This past weekend I had a nice work party. I think I was down with the cold already but I felt really sexy and social.
-
Mingled with many female colleagues, it’s a big company so I haven’t talked to many of them face to face. My boss, another section boss and they really wanted me to continue with recruiting.
-
I danced on the floor then a female colleague came and started to dance with me.
-
Another female colleague who I rarely talk to approached me on the floor told me ” I’m proud”. Backstory is in my first work party I was just standing in the dance floor and stiff af. She grabbed my hand back and then taught me to dance and just let loose and don’t give a f. So when she saw me dancing all by myself, she was proud.
-
I realized a few hours later this unc need to hit the sack. I went up to my room. Chilled there then felt better. Decided to go down again and just chill and see what happens. I chilled on a sofa in the hotel lobby and the dance girl saw, ditched her group she sat next to me talking about all kinds of stuff. I was just chilling. She started showing me she is very ghetto. I said I bet. (I used to live in a ”ghetto”). Then she started rapping. She started telling me how I should talk to her more at work, that I ignore her and am shy and need to stop being a wuss. I was just listening. In my head I was thinking this is all uncalled for, she is drunk and probably into me. I think she also has a thing for guys like me. I’ve heard I’m a type for both genders before lol. I also thought you don’t know I’ve ran emperor for a year and full khan do you?. Yes, I might avoid you but I’m not shy lol. Well I can be in my head alot and sometime anxious. But it’s more anxious over how crazy I can talk sometimes and afraid it might get me into trouble with HR. It’s like someone mistaking a wolf for a small dog. Anyway, I am just being cocky.
Anyways then a buddy of mine who I think drank too much or even took some other substances came unto us really intense and uncalibrated saying ”look at you risky, sitting here with this beautiful lady all secluded”. You know like a curv cringe drunk uncle during a xmas party. And then he was a bit demeaning to her. Anyway after he left I said don’t worry about him, he’s just drunk. She said ”dont worry about me, I can handle drunk guys”. I said ”My bad, I forgot you were a ghetto rapper.” She is a white blonde girl.
I see they started serving food so I left and went over there to grab some sausage. Before leaving I told her I would literally stop her whenever I see her at work and just say ”Hi <her_name>”. So she doesn’t feel ignored.
Was invited to an after party in someone’s hotel room. I had to dip after the tequila shot lol and the hotel room was packed and warm. But it was packed and I felt ”chosen”. Because there were only cool people in that room. I guess I’m cool.
Next morning at breakfast I see her and overtly wave and smile like a special kid. She starts smiling big and waves back and I also noticed some blushing. I think she is a bit embarrassed for how she literally complained that I ignore her in a drunken dump. And called me a wussy and shy. And tried to out-ghetto me. And I was unreactive.
Anyway, this party I was surrounded by beautiful colleagues and even had girls come up to me and telling me I should stop hanging with so and so because they are creepy.
I’m not down for sexy business as I’m in a LTR. But I love the idea of being comfortable with ladies and knowing abundance and knowing I’m that guy if shit hits the fan.
Anyway, I will try to note down things like this and actions and insights I get for science.
My goal is to write down results no matterwhat it is. I need to be better and noticing wins. Not just for subs and journaling but also to affirm the good in life.
Opportunities for career that came up:
- Big boss telling me to go ahead with AI and ask for forgiveness later. Lol perfect as I’m working on being an AI lead.
- Recruiting (technical interviews)
- Networking with people who I will create workshops with internally.
I didn’t just feel sexy and cool but also well connected.
