Seraphim’s 2024 journal

Journals - Major Programs
#16

Primal helped clear up a lot of fear of judgement and was a great building block for Khan.I am more beastly in the bedroom also when I run it. I will definitely have Primal in the mix during vacay next cycle. It’s good for letting loose also.

I’m actually quite satisfied with my sexual prowess as of late so I can drop KB as a major title for now. Will still run KB3 or KB4 weekly or periodically as part of a sex cocktail mix tape going forward. If my sexual prowess drops off too much I will add it back in as a major title.

Absolutely love the cognitive enhancement with Stark Black. So far it synergizes quite well with new Khan.

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#17

Here’s a quick book review

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#18

Couple of phrases that stood out.

  1. As soon as a fighter pilot dons the helmet their IQ drops 20 points due to stress which leads to poor decision making.

  2. There’s no problem so bad that you can’t make it worse.

Next up, the ACE helix. Assess Choose Execute. Proper assessment is the most important step and a lot of people skip this step and skip ahead to attempting to solve the problem first.

A detailed story involving flight 447 plane crash into the ocean due to a faulty assessment of the problem due to panic and compounding bad decisions.

A 5 step process for cultivating mental toughness.

  1. Proper preparation: you don’t rise to the level of your expectations but rather fall to the level of your preparation.

  2. Focus Based Training: Our brains are very powerful, however much effort is wasted on what’s already happened or worrying about future events we have no control over. Maximize mental resources by focusing only on what we have control over, which is the next decision to make.

  3. Learn and practice calming the mind: Focus on breath and Box Breathing. Slow down breathing by deepening our breathing through our nose. This activated the parasympathetic nervous system.

  4. Systematically build confidence: Confidence is a skill that can be learned and improved, primarily through our internal dialogue and reframing.

  5. Visualization training: Visualize yourself successfully completing the mission or achieving the goal. If doubt creeps in or a mistake is made simply repeat the visualization until successfully completed in mind.

Overall a great read with plenty of interesting stories.

#19

Haven’t had any recon with Total Breakdown yet, 3 listening days in. Feel more calm then usual.

I consciously guide TB to tackle one limiting belief or insecurity at a time. A limiting belief or insecurity hiding behind a desire will reveal itself to me then right before my loop I say something like this.

“I command TB to obliterate the insecurity hiding behind the desire for xyz…”

Also just ordered the book Existinal Kink by Carolyn Elliott which I seen mentioned on the forum somewhere.

Will dive right into it during vacation. It’s about shadow work with a sexual spin to it. Right up my alley. Will compliment TB very nicely I reckon.

#20

This track activates Khan scripting for me. Listened to it a couple weeks ago right after reading one of Fire’s long answers on the new Khan thread.

#21

Just got back from Mexico last night. Was there for 19 nights. It was still hard to leave but it’s time to get back to eating right again Vertical diet style.

Finished Khan TB and started stage 2 yesterday. Only had 1 small emotional release this time on TB when I looked at a yearly summary of photos/videos from the dog that I share with the ex, I take her for a few of my days off and she’s 16 now.

Other than that TB just makes me aware of my blockages and weaknesses. The most profound was when I seen a headline for a video of how women move on faster than men. Was upset for a moment then I said “I command Total Breakdown to destroy any attachment to previous lovers”.

Shortly after that I had healing dreams of closure between both my previous LTR’s on separate nights. Overall I let go of a lot of baggage from 1 cycle of TB but it’s time to move on with the rest of the program. If any big blockages come up that I can’t easily overcome I will consider commanding TB to destroy it followed by a 5 min loop or simply run another cycle of TB if that doesn’t work. Will also practice just letting the discomfort pass through me by opening up and relaxing my heart area.

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#22

On vaycay I tested out different digital sex cocktail combo’s. The best results came from 7 min of KB4 and 15 min of Divine Diamond.

I read Existential Kink and thoroughly enjoyed it. A very interesting concept of dropping resistance to that which you consciously don’t like by acknowledging that some aspect of your shadow very much enjoys it.

Also read Living Untethered by Michael Singer. Enjoyed reading this one even more and will reread it right away. It explains the effect that our samskaras have on our life. We spend a great effort arranging our lives in order to not be triggered by our samskaras when we would be much happier and better off by simply releasing the energy behind our samskaras. And I knew all this on an intellectual level but reading Living Untethered really drove it home. That life itself with poke our samskaras and we simply remain conscious of it and work on releasing the energy behind them, which takes practice of course.

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#23

Yesterday I became reactive at work late afternoon. Seems the vacation glow is wearing off. When I got home I asked for Divine assistance in releasing the samskara that was being triggered.

Last night I had a healing dream of someone I’ve held a grudge against for the better part of a year. Seemed I’ve been unable to forgive this person or I suspect some part of my shadow has been unwilling to forgive them.

Today my intention is to remain in the witness position when the samskara’s come up and to allow the energy behind them to release.

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#24

New bench press PR this morning.
195x20.
LFG🤛.

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#25

March 16: listening day 10 of 12.
Khan ST2 15 min, LB 15 min, SB 7 min.

Picked up LB a few days ago, was offered a discount on Chosen at checkout and picked that up as well. Have ran a 5 min test loop of Chosen but would like to rotate it with SB at some point.

Plan on running new Khan ST4 for multiple cycles once I get to that stage. Also want to run Chosen along with it. May cycle back and forth with SB.

As for new LB not sure if it will be a long term sub just yet. Primal was a fun one to run but not necessary for long term use for me. Working nights this set and surprisingly more at peace with it this time around. Got a lot of podcasts to catch up on.

Overall feeling pretty good with an optimistic outlook on life and the future.

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#26

Re reading the book Living Untethered by Michael Singer. I think it’s a great compliment to new Love Bomb, specifically the section on the heart.

Does a good job of explaining how love comes from within and that the feeling of love is actually your heart opening and emanating a beautiful flow of energy.

Another good line is “The heart is a very sophisticated instrument that few people know how to play. If the Heart opens, they try to possess the things that helped it open. If the heart closes, they try to protect themselves from the things that caused it to close.”

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#27

Day 11 of 12 listening days.
Khan ST2 15 min, ASBR 15 min, LB 7 min.
Workout before N/S: Standing shoulder press 155x6
L-sit pull-ups hammer grip x6.

Considering starting an Instagram. It used to be I was afraid to put myself out there. Now my main concern is that it will consume too much of my time. Perhaps I can mitigate that by only installing it on my iPad and leave it off the phone.

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#28

Day 12 of 12 listening day. Khan ST2 15 min, ASBR and LoveBomb 7 min each. Time for washout.
Quick but intense arm workout before work.

There is a great synergy now between these 3 titles. I’m just dialed in mentally physically and spiritually, firing on all cylinders.

I like Khan for the Alpha base, sexual prowess, and strategic planning.
ASBR for the brain power, swagger, resilience, and sharp wit.
LB for the healing power of loving yourself and to truly know what it means to have love coming from within not just intellectually but experientially.

Next cycle starting Tuesday March 26
Khan ST3, ASBR, and LB.

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#30

During the washout I vented a fair bit of grief. The dog that I share with my ex is coming to the end of her life. Had my heart set on taking her on one more summer vacation, not looking like she’s going to make it that long.

I wouldn’t say it was recon. What I think happened is I projected excess love outside of myself in the form of a pet. It was LoveBomb that helped me realize that.

Either way there is a heart wound that life has brought to the surface in order to be released.

One thing I’ve noticed is my resting heart rate is a few bpm lower the past week or so. Made a couple of minor changes to my diet but nothing crazy. Also been using a 10,000 lux light for 20 min most mornings. I’d say it’s a combination of those 2 things plus having partially released some samskara’s the past 10 days.

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#31

April 13 day 10 of 12 listening days.
Khan ST3 15 min,
LB 10 min
ASBR 5 min and….

Tonight new Daredevil 3 min test loop.

Yes I know it’s overexposure but I have a washout coming right up.

Seemed to be getting slight presults regarding my voice. I like to sing in the truck and always had trouble hitting the low note on Down to the Honkeytonk by Jake Owen. Could hit the low note but it was at the end of my low range and just had no volume with it but tonight was the first time I had considerably better volume at the low note.

I’ve been wanting to become a better story teller too so why not give it a try. Will have to get out to Karaoke one of these weekends as well. Did a couple of tunes in Mexico a couple months back and rocked it then too.

Might swap out LB for this next cycle which will be Khan ST4 and ASBR.

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#33

Copied from the Primal Nights thread

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#34

So sad to hear this, brother. I had a dog who used to live with my grandmother when I was a kid and cried when she passed away. It was a long time ago but pups are simply God given bundles of love.

Your realizations from this experience are profound. It pushes you in the right direction :pray:.

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#35

Thanks Lion, hope your doing well Brother.

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