SaintSpring's journal - Being the one I wanted to grow up to be

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#1

I’m happy to announce I started my long-term journey with my new custom which has

these modules in it.
  1. Stark core
  2. Index Gate: Ultimate Programmer X core
  3. I.Q. and Cognitive Booster
  4. Natural Winner
  5. Overdrive
  6. Job Seeker
  7. Tyrant
  8. Jupiter
  9. Yggdrasil
  10. Direct Influencing Aura
  11. King’s Radiance
  12. Machine: Action
  13. Productivity Unleashed
  14. Fortune’s Favorite
  15. Pragya
  16. Transcendental Connection
  17. Harmonic Singularity
  18. Carpe Diem Ascended
  19. Unrelenting Wealth Motivation and Energy
  20. Financial Success Reality Shifter

I don’t clearly define what kind of ideas and thoughts I will post here, but what I am sure about of any kind of results and activities related to my stack.

The first loop with the custom was made on December, 16 and the length of it was 3 minutes, although I had a strong masculine urge to prolong it for two minutes more but then was happy I did not it - now you will understand why:
the first two or three days when I experienced a being of a super relaxed and confident social butterfly with a precise and clear mind that is able to grasp anything. My speech was articulated, my voice was imprinting, my body was relaxed, my movements were smooth. I felt like Tony Stark these days. Not so far, the next day, this bright picture was replace by the dark one. All the positive I was introduced to by the custom was changed by a very nice recon manifested in the exact positive of all the positive: I was shy, my voice was weak, the body and the mind were tensed and stressed, I was easy for anger and irritation and no more that life joy. Yesterday was especially a recon intense day.

I’m better today but not as good as, say, on Monday. What is improved today is, I don’t get that angry and irritated. But, at the same time, I can’t say the rest is good.

However, some modules are being “loyal” and they do not performing their dark side in recon, and those are Natural Winner, Unrelenting Wealth Motivation and Energy, Productivity Unleashed and, perhaps, Overdrive. The sense of that getting succeed in my goals is an inevitable cannon event lives within my mind, hasn’t leaved it yet and, I believe, is not going to leave.

Regarding about the goal of the custom, I have no SMART goal for now, but the general idea the custom was designed based on was getting job promotes, salary increasings and getting excel at programming and computer science. As for taking action alongside with running subs, I work as a programmer and doing some pet projects with my side team outside of my work life. Thanks to some modules, I learn new IT things and concepts even after work, especially comparing to how I used to spend my post-workday time before.

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#2

I’m recalling my days with Wanted. That was last year, in spring. I went through a various specter of negative emotions and I had been free from those emotions and feelings until I started my current custom. Now I’m going through a light, yet unpleasant sadness and brokenness. I don’t really know what my module my mind is responding this way to either. Despite an irrational view on everything under the impact of recon, I remember a classic saying - “no pain, no gain”. Rome wasn’t built in a day.

Regarding a SMART goal, I’m pointing an iOS development as my goal for the next 6 months. I tried learning iOS dev before (I even made a custom focused only on intelligence and productivity but I failed with it for some reasons) but I quit it because I found it to be boring(?). But, now I’m excited to learn it finally. I have a course, I have all required tools. Got to plan my studies and stay consistent and disciplined only.

As for Stark. Usually, I always think before I speak and try to act maturely and as less infant as possible, though during this day I was kinda intemperate today, especially when I’m in company with my friends. That is not what I liked because I’m okay if I’m intemperate and socially confident, smart and smooth, but not when I am not. Anyways, the dynamics of my social behavior reminds me a rollercoaster and it is definitely a manifestation of subs - be it recon or a positive result.

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#3

While was watching some reels on Instagram an hour ago, I met a video about how so-called ‘programmers’ are hurry to learn latest technologies and frameworks but miss in computer science - the very basis of programming without which you can’t be a good programmer, and when I say a good programmer, I don’t mean a frontend web developer but those specialists who can create a useful, complex and optimized IT solution. Think OpenAI developers. So, returning to the topic… in the comments section I saw a statement that not every developer want to work at FAANG, some just want to have a food on their tables. It made me to think about what I want. Do I want to be a software developer just to have a food on my plate or do I want to be a software developer to create innovative solutions and left my own footprint in humanity chronics? Obviously, latter. The question of if I want to be an employee at Google or if I want to found my own business is still opened…

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#4

SOME OBVIOUS RESULTS:

Before I tell how I was today, let me to share results from manifestation or/and luck modules. I drink tea made from special herbs to calm me down and get a good sleep. Yesterday I drank the last tea bag, so today after work I had to stop by the pharmacy where I get my tea and buy some. However, I was too lazy to drive there after work, so I went straight home. It turned out that my family was all gathered today and when I got home, my brother and father were going somewhere and the pharmacy was on their way, so I asked them to buy a box of tea. As result, I got two boxes of tea, although was expecting to get only one.

ALSO, I met a nice girl two weeks ago and we went on date last Saturday and Sunday. Even though she was a nice girl and person and she was attracted to me, there was something I didn’t like in her and this something was repelling her from me. I didn’t know how to ‘get rid of her’ (I hate saying that because it sounds so hard and disrespectful to her but I can’t puck up another phrase) so the only thing I could do was to minimize our chatting and don’t texting at some point. I was expecting she would text me first but she hasn’t been doing that since our last chatting. I credit one of Jupiter, Tyrant, Yggdrasil and Fortune’s Favorite or all of them.

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#5

INDEX GATE

I did 2 full and consistent cycles of Index Gate as a major title, now I’m doing the 3 cycle in the custom.
So, after this time today the realization that I understanding IT concepts better, deeper and faster came into my mind while my coworker was showing me his code.

#6

Don’t know which module is doing that, but today my female coworker (we are same age and her body is super hot), that didn’t show any sign of interest before I have been running the custom, was throwing her gazes to me in a very different way (as she was attracted to me) aaand… after work me and my fellas from other departments were taking a walk in a park. During this time, the girl was texting me like “were your trying to embarrass me today? I notice how many time you were looking and smiling at me”. And I was like, “man, are you serious? it was you who looked at me so bad” and she replied “yeah maybe a couple times. but you know, it’s 21th century…”. This way he literally recited my recent phrase I told in the office, that in 21 century it doesn’t necessarily to men to take actions first, women can do so too.
I really liked her for her slim and fit body. AND SHE IS RED AND PALE. If I have a sex with her, I bet it will be a crazy sex. But, I will not to since my personal views. That’s why if I choose a girlfriend, I will choose the one for building a family, I am not interested in FWB or ONS.
Some may say “bruh puck her up, she is sexy” and so on. My principles say to avoid for she posts her pole dance videos on her IG and many men watch it. Moreover, I assume she is not smart and clever enough for me (I appreciate intelligence in my potential partner a lot, stemming from a point of “what will she give to our children? what can she teach them?”. Cannot say she is stupid but just not enough for me.
Anyways, I am a bit confused. My wild side keeps telling me to take actions towards her, but my rational side says it’s not a good idea, at least do not rush the things. Will see what happens.
Nevertheless, credits to some or any of those models: King’s Radiance, Yggdrasil, Tyrant, Jupiter, Direct Influence Aura, Stark core.

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#7

Just read DR: Phoenix description. It perfectly fits the title of my journal, with a mild correction, - “rebirth into the one I wanted to grow up to be”.

“Conquer your fear and I promise you, you will conquer death.”

#8

Recon hit me after the custom in 3 minutes loop + Ascension Chamber in 7 minutes loop.
The other day I’ve read people cut AC loop down to 30 seconds and I felt like as if I discovered America instead of Columbus.
I’m considering to cut my custom loops down to 1:30 minutes from 3 minutes. Let’s see what will happen.

Still having recon now. Brain fog. Can’t write a lot.

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#9

i have been microlooping AC for 3-4 cycles.
it reduces the overload a lot.

i recommend it.

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#10

How often do you listen to the subs, every other day?

I eventually realized that the issue wasn’t really the length of 7.5 or 1.5 minutes for me. It had more to do with the exposure time and allowing my brain to rest. Currently, I’m trying out this schedule:

I listen to the audio recordings on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and take the remaining days as rest days. Maybe that will make a difference?

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#11

fair point.
how do you handle with that schedule with 2 titles?

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#12

2 titles? I do 2 titles each day. With 3 I do the 2 I want the most on Monday and Friday while the 3th on Wed

For example what I’m doing right now:
Mon: Emperor/NR
Wed: LE
Fri: Emperor/NR

Otherwise with 2 titles:
Mon: 2 titles
Wed: 2 titles
Fri: 2 titles

LE is extremelt easy to run for me, it almost feels like it’s giving my brain a break and the other subs can keep progressing. Less is more to me

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#13

Now I listen to a title once in 6 days. No recon by far.
Thank you for navigation.

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#14

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just got a fortune cookie. the note within it says: “Believe in yourself - you are a force of magic” (translated from Russian).
Believe or not, but I tribute it to combo mix of manifestation modules and Natural Winner.

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#15

I know only the Latin alphabet :frowning:

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#16

that’s the text in one of Slavic languages :slightly_smiling_face:
in Romanized it is “Ver’ v sebya - ti sila volshebstva”.

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#17

nice thumb

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#18

Dont forget his index finger, very aesthetic.

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#19

Just purchased LOTS, Paragon and Spartan.

There is a wish to conduct dedicate the whole 2024 to the custom, Phoenix: DR and LOTS in my thoughts now. Though, the intensity of such a stack scares me. Perhaps I have to choose a “less is more” strategy to this stack, but have to conduct a little research on how to schedule them in the most optimistic way.

Time to talk about some results.
First of all, I want to highlight Index Gate: UPX’s work. The level of intuitive understanding CS and programming concepts getting higher and better than anytime before. Yet, I am not at my peak productivity state, but that’s the part I relate to Stark’s “work smart, not hard” aspect.
Then, have to mention that I got invited into a newborn E-Commerce project founded by my colleague who has left the company very recently. My job in the project is to deliver and maintain any IT thing. Also, one more startup I got invited before the New Year.
My sleep regime is beaten up. Have to stop drinking coffee and drink my special tea I mentioned before in this journal.

As for actions, I do take my iOS courses. 2 videos per 2 hours each, twice a week. And of course solving programming problems on CodeWars.

A little of about Q modules:
My commends to Unrelenting Wealth Motivation And Energy module. The module does what it says in its name and description. I want to make some business alone or with my buddies.
Commends to Transcendental Connection. My connection with my friends getting deeper. It makes me to feel like kid again, when I had friends and it felt special.
I can clearly see I.Q. and Cognitive Booster in pair with the main cores in working. Brain fog as recon symptom is all here around.
Natural Winner: “I will become an ultimate programmer eventually” of type mindset.
With Harmonic Singularity my speech becomes clearer and more distinct.

P.S.S.
By the way, I’m on washout day today, tomorrow (Friday, 12th Jan) a new cycle starts.
I’m feeling some kind of recon expressed in brain fog.

#20

So, since Unrelenting Wealth Motivation And Energy Q module works fine, my mind proposes me to replace LOTS by EOG Stage 1 - a whole year of the custom, Phoenix: DR and EOG Stage 1.
For more context, there a two the most elite residential complexes in my city. An average price for a 80 sq. meters flat is approximately $100,000. Now, I really really want to buy one of such flats.