2023-05-03T15:00:00Z
Last day of K2 solo. I’m so glad it’s finished for now. See you again in K4.
Today was a nice day so I spent some time “downtown”, walking around in the heavy tourist area and studied at a completely new place. It was a good feeling and the crowds didn’t bother me like they normally do.
2023-05-04T15:00:00Z
Cycle 3 Thoughts
I can’t believe I’ve finished my third cycle here already. Where has the time gone??
I see why people recommend spending a lot of time on the foundational stages K1 and K2. There’s a lot to rip up and go through internally even with the power of ZP.
I only ran Khan stage 2 (2 loops every other day) this cycle, so here are my brief thoughts:
Khan Stage 2
This was the hardest subliminal I’ve ran in my short time in this community. Holy shit. The first week felt like a month, and I can still remember the feeling like my brain was a CPU running at 80% due to some rogue background process or unoptimized application. It was heavy and my sense of time was loooooooong. I thought I was in the clear when it ended, but I never got into that nice… zen/chill feeling I got at the end of khan stage 1. And then as you can see in my recent posts things just blew up for me inside and I got heavy recon when trying to code which sent me into a hugely negative and painful state that lasted for a few days. I’m feeling better now but I also haven’t touched any code since then either. So the finish was harder than the start, but I finished and that’s all that matters. I think I see why lots of people quit this subliminal, and I’m only halfway there. Here’s to a more fun K3 and K4, which seem to be pushy but not so… dangerous.
Somehow the time went by fast and I can’t believe it’s already May… and at the same time things were slow and I felt more present.
I’ve identified two things that I need: self-control and self-belief. And I’m patiently working on them – particularly self control since that’s something I can directly influence. I’m recognizing so many situations now where I would normally spend money or do something small that is impulsive but seems harmless, but is actually the very reason why I’m in the situation I’m in now. I’m realizing just how much it does matter and the benefits of controlling myself. Feeling urges and being able to sit in them. Feeling strong impulses but telling myself no. Coldly recognizing the disadvantages that will come from certain behaviors and asking myself if it’s a good trade. (it’s usually not). Thinking even a bit longer term than normal and understanding that I will thank myself tomorrow, next week, and next month for the choices I make today.
It’s a work in progress but the switch has been flipped in my mind to sort this shit out.
The realization I had at the end of this cycle hit me hard – What can I find that I do like to do? How can I live my life so that I’m not upset to work hard? What can I work on that feels as rewarding if not more so than quenching the thirst for sex, while still being highly sexual and having that energy in me and enjoying girls as they come?
Lots of stuff to think about, and it’s the kind of stuff that I would have expected to come out in Stage 1 and not Stage 2 based on the stage names and descriptions.
What I did this month
I needed this journal as an emotional outlet more than anything else, but the month ended well enough. In fact, I worked with my boss for 9 hours straight today on the website upgrade for the side business. Literally we were butts in chairs working for 9 hours straight. No idea where that energy and focus came from and it didn’t even feel like that much time passed.
Side business monthly recurring income increased from ￥2100/month → ￥14,100, but the number is a bit misleading. I negotiated a special price for one of the students who joined, and they increased their time so it’ll be ￥10,000 a month just from them. But I have a feeling this student will quit in a little bit, and if not they will definitely leave when I leave the school so I don’t want to misrepresent this. But it’s part of the recurring money that I’m tracking so there it is.
I joined the two dating apps where I’ve gotten matches, contact swaps, and dates from before. It’s crickets right now but I think it’s worth hanging in there for a bit. And it’s free until I get my first match anyway so there’s no real loss for me.
Other thoughts/observations
I suspect it’s 100% intentional by the founders, but this whole system provided by subliminal club is great. It’s easy to fall into rhythm that encourages action → reflection → tweaking → action.
Journaling helps deal with emotions, recon, and stuff that comes up from the subliminals, and it also helps on a micro level to track any goals or progress. And what I’m doing now, one main sub and two free slots, gives me a chance to reflect on a macro level basically every month. I naturally start thinking about how the month went, how I want the next month to go, what my goals are, how am I feeling, what came up in my last cycle, what can I listen to next cycle in response, etc. It’s brilliant.
So as for my next cycle…
Next cycle [Some combination of K3, LBFH, and RICH]
I had a strong urge in my last washout to run K2 solo, and it turns out that was the correct move. I had no business stacking K2 with anything and I’m glad gave it so much time. But now I don’t have nearly that level of urge to run K3 solo, and in fact my gut is telling me it’s a good time to get that cycle of LFBH in that I’ve been meaning to get. And I want to get RICH back in my stack because I want more manifestations in my side business.
I’m definitely running Khan stage 3, and I’m definitely running LBFH. But my question is how.
The sales page says K3 has wealth manifestations, so I’m tempted to run a K3/LBFH double stack so I can get good exposure to both. If I run RICH, that basically halves the amount of exposure which is a ridiculous loss. But K3 is included in K4, so it’s not like this is my only chance to listen to it either. 
I’m also considering running K3 solo for a week or so to handle the processing and more easily isolate anything that comes up, and then adding RICH and LBFH later in the cycle since I’ve run them before.
@ksub @Trader @Lion I know you all have a lot of experience with Khan. Do you have any recommendations on how I should approach K3?
I can’t believe it’s only been a week on K2. It feels like I’ve been through another cycle already.
