SargeMaximus: Heart of Man (Heartsong, Primal, Executive, Paragon Ultima)

Journals - Major Programs
#123

Switching to Primal on the advice of the user known as “friday” (didn’t want to tag him for no reason).
Tomorrow I’ll do that and Heartsong.

A few tiny developments:

  • I texted the girl I manifested from some weeks ago going straight direct. She offered me a threesome with her GF but she’s in another city. At this point I’m simply gonna next her because she seems to be unavailable at the present time. Plus, I have no way of knowing if she’s actually real or just some guy trying to get dick pics. It’s happened before.

Other than that, I messaged another roofing company and we have plans to work together. The one I’m currently with is messing with me and not being straight and not delivering on what he says he will do. Next.

Also, because of some (bad) pua advice I took today, I texted my fwb saying I couldn’t make it this wednesday. I texted her at about 9 am and she hasn’t replied at all. So it may be over with her as well.

This is what I mean about PS: it seems to be pushing me to try things and look to pua but it doesn’t work. I’ve tried it before, hence why I need to switch from PS because it’s just not a good influence atm.

#124

Why is this site black? I don’t like it it’s too dark. Where can I change it?

In other news, just got back from the gym. I realized all my t-shirts are too short. They fit perfectly except my torso is too long so I always expose my belly. Huge inconvenience since that means in order to fix it, I have to buy large shirts which will be baggy and not fit proper. Stupid.

Anyhow, listened to Heartsong and Primal today. There was a girl at the gym and I honestly didn’t want to even look at her. I’ve had years and years and years of frustration with girls I’m at the point where I’m rejecting them before they inevitably reject me.

#125

Pics below of the text between me and the almost threesome girl

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#126

I had the dark mode too. The change is easy to do though.

Go to your profile and then Preferences. There is Interface at the left side. Have the Theme from Dark to Default.

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#127

Legend! Thank you so much

#128

Just got back from paying for my hair cut. Here’s the story:

Went to get my haircut. Love this place, all black guys and they do a great job and charge less than anyone AND they are open from 9am, even on sundays. Perfect for me and my impulsive schedule.

So I decided to go get my haircut. Got it done, then when I went to pay, realized I didn’t have my wallet.

Without even thinking, I tell the guy that I forgot my wallet, there was a cute girl who works there sitting at the desk, and the other guy who was cutting hair looks over at use like “Fuck this guy!” so I give my barber my iphone 8. I say “Here, I’ll go get my wallet, just take my phone. It’s worth $1200 which is why I’m giving it to you” He’s stunned. The girl, meanwhile I can see out of the corner of my eye, smiling big and she’s saying “Do it! Do it!”

Then I take my hat and slid it across the table. “And my hat” I say. Then I take off my $250 leather jacket “and my jacket” I say.

Everyone is stunned. I leave, go home. I can’t find the wallet. I just had it last night but it got lost. But I eventually find it. Then I rush back. 30 mins after I was trying to pay I return and the guy is smiling huge. Gives me my stuff and tells me it’s no problem. I tip him $10.

I do not think this is due to my stack as this is just how I am. I’m very trusting and build connections unconsciously with people. But what an ordeal.

What happened was I went to the gym this morning and had my wallet in my gym pants, then didn’t switch it over to my day clothes. Definitely gotta check i have things before I leave the house. I seem to ALWAYS forget something.

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#129

Boss Level :+1:

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#130

K. Literally had a girl match with me, and send a message asking if I was bi. Then she said she was looking for her bisexual friend, she’s trying to find him a date. Must be my stack as that’s never happened before right?

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#131

Hmm… When you told her NO, did she ghost? Regardless, she must have found you attractive and hopefully it was just a one-time fluke.

#132

She actually got angry. I reported and blocked her. Pics below

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#133

Ha! Her defensive response was hysterical.

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#134

Seems I’m getting much better Results using just Primal and Heartsong now. Here’s a convo I just had. I’d be fucking this girl right now if she had her own place. Unfortunately, she doesn’t so we gotta wait. I’m betting she just finds another guy. But very interesting how quick this shit can happen now that I’m more aligned. Pics below

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#135

An old flame of mine (a polyamorous girl who I lived and had sex with a few years ago) came up on my Instagram feed as following me. I followed her back. Who knows where that will lead. The sex was fire

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#136

So last night I was actually in the emergency room. Long story short: they couldn’t find anything wrong with me but recently been feeling just shitty overall and then I realized I probably don’t get enough calcium in my diet. I’m alergic to milk and lack of calcium can lead to some of the symptoms I had. Also, I haven’t been eating my beef liver for fear of vitamin A toxicity. So I had some beef liver and a calcium suppliment and I feel a bit better but time will tell. I just feel like my health is deteriorating in some way even though all the doctors tell me I have perfect blood work and such.

Because of this, I won’t be hitting the gym tomorrow, but I do have a sex date set with a new girl. We’ll see how that goes.

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#137

Really missing my ex tonight, holy fuck. I feel sad that I (according to her) hurt her and that at one time she was so in love with me but it faded away and collapsed under its own weight.

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#138

Is it the same old flame who followed you on Instagram or someone else?

#139

I should have clarified. I’m speaking of my ex I broke up with last year. The ex from Instagram is from several years ago.

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#140

Ah okay. Well, it’s kinda natural though. Once in a while I have the same feelings for some of my exes.

Luckily, there are always better women out there.

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#141

Bought some cheese and greek yogurt to add calcium to my diet. Also gonna eat my liver every week once again. Hopefully that fixes things. I do feel a bit better today so it’s likely the calcium and liver helped with whatever was causing my issues.

ION, not much going on today. We’ll see how that date with that girl works out. She’s down for an open relationship which is cool. I plan to stay the night.

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#142

Maybe RECON ?