I’m of similar age and am in the same situation. There are many of us here!
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Ok @King @Lion & @Michel, first of all thank you very much for showing love and support! I was merely reflecting my current experience and confronting some pent up emotions. A wise man once said that the more personal a situation or challenge one thinks he is dealing with the more universal it is. You guys have just proved that to be true! Nonetheless I would like to make a journal entry that I think is worthy of a few lines. So yesterday I finally cracked! As you may know I do not have any lady friend at the moment and have yet to manifest any hot kinky sexual encounter since I started listening to Sex Mastery X about 16 days ago now. So last night I was laying in bed and I got aroused for some reason and started self-cultivating ( as the Taoist so poetically put it) and GOD Damn, my wood was at the crossroad of Bambou and Red Oak! Why am I telling you guys this, I can hear you ask. Well just because I realised that I was really content just visualising and using my imagination rather than going straight to Porn which I have zerooooo desire to resort to anymore( Must be the scripting). Anyway, good stuff! It’s rewiring my brain for real connection and intimacy, the things that make up for great sex ( in a nutshell). Also this morning I woke up again quite effortlessly without the desire to linger in bed and, even if I didn’t really sleep much and I can feel it on my face ( you know when you are tired and your eyes feel a little heavier than usual), my internal energy is higher than it has been in a long while. I almost feel like I am on NZT and that is a super great feeling. If I want to do something I just start it without thinking much or procrastinating ( like writing this post for instance). Also after ready some very good forum entries in the last couple of days I decided to take baby action steps to make the subconscious manifest like exchanging a few words at a grocery store with a girl I found cute, without too much intention behind it other than just to create some momentum! Either way, I am out for now! Take care! A dios!
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It’s been a while since I have last updated. It has now been 22 days since I have listened to my very first Subclub audio. So I have listened everyday to Ascended Mogul, Sex Mastery and much more recently I have added Primal Seduction to my stack. I am on my third day listening to PS. I rotate more or less as follow: 2x Ascended Mogul 2x Primal Seduction and 2x Sex Mastery ( with 2x Libertine in the morning right when I wake up). What’s happened most recently in terms of changes.
Work front: I will have had 3 interviews by the end of this week ( I have been unemployed for 4 months now and have moved from the UK to France). I am starting a temp job tomorrow morning doing recruitment for this company. One of my short term goal I have been hand-writing in my journal was to get some short term employment opportunity to finish December and make a little bit of cash. I have two other opportunities for the start of the year 2020: one more permanent as a mortgage broker and another as a customer service person for an AI-driven accounting firm so things are moving in my favour. Ultimately once I have the stability of a recurring income and strong social status I will switch to either Khan or Emperor as I want to start a side hustle and become a free man!
Women front: I have been listening to Sex Mastery for 20 days consistently and I will keep doing that. I now get up with a morning wood that last as long as I decide that it should last. I wake up through the night with strong ass erections as well which is really cool. Even If I don’t have access to any female sexual companionship at the moment I know deep down that this is going to be mind-blowing when it happens and I will be well prepared.
I have decided to invest in Primal Seduction. I have been very attracted to this program as I am a social guy who speaks to women when I am out and about. More often than I would like I don’t sexualize my conversations though or don’t have a strong sexual intent as I have been letting my material situation drive my confidence down as a man ( the whole living with mom and not having a job situation). So I went to a Salsa party ( a big ass one) on Friday night ( the night I got the sub), I listened to it twice before heading out. The numbers of good looking women there, was just mind-blowing. I felt quite confortable dancing with many even being a complete beginner. That was a big eye opener for me, I just though “man, you got to walk up to these hot ass mamas in there and let them know what you thinking”. I am ready to take action with this one!
Dreams: I was listening to the masked version of PS this morning as I woke up around 4am I thought " Hey, let’s throw a loop of PS masked" and something weird happened! Towards the end of the audio track I found myself almost like in a lucid dream. I was on my bed and I was looking to my left at my laptop’s screen which was bright blue ( it was really black in reality), my subconscious had cut out the sounds of the water flowing covering the messages in the masked sub and was only picking up on this weird and hard to described frequency that was going up and down in pitch in a certain pattern ( it almost sounded psychedelic) and as the pitch was going up I was feeling myself (almost fully conscious) being picked up and out of my body toward the ceiling, the physical sensation was real as fuck! When I awoke out of it I could still pick up a bit of that sound behind the mask! It was crazy but so cool!
Oh yea and one more thing, earlier this lady called me from this temp agency. She asked me one question and as I was proceeding to answer she did one of my pet peeve, she said " Can I put you on hold I have a double call". I answered without thinking in a very dominant way " Why don’t just call me back instead rather than make me wait"
That’s about it for now folks,
Have a kick ass week!
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Here is a quick update I wanted to write. I am starting to feel inner changes both using Ascended Mogul and Primal Seduction and ( to a lesser degree now that it has been about a month since I started listening), Sex Master. First blood flow to the penis. My penis is much fuller than before, even in a flaccid state. I can pretty much get erect at will just by using my mind’s command and we are talking for hours on end and that is not even while having intercourse. Most of it is happening at night though when I am chilling in bed oscillating between time of sleep and time awoke. As far as the confidence with the ladies, I find myself chit chatting with them for no particular reason, even if it is just a very brief exchange of a few words. I can tell I am not seeking as much validation as I used to. I don’t really care if girls are looking at me or not actually! I can feel some sexual current circulating between the ladies and I and it is very subtle, almost like if themselves are not aware of it. As far as Ascended Mogul, It is still the sub I listen the most to. I can tell that it is changing me internally as well. I feel like more the shit as a man! I don’t necessary sweat alphaness all day long but having said that I am really quick to react if anyone is lacking respect or behaving in a manner that is irritating to me. So here is my quick update. I wish you all to have an awesome christmas eve for those who celebrates it! Shalom!
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OK fellas,
So it is time to pick this journal back up. With the christmas break upon us, it has mostly been family and food and my subs 
I noticed this year that I have been much more comfortable around my own family! I don’t know about you guys but I noticed this year that a lot of my family members, who are not usually so much the family type, started to get closer and bond with the rest of the tribe. It has been heart- warming in these times of uncertainty and social unrest that we are going through ( I live in France). I have taken the role of the mentor towards my much younger nephew ( 17) and it has been surprisingly rewarding as a man ( that is it guy I am officially 36 since the 20th of Dec). I pin this change of attitude to Ascended Mogul.
On the work front, I am really crushing work and find a lot of satisfaction in getting shit done. My boss really likes me, my assertiveness and go getter attitude.
On the women front, funny thing happened today, when I came in I saluted everyone at the coffee machine downstairs and just put my lunch in the fridge before heading back up to my office. When my female boss came up, she soon-after turned to me and told me that I had female admirers downstairs that were asking about me, saying that I had loads of charisma and were asking if I was single. So here you have it, Primal Seduction is doing its work like it has done to many prior to me! I feel very happy about that.
Overall my energy is way up and I am super productive and feel hopeful about life again. Biggg party coming up tomorrow night! I am going to have loads of fun! I will be relaxing into bringing the most fun possible to it and I am happy with that.
Keep kicking ass and taking names!
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So it has been a slow month for me. I believe most changes are happening below the surface like hot magma boiling under the earth’s crust before exploding. First off, I am a sucker for SubClub and very well written sales copy. So I must give props to @SaintSovereign for what he has been doing with the copywriting on the various subs. The one that really resonated with how I felt with my present situation ( being behind all of my peers in terms of job advancement, money, net worth, status and women) has been Ecstasy of Gold. So I bought it and put it on my credit card! I have been on stage 1 for about 7 days nows, mostly ultrasonics, day and night. In the morning I only listen 2 or 3 times to TrueSocial ( with Social King) as I had already bought it but didn’t realise how important and effective a sub it would be until I actually read Saints’ salescopy that he sent. So I reiterate that these emails have been extremely helpful and I would love to see them coming for subs such as PS or Libertine. What is does to me is help create a feeling of expectation, like it is guiding or pushing my subconscious a bit more. I will post again about what has been going on in the past 30 days tonight.
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Agreed on the marketing emails, extremely persuasive. They got me with Khan twice…
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Getting back to this original thread! Ever since Sex Mastery Q was released I started running loops again and bringing SMQ back to my main stack. I am super grateful for the creators to have updated all titles since with the new 6:1 ratio for single stage subliminals I only need to run a couple of loops to be fully “loaded” so to speek for the day and that is what I am doing. I run Stark all day in ultrasonic and run two loops of SMQ in ultrasonic in the evening. The raging erections have come back as well as the sex dreams that are becoming more and more fulfilling and more elaborate in terms of using all of my sense in a manner that is more vivid that ever. I will continue this thread unto a new journal called StarkQ the sexmaster as I have made StarkQ my main program. Be well fellas!
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Have you found that lucky lady yet?
Picking back up where I started. I have been doing lots of forth and back with subliminal lately. Picked up Emperor, Stark, Primal Seduction, Minds Eye just to name a few. It has been close to two month now that I have moved back exclusively to more fundamental status centric subs by sticking to Ascension Q and Sex Mastery.
I decided to start journaling again today as I feel that I am loosing track sometimes of things happening in my day to day or on the time line. So in about 10 days I am moving into an appartement that I could have never moved in before without some kind of push from the universe/ destiny. A real big two bedroom flat right in the center of old town that is almost completely furnished in a very sought after area where there are tones of pedestrian girls/ tourists and a view that will leave you in awe for hours. So I am blessed in that sense.
On the women front, I haven’t put the focus so much on that at all to be honest. If I stoped at now this would have been my worth years thus far but…the year is far from being over yet and I have decided to turn back my focus on that soon… I have just purchased yesterday Limit Destroyer Ultima as I definitely suffer for the ’ she is too good for me’ syndrome…After the first night listening to it… I had a vivid dream that I nuclear bomb was set off in a distance…I thought this was an interesting timing… wouldn’t you guys think?
Anyway I want to see paired up with Ascension Q where Limit Destroyer takes me… before…eventually switching around October to Stark Terminus paired with Beyond Limitless Ultima. I am of course highly anticipating the release of Libertine Ultima ( as I already own the meditation and love it). So here it is, my burning ambition is to pick up a trade soon and specialise in the restauration of classic building/ churches/ working with stain glasses, marble… I really don’t know the path but I am sure it will illuminate soon.
Much love to all.
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Awesome to hear your progress and success.
Very excited for Libertine Ultima as well 
Can I ask why you went back to Ascenion Q rather than Ascended Mogul Q?
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@Azriel, Thanks buddy! I have never purchased Ascended Mogul while Ascension was my very first purchase… or just second to Sex Mastery back in Novembre 2019. SaintSovereign had offered to swap Ascended Mogul but the file download eventually disappeared from my account…so I stayed with Ascension. Besides the more I think about the life I want the less I want to be a corporate worker. I hate the politics, the conniving, the childish behaviour, the privileges, all of the things that I have encountered all of my life working for “the man” rather than creating my own path so I am not sure that ascended mogul would be a good fit anyway. I want a real profession and not just a job.
Ascension is also very quick to work and I love that about that title.
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Very cool, I feel similarly as you, I’m freelance/ self employed and moving into creating my own career and profession rather than just being semi-free but still working and relying on income streams from the corporate world. When you say Ascension it’s fast acting, what are you experiencing/ referring to ? Is it pushing you into clarity around your personal mission and goals and starting to act on them like you were originally drawn too?
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Being at this crossroad at the moment where I want to make a complete career change without knowing which direction to take. Everything is super blurry at the moment. My overall dissatisfaction in life has always been linked to not knowing what my passion job is on this planet. Now that I am pushing 37 it is becoming very problematic! @SaintSovereign, for someone who both own STARK and Ascension, which program has the best script to help with finding ones best possible occupation in life?
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Both StarkQ and Ascension contains this scripting. Ascension is less ambitious in scope, though. You may “find your purpose” much quicker using it.
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The problem could be that you are so focused on the outside, that you don’t even look what’s inside you. What if the noise clears and you’re able to focus inside, listen to your own SELF?
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Thanks for the recommendation. I will stick with Ascension for now. @Acer, that is a valid comment. I have done loads of introspection but that lead to nowhere really. What I have decided to do more of is visualization on a daily basis of myself doing something I love and being in that flowstate, feeling the flowstate and the happiness brought forth by being fully involved and passionate about what I do. Will keep you guys updated. Thank you for your input.
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I’m on a similar journey these are things that have helped me that may support you
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I’ve been working in the question of Vocation, Calling, and Purpose for years. I think the best approach is to get paid and have fun while you’re figuring it out. Or better yet getting paid to figure it out. No reason that should not be able to happen.
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Two back to back sessions of Libertine Ultima right as I woke of Libertine Ultima V2 and Libertine Ultima V1. I deleted Ultima V1 from my library as I want to only listen to the V2 now. Yesterday I noticed increased ease in speaking with women. Yesterday I went to a bar to play card games with friends. I ended up with two girls out of the group that was supposed to get together for a drink. I noticed certain fluidity and an underlayer of flirtation that isn’t usually there. Less in my head and more in the moment. Girls were giggling all the way throughout. I even tought them a new card game taking the leadership position. Something I usually shy away from in a group environment usually. My stack that day had been Libertine Ultima paired with Sex Mastery Q and Primal Seduction Iron Throne. I was very enjoyable. I did notice also an increase of eye contact coming from other girls at table, of course noticing that I was entertaining a table of two hot looking women. One effect that I suspect is coming from PS Iron Throne is the ease of casual bantering with random women. I really like that. Also one thing I notice is that whenever I play Sex Mastery Q in its ultrasonic version is that I automatically start doing Kegels, or contracting my PC muscles as in I am doing my sex control workout automatically. It is worth noticing. I am currently out of job. I recently had sex, last Friday with a girl who wanted to fuck for a while. It was good to bust a nut but honestly I wasn’t really into her physically so I didn’t really enjoy it even though she will quite eager. That event made me refine my goal into getting a one hot kinky sex friend on the regular and really enjoy orgasmic sex so I can really experiment all that Sex Mastery Q has to offer. I listen to SMQ about twice a day at the moment. I feel like It will yield really good result with this frequency. This was all of yesterday report. I will update.
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