually pay attention to.
After that I watched a few marketing videos, and learned some new things that I’d like to try out. I used to watch a lot of marketing videos, but have been more focused on health stuff lately, so this was a bit of a change back.
Later in the evening, my wife and I had been planning on watching one movie, and I really wanted to watch Ocean’s 11 instead. Luckily she loves that movie too, so we watched that. I’ve seen that movie probably 20 times, and I love it every time. Why that movie at that particular moment? I really felt like seeing a clever scheme.
Last night was interesting. I had difficulty sleeping… not trouble falling asleep, but I woke up multiple times during the night. I also had crazy vivid dreams, that seemed rather significant.
In the first dream, I was at my wedding, yet for some reason the reception was being held in what looked like a buffet restaurant, and there was 100+ people there. My wife and I were starving, but people kept interrupting us when we tried to eat anything. Like a scene in the TV show How I Met Your Mother, but less funny. I kept trying to suggest things we could eat, only to have something prevent it. Finally I walked into the kitchen area and said “This is my wedding, but I can’t get any food!” A chef ran over with a huge slab of salmon on a plank, and handed it to me but as soon as my wife reached for it too, he said “Oh, she can’t have this. It’s not cooked yet.” I told him we eat sushi all the time and I’m sure it would be fine, but he insisted that it needed to be cooked properly first and then proceeded to put it in what looked like a pizza oven. The fish came out the other side, way overcooked, and now it looked nasty. He handed it to me, but I said we didn’t want it anymore because it had looked perfect before.
Then I woke up.
In the next dream, I was visiting my parents house, and their backyard was full of holes, mud, standing water, and looked like a messy construction site. The details on this one were very fuzzy, but it seemed significant that someone was out all night and I was waiting up, but was the only person who cared. Whoever it was returned home early in the morning, and it seemed perfectly normal to everyone except me.
Woke up again.
The last dream I remember, I was going out with some friends, and one of them had brought some younger friends with her (late teens to early 20s). We were all going to see a movie, but for whatever reason everyone else had to leave and I was standing there with the friend’s younger friends, who were all late high school/college age. Most of them left, but one girl stayed and asked if I wanted to hang out. I said sure, why not, and we went to a nearby coffee shop. I should mention that in this particular dream I wasn’t married, but I was relatively close to the same age (30s) as I am in real life.
The girl and I sat at a table and talked about people we knew, and the movie we’d all planned to see, and then for some reason she had to go run an errand or leave for a short time, but said she wanted to hang out again later. She asked me if I’d watch her laptop for her and then she left. I sat there for a while longer, thinking about this cute girl that I’d just met, yet who already trusted me enough to babysit her computer. I then got up to leave, as we were meeting up later, and I went to visit another friend.
I then found out that this girl was still in high school (18-19, fwiw) and my first thought was “wtf, I basically have a date with a high school girl, that’s weird!” but another part of me also thought “ha! still got it…”
It seemed significant that I know who this girl was, so she told me her name several times and spelled it out. It’s not a name I recognized, though the last name seemed the most significant… it was Wilde, with an E. Again, that seemed important. I did in fact google that name, and there are several people with that specific name, none of whom looked like the dream character. Not that I’d expect them to of course.
Then I woke up, and stayed awake as it was time to get up.
The rest of the day was busy, and I only got 1 loop of EQ in as I had calls and/or meetings most of the day. There was only one significant thing from the rest of the day, and that’s a political situation that is happening in the portfolio company that my company is part of. One of the VPs has been slacking off and not doing his job, and it’s been affecting a few projects that I’m working on. It’s been an ongoing problem for months and nearly everyone but the CEO is tired of it. I’ve recently brought much of this to light, and he got in a bit of trouble over it.
Today there was a meeting about a proposal I had, relating to a new technology partner that we’re going to be running clinical trials with, and I wanted to mention it at an upcoming conference. This guy managed to convince the company lawyer that it was such a bad idea that we could be sued for even mentioning it, which is ridiculous, but he took the opporttunity to slam the idea and me for even mentioning it, in front of multiple people.
Rather than just feel pissed off, I decided to not take it. At all. I had a call with the company GM, whi is well aware of what this particular VP is like, and he suggested going right to the CEO to pitch it. Which I will, this week. I’m tired of having to deal with this guy’s BS simply because he’s buddy buddy with the CEO. His job role is to support the other division heads, and instead he throws up roadblocks and makes a fuss whenever someone has an idea thrat he can’t take credit for.
This isn’t meant to be a rant, rather my point is I didn’t get mad (annoyed, sure…), I just had a resolve to fix the situration. If that means going over his head, then so be it.
So, not quite the same “Get the f*** out of my way” attitude I had on EV3/EV4. This is different. This is more “Oh, so that’s how you want to play? Ok…”
And I’m still not sure what to make of the dreams!
I’ll give it another day or so with just EQ, then I’ll add QL ST2 back in.
Until next time!