Sage - Willborn

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#241

11/22/22

So there’s a pattern in my life that I’m seeing. Girls I talk to show hella initial interest and then poof, Casper.

Everything is just a reflection of me so time to take some personal accountability in my co-creative reflections

For example, a girl I used to talk to (before I cut her off for being flaky) approached me where she works and asked “So do I still have to lose your number?”

I replied, “I certainly hope not.”

She said “Good, imma text you right now.”

I could tell she was nervous and I didn’t try to make it easy for her. I was as intense as I wanted to be. I asked her:

“What about your little situationship?”

She said something about that being done or whatever and nothing in me believed her, but I let it ride.

We texted for maybe a day or two and then, silence. This was last week, I think around this time. I gave grace and let it be, and texted her yesterday ‘hey’. No response.

So, I blocked her.

I do suspect that my version of monk-mode frees me of women that are a distraction in being a waste of time, though.

#242

Never our-source your sense of validation. Find it in yourself.

11/23/22

Lustrocity III - Full time

#243

11/25/22

Thanksgiving didn’t go the way that I would have liked it to have and I didn’t get to see my kids.

Today: LbfH Exp and EB - Full Run.

#244

I got up to 160 push-ups throughout the work route. I’m averaging about 15 to 25 each stop.

I hop up in the back of the truck, bust em out, get back up and dolly whatever machina(s) we’re delivering to that customer off and down the lift gate.

In the beginning I’m pretty sure I set the goal at 10 or 15 each stop. I got impatient with that number pretty quickly.

I could have done more, but my regimen since I started Spartan and have now switched to L-III (Wanted/Sex Mastery) is to do just enough at each stop that I begin to feel a bit of quiverin’ in mah ligaments. I’m steadily increasing that day by day, by feel.

Going balls to the wall is fun in my head, but I dread the day I do that and then we have to strap a 400+ lb fridge up two flights 🫢

I rather like Spartan and plan to bring it back again in some form. One thing I enjoy about it is the iron frame of mind. I will likely get an EB/Spartan custom going, after I enjoy LIII a bit more.

Emperor Black is a cool little piece.

After my initial results, it has been kinda just chilling in the background of my day. I honestly don’t notice it much. Granted I’m running

I haven’t been doing the pull-ups as consistently, however. I wanna incorporate those as well, more.

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#245

11/29/22

Happy birthday, me.

I used EB Ultrasonic last night before I went to bed, full run.

I’m switching from EB x LBfH - LIII to playing LbfH with LIII.

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#246

I am strong because I’ve been weak. I am fearless because I’ve been afraid. I am wise because I’ve been foolish.

-Unknown

#247

Happy birthday man! Hope this year is your most impactful yet.

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#248

365 till flirty thirty!

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#249

29 all the girls are mine

#250

Twenty-nine, wine and dine, whine or nein, the pleasure is mine.

12/1/22

Lustrocity III x Love Bomb for Humanity - The fullest of runs.

As I suspected, Emperor Black causes me to be ambivalent about journaling. I believe in the past that I’ve seen this with Wanted, as well.

I expect I’ll have a ‘results dump’ very soon.

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#251

Look at past me, helping now be all that I am.

#252

12/2/22 - Gorgeous Date

Results dump:

• Management, since the first loop of Emperor Black, have had reasons to come to me personally and thank me for various things, and I’ve been recognized more, for more, lately.

• My ambitions have seen an overhaul. Things that I wanted, don’t seem as important. Things that I was more laissez-faire towards have become more important.

• My mindset around money is shifting more into the abundance mindset. This could be in part due to the single loop of EOG 1 last week.

• Women are more open in their attraction to me.

• Emperor Black has been challenging the limiting beliefs that I have in my sense of self in relation to women, more and more. This part has been a bit more rough then most as I’m not being allowed to ‘reason’ or ‘rationalize’ or ‘justify’ why I see/feel/think the way I do about certain things.

• My practices in spirit are more important to me now then ever.

• the choice to better myself in every way, and be more then I was yesterday, this morning, an hour ago is my drive, now. I’m also finding more patience with myself and patience with my/The Process.

• My appetite in the last 4 days has been ravenous and because my body has been growing in mass due to my simple exercises, I’m becoming aware of my flaws in nutritional intake.

• For the first time in my adult life, I’ve been desiring more and more to plan more long term in everything.

I’ll definitely have more later, just gotta let the stuff that’s been happening come back to me.

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#253

12/5/22

I subbed out Emperor Black (for now) in anticipation of:

No name, as of yet.

Primal Seduction Core

Alexander’s Play

Call of Honor

Code of Loyalty

Lifeblood Fable

Song of Joy

Enchanting Smile

Temptation

Focused Arousal

One Scent

Victory’s Call

Long range Seduction

Virtue Series: Patience

Alpha Body Language

Lion IV

All-Seeing

Gorgeous Manifestor

Sexual Manifestation

Void of Creation

Yggdrasil

My (current) intention is to use EB every two weeks, for two weeks at a time. We’ll see how it goes

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#254

Running this now, full time.

Lustrocity III - 5 minutes.

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#255

12/9/22

If we demand respect from others, we are unlikely to see respect.

If we equate respect with fear, we won’t ever be given respect.

If we put our sense of self-respect in the hands, the thoughts, the feelings of others about us, we can only know fear.

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#256

I think part of the reason I work well with Emperor Black is that I’m a monk mode person, all of the time.

No matter WHAT title I run, the majority of my journals are deeper realizations about life in general.

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#257

12/10/22

I’m on standby today. I’m also grateful; I’ve been working Monday thru Saturday with Sunday off for the past… Few weeks, I don’t even remember.

Down here at the truck stop, I’m handling the gas cards. This couple was walking towards my bike and it’s far too early o’clock in the morning for me to let people wander around my bike with my helmet on it without eyeing them.

So, I simply watched. The lady, of course, felt me immediately and my stomach sank. I had a feeling and, sure enough, she headed straight towards me and started flirting unashamedly.

“I like your bike gloves!” -hair twisting-

Me, slowly and politely taking out my ear bud.

“Oh, is that right?” Polite smile.

Her: “Yeah, I love those!” -eyeing me up and down over and over.

Me: “Oh, yeah?” -polite smile, noticing my coworkers grinning from afar and I sigh inwardly.

Her: “Yeah I tried those years ago and they didn’t fit me well but they look so good on you!”

Me: “Oh, yeah? Huh.” -shifting my feet from side to side, waiting.

Her: -moving her eyes all over my body and to my gloves and back to my body-

Me: -sigh-

Her: -starts talking again-

Me: Yeah, so you have a beautiful day miss.

-puts back in my ear buds-

I don’t even know where her dude went :thinking:

#258

12/12/22

Don’t let yesterday use up too much of today.

-Will Rogers

Lustrocity III - 5 minutes

Player One - 15 minutes

Ascension Chamber - 7 minutes.

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#259

I’m getting better at picking and choosing who I spend my time on, attention and effort on with women.

#260

So, reading the sales page of Revelations, my only thought is, “This is me but all of the time.”

:joy:

All in good time.