This is my first post ever that I’m making on a laptop, so hopefully I’ll be able to get more down in a more concise, less ‘all over the place’ way.
Besides messing up and not doing an assignment over the break, life has been pretty good. My relationship is going well. My girlfriend and I are talking about things more which I am grateful for. I sometimes have a problem with communicating my feelings with her without getting irritated/frustrated over having to explain ‘something that should be obvious’.
As shown in a few of my previous posts, my girlfriend has also been more passionate. This is a welcome turn of events.
A couple of weeks ago, I was getting exhausted from low sleep. I took a couple of days off of work even though I had a strong feeling that I shouldn’t. Something was definitely telling me to reconsider. Well, I had a bit of a ruckus between my Driver Manager, General Manager and my lead. Basically, I followed all proper procedures to call out; but my words were twisted to the point that my lead texted me “Well it was good working with you” because my DM told him that I was quitting.
I’ve noticed lately that each and every time I assert myself with my girlfriend, instead of it resulting in sullen silent treatment, if I don’t respond to her texts, she becomes lovey. She’s even started sending sessies lately.
My girlfriend got a text saying that I cheated on her with her for eight months and that she only broke up with me - I think it said - ‘a day ago’ because she only recently found out about my lady.
This seems to me to be a salty woman from the past and perhaps even a sort of manifestation from Wanted ZP.
Please do not take the previous sentence as me asserting that these subliminals cause ‘negative’ manifestations.
I, rather, see it as a return of something I have ‘sent out’ in the past but that didn’t necessarily land the way it could have as I’ve risen above the mindset of even really entertaining the thought, let alone the action of seeking to step out.
My girlfriend showed me the text after I came home, after we pulled away from a passionate lip lock in the kitchen. I read it (it’s a paragraph) and shrugged and told her I was willing to swear on my kid’s life that I had no idea who that was. She smiled and said that she knew, that’s why she hadn’t sent me the screenshot in the first place.
I see this, then, as a nice marker of how far we have come together.
And it’s true. I don’t harbor desire to step out of my relationship’s boundaries, almost down (up?) to the mental level.
I also realized after a couple minutes later and joked to my lady that I don’t even have time to manage a sancha that and that the timing of the sore attempt to rock my home is pure irony, as we’ve been better in the last eight months than the previous eight.
She told me to go get some condoms and pull up and I told her I didn’t have time for it
the amount of times you changed your username made me forget who you were until I saw the title of the journal, how are you liking WZP so far
I remember you being a fellow WANTED enthusiast like me from when it was released
Ninjistic to Sage, I understand. But the addition of Sanguine throws you?
I doth like it greatly!
I have a great amount of things recently that I attribute to Wanted, all generally positive!
Women, of course, are responding to me differently. My old mentor once told me that he had in his younger days had any period of time where he had sex with just about a person he wanted and decided he was going to have sex with.
‘Person’ was intentional language.
When I told him that that is incredible and that I needed manifestation skills like that, he just smiled and said something along the lines of me having the ability to do it on a different level than even he, but I just didn’t believe it.
Well.
Also, I see my body has shifted to something I would equate to be on a level to Spiderman’s, if crime fighting just wasn’t in as quite a high demand and MJ was having a delightful cooking-kick period and he was the hapless goods receiver.
I have a very, very nicely developed Dad bod, in other words. And I take literally no physical action besides light, once in awhile visualization and my job, which is admittedly a bit physical.
You may recall that on the Qv2 thread for Wanted, I made a comparison between my Wanted results and a 30 Day Nofap Streak, though I at the time was certainly not on a streak?
I have been on a streak that, though it was broken briefly a couple of weeks ago only to be enthusiastically resumed, is far longer than 30 days. I think i would be around…uhhh…
I honestly don’t know. 4 or 5 (edit: months. 5 months maybe-ish) at least. Maybe. But yeah, I’m pretty much beautiful my guy. That’s about the way to put it, lol.
Between semen retention, inner work and subs, I’m up there.
About two hours ago, the Wanted ZP sex scripting decided to rear both of our ugly heads and gawdamn, my (edit: performance) was friggin’ incredible.
I made my lady ride my finger to orgasm while giving very much aggressive instructions that made her climax very hard and for a very impressive duration. I didn’t even think about it really but I took over at the perfect time and played her cluitar so furiously that I’m surprised purple rain didn’t start falling around me.
I was content to do just that and enjoy her disbelieving expression, but she I must tell you would not leave it at that. So, I was obliged to give her a preeeeeeeeeeetty 5-star poking and I’ve never heard the sounds that came from her mouth anywhere else.
Between gasping and damn near whining and holding her breath just to release it in a rush a few moments later, and the other stuff I won’t put in without hiding details which I’m too lazy to figure out on my phone right now, twas a fun one.
The only reason I’m not posting this at least an hour in the future is that my son started crying in his room, so I let her off with a warning that she had better not think this wasn’t to be continued later.
Edit: I also don’t have to force myself to stop every once in awhile to let pressure subside to avoid reaching the point of no return that every sexually active man on earth knows.
I simply don’t allow tension to build in the first place. I’d actually give a bit of credit to my previous Sage Immortal use in this.
And much, oh so much more. If I posted like I used to before the preview, I’d have many experiences to wax eloquent on but alas…
Maybe it’s just me, or maybe it was the reality shifting effect, but I clearly remember that there was a 4th one, between sage and sage sanguine
Also man, DAMN!!!
I think the fact that you had a good base from WQv2 has been one of the biggest reasons that your results from WZP were similar to the ones we testers saw in the preview (specifically mine and @AlexanderGraves i think).
If anything, don’t drop WZP, I know I’m an enthusiast and I love that sub too much, but if anything I feel like using your custom and boosting it with WZP, will end up taking you to a much higher plane of “attractiveness”.
Also, why sanguine when it’s not even in your stack :)?
Ninjistic to Sage, Sage to this continuation is the most I’ve burdened our venerable RV with, to the best of my knowledge.
Let’s see…
Wanted Qv2, I would have to go through my old journal to remember how long I used. It was at least a month, I think. But I responded well to it. I’m very coquettish when I let my mischievousness smile.
I have also used Heartsong, both in Qv2 and in a custom as the sole core.
Previous to these though, I had a very fun run of Diamond Q or Qv2. I’m not sure, there was a transition period between technologies but I am sure that I ran both Q and v2 versions of Ascension for a respectable 4+ months. AscensionQ and Diamond were a lovely stack…
But, if we want to theorize the foundational aspect, I did run EmperorQ I don’t remember quite how long as my first title, solo and mixed.
I’m sensitive to subliminals. I feel them on an inner level each and every time, almost without fail. One of the recent ZP’s (idk why I don’t remember which) is the only one I felt absolutely nothing from, whether mental or emotional or physical.
Kinda a weird experience
So, I would actually just lean on what has been said previously throughout the SubClub years and say that my results are just a result of where I am now, and come through based off the amount of crap that the title may have to be ‘seen through’.
Maybe that’s just way of seeing it, not Big Boi viewpoints. I could be mistaken.
I saw this 55:12 seconds too late
I ran WZP through the first official preview cycle of 21 days and I planned on letting it go for my Heartsong custom, Inanna’s Gift. However, I love Wanted. I wanted to create an HS/W custom months ago but, I had some things to work out inside of myself of what I wanted in life, women being one.
I found peace in my Wanted decision using ZP’s version.
Wanted ZP +1
I’m at a place where I know and feel that if I want, I can have just about any woman I want, if I want. I just don’t necessarily want.
For me?
Wanted ZP +2
Wanted ZP greatly compounded the work done by the previously mentioned HS custom. I almost wish I had forced through my nonchalance of posting recently to remember certain things to study the events on the inside and learn things but, that’s neither here nor there.
Wanted ZP +3
My point is (and I have about 4 more I could off-top list is that I got what I wanted from Wanted and I’m content to multiply what is now. Does that make sense?
You’ll also notice that newest custom is Wanted x Heartsong x Diamond cores. I’ll venture to say I won’t be missing that one in about 3 days, if my personal estimator is right.
I saw the word the other day while musing about how I view myself.
Multiple people over the years have described my voice as being calm and soothing and I’ve heard tell that my presence can be quite relaxing.
While I was musing, I was looking at the Q store modules for fun. I think @Malkuth does something similar. Well, I was looking at the different stacking modules when I noticed that Sanguine was there and available without being a core. I, of course, immediately changed a certain future spiritual custom’s framework and returned to the webpage when I saw the Sanguine module again.
This time, my eyes fell on the cover art and I sort of zoomed on it and had one of those focused moments. Something told me to remind myself of the meaning of the word, so I looked up the definition.
It definitely connected with my sense of part of who I am in definition and, like with Sage, my heart clicked with the decision to ask RV to change it for me.
And, here it is.
P.S. red is one of my favorite colors, coincidentally.
I think that looking back on past experiences, the subliminal I’d want would be one to enjoy women, and to enjoy people in general. While keeping a strong personal center. Easygoing, confident enjoyment. What a great foundation for whatever else you may end up choosing.
Hm…and now, I’ve thought of another good one that just doesn’t happen to exist yet: Swimming Mastery X.
I agree that a title dedicated to this and other related objectives would be great. I think I got those sort of results from Primal in my Ascended Mogul custom from back when, come to think of it.
I haven’t checked out the majority of the Mastery line, but I don’t recall if there’s a Gun Mastery X. That one would be amazing to me and not for any intent for use against others, whatsoever.
It’s an expensive hobby with the rising cost of ammunition nowadays, but developing the ability to wield a firearm with skills that John Wick might admire seems cool.
I can’t help but doubt that particular title will ever be released, though
As it is, there’s Aegis: Survival Instinct though!
I’m going through interesting outer and inner recon today. Most likely because of the addition of my new custom into my stack as I see rumbles in my relationship.
I’m going through what i think is physical recon. I feel like I traded shots to the body with a precise pugilist that didn’t give me a chance to hit back.
If I’m not back to normal or better tomorrow, I’ll play the custom after an additional rest day
that and that the timing of the sore attempt to rock my home is pure irony, as we’ve been better in the last eight months than the previous eight.
