Solo Commander ZP journal

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Hello. This is my first journal in which I will briefly highlight all of my experience of the first cycle of Commander ZP. I listened to the sub before sleep in the Masked format. My washout experience will be posted in the next week. Sorry for writing this in an awkward manner.

Here is my listening schedule:
Day 1: Listening day
Day 2:Resting day
Day 3:Listening day
Day 4:Resting day
Day 5:Listening day
Day 6:Resting day
Day 7:Listening day
Day 8:Resting day
Day 9:Resting day
Day 10:Resting day
Day 11:Listening day
Day 12:Resting day
Day 13:Resting day
Day 14:Listening day
Day 15:Resting day
Day 16:Resting day
Day 17:Resting day
Day 18:Listening day
Day 19:Resting day
Day 20:Listening day
Day 21:Resting day

Week 1

Received some acute results on the first week. More precisely, on the first day, I had a huge feeling of euphoria and felt like cleaning up my room. On the second day, I didn’t have that meekness and anxiety in my voice during my work in language learning center. I was able to voice what I want, greet people in an enthusiastic manner. After returning home, I was compelled to clean my room.
However, I began to receive on-and-off moments of recon from the third day: shakiness as if I was freezing on the firsy day, anxiety and meekness resurfacing, compulsion to eat junk food, and laziness and apathy. Though, on Day 4, I was able to perform ‘leading function’ on some level without the feeling of consternation (speak and ask without that meekness and feel assured basically). Later, at the end of the first week, I experienced a huge surge of junkie-level productivity (I-just-want-to-do-smth level of urge).

Week 2

Acute results dissipated. Anxiety and meekness was stronger. I had three resting days from day 8 to 10 because I was incredibly apathetic and lazy and felt pressure inside my head. Though, at the end of Day 10, I giggled uncontrollably many times and then started to feel energetic. Suprisingly, on Day 11, I had that persistent soft smile, and, in the evening of that day, I had a sharp headache that was subdued after drinking a green tea with a slice of lemon. However, on the second half of this week, I just felt nothing, only doubts about whether the subliminal works and the feeling of dumbness and lethargy.

Week 3

Began to take more resting days in this week. On Day 15, I experienced a sense of euphoria and grinned from ear to ear the whole day. On the following days though, I just felt dumb, lethargic and the fear that the sub doesn’t work anymore. On Day 18, I woke up with my throat being clenched several times; in the evening, i had physical recon in forms of stomachache that was followed by headache. On other days, I felt just nothing but only an ephemeral urge to cry on the last day.

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#2

Upon reading the symptoms of your recon I concluded that adding in LD could help you massively when it comes to going over your inner blockages and limits.

On top of that, the headache may indicate that the exposure level is a bit too high and it would be advisable to slow down a bit.

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#3

Thank you for advice. I will try to use LD together with Commander for the next cycle. As for exposure, should I just listen to the sub once or twice a week?

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#4

Why not try both and see what works for you? :wink:

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#5

You need to gauge it by yourself. The most common symptoms of the overexposure is lethargy, headaches, lower energy levels, irascibility. Once you start experiencing them you can cut down on the exposure, depending on how intense those symptoms are.

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#6

I’d try 5 mins each every other day (every sub day) for a cycle. assuming you respond well to 5-minute loops.

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#7

Next time do report earlier on the forum when you have issues so we can help you out.

I think you are very sensitive to subliminals so maybe you should try the 3 minute loop like @Trader recommended.

Just checking: Are you running more than 2 loops a day?

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#8

Only one full loop

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#9

So, here is my experience with washout:

Day 1 (Monday)

Received some bad news. Nothing tragic or related to ComZP, but it put me in a depressed mood. Aside from that, I had strangers greeting me on the streets several times.

Day 2-3 (Tuesday-Wednesday)

Nothing to report. Only feelings of recon that appear momentarily, like urge to cry.

Day 4 (Thursday)

I was in recon throughout that day, and the symptoms of it had been constantly changing from one to another: stomach dullness and nausea, the flow of depression, and then anxiety. Though, at night, my mind started to feel inexplainably different.

Day 5 (Friday)

No results but still feel different. Throughout the day I was sluggish and consternated.

Day 6-7 (Saturday-Sunday)

On Saturday, I received some minor results. My focus (when reading or watching something) is slightly better and ‘disciplined’. Also, my voice sounds slightly more ‘assertive’ but still can be meekish. And, in general, my mind just kind of feels different. No visible recon.

Day 8 (Monday)
Nothing to report. No visible recon but I was paranoid that the results are going to disappear sooner or later.

Day 9 (Tuesday) (Today)
Reckon returned. The whole day I feel dull, lazy and more dumb.

I don’t want to listen to any subs, so I just will continue my washout up to June 12-13. After ending my washout, I will start my cycle by listening to one whole loop per week.

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#10

Okay, so I commenced my second cycle on June 12. Here is my experience:

Day 1 (Monday) (Listening day)

Listened to one loop but not fully. Only reached the tenth minute and then I just wanted to turn off the sub. I felt panicking and depressed throughout the day.

Day 2-3 (Tuesday-Wednesday) (Restind days)

Almost nothing to report. Only doubts about whether the sub works.

Day 4 (Thursday) (Resting day) (Today)

Just feel kind of different. That’s the only thing I can say, unfortunately.

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#11

This can be explained as recon most of the times. So don’t worry.

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#12

Continued resting process until Sunday (Day 7, listening day). Currently on the 11th Day (Thursday, resting day). Unfortunately, nothing to report. I’m starting to doubt that my listening approach is working, but I’'ll wait out until the 15th Day (Monday)

#13

Also, I forgot to add: I spent the whole (previous) week on binging movies. Now i don’t have that desire to watch more. Can it be due to recon?

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#14

I’ve wondered if binge watching movies might be recon related.

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#15

i binge watch youtube on recon

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#16

So I have been going through recon all this time without knowing. :laughing:

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#17

Listened to the loop of CZP again on Day 16 (Tuesday). Wanted to listen again on Day 18 (Thursday) but had some recon in form of anxiety and feeble underlying panic. Not only that, but I was more thirsty than usual and simply had no desire to listen to loop.
Today, On Day 19, I experience no recon or strong thirst for water like yesterday, but I feel reluctant to listen to another loop again.

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#18

Day 20. Just wanted to say that I almost don’t feel any thirst for water like usual.

#19

Day 22. The washout has started

#20

Day 28. Washout. No inner feelings but I was clumsy and had constant brainfarts. On the previous days, I felt slightly relaxed.