Here we go, my first page in the book of new life.
(english is my second language, might be some mistakes, pardon)
I started running the title couple of weeks ago (along with quantum limitless and the revelation of mind, which i had since last year, but started just recently. I had some brain fog issue for very long time, it something to fix to live freely and happy. Nothing really helped me before, i tried so many things with minor improvments, I’ll see how that one will work, and will journal later)
I have pretty much unhappy traumatic life background, which resulted in me being miserable past years (decade) in psychological and physical health. Evem thought to end it all.
Might write more detail lately with new pages in journal.
The benefits so far:
I had a lot of bullying as a child, which distorted me from being social butterfly to a some kind of worm.
Those who know MBTI, I always got INFP (intovert). After running title, I felt being more as my past self: outgoing, talkative, confident and open lately. I retook test today, and I got ENFP, first letter stands for Extrovert. Never got extrovert! I retook tests from time to time in last 5-6 years. Introversion displayed with percentages there/ Today I got 54% ( which is more like ambivert (smth in the middle)) extravert, (before 60-67% introvert always). That was a huge surprise to me.
First steps out of the shell to past free self. Ive been charming extrovert before major traumas in my life.
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I talk more to people.
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I feel confident with my presence
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Acting more firmly
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Feeling more leader vibes, my boss even expressed his admiration and respect
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Better self care routine got myself new makeup products, which i rarely do lately
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Feel more grounded in reality ( i have dp/dr from past trauma)
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Negativity repellent. Low self esteem made me negative self talk a lot, comparing myself to others, now when its about to start, my mind switching to different direction.
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Skin benefits. My skin got more oily past two years, always been this type of skin, but getting worse. Recently got a product which initially isnt for face care, but for better sleep (by instruction still applies on the sides of face), for some reason i started googling components and it actually turned out to be perfect formula for oily skin, and can be applied all over face, Which i did last night and my skin is perfect all day, no excess oil.
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Desire to exercise. I always was booty person, and trained before for firm butt Lately (past 4-6 month) i withdraw myself almost from any type of training. (Had stress etc) After running program, I felt spontaneous flaw desire to go and do squads with weight at home. Since then i am pretty consistent.
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My breast. I had pretty much firm and relatevly big one, last year I had anorexia nervosa, i gained weight back, but breast still was smaller than before the damage, and not that firm. Now i can see that its getting back to normal.
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Periods going more smoothly this month, less pain and mood swings
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A bit more clear thinking
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Feeling more confined and charming around opposite sex ( There was sexual assault attempt on me as kid and teenager, which affected how i interact with man)
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More positivity and overall more chill
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Inferiority complex decreased
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More confident to look people in the eyes
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Better posture and style of walking
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Got myself some new clothing, better outfits
I am excited for what will come next.
Thank you, subliminal club for giving second chance to live a happy life