I just purchased The Alabaster Girl on Audible. @Trader has shared several select screenshots from it that intrigued me over the last few weeks.
I initially wanted to get it on Kindle but couldn’t be bothered to figure out how to bypass the restrictions that, for whatever reason, prevent me from buying it on either the Kindle app itself, or Amazon.
I’ll get the paperback at some point.
Yeah, the Amazon app sucks for that, doesn’t allow for purchasing Kindle content. I always have to load the amazon site on my phone unless it can wait until I’m back at the computer.
Never tried buying from the Kindle app before, surprisingly.
Had to uninstall the Amazon Music app recently. Could not download my music or buy new one, had always some connection error. I wonder why they make such crap software. It really hurts their business.
30 seconds love bomb
The 13th of this month will make 3 full months (however many cycles that translates to) of Love Bomb.
Will be switching it out to allow blúm
Khan ST1 and BDLM - running 3 minutes each this morning
Running Love Bomb - full 15
I had a dream last night that featured a lot of the cast of Jersey Shore. It was a really a pretty vivid dream and it was one of those that until I fully woke up in the morning, I believed that everything I experienced was real.
I thought I would have recall when I decided to journal later on, but the events of the dream have since faded. Whatever it was, it was wild.
Running Khan ST1 and BDLM, as well as Ascension Chamber. All full time.
This will mark the end of this current cycle and the beginning of the washout period.
It took days and days to settle on this custom. Once I read the sales page for Primal though, it immediately came together.
And here it is:
Venusian Muse
Heartsong Core
Primal Core
New Romance Experience Core
Synergy: Inescapable Gaze
Instant Seducing Tactician
Entranced
Focused Arousal
Hegemon
Joie De Vivre
Starfilled Night
Lifeblood Fable
King’s Radiance
Edge of Falling
Ethereal Presence
Synergy: Venus Unveiled
Synergy: Beyond Connection
Synergy: Perfect Manifestation
The custom was just completed.
Running a full 15 to start out the new cycle.
I will also be starting Khan ST2 this cycle.
I can feel that Primal has activated.
We’re at a church event and because there’s mostly older people that I don’t normally talk to much, I would normally stay aloof or reserved and talk to people if they chose to talk to me.
Instead, I had a great time going along with the older lady, who was sitting next to me, who was ‘joking’ that the girls in line that were next to us and another table of church women were jealous of her, because she was sitting next to me.
She was also chiding me to stop looking at all of the beautiful women around us and to pay attention to her, which brings me to:
This is showing activation in me. Now, I have extensive experience with one of the FOCUS modules in this SYNERGY module, namely All-Seeing. I’ve had it in the majority of my customs. I had expected that I would notice that one first and I think I have to some extent.
However, Seducer’s Gaze. Sheesh, man. There came a period where, after the initial uncomfortable feeling of being in a strange environment at this restaurant and getting used to all of the energy around me (church folk had reserved the whole place so lots going on) I felt myself begin to relax and it felt like my eyes opened more.
I felt smooth. I suddenly started locking eyes with women that I found attractive in some way - note that I didn’t say attractive women - and each one I made eye contact with, I could feel their attraction immediately, and the varying levels to them.
One girl that looked like the singer Danileigh that was standing in line caught me gazing at her, gave a soft smile and broke the eye contact while pretending I wasn’t there until I looked away again. Degree of attraction that I perceived: if I walked up to chat with her, we would have become fast friends and there wouldn’t have been resistance in my seeking further.
Another girl that had a gorgeous Hawaiin look that was with her mom did everything she could not to meet my eyes and when she finally did, she slid her eyes away from mine almost instantly. Despite that, her body language was almost always faced in my direction or I was in her periphery and I’m pretty sure she was looking at me when I would turn away (this was one of the girls that my older lady companion was saying was jealous of her).
I could also tell when there was little initial interest with girls I made eye contact with. I say initial because, after I finished my meal and was feeling quite vital and vibrant and had stood up, joking with people and laughing at this or that, I suddenly I noticed that the same women, three of them in fact, were very much eyeing me on the low.
I reasoned that they might have been surprised that I’m handsome AND tall 
So actually, all in all, going back to the Synergy module, besides Awakened Perception, I’m seeing effects from the 4 sight FOCUS modules present in it.
More on the custom later.
Running Khan ST2 for the first time, full. And I’ll be running BDLM, also 15 min.
Running Venusian Muse, VM, full 15 minutes.
Hanging out with Kenya so, ran Diamond for 30 seconds. Booster loop 
Khan ST2, 3 minutes BDLM and Ascension Chamber full
Saw a woman at the store today. I recognized her from somewhere but couldn’t immediately place her. She also had a young girl, I assume her daughter, with her. I didn’t recognize her.
My dad and I went happened to go down here aisle and pass by her, and as we walked by I glanced sideways and locked eyes with her to see if it would fire up recognition in hers that I could build off of, but didn’t immediately see it, so I continued on and followed my dad in his motorized chair.
We passed by the daughter, who stared at me as we were passing. My dad and I stopped at the broth section, and as we were scanning the items, we heard a woman’s voice behind us call out, “Hey, weren’t you guys at the…”
I had been wracking my brain to remember where I saw her at and it came to me just as I heard the voice.
I turned as I heard her and completed the sentence, saying “the memorial. It was the memorial, right?”
She nodded and smiled.
There was a memorial that I had attended with my parents a few weeks ago for one of their old friends, who passed recently. I had seen her there, I remembered.
She introduced herself and her daughter, explained that they were in town and that she was from Minnesota. As she was talking, my eyes kept drifting down to her on chest almost against my will, which I initially resisted until I noticed that she seemed to enjoy. The majority of her attention, her eye contact, was on me while my dad and I talked to her.
We said our ‘nice to meet you agains’ after a brief exchange and continued with our respective shopping. I saw them a couple of times walking through, and as they were leaving the store, she caught my eye again and waved towards me. I looked back again one more time as I was going down an aisle to see both her and her daughter staring fixatedly at me as they left the store.
I commented to my dad as we left the store ourselves that I felt like ol’ girl was all over me in her head and that she had a nice pair. I started thinking maybe I should have gotten her number just to have it and was considering journaling that I hadn’t taken action but said fuck it.
So, I get home.
My mom gets home a little while after we did and the first thing she does is come to my room and tell me that her friend, the wife of the man that the memorial was for the other day, had called her while she was on the way home from work.
Apparently, the girl from the store had contacted her as soon as she left, to find out about me and to get my number. The mutual friend had called my mom and it went from there.
Apparently the lady is eager because she’s had the friend call my mom like 3 times already.
She had apparently wanted to get at me in the store but said to her friend that my dad was “being a c-block” 
I remember that as I was helping my dad get into the car before we left for the store, I put myself into a state of being “highly desired and sought” as a brief exercise.
