My recon feels like I went overnight studying, with no sleep lmao. I feel it will pass in a couple hours thankfully (and hopefully).
Damn I’m good.
It started fading reminiscent of a sudden cool breeze across a parched, barren landscape just now lmao. Right on schedule!
10/31
I used Spartan on Saturday. I forgot my normal rule honestly and only thought of it after. No matter.
Today: New Flame x Ascension Chamber x Rebirth, in that order. I’m considering increasing New Flame to x2 per listen on non-AC days.
Recon - Just freeformin’*
How can I reconcile who I used to be with who I am now, so that who I will be can be now?
How can I accept where I have been and where I will be, in the contrast, in the gradience… And still be perfectly fine with here, and now?
How can I ever make sense of the fact that everything I need, I have now, if I think I need something else too?
How can life ever show me the way, if I’m bound to and blinded my imagery of Past, and chained to my (un)truth of what the future must be?
If a man wants to step into a maze, he does. Once inside, however, the return to the exit will always be a bit more tricky.
A man stuck in the same maze probably isn’t the best person to seek advice from if there’s another option available.
If the truth will set you free, then truth is the cord that, in your panicked wandering, you forgot you had tethered to where you came from and it all began, and it’s been in your hand the whole time.
Don’t let others tell you that your string can’t be right, because that direction didn’t work for them.
People come into my life and choose to stay.
People come into my life and choose to leave.
The only constant is my life.
~Confucius
It doesn’t take a condition to be fulfilled to love something, someone, our self.
It takes conditions for love to not be there in the first place.
Beauty truly is only within the eye of the beholder. How can it be otherwise?
'I like the way that looks, but not that.
She’s fine, and he’s not. He’s hot and she’s not
But to someone else, the same isn’t true.
Neither is right or wrong
If I had been born under slightly different circumstances and grew up differently and made different choices, would I still have the same standards of beauty?
Who am I to say that someone else’s idea of what is beautiful is weird, strange, stupid or otherwise?
Why allow anyone to tell me anything about what I think is beautiful? It’s just a thought.
Why let the vehicle (body) determine the identity and choices of the driver (consciousness)?
If we decide to hit the road (birth into life) in a brand new, gorgeous vehicle (body), outfitted with everything we need (senses), we appreciate that vehicle. We can even feel like we love it. But most of us don’t identify with being a car.
We got into the vehicle. We didn’t become the vehicle.
A lot of us have gotten stuck in identification with the vehicle, instead of remembering that we are the driver and more than the vehicle. We use the vehicle to operate on the road. We don’t need the vehicle to have life, only experience it in a certain way for a certain time.
Point A to Point B.
We were before Point A and will be after Point B. Don’t get lost in transit.
Just because I can, doesn’t imply that I should. Temptation implies that I should.
“What if” has led to men to their destiny and their disaster. “What is” has led man to peace and into agony. “What was” never has to be again. “What will be” is for anyone to guess, but the wise refrain.
Everyone sees Heaven in their own way. Is anyone right? Is anyone wrong?
We would rather go to heaven than hell, generally. How do we know where it is that we want to go, if we’ve never been?
I’ve not read much of his material that seems like a gross oversight.
Today is Spartan’s play date. I’ll probably play it later tonight.
Matched with a girl yesterday on tinder after asking my higher self to give me somebody that wants to fuck me as much as I want sex right now.
Saw a tinder like like within 30 minutes, matched with her in two swipes and she messaged me quickly telling me in her initial message blah blah blah and that’s she ‘dtft (down to fuck tonight)’
So I got laid.
Sadhguru
Yesterday, I used Spartan. I didn’t feel inclined to use it in the normal every other day pattern so I got an extra rest day.
lol… I never though about asking my higher self for that back in the dating days. Nice one!
Easily one of the quickest manifestations that I’ve had happen in my life related to sex lol.
Time to let this baby bloom.
Methinks that it is time to expand and go back to one of my beloveds:
Sagittarium
Emperor ZP
Primal ZP
Enchanting Smile
Entranced
Temptation
Seducer’s Gaze
Edge of Danger
Alexander’s Play
Sexiness Unbound
Stop Porn & Masturbation
Furious Ascent
Invincible Presence
Attachment Destroyer
Steadfast
Financial Success Reality Shifter
Debt Annihilator
Virtue Series: Temperance
Inner Gasoline
Dominion
ARES
Running it now. I’m going to go the full 15. I’ve obviously run this one before so, we’ll see how this goes.
Sagittarium (Emperor/Primal) x Spartan x True Sell
Edit: adding in AC, full time today.
11/5
Spartan notes: So, with the basic addition of pushups and pullups into my daily, in addition to my work, I’ve noticed that:
My arms, particularly my biceps are thicker than when I started. My shoulders are a bit broader still and my neck particularly is thicker. My thighs are similar in size to where they were but they’re definitely harder and more firm.
My sex drive has not really been there. Not like I’m in a flatline or anything but, it shows itself and fades pretty quickly. Of all titles I’ve listened to, this one deals with sexual energy best. Even the desire to watch pornography is completely and totally gone at this point.
My Sagittarium custom should compound this in a sense, containing Stop Porn and Masturbation