Risky Two Thousand Twenty Six

[Risky]

March 14 2026
00:30 - GLM/DRR
00:30 - LB

I was off the phone most of the day was felt really good. Could feel processing happen. I need to get off this shift more often.

Alchemy of life yo

[Risky]

March 15 2026
Make money, so I can easily take 100 days off or even 10 years off to give birth lol (neidan)

There’s a time and place for everything. I lack boundaries of time and place. I can be like a child sometimes. Utterly unaware of time and place, just running around. The balance of this is the issue. I want X, but I do Y. I want Y but I do X. The time/place is A but I want B. Then I wonder why I’m so exhausted and don’t have time for anything. It’s because I make time and place for everything, by being boundless. No boundaries. Talking about self- boundaries.

Some might say it’s ADHD. Na, dawg, I’m a hunter. We can’t all be farmers. My strength and weaknesses brings balance to the whole.

[Parsifal]

@Risky

Maybe I want to add Khan Black

I never did any energy Cultivation practice consciously. But I started Pranic (energetic) healing last October.
Since I started KB1 again in January, my practice was so boosted. Like when I started I sometimes needed 15-30 minutes to clean a Chakra properly when I was really clogged. Now it’s a matter of minutes most of the time.
In the beginning I thought it’s just my mothers system adapting to change and having lost lots of ballast, but when I work on others, I’m just a s fast.

And I didn’t change anything.
The rest of my stack is my Ascendet Love Custom plus QL1 and Paragon (both in a custom since a few weeks). So nothing about energetics.

KB 1 is so powerful. Can’t imagine how it will be after the update. Or once I reach the higher stages.

[Risky]

Hell yea! Glad to hear that.

I will run it next cycle to go with my energy cultivation.

[Risky]

March 16 2026
00:37 - GLM/DR
00:30 - LB

Definitely notice that I need so much sleep lately. I need to honour that season of that body. Don’t push it, we cooking!

Maybe I need 9-10 hours or more. I just can’t get up at the times I usually get up. It could be the seasons as well, just starting to get out of winter times so… could be that. Either way, I’ve seen people comment needing more sleep on DRR and that it’s related to nervous system regulation and normalization. I just need to embrace that and not fight/resist it. System nominal. Growth nominal. Everything is in order. Trust!

Random gibberish lol:
Children are children, wild free and crazy. Just like life. The way you interact with your children is the way you interact with life. Life’s wild ride. This way you teach them how to interact with life and other people, the way you interact with them. How do you deal with their unpredictability and free nature? How do you deal with uncertainty? How do you deal with not being fully in control?

I’m stubborn I guess. It always takes a while before I go, holy f#!@ these subs are insane. I’m feeling it right now, where I’m thinking this is amazing and definitely need to run subs long term.

Boundaries, time and space. Theres a time and place for everything. Grow up?

[Risky]

March 17 2026
Rest

Daily gibberish:
Listen to fear, but do not live by the mercy of fear. It’s an advisor, it’s not you. It’s an emotion, not a state. Remove the label, fear is a good emotion.

Realistically, what are the real consequences of the things you fear will happen? What will happen? Write it out.

How does a kid learn to walk? Falling, a lot. Perhaps they can read a book and run some subs, and then successfully walk on their first try? Who knows? I can’t call it…

Most likely the subs will get them to try at first. Awaken the inspiration and desire to walk. Then they will just do it. Do it. Do it.

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Bought myself a new e-reader since my last one broke. Bought some nice books:

• Harvard Classics
• Meditations
• Iliad
• Odyssey
• A New Earth
• Internal Alchemy For Everyone

The last book is very interesting. I skimmed through it. It explains neidan in a simple way, beware, too simple, get a teacher! People spend decades looking for a teacher for a reason.

But it also shows that neidan is not for everyone. The end game of neidan. There are serious irreversible things you can potentially achieve.

Anyway, I’m sure it doesn’t explain everything as it’s also trying to show respect to the tradition of secrecy for good reasons. For very good reasons.

But anyway, a good read. Makes me want to focus on qigong/taijiquan for now and focus on finding a proper teacher for neidan long term. Also, do I really want to go all the way? Can I go all the way? Perhaps I just want to stay at the first stage.

I think the concept of time and place I’ve been mentioning lately is a big issue/block that I’ve been working through. I can already feel lightness of having processed some of it.

[Risky]

March 18 2026
00:30 - GLM/ DRR
00:30 - LB

Decisions decisions. Not much to say besides that I don’t know if adding KB to this stack will be a smart move. Might just try it out. But this stack alone is intense at times.

[Risky]

March 19 2026
Rest day

Had weird dreams. I just remember feeling guilty for doing something wrong. Regret. Safe to say I woke up in a bad mood.

Tomorrow is last listening day and I’ve finished two months on this stack. Taking a week or so of washout after.

[Risky]

March 20 2026
00:30 - GLM/DRR
00:30 - LB

Time to washout

I’m still unsure of adding KB.

[Risky]

March 21 2026
Washout I

So much ego man. So much BS and resistance is just ego. A new Earth, great book.

I don’t know the way forward, but I want at the latest next year work with kb, followed by alchemist and then aeon.

Should I go and name embed summertime with love bomb? Then work with DRR/GLM and LB/-time?

Greedy? Maybe. Ego? Definitely.

[Risky]

March 22 2026
Washout II

Had a really unsettling nightmare. I do not remember the main details now, but I remember I had trouble going back to sleep.

Recon day.

[Risky]

March 23 2026
Washout III

Classical music at work. Had some form of breakthrough today with regards to the intense recon yesterday. It’s my usual bs, overthinking, perfectionism, thinking I’m a robot, self-help junkie habits.

Whenever I have these breakthroughs, I don’t know if I should just keep going as things are or go ahead and change things as I planned. I want to switch out LB with Khan Black. 🥲

But what’s the hurry? We’ll get there when we’re done. One step at a time. First things first, lovebomb.

I just don’t know what it is I’m looking for here or don’t remember why I chose LB. Probably recon fog, but what is my goal with LB?

Worked on my DEER part of 5 animal qigong. I sense this energy in my kidney area lol sensations. Perhaps I am doing too few reps in my regular routine and now when I practice one specific animal for 10 min I get the ”active dose”. As has been said before, most likely a sign of blockage there.

Note to self make a list of things that fit this:
embodying and utilizing the wisdom, skills, and perspectives you’ve developed

[anon15812918]

@Risky

perfectionism

I recently learned that the word “perfect” is derived from Latin perfectus, which means “completed, finished”. Maybe this thought can give you some insights

[Risky]

Absolutely, thanks. Makes sense. The thing that ruins gaming for me is the oscillation between being a curious explorer and being a min-max completionist.

It’s something deep, trying to find the root.

I’ll never be finished, but that’s what ego wants because it’s impossible and keeps the ego alive lol

[Risky]

”…The rhinoceros finds no place in him into which to thrust its horn,
nor the tiger a place in which to fix its claws,
nor the weapon a place to admit its point.
And for what reason?
Because there is in him no place of death.”

Jesus, what a chapter. Ego death, type shift.