Lots of disruption at home on Friday and Saturday due to construction work on my house and a sick cat, so I had no time for listening to EQ or journalling. Shit happens. Things are mostly back to normal today, so will be getting a few hours of listening in.
Despite the break, I’m feeling a stronger push to focus on my diet and health. Better food choices and focus on variety and freshness. My jeans have felt looser on me the last few days but I haven’t weighed myself, it doesn’t seem important. I had some weird stomach issues during the week but feeling better now. I’ve also started getting some of the soreness others have reported, in my case in my upper body.
I’ve been feeling a strong push to nail down my spending habits. It’s been many years since I’ve run any kind of budget or even paid attention to my spending, which is definitely excessive. I earn a very good salary and have no debts (except mortgage), so I stopped keeping track of my spending long ago, which is pretty stupid. That wasted money could have gone towards investments. This will change.
I’ve been thinking of my past interactions with people. Some of the ways I’ve behaved in the past now seem strange and foolish. But it’s not how I acted that bothers me, it’s the motivation behind those actions, what I felt and what I wanted from those interactions. Too much calculating outcomes (which I’m sorry to say I’m exceptionally good at) and not enough just being present and honest with my emotions.
It’s a beautiful day today, I’m sitting outside on my deck enjoying a beer and watching eagles circling overhead. Feeling really good.