With everything going on with the news, social media and everything, I’ve seen other people mentioning how relationships that would have never imagined falling apart, coming apart all of a sudden lately. It’s almost nice to not be alone in that but…
It only helps intellectually.
However, thank you. I do appreciate it.
I listened to Wanted and GLM with Ascension Chamber yesterday, full, masked.
Kenya and I reconciled the morning and day after the argument.
2:45 GLM 6 min Wanted, masked
Sex with New Wanted is incredible.
Wanted 3 minutes masked, running BDLM 30 secs
A girl that works at my local smoke shop through in a Select Black and Mild for free, with my purchase of a wine wood tip one.
She said she wants feedback, as the others that she has done it for have never brought it back.
I’m hella attracted to her but on her end, this is one time where I can’t say ‘yeah that’s Wanted’ or legit her just, yeah.
Wanted and BDLM, full.
PMO’d today.
I ran New Wanted and BDLM with Ascension Chamber two days ago, full, masked.
I am running my AM/IC custom Sagittarium:Legacius now.
I went to a job fair today
I think that my eyes have gotten a lighter shade of brown since starting New Wanted. They’re definitely better looking, with a more fresh look. The whites are more pronounced. My eyelashes have lengthened ( Kenya mentioned ‘your long ass eye lashes’ the other day and my male friend that has the longest eye lashes I’ve ever seen brought up my eyelashes).
I remember coming out of the bathroom yesterday after gazing in the mirror and thinking “I really should model.” And mentioned it to Kenya.
On my PUBG Mobile game, one of the people that I added I found out later - through voice chat - is a woman. Lovely voice and what not.
She asked me what I’m going to school for. I said HVAC. It turns out she’s an operations manager in Florida, and knows people.
I told her she seems like somebody that’s good to know. One of our team members put in the chat as we were discussing this - midgame - “wow it’s like a match made in heaven!”
Fun manis.
I started an offline journal.
New Wanted and New GLM are a masterful combo for the bedroom.
New Wanted is being cycled out of my stack. I ran 30 seconds of it now, and GLM 1 minute and 30 seconds. Finishing it up with BDLM 30 seconds then laying down for a nap.
During the GLM loop, I started to feel a bit of pressure in my temples so I continued on to BDLM, which actually cleared my head up.
My patience with it failing to generate ‘Ninjistic’ correctly deserves at least an honorable mention.
Consider it mentioned.
I want to give credit to New Wanted and GLM for the following zults.
I now feel like the ‘author of pleasure’. It’s a term that has been pressing itself to the forefront of my conscious awareness over the past 2 or 3 days, and it certainly fits externally.
To give a bit of background and kind of update, since I did actually meet Kenya while using subs. We have sex just about daily. If not daily, then we might miss a day or two. But it’s generally daily and more than once. So my sex life is hardly stale in that regard.
It’s a surprise then, that we’ve managed to find a new level. Since starting New Wanted, I’ve had Kenya:
• Squirt within 5-15 seconds of initial penetration, on multiple separate occasions.
• Get nauseous from the sheer volume of pleasure and bliss she was experiencing, this one twice.
• given new levels of praise to our sex, including things like “I would come back for this” (reincarnate), “other women are missing out”, “you’re back to doing your love spells” (other journals would probably have mention of her ‘accusing’ me of not being ‘from here’ and that I’m doing magic on her. Mostly joking, I think)
• after a long session of me patiently stroking her out and her literally pushing me with everything she had left to get off and away from her (I lol’d) she stared at me for awhile unseeing, and then focused in on me, shook her head, frowned with huge eyes and smacked me, saying she was still orgasming sitting right there next to me. This lasted for awhile.
And more. So, so much more.
For example, I can feel an aura activating in and around me that I can feel the promise of an unforgettable, insurmountable time with me if she takes even the slightest chance, with a thrill of danger with no threat.
I can feel deep in my very Ninjisticness when I’m out when a woman has a deep need that isn’t being satisfied, if she’s aware of the source or not, and not even whether or not I could assuage it - spoiler: I can - but whether I would even enjoy it.
I’m seeing a increase in my analytical and intuitional perception in being able to tell what a woman needs or wants, just by looking at her. If I know her, just by being around her.
More zults later. There’s things about GLM alone and New Wanted by itself that deserve mention.
One of my recon symptoms stemming likely from New GLM is irritability.
Namely, irritability when things aren’t going my way. Or, irritation when things aren’t happening as fast as I want them.
The reaction seems intense when the impatience is around something insignificant (as I perceive it to be), and completely justified when I’ve convinced myself that it is significant.
The recon aspect is reconciling the real and the unreal, the subjective to the objective, the belief to the truth…
And so on.
Kenya has been trying to get me into Forez trading for months now. I finally looked into it and we have been messing around on a demonstration account, and have been watching YouTube videos and what not.
Interestingly, when I think about it I’m pretty sure that she started pestering me about it when I started either Sagittarium: Legacius, or, around when I ended Stark.
The anti-recon tech is great. At the same time, for me it feels like more than ever, the tech forces me to be wholly honest with myself. Recon is more smooth, but in my face.
Because it’s more in my face, I’m better able to understand what I’m ‘facing’ and, it seems to me that the anti-recon tech (imma call it AR, that term is NOT smart phone friendly) guides me and supports me in looking at it, feeling it, and moving through it/causing it to disintegrate/dematerialize.
