Potential chaos.
It’s happened to me, too.
The way I see it if they leave me because of chaos or potential chaos, they are protecting me.
I hope things get worked out so she can have a better life.
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In the DMV line and I’m the focal point of attention, even the ones that don’t want to look at me directly.
I’m unbothered.
I had an amazing weeping session this morning before I left home that let go of quite a bit! I called this yesterday on my way home so I’m glad it came through.
Very healing it was! Lots of crap about my self image and my relation to others dissipated and has left peaceful clarity.
When I get here to the DMV, erbody had the DMV face.
As I was typing the last sentence, this chick was walking down the line and I glanced up cuz I felt staring. This chick just eyeballed the Sage out of me and we locked eyes for like 5 seconds as she was coming towards me. She suddenly started apologetically and said something with a little wave (I have my earbuds in, didn’t hear sorry) and I just said ‘How you doing’ to release the tension)
Nobody was talking. Everyone seemed dismal.
As soon as I join the line, the people here right in front of me started having some discussion with lots of smiles (earbuds, can’t hear your face sorry).
Tis a good day to be.
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I almost want to take a picture of the 20 people in front of me. The females were staring at me openly and the men were gazing at me admiringly.
Each of these people that I observed watching me are now smiling and having fun.
Some of those girls are fine af and I have zero desire to engage. I feel like vicariously I know what each of these beings could or couldn’t provide to me and thusly, physically… There’s no need to find out.
Not as fun as it might seem.
Sage words and I am grateful. You said what I refused to tell myself yesterday 
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YOU are the sage, man!
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My custom with LBfH has me feeling freaking incredible, and I feel a rush of masculinity that, judging by the looks of women single and otherwise, I’m going to be very, very careful in expressing
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As of right now, I don’t know what advantage there is to running LB over LBfH.
I’m feeling the effects of Sexiness Unbound. To my surprise, I feel it particularly acutely when I’m riding my bike. It’s embarrassing (working on that perception) but I can’t help but feel sexy as fuck on my bike.
True Sell did this for me in confidence, posture, assertiveness etc in the first loop. Wanted, of course, has that effect but it isn’t one I’ve personally noted.
But I feel that the strong influence here is Sexiness Unbound, for sure. Typing this out now, I feel it stirring beneath my skin, like…a gentle motion through a water bed, and you have your hand gently on top.
Except I am the hand 
Anyways. I simply will not be able to say enough about the massive results I have seen so far but I’ll ramble.
Love Bomb for Humanity, single loop influence.
I refuse to read the sales page of cores as well as module descriptions for a certain period of time after I purchase a custom so that any report will be as pure as can be, nowadays.
It’s also great for not lusting after results.
The Road So Far, Two Loops Lustrocity II
• Immediate improvements in walking posture. I’ve seen a change in my posture as I am walking as well as in my place. Normally I either glide or I stalk (funny typing that out). Now, there’s those two, with a more dignified, almost haughty air, as well as a vibe that feels royal and aloof. But there’s no accompanying feeling of being better than, only separate, apart from. But in a healthy way.
• the previously mentioned aura. I would describe one facet of it as dignified self assuredness. The recon I experienced yesterday as well as this morning in my emotional outpouring was also frame conditioning, I see now. At the DMV, not a single person looking at me in any way remotely bothered me, but I met each gaze with a slightly disinterested but bored sort of energy.
A resting Sage face, if you will.
But when someone actually spoke to me about something, I naturally cracked the exterior and flowed with charisma, charm, candor and scintillating radiance. My Moon is in Gemini and I’ve always naturally found ‘The Swing’ easy. I’ve worked on it through other customs and alchemical practices, and Lustrocity containing both True Sell and Wanted suits my natural complexity well.
• When I meet a woman’s eyes, there is no hold back anymore on my part. I look at her and communicate directly to her what I feel, regardless of how she could react. It’s been with gratifying consistency that my gaze and all that is within it has either caused a woman/women to:
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Snap their head away from me immediately and refuse to look at me again (I learned why this is the other day, I’m glad I wrote this out)
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Meet my gaze, look away, meet my gaze (which did not shift one bit) and either have a mini freak out session in their eyes, smile and look away or turn away from me and start pulling their hair up to showcase their butt. And keep holding their hair up indefinitely (this happened at the DMV today, actually. I complimented her hair and didn’t pay attention to her at all again).
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Feel me looking at them, and meet my eyes and match my gaze (that one gives me a thrill). I’ve had this happen and if I felt the desire, flicked my eyes from hers to her hips and back up to hers; in a slow enough manner that she knows that I know she saw me do it, but quick enough that she’s both unsure if it was a appreciative or not so appreciative look.
The last time was this older lady a couple doors down that has a f-f-fantastic body for her friggin’ age. Whatever that is. Whatever it is, she looks 15 years younger lol.
She was talking to me and the homie outside of our apartment, in front of our door, and I was half listening, half basking in the sun in my sleeveless. She was clearly talking more to me than him (body language wise), but that sun was hittin’ and I was only mildly interested in the conversation.
She must walked back and forth from her apartment to her car to us and back and so on again 3 times that I can remember. And that’s up and down stairs. Well.
She got a suhweet derriere and has fantastic taste in clothing that hugs her form in a most aesthetically wonderful way. I’ve made no secret of the fact that I’ve idly glanced at her in the past but she has her kid there usually and I’m usually more reserved then.
So I was definitely enjoying myself this time. And she definitely seemed to enjoy my pleasure. So, as she said good bye to us the final time (I felt it), she stopped as she was walking away from us and turned to look in my eyes. I lazily pulled my eyes from her rear and met hers with zero apology and (I didn’t plan this, it just happened) did the little ‘flicking’ thing and when I met her eyes again, I did a bit of a rougish smirk.
Her eyes got a bit wider and she stared into mine a split second like was she resisting something and did the flick to me!! 
But she looked at my groin, and back into my eyes and I could swear I saw hunger and she hesitated, as if waiting.
I just widened my smirk into a grin and ‘oozed sexy’ (this is getting embarrassing) in my eyes and nodded subtly and turned away to continue smoking.
The homie noticed nothing.
- I’ll write more when they come to me, as there’s plenty of pickings
• My work superiors have not raised their voice directly to me for awhile now. That hasn’t been happening for… Months, but… The reason I bring this one up is because, as I’ve been saying in my journal for awhile now, I talk to everyone the same and my bosses are no exception. Granted, there’s more respect and there’s certain jokes I don’t make, but there’s not much of a divide.
Well, my bosses have been attempting to bust my frame recently and I only realized it recently.
For example, I don’t remember if I detailed me and the guy I was with getting stuck and having to be rescued due to a flash flood. The rest of the route had to be rescheduled. There was no fault of mine; I was the passenger and as I told the driver, 90% of people would have gotten stuck there. I wouldn’t have because I taught myself to drive off roading and it comes naturally to me. But I didn’t tell him that. I did assure him that I would allow no one to start talking shit about him as if he was at fault.
Funny looking back at that now. I feel like I manifested this next part through loose intentionality
So, of course during the morning meetings for the next 2 or 3 days, both of the managers -Driver and General - during their meetings made a point to tell everyone to be sure that they didn’t attempt a delivery somewhere they would get stuck, like ‘Sage’ did the other day. The actual driver was scarcely mentioned.
In fact! It was linked to me so very strongly that MY actual driver kept telling me that people thought that HIM and I got stuck and rescued. I was with the other guy for the day.
I called off the other day to do something and the Master Trainer who has more managerial duties than anything took it upon himself to walk to where we normally park our bikes (me and my lead/driver), took a picture of my lead’s bike and sent it to me, saying:
“Oh. I thought you were here but I don’t see your bike.”
As I was looking at the picture, confused why I was getting the photo and about to respond, he added:
“But then I remembered that you called off because your ****y hurt.”
Naturally, my mind went through many retorts but at the end of the mental debate, I decided the best response was none. Everyone knows I have a skill with my tongue. I don’t always choose to let silence speak.
So, depending on personal frame alignment, one could handle this and the many other circumstances I’ve experienced from my lead, my managers and other men in many ways. Grace, for me, worked. But cutting men to the quick is actually a guilty pleasure of mine so there will be times I don’t restrain myself. Time and place 
• I would say… Roughly 2/3 women that I’m attracted to that I encounter show active interest, whether single or not as I keep realizing recently. Fuggin’ annoying.
• I’mfeeling sexy. As. Fuck.
• My persuasive, charismatic, magnetic attributes seem to have been overhauled. I said on the Stark page and I’ve said here, when I was running Stark, that I felt that I could seduce a nun. I just didn’t really want to. I also said somewhere that True Sell makes me feel like I could sell ice to a polar bear. Both of these still hold true.
I’m not one for playing with people’s heads beyond surface level word games, deflections, lures with words, traps that lead to a perfect joke, etc. So I won’t say that I can perform Jedi Mind tricks and shit. But it’s something auric, bro. I feel it latch. Not like a hook. Latch isn’t right, more like embrace. Envelop. Accept.
Words.
Whatever it is, I feel it happen and I’ve only recently became more vividly aware of it as it is happening instead of writing it off as an intrusive thought. And I see/feel it happen in her as well. I’m working on controlling this more because one, there are fish that this fisherman won’t be taking home. Two, I’m still debating the exact nature of what’s happening. And three, I don’t need to be pulling/drawing/whateverthefuck men and women (it’s definitely both genders lol, I’ll explain) are around me ALL the time, like damn.
• I was getting a line up today for the first time in awhile. I had a blooper moment on an otherwise majestic stride into the building and the door caught me and my motorcycle helmet tucked under my arm in the doorway. It was literally like one of the movies with the slow mo, lighting, elegance… And YOINK!
record scratchs
I hardly got embarrassed but was laughing my ass off at myself as I sat down and as I surveyed the room, I met the eyes of this gorgeous Puerto Rican woman that was apparently training (I thought she was the barber’s girl at the time so ignored her after the first eye contact) staring at me from behind a barber cutting somebody. It almost made me jump because I had to look twice. But I was at the moment experiencing a very pure, take me how I am masculinity.
Well, a guy walked in. I was in my own chair at this point, and as he sat down, I think the lady cutting me turned me at the perfect time like I was a judge on the Voice. He saw me, stared, sat down and went straight into a very feminine seating. Perfectly normal, if you know anything about the actual dynamics of… These things which will not become a debate on my thread. I’ve noticed this with plenty of men recently, as well as the haters. Which I’m grateful to report are few and far between.
• My eyes are pretty powerful I’m being reminded as the slightest annoyance in my usually calm eyes towards a man that irks me in any way usually causes immediate submissive behavior, during which I immediately let it go and go back to ‘me’. I’ve actually had men mumble apologies to me recently and, if you were on the outside observing, you’d have no idea why.
• Women go out of their way to do favors for me. I typed out one such long account the other day and somebody distracted me. The thing with me is, I journal in a mood and only in that mood. If I come back to an account even five minutes later, I’ve lost interest in finishing as the ‘current’ isn’t there. But female strangers are doing things for me that people don’t do for friends (not sexually, because I haven’t allowed that much yet hahaha rivers and lakes that I’m used to, and shit).
• People are respectful to me in a way that is different than any major I’ve ever used, in any combination. I wanna say I’ll come back to this one and expand upon further thought but… I won’t so, let’s give it a shot off rip.
I’ve never called myself high status in my life, even on Emperor or Stark. I do have Sagittarium II which I played all of last week, I think… Or the one before, idk. But it hasn’t been until the very day I first ran Lustrocity II that I felt and saw this from others. Pure, sophisticated status without category.
This isn’t business status. This isn’t alpha status, though there is a sigma feel because of my natural leanings. It’s just a beautiful sense of my own ‘importance’, without need for comparison to their other’s own. I experienced this on Chosen, Emperor and Stark in a way, but those statuses were categorized.
It’s like … The Master Seargent is a role in the military that, amongst other duties is unique in that he’s somewhat outside of the chain of command.
It’s been awhile since I was in Civil Air Patrol so I may not be accurate there
But that’s what I feel like. I report to others, but am beholden to none.
I have tons more and this is becoming fucking long. I’ve gone through an episode of stranger things rapidly Swyping this out so break time (and rewind 
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I wonder what might have been if…
Counter-productive. If it wasn’t good enough for me to make choices towards it then, why should I question that now?
Why don’t people just…
Because they don’t know better and/or they don’t want to. That’s their right just at it is my right to choose my response to what I see, if any is necessary.
I’m a piece of crap for having…
Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe I was. Maybe I wasn’t. I may have done crappy things. Does that turn me into crap, forevermore?
If a toddler punches someone in the face, is that child now a violent person?
If a cop robs and murders someone but isn’t caught, is he a criminal? Or is he still a cop?
If an angel is cast from heaven, can there be redemption?
Not an invitation…
If an athlete performs feats of such skill that he is internationally recognized in his sport as the greatest to come, but he refuses to even consider this and vehemently denies any such claims based on this…
Who’s right?
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Whoops. I may have worded that unfortunately…
My custom, Lustrocity II that I’m using alongside the major title of Love Bomb for Humanity*
But even so, for me. I ran Love Bomb exactly once and I didn’t report on it as I associated nothing good with it and actually experienced reverse results. I wasn’t sure how to express that without coming across as blaming Subclub, but I was in a weird place that week, anyway. 
I do believe that was Qv2. But… No way to double check now lol
On the other hand, I experienced positive results the very moment I started to run LBfH, with the melting of mental ‘whatevers’ and dilemmas during the loop itself. I don’t think I have felt ZP titles cognitively as far as I can remember ever.
With LBfH, I’m going to start detailing experiences tomorrow. I wanna let that one settle for me consciously a bit more as today, though it was full of great shit, had some pretty hard hitting emotional phases too.
Today would be a day to loop my stack but I skip Saturday and Sunday no matter what as a part of my current experimental listening pattern. So it’ll be interesting to see how tomorrow and Monday feels
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As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them.
- John F. Kennedy
It’s pointless to thank God for your life if you’re not living it, isn’t it?
It’s pointless to tell someone you’re grateful for them, and yet your actions say otherwise.
It’s essential that we give and express our gratitude. This makes our gratitude a self actualized, closed circuit. Negative to positive, positive to negative. As we are Above, we become below.
Flow.
And as our momentum increases, we find ourselves lifted from temporary manifestations of inharmonious living. We settle into a natural state of balance and abundance becomes inevitable.
Let it be onto me according to the Will of Heaven.
Which will be a Sage Immortal custom, one day…
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I’ve been chanting for about an hour. I took a break to sage my home and respond to texts. My mentor asked me a question between taking on this start up that we brainstormed together, or working with him personally.
My immediate response was to say that working with him is more in alignment with my line of service as I’m seeing it more and more.
He responded, “Got it” and sent…
While I was typing out the last muse.
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Hello @Sage_Ninjistic,
Did you remove Primal/Primal Seduction from your stack? How do you compare it to True Sell?
Yes.
They have different focuses and objectives overall. However, I think I’ve carried my momentum with the titles you mentioned into what I’m experiencing with True Sell.
There is no rise and fall of my results and feelings, impressions and experience of True Sell, especially in my custom. I realized that just now.
My charisma is an integral part of my outward expression with people so that would make sense.
But as for a comparison and contrast in a seduction context (I assume that’s what you want), let’s see.
Primal/PS. With these two, especially the latter I’m more focused on getting the girl(s).
True Sell. I’m more inclined to deal with the girl in front of me, and walk away for better or for worse as soon as I get whatever I want from the interaction.
Primal. I exude masculinity of a ‘primal’ nature. Khal Drogo.
Primal Seduction. There’s more ‘thinking ahead’, planning for, strategizing, and focused intent to seduce whomever crosses my path and is worthy.
True Sell: No consideration ahead of time. I walk in, see something I like and begin the ‘mating dance’.
If you have more specific questions, my usage of each of these titles is fresh enough that I’ll be better able to answer them now versus down the road.
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Thanks this is pretty clear!
I have read your journal and you don’t seem to have approach anxiety in general right? Primal Seduction is supposed to help with this, do you feel that True Sell could help for cold approaches (which is similar to cold calling in sales) and being in the moment not in our head?
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Awesome.
Mmmmm…
Cold approach, talking to a woman for the sole purpose of getting laid? I’m not there yet. I have qualms about that sort of thing, which is what Aphrodite is for in Lustrocity II, amongst other limiting things that I haven’t quite overcome fully.
But, if I’ve seen the woman even once previously? Definitely. Especially if we’ve made eye contact or she’s shown the slightest interest.
Then it’s…
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It did in my experience! I didn’t journal this, but social anxiety about approaching women, for whatever reason, is just about non-existent.
Another reason for Aphrodite in the custom is to continue what the first Lustrocity - with Primal Seduction and Heartsong - started.
True Sell is my new complement to any seduction stack I have and I would wager will be a staple of any stack I use, with the exception of purely ‘spiritually’ minded stacks.
I can definitely consciously guide just Lustrocity II, with Wanted and True Sell, into pretty much any aspect of my life with ease. So I am beginning to understand my impression that I received the first day I ran T-II, that I will be running this one for awhile (with perhaps minor edits).
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I decided the other day that I’m going to shift from the passionate, fiery and furious sweeping energy that I’ve up until now with my girls. I used to envision that I strike like lightning. Which is cool for what it is; but I’m also a lover.
So, I am going to be merging about a bit more gradually into more ‘long-term’ seduction efforts. I have a variety of personal seductive attributes and tools that can get me laid almost on sight, every day. But, that’s not really feeling fun anymore.
I had a one night stand 4 years ago with a chick that I used to work with and fantasize about. The ONS aspect was my choice; she hmu a few times to come over again, but my heart wasn’t in it as soon as I penetrated. It was pure emptiness. Ironically? She had one of the most incredible figures I’ve ever had the fortune to be intimate with twice (I had to double check, ya know).
But both times were empty as all hell.
I had another encounter a couple of years ago with a lightskin chick. There was more emotions involved, though only surface for me. She was cool, had a sweet personality, great kisser and down for the count. We met up a couple of times but, she caught feelings and I was nowhere near invested.
She also has a son with the same name as my oldest I didn’t know what to make of that one
But all in all, I just feel deeply that right now, I’m not one for LTR relationships with the majority of women I see.
So I’ve been allowing myself to go in new directions in my head and check myself to see what I really want. Will I bed women I just met? Most likely and quite often. Will I date girls? Not if I spend more time questioning my choice(s) with spending my time around them. Will I treat women like they’re the only one? Tech N9ne, E40 and Sugafree taught me better, I just didn’t listen.
I have reached a new level of ‘over it’. I don’t care to pander to social customs and general consciousness dating. I’m not gonna treat a girl any different than another just because she happened to choose a body in this life that looks better than another woman’s.
By their fruits ye shall know. If the tree ain’t bearing fruit beyond the ones hanging from the body then maaaaan… I’m not wasting my energy.
And that’s where I’m finding myself recently. In a very energetically protective phase. The girls that I am currently talking to I’m beginning to notice I’m losing interest in. Heartsong of course would be useful, but I’m not there right now.
Roots before branches is a new mantra of mine and I’m applying it to EVERYTHING.
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This is great!
I haven’t yet considered Aphrodite module but I admit it may be useful.
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I’m decided.
Here’s what I’ve put together. I only selected modules I felt I wanted for the next 3 month phase.
This custom is, per usual, a part of a series I intend to now follow but this one is solely focused on the inner. Ascension is the origin core but I have lots of ways this one can ‘branch out’.
Given the recent direction of my journal, this custom will be named Roots Before Branches.
Even the mightiest tree will be knocked over in a light breeze, if its roots have lost integrity and connection to the Earth.
I will probably be starting a new journal named the same, or something similar, once the custom arrives.
Roots Before Branches
Normal ZP power, standard audio quality, solace mask.
Ascension Core
Aphrodite
Pride Unbroken
Call of Honor
Courage Reclaimed
Remembrance
Divine Will
Divine Self-Image
Attachment Destroyer
Dynasty
Steadfast
Foundation
Organization Perfected
Purity Without
Fusion Optimized
Victory’s Call
Lineage
Heracles
Achilles Heel
If I do create the new journal, I’ll breakdown the reasoning behind the creation of this one, as well as Lustrocity II.
RBB is easily the quickest custom I’ve ever put together because I was very intent on my purpose. It may be my first custom I’ve created that I made in one thirty minute session and with one single scroll of the entire module store.
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Lustrocity II, Diamond ZP (ME) - 3 min.
Ascension Chamber - full run