Sage - Where There Is A Will

So the loop is around two hours young, but the first thing I detected activating was - to no surprise of mine - True Sell. Just aurically right now. On Qv2 I felt initial, virgin loops of titles cerebrically; namely, in tickling sensations in the front of my skull and within the center of my physical brain.

On ZP tech, the inner response (emotionally) is usually more readily apparent, generally preceded by myself feeling the title ‘surrounding’ me. Encapsulating, enveloping, shrouding. Embracing, if I’m conscious and working on my end to accept what is to come.

The True Sell vibe I’m feeling now is I would describe as cool, fresh, suave. Knowing without previous knowledge of the situation.

I sense in the…‘to come’… Part of my perception that I will soon begin piercing the illusions that I have around social dynamics with ease, more ease than I already exhibit.

I also sense desirability now. And it’s a different flavor than I’ve experienced previously. Women are going to want me simply by me existing in their space, is the intuitive flash I caught.

This custom also (according to what I’m feeling and seeing) will end up being one of my long term customs because of the truly incredible results I’m glimpsing. That’s not me consciously deciding as of right now, either. Just a feeling.

Aphrodite, a module that was a godsend all in its own, has subtly begun its work. Just 15 minutes after my loop, I felt it begin to add its influence into my personal momentum of questioning my beliefs around dating, sex and women (I’m always questioning something) and the influence… I would describe as…

There’s a dim, dark room. There’s two people present. One is asking the other questions but in a very unforgiving, ruthless, direct way. They’re impatient, they want answers and they give no quarter in empathy in their approach.

The person being questioned, not prepared for the pressure, is understandably flustered. They’re feeling attacked, threatened. Even the most simple of questions causes the one being interrogated to lock up out of pure self preservative instinct.

Aphrodite, currently in my perception, is like the interrogated’s counsel. Their lawyer. Their cheerleader. They stand by the person’s side, with a gentle, comforting hand on their shoulder. As the angry, demanding questions come, Aphrodite is serenely reminding the person of the fact that they’re not in danger and there’s no imminent threat. The person relaxes. Suddenly, the questions don’t seem so threatening. Suddenly, the person starts to remember their voice. The person doesn’t feel pressured to defend itself and hold their peace.

The interrogater is obviously me. I want to know why I think this way, feel this way, believe this way. What caused me to take on this perception of girls and dating? Why do some of the most beautiful beings in the world cause such tremendous pain, for seemingly no reason? Why can’t I get over this pain? Blah blah blah.

The questioned would be my belief system, my experiences as I’ve accepted them (there’s a reason I word it that way), the way I see myself as a being, as a person in the world in relation to others, and so on and so on.

Aphrodite is the best cop in a good cop/bad cop dynamic.

@SaintSovereign I’d like your critique on my musings on Aphrodite :slight_smile: I’d rather not have others read this and run with fake news.

And I would say that the entire last post was me feeling True Sell as it was activating.

You are executing True Sell very well as I can see from your wording.

Also sensing Wanted in there too.

Seems like a promising Custom, I’m sure it will be lots of fun for you. Will you be running this solo?

I’m interested in Inner Gasoline and Sexiness Unbound… so curious how they will affect you in this Custom of you.

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Everytime I run Wanted again after awhile somebody, whether it’s my ex or someone else, tends to randomly compliment my looks the day of.

This one is my adopted brother.

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Not religiously but there will be periods of time that I run only Lustrocity II and something like IC :slight_smile:

I have the Stark/PCC custom you liked as well. I’ll likely go with:

Week 1: Lustrocity II - solo or with partner title

Week 2: Sagittarium II - solo or with partner title

Week 3: Lustrocity II - solo or with partner title

And so on.

The majority of the customs I’ve built have had Inner Gasoline. It’s a hard one to pass up with a creative/sexual drive such as mine :slight_smile:

Sexiness Unbound served me well in my Emperor/Primal custom, I believe it was. I look forward to expanding on this module’s influence!

Edit: @Houdini I also am deciding whether or not I’m going to renew Ascension in my stack, or if I’m going to go with Spartan or Renaissance Man. Clearly, there’s some overlap potential between these in just frame alone. But the other respective goals of each title. I want to decide which one will be more conducive to the current and approaching phase of my life.

The difference that I see between karma and a curse is that karma we bring on ourselves and a curse is cast by someone else.

But neither is immutable.

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I ordered flowers for a girl I’m talking to to be delivered to her place of work. I found out the location she was working at through innocent questions, and secured the delivery. I 'expressed ’ the delivery to be delivered before 1.

It didn’t deliver past 3 (I knew because my phone was alarmingly not dinging with notification after notification), so I called them up. I complained about the express thing, dude got off the phone for like two minutes and said his manager had actually sent me a message requesting that the delivery be pushed to tomorrow (today) as they were over capacity.

I started to say yeah no that’s ideal anyways, but he cut me off and said that they were gonna keep the express part for me to be delivered before 1 pm today. I was understandably jubilant about this and hastily agreed.

So I saved money.

Before I had submitted the order, I saw the amount and said :grimacing: and immediately caught it, recognized the lack consciousness and switched gears into abundance.

And here we are.

P.S. 23 minutes until 1 PM out here and my phone is still suspiciously free of text message notifications from her :upside_down_face:

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3 minutes LBfH, 3 min Lustrocity II

This goes well with my current vibe. Love Bomb for Humanity activated during the loop and immediately melted away the confusion of thoughts I had had at the moment and they didn’t return last night. There was more to report but I was high after the loop and didn’t think to note what I noticed.

This song is the first I’ve heard since I got the Wanted/True Sell custom that describes the unique signature of my custom, as I’ve experienced it.

Truly, this is one of my favorite customs I’ve ever built. I hesitate to report shit at this point 'cause the ‘rational’ part of me says it’s too soon, but I’ll take time throughout today to do one of my update dumps

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Thank the heavens for Love Without Attachment. I’m pretty sure it’s gonna come in handy soon.

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Going through on and off recon, likely from LBfH surrounding this girl that I’m talking to.

She’s been distant.

The recon is surrounding accepting the fact that I don’t need her and there’s other options - readily available and eager, even - but each time I get close to saying “:man_shrugging:t4:” and deleting her number, I get that little voice saying:

“Yeeeeahh… But what if she’s just testing you?”

“Maybe she’s…idfk…busy? Think of that? Huh?”

“Maybe she got what she wanted from ya ‘cause you’re so friggin’ passionate.”

And so on.

I sense the recon is really temporary as I’ve ‘broken through’ for brief moments of beautiful clarity, before going back under into the dark eddies.

Another thing is, each time I’m coming to terms with just letting be what will be (either way), I start seeing her car, flowers that remind me of her. Songs come on my Spotify that remind me of her.

I do want to say that though the last part of smelling of love sickness…

Just saw lightning strike a transformer in front of me, I wanted to note that cuz GAWDAMN NATURE :heart_eyes: GO HEAD TWIIIN

I’m actually not doing bad. 2 years ago, I’d be incapacitated and trying to figure out what I did wrong. So…

No need for the ‘there’s plenty of fish’, ‘oneitis’ comments, kthanks.

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And, of course, as soon as I submitted that, instant relief in my entire heart area. Translucent.

That’s the feeling.

Yeah man.

Recon relief feeling: It feels like my heart center was shrouded in darkness and now, having gotten the frustration/confusion/self questioning out of my head energetically, it’s back to sunshine and rainbows. It legit feels like the sun breaking a darkened sky.

A number of years ago, I attempted to follow up with women who ghosted on me. Either via the woman herself or a friend. I was able to find out about 30% of them. Generally one of four things happened. She thought she found someone better. She didn’t like me. She was about to have a lot of chaos in her life. She was having a lot of chaos in her life.

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It’s actually likely this one. Glad to have gotten an RVC notification, it’s been awhile!

Yeah, I say it’s likely those two because (without getting into her personal crap) she got pulled over on the way back home from seeing me. Her friend had an open bottle. There were other charges and long story short, she’s going through some shit lol.

So yeah, of all of those reasons, that one resonates. It’s easy for me to see she’s hella into me. She told me that I’m “better than the guys in her area, or at least wiser.” I sensed her authenticity at the time. Things change, of course.

But honestly on the way home from Utah, I noticed that as soon as I passed a certain area, my entire being was ‘released’ lol

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what app is that?

@friday I’m sure that’s just Spotify buddy

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I’m grateful for Spotify songs I discover ❤️‍🔥

Roots before branches. Exactly what I needed.

Tis Spotify, sirrah