Sage’s Rise: the Wanted Son of Lightning

Journals - Major Programs
#341

It occurrs to me that Wanted is probably causing me to accept myself, my decisions, my beliefs, etc… More and more.

I am going to paste what it says on the sales page as I don’t recall word for word:

A true trickster, one of a kind rogue and definitely not a glistening hero, a WANTED man always contains paradox in his being. He is not afraid to be truly human – he embraces his human nature, his imperfections, the mysteries and flaws of human existence while striving towards excellence every step of the way… his way.

Many of the most WANTED men in history were not perfect men – they were complex individuals filled with numerous feelings and authentic love towards experiences that shape humanity. They had that certain X factor, the unending layers of personality that draw you in and call you to explore. You will make use of all emotions that you have in such a way that makes you attractive and authentic – but not letting them overtake your being and instead pushing you towards becoming more and more powerful and evolved whilst retaining the intensely deep, attractive depth of being that mesmerizes others.

This.

#342

Firstly, the bit behind that “Summary” needs to go behind a paywall. Not because it’s explicit, but because it’s an educational tutorial.

Secondly, this (the whole thing not just the sex bit) is yet another experience from someone these days that’s really making me think about how all of this works, and particularly how it works with Qv2. It’s like we’re seeing and feeling the growth and change process in a clearer and more granular way. It’s literally walking us from point A to point B. And we are actually experiencing all of those points in between.

If you have any interesting insights/experiences around doing the chakra work in the next period of time, please feel free to share.

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#343

I intended to and funny enough, two days ago I was considering PM’ing you to ask you for advice with the two ‘lowest’ chakras, but my mentor’s words echoed in my head…

“Why don’t you just fucking Google it?”

So I did :smiley: I feel as if the chakras affect our ability to process these scripts. When I first joined, I saw threads scorning the idea, but, I mean… If you know, you know right?

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#344

Lmao, my heart dropped when I was reading the first few words and I thought I might have gone too far with my descriptions xD thanks for your input my guy.

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#345

And I bet that you could just Google your higher self as well. Lot of wisdom in there.

The scorn sometimes comes from people not having an acceptable framework for connecting with a given idea. Popular culture is also partly the cause, I think. Makes it all seem like some kind of Jedi thing or something. I can’t blame anyone for thinking, 'You believe in that?"

oh, not at all. I was also hoping that it would not come across that way. On the contrary, I was literally thinking, 'take notes, all ye who know not this art!" (i.e., myself) hahaha. The most amazing part was that

Summary

In the time when you were feeling the most sensitive, that was the same time when you did not cum.

But beyond that, the mutual aspect of it. There was some kind of alignment going on between both of you. Seems possibly related to the subliminals and personal development too somehow.

I’ve been experiencing (now and in the past) something like that too. Not with sex, but with more general circumstances. Where I’m seeing echoes and reflections between the inner and outer experience, or between my experience and someone else’s.

Sometimes @Hermit talks about this kind of thing (‘egregores’ and so on ).

Anyway, thanks again for sharing your wisdom and process.

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#346

This. If I could put it better, I wouldn’t because, this.

P.S. The sarcasm made me giggle, no shame.

Sometimes, in the beginning of my journey, I would pester him with questions that I probably should have figured out on my own, such as my past lives, or if I was this particular famous religious figure in another life cuz of reasons, or other inane questions I’m sure teachers receive all of the time.

He also told me on more than one occasion back when I was DEEP in the shit that everything I asked him, I already had the answer to and ya know, he was right. I always, always have figured out things just by asking him questions and figuring it out just as fast as I answered.

I have a bit of fear towards deeper ‘spirituality’ due to the usual; being ostracized by family… Well, guess that’s it :stuck_out_tongue:.

Allegedly in a past life, I was excommunicated in a very similar way to what occurred in the past recent decade, and learning that helped. I personally learned to accept his very eccentric nature as he never once accepted the name of teacher or mentor from me, just a dear friend who cares more for me than I’ve mostly appreciated. Great guy, just… Eccentric lol.

The sense of connection between my girlfriend and I is something I’ve never experienced with any other woman. I’m a bit skeptical of twin souls, but I do believe in the generic version of soul mates; people that are meant to be in your life for a moment, a time, a season or whatever their purpose is to either teach us something, finalize a lesson, assuage karma (I’m sure you know wtf it is Malkuth, just for any future readers :smile:)

I mentioned the part above what I quoted for this part. Subliminals have MASSIVELY accentuated what was already there, a deep, undefinable connection that neither of us can or want to escape anymore. As you know, one swing of the pendulum in one direction implies a swing with equal force in the opposite (lest one can properly polarize, shout out to Hermes Trismegestus/Thoth/Melchizedek) and I need to work on that.

Ah yes. Egregores. Perhaps you remember, I was asking about Servitors a… Bit (cuz idk how long it’s been) ago, and you replied your intuition told you I would be successful?

I was. Forgot to journal it. Egregores are a very interesting and very deep topic of fascination for me. It’s funny you mention Hermit as well cuz last night as I was falling asleep, I was wondering exactly what/how the SC egregore is like and how each of us contributes to it’s growth and development. I wonder if just us existing here now, talking about subs contributes to SC’s general success…

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#347

I didn’t actually add the period to this part, so to speak, got distracted. I’ve got to make sure that the intensely great times don’t (Law of Rhythm) into the opposite spectrum. Love hard, fight hard.

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#348

June 6th, 2016

Decided to change the date format to throw future me reading through this

Today is my third rest day. It was difficult to not rationalize and play just a loop yesterday, but I stuck to my goal and I’m glad I did.

My head is soo much more clear without the infamous pressure I find it difficult to explain being present, it’s nice. I feel light and smooth with just a bit of a hint of processing continuing.

Though recon sucks, I am glad I experienced it recently because now I can absolutely feel what is recon, what’s an energy draw from Wanted, recon differences between SoL and Wanted.

In other news, I’ve sort of strayed away from the idea of having two customs, unless one be an Ultima. My reasoning is, name embedded mains should become a thing at some point in the hopefully near future, which I’ve been eager for since before I decided to get a custom.

I find it difficult to focus at times when I am meditating or doing breath work and when I am attaining focus, my head will sometimes sporadically jerk or parts of my body will convulse. I generally sense it coming, which also throws my concentration. This has happened for a long time and the only answers I’ve found is that my body is attempting to release tension, but…I would tink dat ting might release fasta, boi. Thoughts @Hermit y @Malkuth?

Ever since my last post that my guy Malkuth mentioned last night, my desire to view porn is at a solid -1, which is great. I’m going to be going to the gym again, most likely starting tomorrow, but I’ll have to figure it out between my lady and I.

Things are looking up. I’m going to be able to work again soon, and I’ve already gotten positions lined up. I’m going to go with the more convenient company first while I get comfortable back in the saddle.

For anyone that doesn’t recall/know, I’m a truck driver and I’ve been off a ridiculously long amount of time healing from a work injury. The injury was auspicious in that it has helped me have a relationship with my son that I wouldn’t have otherwise, it probably saved my relationship with my girlfriend in the sense we’ve connected more than ever before, fought and grown and learned from these arguments, I got a much needed rest from going hard in the saddle for a year straight… All while getting workman’s comp checks.

I think it’s dope, too.

Like I mentioned a few posts ago, I will be working again and therefore the tone and frequency of my posting will be shifting hopefully in the right direction.

Oh! Shit! Imma have to remember to come back and post the story of the Pillow Princess’s Peril.

Issa doozy my guy

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#349

I’d take that as a good sign. You’re doing well. Just give your conscious mind the knowledge that these movements are a good thing and a sign that you’re moving deeper into a flow of relaxation and unity. Let it trust that your mind body system is doing exactly what it needs to do to conduct energy smoothly through your system and to dissolve and release energy blocks. Congratulate and prize your system moreover for having the ability to do this while you’re still awake. That’s a skill not a problem.

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#350

I’m wondering if what happened with your gf and you was a partial results of WANTED and perhaps Diamond.

Thanks for posting!

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#351

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I’m glad you mentioned this because this post is solely about whether or not my results from DIAMOND are continuing to show or if Wanted has taken over its momentum.

I couldn’t say either way, and I suppose it does matter but I haven’t played DIAMOND in over a week I believe. So I’m attributing it to Wanted.

My erections are definitely large and full. Again, ‘intimidating’ pops into my head and I while I doubt that’s in the script, I wouldn’t rule it out.

SelfPleasurebiz

There’s definitely some sexual scripting in here, my sexual responses are literally electric. Even self stimulating I feel like I’m being electrocuted with pleasure. It’s a bit overwhelming, to be honest lol. Perhaps it’s my own fault, but I do at times visualize lightning forks of pleasure coming from me to my partner, but I’ve never experienced this feeling alone.

P.S. no porn or outer stimuli used, just aggressive morning wood demanding homage

More later.

#352

Yesterday, I played only Rebirth Q and my custom one loop. I felt literally nothing from processing.

Today, I played Regeneration Qv2 and Wanted. I accidentally played RQv2 one and a half times, but Wanted only once. I got tired which I’m not sure is due to Wanted or me smoking weed, but regardless, I was almost knocked out cold.

My girlfriend and I have decided to go to the gym together starting tomorrow; whether that happens or not, we will see lol.

#353
#354

Yo, so I listened to SoL once, followed by Rebirth and another SoL loop. So it looked like:

Son of Lightning
RebirthQ
Son of Lightning.

No issues that I can pinpoint whatsoever. And this week, my head is more clear and I’ve dealt with little emotional recon. So for next week, I’ll be continuing to use a similar stack of alternating days between SoL and Wanted, with Rebirth or Regeneration in between

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#355

06/10/21

Today, I will be playing Wanted, then RebirthQ, then another Wanted loop. I’ll see how I feel after that :wink:

I want to know if two loops of Wanted is too much for me at this stage, cuz then I’ll drop it to one loop next week, preceded by Rebirth.

RebirthQ x1
Wanted x1

#356

If all goes well with these Wanted Masked loops then I will be resuming use of Solace next week.

#357

I am mostly through my first loop of Wanted today. I did notice a bit of what I will from now on call the ‘Looming’.

The Looming is the physical sensation in my head bone that I haven’t been able to put into words (yet). It’s a sort pressure/overshadowing that I feel in my brain when I’m reaching my queue limit. It feels to me, and I sense it coming, like when you feel the sun is just about to set and it is getting darker outside.

It’s not nearly that dramatic, but that’s the best image I’ve got for now.

Though I felt this Looming for about 5 minutes halfway in, it melted away so I feel just about the same as I did when I started my loop, with just a bit of processing evident.

I’m going to complete this loop, take a two hour break to see how I feel and if I am still good, RebirthQ and another loop of Wanted is in store for me.

I have a road test at a new driving company tomorrow that I’m a bit nervous for. I haven’t drove in awhile and getting into an eighteen wheeler is a bit intimidating. I always feel this way when I haven’t drove even a normal car in awhile, but I always pick it up immediately.

Anyways, I’m going to go with this company as they have a decent route from here in Vegas to Fort Collins, Nebraska for an account of worked before when I was working for CR England (that was the name of the trucking company I worked from the beginning of this journal).

I will stay with them until the OTHER company that wants me has an opening on this Amazon account going out of Vegas. It’s convenient, the company is fantastic and comes recommended by my dad and a couple former co drivers. They have a great benefit package from what I hear and the pay is excellent.

My custom is showing with money Manifestation, or money opportunities.

Through a nice little fuck up, I payed too much on my credit cards and ended up negative on my accounts. Luckily, my girlfriend’s grandma lent me money to get me out of overdraft (which I’ve never had overdraft issues before smh). I intended in my head for money to find me and went about my business.

The very next morning, my cousin called me. I didn’t get the call cuz I was searching for my phone for thirty minutes. When I returned the call, he told me that he was looking for someone to substitute for him at work as he had injured his damn big toe getting out of bed and needed to call off for two days.

But get this, he was going to pay me out of POCKET that very day.

It was not a huge amount of money, but it would have helped. I thanked him for thinking of me.

He texted me last night asking if I could replace him in the morning (this morning) but as my girl and I only have one vehicle, it didn’t work out. She’s making twice what I would have doing his little job anyway so I wasn’t tripping.

But! All of this to say, my custom (Secret Source, perhaps) is showing out for meh.

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#358

06/11/21

I completed my road test today. My backing skills have faded, much to my chagrin, but I was expecting as much. I did surprisingly well with everything else and I go in on Monday for my physical and drug test, Tuesday for orientation.

So I’ll be making money again, and Ascended Mogul will have a chance to shine finally.

Once I get my Sennheiser’s repaired I’ll be stacking R.I.C.H with SoL and Wanted.

Speaking of which. As it stands now, I’m going to keep the Son of Lightning as is, and keep the main store title of Wanted in a stack. I want to get a bit from Primal before I change my custom. Wanted would fit great but it didn’t make sense to me to waste Primal’s influence so quickly after I created my custom.

Plus, I don’t want to get into the habit of editing my customs and end up with 5 versions of the same custom.

More later.

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#359

I have been growing out my hair for like the last year to twist it into dreads, and now that I’m at the stage where I can begin, something is telling me I’ll be more attractive with it cut.

So after much back and forth, I’ll be getting it cut. I hope I don’t regret it.

I didn’t play any titles yesterday, so it’ll be another impromptu 3 day rest.

#360

I didn’t experience recon this week nearly as bad as the previous week, so my ‘alternating titles day stack regimen’ will be my go to for more than likely two weeks.