RSD James (Bond)

Day 1

Wanted 15 min, PS 15 min, AC 7 min

Yep, ultimately decided on PS. Figured I’d give it a shot as I also want the benefits of S&S.

Was feeling anxiety midway through PS, but during AC I calmed down :thinking:

No recon so far, but now that I’m experienced, I know that it can totally hit a day or two later lol

Went to the gym, honestly felt some neediness, though that may have nothing to do with the subs.

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Day 2 rest

Was up and down today. Sometimes felt good, other times felt angry/irritable/needy, it might be recon or it might not be, I’m not sure honestly. Just one of those days where I’m dealing with impolite people and negative vibes, but still, “the buck stops with me” when it comes to emotions and how I react to things. Really trying to work through these feelings though. One thing that kind of helped was the “Brent Smith method” of just saying my “story” out loud while in my car and just getting pumped up and feeling good. It helped but I hope I didn’t just bury the negative feelings lol

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Day 3

PS 15 min, then Wanted 15 min (switched the order). I notice I feel more relaxed and grounded when Wanted plays.

Today was good, was actually in a good mood today and nothing was getting me down. Like the opposite of yesterday. Enjoyed being around people, and with this cycle, I definitely notice a return of libido (last cycle was Primal + True Social, which was good but had a noticeable lack of sexuality) which is good.

Day 4 rest

Was in a good mood today as well, where I felt like it was hard to get me down. At the start of the day, maybe there was some road rage on my part, but then I made a decision to just relax and be patient and kind no matter what. Later in the day, I had an epiphany, and I can’t believe I haven’t thought of this until now. It is: “would I rather be with only one girl, or would I rather just be alone?” And my answer to that is the latter. That’s just where I am in my life right now. For me that was a pretty major epiphany. Aside from that, I’m writing this retrospectively so I don’t remember the details of yesterday, but it was good.

Day 5

15 min PS, 15 min Wanted

Another good day (I think), I’m writing retrospectively again. Oh right, I went out last night by myself, and things mostly went well. I was at a bar and made friends with a guy, even though my real intention was to find a girl lol. Happens sometimes, when I go out alone, I just will get nervous once at the venue and try to find a guy to just talk to/make friends with. The problem with this is I then sort of go into “friend/hanging out” mode and not “out looking for a girl/cold approach” mode. And then if I were to find a girl, I’d feel bad to just leave my new friend without saying “bye/good meeting you”. But I tried to talk to some girls anyway. One was being difficult and wasn’t worth the effort imo. Another shit tested me, but the approach was totally unsmooth lol. Then I talked to a few others and they went well but the atmosphere wasn’t conducive to hooking up, it felt more “friends” etc. Also this place is pretty close to my house so the thought of really going for it and trying to hook up made me nervous, like I might see them again.

Anyway, I would count it as a bit of a “bad night” in terms of getting a girl, but the day was good overall.

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At least you were there. You didn’t stay at home and rationalize away reasons for not going! So good on ya.

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Lol thanks, yeah I was VERY close to doing exactly that. I was in my room actually about to go to bed, but part of me wanted to go out, and I thought “will I feel regret tomorrow if I don’t go?” And the answer was no. But then I thought “would the me 5 years from now regret not going?” And the answer was YES because I already do that, as in I already regret not going out as much when I was younger, so I just did it.

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Day 6 rest

I think I was in a good mood, no recon as far as I could tell. Got a girl’s number at the mall (it went nowhere :P) flirted with girls here and there (which come to think of it, I didn’t really do before subs), later went to my sister’s place for a small “party”/kickback, had a pretty good time. Went to two bars afterwards by myself dressed as a robber (for Halloween), had a good convo with two girls, one seemed pretty into me, but the other seemed annoyed haha. It was fun, but I left and went to another place briefly. Anyway, yeah that was it (writing retrospectively again).

Day 7

15 min PS, 15 min Wanted.

Today was mostly good, went to the gym, still not much recon as far as I can tell unless I’m just used to it at this point haha. Texted that girl, it went nowhere, she basically said she wasn’t interested but just gave me her number in the moment to be nice haha, fair enough. Was bummed about that for a bit /: but the rest of the day went okay.

Day 8 rest

AC 7 min

Today was good, just worked mostly. Again, don’t remember that well since it was yesterday. I think had a little bit of recon from AC, but mild if anything.

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Strongly recommend this book, it’s great

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Day 9

PS 15 min, Wanted 15 min

Day was good. Did one “approach” though I kept it casual/friendly. Not too many approach opportunities today but I do seem to get more female attention/looks. Surprisingly social stack with a sexual edge for sure. I think I mentioned this already but my libido has definitely been higher while running this stack vs the last. Now that SSX is out, I might add it :star_struck:

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Thanks, will read especially since it’s free haha

Day 10 rest

Was a chill day I think, gahh honestly I don’t remember that well since I’m writing the next day (need to stop doing that), but I think it was maybe a bit of recon, or just moodiness here and there, but mostly a good/decent day. Honestly feel a bit of jealousy here and there, but that’s normal for me.

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Day 11

15 min SSX

Good day, randomly ran into an old friend at the mall, a girl that I used to like many years back but honestly don’t anymore :sweat_smile: still got her number (not for romance purposes) and it was good to see her. Went to the gym which was uneventful romance wise. Girl I was seeing before covid texted me, we still text each other pretty often, but she hasn’t initiated a text herself in a while. After the gym I just stayed home so not many opportunities for manifestations, but those two were interesting :thinking: oh, also I’m writing this the day after and just woke up from a fun sexual dream :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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Day 12 rest

Aside from sort of being flirty with a girl who I think already likes me, I don’t recall much in terms of romance this day. I was actually kinda not in the mood, like I was just in work mode and it would’ve taken a lot to get me out of it.

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Day 13

15 min PS, 15 min Wanted

Kinda had a sore throat today which sucked. Or maybe it was a “throat tightness’s like Palpatine described in a post possibly from recon, and Calypso chimed in saying it could be from physical shifting, either could totally be right. Anyway, I might just be sick, but the day was okay, didn’t go out much. Might’ve felt recon for the first time in a while, but for the short period I did go out (just in my car) I felt happy and alive again. Maybe this is a stack that makes me want to be around people.

Day 14 rest

Was out with my parents this day. Was a great day, went near the beach, lots of pretty women everywhere and got lots of looks. Seems flirting/generating attraction is easy and fun, not sure if this is from Wanted + PS or simply the addition of SSX. Either way, great day, no recon.

Day 15

15 min SSX, 7 min AC

Went to the gym, didn’t get much action. I never liked the vibe of this particular gym. Aside from that, stayed home mostly, I think I had some recon, but it was bearable. The kind of recon where you’re not sad but you just feel like you can’t think well and you’re just kinda goofy (or that’s my way of coping with it). Went to Costco with my brother later and women seem to walk closer to me, though is it my imagination? :thinking:

Day 16 rest

Halloween. Worked for a short bit but was in a costume. As far as romance/results, I think I got some positive reactions, but it’s hard to say.

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