PORN TRIGGER WARNING: I talk about porn and porn stars in this post, if you are trying to keep yourself from being triggered, I’m warning you now it may.
Wow. So I just had an amazing dream.
I never used to take dreams while on subs as serious. Technically, I’m not on subs since 2 fridays ago, but this one blew my mind. It showed the ultimate relationship/sex life that I want. Everything was perfect from the girl to how she dressed to the dynamic and I’m going to write it down here so I can remember it. I also don’t know if this dream is my subconscious telling me this is what I need to align myself with, or if it’s telling me that my current stack is bringing me to that reality.
Why I wonder is because last night I had such an awesome time with my brother. It’s like I was socially free akin to years ago when I was on some other subs but much more powerful and free. So That seems to be a bloom.
Now for the dream. First off, it was about me and my sexual adventures. I think I had sex 3-4 times in the dream.
The main girl who was my partner who lived seperate of me and was very similar to a porn star I like named Breanne Benson but with wider hips and a but more muscle/meat on her frame and bigger, fake boobs. She dressed in very skimpy or seductive clothes like a black jean miniskirt and a shirt that showed her belly with a short black jean overcoat. Her hair was short and black like Uma Thurman’s in Pulp Fiction.
Anyhow, the dynamic was what struck me the most about this dream. She was basically head over heels in love with me but it wasn’t a sort of “drunk, loopy, out of your wits” infatuation, it was more a dedicated devotion where whatever I did was fine by her and she played her role to win my favor. This included knowing about me having sex with other women and her trying to be available for me all the time.
When she was at work or otherwise unavailable, she had a flesh and blood hologram of herself that would manifest for me if I wanted her. It’s like she was trying to be the only one for me but instead of attacking the competition, she just kept trying to make herself better. Also, whenever I was with a different girl, she had a sort of sorrow yet determination and again upped her efforts.
There was some kind of drama unfolding in the dream where we both got tangled in it and had to work together to overcome it. This brought us closer together and we began to speak of moving in together. I told her how I was hesitant because of how things ended with my ex (this was me talking about how things ended with my real life ex, which is very interesting.) Anyhow we pretty much decided to give it a try and the dream ended with a massive orgy.
It was quite intense but very cool, just the dynamic and the supportive no matter what type of girl was what stuck with me.
It’s like my vibe was enough to conjure this devotion. I wasn’t particularly strong in the dream, there was a scene where I had ED, I wasn’t rich, I was just going through my life being me and THAT was somehow enough. Totally the ideal, since I know that if I knew and believed this, my life would continue much the same with just more wild and crazy sexual encounters. Pics below for proof of some of the messages I been having with girls online lately.
Anyhow, the thing I’m trying to point out is that this vibe I had in the dream was the reason for the girl’s devotion. My ex had the same reaction to me when we were dating she told me I had something special and she never told me what it was. The only reason, I believe, things ended was because we moved in together and there were suddenly more expectations. If I could somehow manage the relationships where we can be nearly a couple but never actually moved in, where it’s the connection that keeps us together, not the expectations or “this is what we’re supposed to do”, than I think that is ideal. And of course, a girl as hot as the girl in my dream would be ideal too.
So yeah, pretty powerful, shook me to a very deep core.
I now have to figure out if this dream is signaling that I should choose a sub stack that is in alignment with this vision, or if it is a bloom of my current stack, in which case I should just double down.
Comments and thoughts are welcome.