@SargeMaximus. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
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My pleasure
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This is a convo from a girl online today. She got the vax. I hope she’s ok. Even if she friendzones me or whatever, there’s another layer where you care about other human beings. No one deserves untimely death.
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61 year old canceled on me. Can’t say I’m disappointed. Onto better women.
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Was out with my brother today. We went to IHOP then a few used video game stores. Saw some cute and some hot girls. Didn’t notice any attraction from them.
So tomorrow I’m onto week 2 of this stack.
Today I felt really good all day but then tonight I got another damn headache. The only thing I can conclude is it must be something I’m eating because I didn’t take any vitamins or supplements at all today. I had some more gatorade and it hasn’t seemed to help. I know it could be Recon but I prefer not to blame the sub because if it’s a medical issue, it would be wise not to ignore it.
Anyhow, it’s probably stress and/or whatever I’m eating. Things that have excess pesticides or hormones in them give me headaches often. So I’m not ruling that out.
In other news, no new girls in my life atm. I have plans to fvck my 50 year old fwb tomorrow night. So far she’s being a good fvck for me. But it’s weird because I seem to go through the same cycle every time:
No girls, then I get a girl, then a few more, then it’s almost like they all disperse at the same time then I’m back to square one. This seems contrary to the pua stuff I’ve read that says pre-selection makes a man more attractive. For me, it seems like too much pre-selection evaporates all the attraction. Very odd.
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Frustration is high today. Mostly frustrated with things I can’t control. Red lights, the travel time between my house and my burgers I just picked up. The god damn wind that won’t let up (I normally don’t knock in high winds because it not only puts me in a shitty mood but most everyone I talk to.) etc.
I’m gonna knock today, wind be damned, but I’m not expecting much. It pisses me off.
I remember when I was a kid I had this exact same issue. I would get angry and frustrated at things I had no control over as if if I got mad enough the energy of my anger would change the circumstances.
Edit: Oh yeah, forgot to mention: Also haven’t been eating much. These headaches really take away my appetite and I only bought burgers because I know I need to eat. But I’m not hungry at all.
What means “fine” for you?
I mean how do you rationalize porn and masturbating has any useful merit for people as opposed to doing the real thing?
Yeah I know, I’m such a war criminal. I can’t rationalize doing what I want to do.
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So you just give in to your desires?
I’m just genuinely curious because it was said yourbrainonporn is a falsehood, so I wanted to get counter arguments.
I already posted my counter in this journal.
Wish you all the best on your journey.
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As expected door to door today was awful. I know the whole “you get what you expect” plays a role, but so does experience. The very first time I knocked doors in windy weather I must have had bad reactions with people otherwise I wouldn’t have made that generalization. Positive thinking doesn’t stop gravity from working.
Anyhow, I was gonna rant but what would that accomplish? Just gonna make a quick update:
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Despite the wind I was still able to get 3 leads yet I did notice a significant uptick in the number of indifferent or assholeishness at the door today. Decided to leave early. My heart isn’t in it.
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I ran PS and Executive today. Not feeling the same good effects I did that one day.
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My fwb texted me saying she may have to cancel because she’s feeling shitty. What a surprise eh?
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That means since being on these subs I’ve lost all my potential girls and fwb’s. Fantastic results thus far. And don’t anybody say it’s a positive result. Some women is better than no women, don’t be mistaken.
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Also, glad to see that forum AMOG’s are still a thing.
That’s all for now.
Did PS and Paragon this morning. Feeling good. Whatever is in Paragon may be the secret sauce I was attributing to Executive. Hard to say.
Tomorrow I use PS solo.
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Wow.
So today I crushed it. 10 leads in less than 2 hours. That’s above my average of 4 leads an hour.
I was trying for 12 but 10 is the daily target I’ve given myself to hit. Literally the last house I talked to on the last street was the 10th lead so I decided to call it.
I have 2 theories:
- Paragon somehow increases my aura and focus, hence the results.
or
- Executive has a bloom that shows up the day after using it. Because these are the effects I was attributing to Executive but I ran PS and Paragon today.
Now for some of the juicy deets:
- Effortlessly got leads.
-Focused, motivated, my internal lazy man was a flea trying to hold back the tsunami of my drive yet, it was all internally generated, unlike yesterday where I felt obligated to outside factors. - People all got out of my way as I walked down the street. Including a “hot” couple (I’m sure the guy is hot, not to me, but the girl was hot and he had the “teenage fvck boi/skater” look)
- 2 Kids said “good afternoon” to me as we passed each other
- A kid in a wagon a woman was towing said “hi” to me.
- A woman at the door had a brain fart and couldn’t remember her phone number or email but she was trying and eventually gave me a few numbers and the email.
- Got a message from a girl online today asking what I’m up to tonight. I told her “I’m free after 9. Invite me over” No response yet but IDGAF
So yeah, VERY pleased with today’s results. EXACTLY what I’m looking for in the sales/lead gen department.
Paragon MAY be healing me in some areas I thought may never be healed. We will have to see. Jury is still out on that one.
PS remains the laggard. I’m beginning to think I’m just not used to how this seduction subliminal works and so maybe I’m expecting different results. We will see.
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Forgot to mention yesterday that lately (last few days) my brother has been opening the door for me when I get home. Like he’s aware I’m home and times it so that he opens the door right as I get there. As far as I can remember he has NEVER done this ever.
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Can’t be sure I got a full loop of PS in today. I accidentally closed out of the media player before it was done and don’t know where it was so I just played it with around 10 minutes left. I think I was near the end.
So drastic difference in my state today vs yesterday.
Felt jittery and anxious. Went out to knock doors but only got 1 lead and decided to call it a day. It did seem like most people weren’t home (out of the 15 doors that didn’t open, I only got one lead. I’m sure my ratio was much better yesterday), but I still feel like I wasn’t the same as yesterday, where I was very motivated and had a self-assuredness to what I was doing. Today it’s like I was looking for reasons to call it a day early.
Still, it could very well be that most people weren’t home. Fridays and weekends in general have been bad this year. I imagine people are taking the opportunity to get out of the house thanks to months in lockdown.
Anyhow, tomorrow I run PS and Paragon again. I don’t plan to knock doors but if I get the same feeling I had yesterday, I will go out to knock to test if it’s a matter of my internal state or the external state of things.
In other news, the fwb rescheduled with me for tomorrow night. We will see if that happens or if she cancels again.
Also, that girl that messaged me yesterday never got back to me. Oh well.
That’s all I can think of for now.
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Apparently I got the “First Share” badge but, full disclosure, I accidentally hit the share button on my phone so I actually haven’t shared anything. I hope the forum AI knows the difference. >>
Anyhow, more girls online not falling under my charms. I literally had one tell me “I want to be romanced” I told her “well good luck then”
Seriously, that is the exact OPPOSITE of my seduction style. And it worries me that the sub may be manifesting “training girls” to help me along instead of changing the dynamics like I want.
I do think the PS sub might be limited. Instead of trying to build a building with raw materials and being limited by that, it’s far better to be admired by other people so much that they build monuments FOR you.
That is my style. Like the Pharaohs. I don’t actively seduce. I don’t play the game and I don’t jump through hoops.
I’m writing this in the hopes that ideas for a new sub will be generated.
Tomorrow I use PS and Paragon and (hopefully) see my fwb. It’ll be the first time I am with her while on these subs. It’ll be an interesting comparison.
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I think WANTED will be closer to your style of attraction. Replacing PS with that just might be the secret ingredient.
By the way, great to hear that The Executive and Paragon are working very well for you 
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