Now Apollo…
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Hahaha it’s the weekend. I walk on the wild side… 
no it does not, with stark in my custom i went into semen retention and even now as i removed it im smoothly keeping it up, i jerk every 8 days and i plan to extend it to 40 days
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Oh did you mean Stark helped you with semen retention? I’m supposing Stark has the nofap and anti porn scripting and Khan didn’t. If so, I’m glad I have Stark in my stack. Khan’s drive caught me off guard. Not even PS made me feel like this.
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I spoke with a friend and surprisingly I felt good in the conversation. Surprised cause I know I’m in recon, and yet the conversation flowed naturally. I got a glimpse of that laid back feel of Khan, and it’s just ST1.
I noticed being a lot more candid though, and less in my head.
I’m sure Stark has something to do with that as well, but it’s definitely Khan that’s coming online. I look forward to more days like this, better yet, more Khan, more Stark.
I’m probably going to switch to ST2 a week or so after day 30th with ST1, or 2 weeks at the most to compensate for the switch from Qv1.
~Rest Day~
I didn’t feel too strong today, not “alpha” or dominant. I was able to wing it just fine in my interactions with those around me, I wasn’t awkward, but I didn’t feel that strength and non-chalance inside. That’s fine, this is most probably recon, and my mind is now processing the script. Looking forward to good things.
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I experienced something similar yesterday, on my day off. Today, another day off, it’s a bit better but still I need to go back to the right mode. 
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Day: 30
Dragon Reborn ST 3
Khan ST 1
Stark
I’m running RebirthQ again with my stack, maybe I need a little reinforcement so to speak. It’s an experiment that I hope would bring about an ever better experience.
I’m not dealing with a lot of recon, at least not the obvious kind like anger, irritation etc, but I know I’m not very comfortable either.
I could use a very good workout to keep my mind off things, I hope I can push myself this time.
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Hey @Apollo,
Have you ever tried strong determination sitting? It’s an open eyes meditation in complete stillness(not an easy meditation.) It is literally insane with together with Khan. If I sit for 30 min or 1 hour and then go outside people get sucked into my energy. It’s great for developing masculine presence.
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That’s pretty cool, I’ve never heard of that till you mentioned it. To be honest, I sometimes miss the effects aura of EQ and PS, but I’m giving Khan/Stark time to shine. I’ll try that, thank you my friend.
No problems 
There’s some on YT guided with a sound in the background or you can just do it without. Worth looking up though to get the hang of it. Send me a PM anytime if you need tips. I just started DR myself and also done Khan since October
Keep going strong, enjoying reading your journal, and also I am thankful for this great community.
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Have to note this one for sure
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Day: 31
Dragon Reborn ST 3
Khan ST 2
Stark
Decided to proceed to Khan ST2. I’ve been on DR now for around 5-6 months more or less, and Khan ST1 for 30 days. I feel I need to see more of what Khan is about so I don’t get tempted to go back to my old stack.
I know I need to persevere, but I’m only human and I’m still prone to second guessing myself or my decisions. I truly had a great time on EQ/PS, and somedays I look back and miss the feeling and the results, it was exhilarating. I’m hoping ST2 gives me a glimpse of the Khan’s promise so that it can fuel me to stay with this stack.
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Wow, thats quite a commitment!
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Haha yes, I have so much to fix within my psyche and I decided to give 8 full months to DR, with 2 months each stage to recompense for my heavy stack. I’m proceeding to ST4 this June.
From the way the description sounds like, I think ST4 is the best part. I’m already getting some much needed levity on ST3, but ST4 mentioned good manifestations on it like more opportunities and people. I’m very much looking forward to that.
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I’m bad with math, now that I think more about it, more like 5 months so far.
I’m re-reading both Khan and DR’s description, I do this from time to time to hype myself up and keep me going. I focused on DR ST4 and I may have inadvertently chosen the perfect sub to help me find what I want.
I wish to find my calling in life, be my best version, provide for those I care about and enjoy life while I still have the strength to do so; It seems DR is an excellent sub for that. (Stark as well)
If all goes well, I might be staying with DR ST4 a lot longer than two months, perhaps even indefinitely. On the negative side, I won’t be able to try out HoM or EoG not unless I let go of either Stark or Khan. I don’t feel I am ready yet for customs, maybe after two months on Khan ST4.
Anyway I’m getting ahead of myself, its a bridge I’ll cross when I get there, but for now, crossing my fingers Khan ST2 is smooth sailing.
I’m writing this now while playing Khan ST2, and I’ve been having some interesting, libido fueled thoughts.
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Day: 32
Dragon Reborn ST 3
Khan ST 2
Stark
Started with RebirthQ, out of experimentation and intuition.
Nothing much had happened, and I feel somewhat cynical about things. Everything is okay though, I guess I’m just feeling bored.
Eh… like that’s important… 
haha… yes… I miss EQ’s nonchalance though. Anyway 2nd day on Khan ST2, hopefully it shines
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Day: 32
Dragon Reborn ST 3
Khan ST 2
Stark
Spent some time with someone, at first I felt it was going to be awkward and yet we flowed naturally. I am guessing the support came from Stark. There’s this certain dapperness I felt on EQ/PS, where I don’t feel bogged down by awkward moments (and s-tests), it almost feel like Neo dodging bullets.
I was reminded of this in this interaction.
As for Khan ST2, I felt some familiar feelings I only felt when I was on PS. I can’t explain it exactly, and it’s too early, but this did not appear in ST1. I liked it. It got me excited for what’s yet to come.
PS is amazing, but it puts me on hunter mode, for the lack of a better term, and at this current point in my life it’s not my priority. There’s a lot to fix in other areas. With that said I still welcome new people into my life, if they appear, then they appear.
I also wish to maintain what needs to be maintained both inside and outside, and Khan’s resolve and personality is the tool I have to keep the weeds in the mind from taking root.
Sadly it’s true that once you let yourself go, there’s the risk of circumstances changing, and people changing.
Moving on. Until now I have no clue how Khan/Stark would differ with EQ/PS, but I’m excited to see it.
I still miss EQ, it’s a wonder sub, but I have to be fair to my stacks and give them their time to shine, Stark in particular.
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