@GoldenTiger
i wanted to know would you say the benefits from your terminus build is as straight forward as Q builds, in the sense that of smoothness
ive noticed that on Q that every weekend there will be growth even just a bit
care to share what you noticed
Terminus is a lot more dense, you will definitly see growth, but sometime you can’t see shit or just seem like you are not running sub… It’s inconsistent. I think I overall prefer Q, but I’ll be honest, sometime having to only run one loop in the morning while drinking my coffee is pretty simple and I can’t complain about it hahaha It’s really hard for me to describe. I almost think the best option would be to have the same sub in terminus and Q, to work on different levels (but I don’t know exactly how effective it would be).
Right now I am mixing my Terminus custom with some Stark Q custom because Stark is work oriented and I have a SHIT ton of work to do. I could maybe even do a loop of my emperor terminus hahahaha
I do 3 loops of my Khan terminus every week because I like it, and it gives smoother results with less loops 
I have lots of time to run other subs in the mean time. This week it’s hard to tell because I’ve ran a lot of different subs. I like the results I get but it’s definitly a mix of a lot of things.
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Thanks man
Some th hing it feel like there nothing there from my side
Done this in the past cant eally say ill do that again cause i like to be able to pinpoint my results and know where it coming from
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Yeah same for me, usually I am on my Khan custom. Right now I had to add emperor and Stark because I do a lot of cognitive task
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I’m listening to my healing ultima right now.
I’ll so an experiment recommanded by Simon to try out the energy field. I need to be really open minded, I really have nothing to loose, it’s just so wierd asking for stuff. I have problems just asking for stuff… Asking for stuff to the energy of the world is even more problematic for me…! hahaha
Ok, so, it’s 9h15, Nov 19 2020.
I am asking for a blessing, i expect a small blessing since it would be easier for me to digest, in the next 48 hours. It really could be anything, as long as it is manifested into reality before 9h15 on Nov 21.
I will do my best to focus my intent on it now!
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You don’t really have to “believe” … just be “willing to consider the possibility”.
How many times – even in this journal – have you already manifested calls, dates, or sales, out of the blue. This time you’re just opening yourself to something different. 
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I understand. Notice I don’t even start topics here to ask questions. You’re doing much better than me. 
If the word “ask” has an emotional charge for you, feel free to frame it as intend, request, command, manifest, or anything else that works.
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I’ll use manifest 
I’m pretty open to it then since it’s the same way as subclub works! Didn’t knew it worked the same way.
You deserve to have your question answered, you have provided so much value on this forum, even if it’s not pure help, at least a return of the pandulum for research and experience!
You’ve been my growth guru of the past week 
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You’ve got this man, you’re gonna manifest a shit ton of good things dude. I’m excited for your next 48 hours bro.
Also agree with this @Simon. I’ve been researching a lot of your posts recently to get some answers without asking the same questions over and over and yours have really been clear and helpful, so thank you.
Same goes for you @GoldenTiger.
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Thank you! I will say it’s kinda hard to think of it that way. When I run I sub for manifestation, it’s my subconscious doing it. Not sure I can do it consciously without SubClub’s help!
Well, I’ve done it consciously. SubClub helped me unlock this ability, and I’ve written about it quite a bit in Man for Himself.
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Ok, I’ll do a first try, even if it doesn’t work it’s not bad, I still have today and tomorrow! We never know what could happen!
So, I just finished the last episode of Supernatural, I cried… I’ve been folowing this since the season 3… Now last episode of season 15, I remember every year where this serie was with me during the winter time, while I was having seasonnal depression and I could just watch my Supernatural episode oh shit, the tradition is ending.
I’ll take two days off this week end, I’ve skipped my last week end of break and I think it might slow down the processing.
Sometime I get old triggering reflexed that comes out. Tonight instagram was bugging and was showing “Seen” as if the girl has seen the message which is normal, but the “seen” message just went away. Made me insecure… Then I checked on google and I saw “the person blocked you” and stuff… Oh ok. Now I always need to remember that I am was more calibrated than before and that usually stull like that don’t happen first of all and second of all girl will usually drop off lots of hints she is not into you.
I’m listening to my healing ultima to clear those thought out and help heal them because it’s an old pattern!
Usually when I use healing subs, I don’t have any manifestation in my life and I have a really bad vibe. I’ve done this week of using my healing ultima. I’ll stop using it this week end and next week. The point of using this ultima is to do some strong and quick burst of healing.
For example, I ran one loop of Emperor Terminus last week, mixed with a couple of loops of Khan St1 for the healing. I wrote down my text about why I don’t meet girls I really finds attractive. 36-48h later (I wrote my text friday or saturday morning I think and the girl was “manifested” into my life sunday at 5pm let’s say).
Healing usually are followed by a rebound in manifestation because you clear out some stuff regarding your ability to “do it”. But it will really happens after the healing, not during. So I’ll see how much time it takes before my ultima healing custom “clear’s out” of my system so I can manifest stuff again!
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One thing that brings me a great lot of stress is disappointing people. I am not stressed by task or work I do alone. I am not stressed by task that needs to work because I know I can succeed. But when people are impacted by what I do, I know they have différents standards than I do.
It was the same at the bank when working on a mortgage or something. I was stressed because I wanted to get approved for the client and didn’t wanted to disappoint him. Same for the end of my session, I am afraid to disappoint my teammates and it stresses me out! It gives me a hard time with sleeping right now and I know stress is no good to libido.
I’ll probably do one loop of my healing Ultima right now to start working on this. I feel like one loop won’t be enough because it is something very very deep!
For people here who had these types of issues, what do you focus on? How do you manage those expectation or fear of disappointing other people?
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Just as I thought, I ran one loop. Some of my beliefs have been looked at. I don’t want confrontation? I am scared of being yelled at? I can call out people for being disrespectful. I can leave. I confronted my team a couple of times regarding the way we worked. I confronted clients who told bullshit. I have proof that those are false beliefs. I can also lower my expectation regarding… Sex and performance? What if people didn’t have as high expectation as I have for myself? What if “normal” sex wasn’t that bad?
Can I try it for the next month? Can I lower the expectation I think people have of me? Can I lower my expectation for sex?
Anyway, I’m sad now. I’ll finish the text I have to read and I’ll go to sleep… Let time help me process all of this.
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You act in a way so that in your heart of hearts you know you’ve done the best you can-your 100%
You communicate with them as much as necessary, (on professional content/matters) even if you feel/think it makes you look stupid or you’d rather avoid.
You’re enough unconditionally, you’re ‘performances’, in any area, don’t need to define you or you’re worth in yourself.
Happy Being Sad 
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The ENTP’s second decision function – Fe.
We are more aware of other people’s feelings than our own.
Plus, our primary function (Ne) gives us the arrogance to believe that we should be able to create perfect solutions and predict people’s feelings. (And we’re right more often than not.) 
NeFe makes us good at sales, seduction, public speaking, etc. 
It also makes us bad at setting goals / making decisions.
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One day I’ll be able to help myself with that. Should I focus my tertiary function on myself? It’s extraverted and mainly used to connect with people… I don’t know if I can slow it down.
Doing my best and communication. They will know.
I’ve always had the beliefs that my only value to woman was my dick…