Strongly reminded of that this morning, lol. I think it’s related to my goals.
To give myself permission to accept what I am - not “who” I am. And in doing so, I can accept what we are - not “who” we are.
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Nevermind it completely sucks, lol.
It’s literally been 3 years and I haven’t seen anything new that AI can do. I still cannot even do something as simple and basic as create the image I desire with written prompts.
I wanted the chakras to be part of a sword, the hilt coming out of the head - and then another guy with his hand on the hilt like King Arthur about to pull Excalibur out of the rock. Instead, I got this useless garbage.
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2026-02-05
Spartan energy is on primetime, been very committed to my goals.
Found this quote about mountains that is somewhat relevant to my masculine drives:
“People ask me, ‘What is the use of climbing Mount Everest?’ and my answer must at once be, ‘It is of no use.’ There is not the slightest prospect of any gain whatsoever. Oh, we may learn a little about the behaviour of the human body at high altitudes, and possibly medical men may turn our observation to some account for the purposes of aviation. But otherwise nothing will come of it. We shall not bring back a single bit of gold or silver, not a gem, nor any coal or iron… If you cannot understand that there is something in man which responds to the challenge of this mountain and goes out to meet it, that the struggle is the struggle of life itself upward and forever upward, then you won’t see why we go. What we get from this adventure is just sheer joy. And joy is, after all, the end of life. We do not live to eat and make money. We eat and make money to be able to live. That is what life means and what life is for.” - George Mallory
Some fellow who died on Mount Everest in 1924, attempting to reach the summit. His body was found in 1999. There’s no greater measure for congruence, than a man who is committed to what he believed until the end. It’s the ultimate. He embodied his words until his last breath. I look at the things that I’ve laid out forward for this year - things that I want to accomplish and achieve. Things that require commitment from me. It’s put to the test everyday. And I can easily waver. I can get off schedule. I can self-sabotage. But I don’t because I refuse to lower myself below the bar of the standard that I’ve set. There’s no fall down and get back up for me, I’m all or nothing. To even anticipate the thought of “falling down”, “what if”, and “bouncing back” means that I’ve already lost. I’ve lost not in action, but in thought and energy, the framework of my conceptualization will have become weak, destabilized, and prone to collapse. I draw inspiration from examples like this because they make me feel even more committed to finishing what I’ve set out to do.
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Thought I’d give it a try for you. It can be refined further to get what you want
Prompt to play about with
“Cinematic fantasy art of a mystical figure in meditation pose, their body translucent and glowing, with seven luminous chakra points (red, orange, yellow, green, cyan, blue, violet, and white crown) aligned vertically through their body forming a radiant sword blade. The ornate golden sword hilt emerges from the crown of their head, intricate Celtic knotwork designs on the pommel and guard. A heroic King Arthur figure in medieval armor stands beside them, his muscular arm extended, hand firmly gripping the sword hilt with determination, poised to pull the chakra sword free. Two majestic stone angels with detailed feathered wings flank the scene, their hands gesturing toward the crown chakra. Dramatic lighting with ethereal rainbow energy radiating from each chakra point along the sword blade. Dark mystical background with purple and deep blue nebula clouds. Photorealistic rendering, spiritual symbolism, epic fantasy atmosphere, volumetric lighting, highly detailed, 8K quality.”
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Thank you sir - much appreciated.
Not exactly what I had envisioned, but it’s a lot closer than mine.
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2026-02-06
Being reminded today of the real reasons for why I go after goals. Probably because I need to embody it more, or I won’t progress. Real reason - it’s not even about the goal. I don’t care about the goal. Nothing but a place marker to walk towards, as a way to better myself. I don’t do it for the goals, I do it for me. Whatever makes me better - that’s what I want. The outcome of the goal is just the bonus.
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2026-02-07
I planned out how I’m going to use all my entertainment hours. I want to maximize my dopamine. If I have 3 hours of free time, then I need 3 hours of very high quality, high baseline dopamine engagement for the full duration. None of this sporadic “some here, some there”, type of thing. Winter Olympics for example: I’ve planned out exactly what I’m going to watch. I’m not watching Curling - I don’t care about it.
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My general sense of confidence is extremely high right now. It’s so high that it’s unsettling. Noticed this when grabbing takeout earlier. I need to stay grounded, lol. Relax, let it integrate, learn how to use it effectively. Okay, moving on.
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2026-02-08
Looking good right now. Feeling really good. Very calm. Self-image and confidence is sky high. Body is shaping up, especially around the shoulders. I appear to be broader/bigger. I like what I’m seeing. I like what I’m feeling.
Meals all prepped, macros on point, everything cleaned and good to go. Time to do some gaming, among other things.
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2026-02-11
The belt of Adonis is popping right now, lol.
Reconciliation is easy to handle. Change is extremely easy.
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2026-02-14
Woke up with the discipline of an Uruk-hai, lol.
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Midway February checkpoint - still going hard.
Sticking to the system, and marching towards the goal.
Buddy offered me a beer the other day, and I declined. Staying disciplined and committed, even though 1 wouldn’t hurt. Nowhere near a priority at this point in my life, but last week I reached out to the head of an Indie studio (very small) to pick their brain about video game industry/development. They’re down to go on Zoom tomorrow, so should be interesting. Easy to make things happen with action. My main goal on the other hand is brewing hard with reconciliation that is easily handled. Some facet of Spartan likely helps with internal resilience. Looking forward to the coming months.
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Every time people overcomplicate subliminals for no reason, I can’t help but think of this:
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