Reclaiming my power - A Journal by MatAlexander305

Yes it is a great program, but in my case I just need to start doing something again out in society even though it looks like a zoo to me. Love Bomb fH has been great though it is a game changer because it has such a great effect on others in your surroundings, it heals others.

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The girl from last week, whose curly hair I made fun of…She actually straightened it and posted it on her story :rofl:

I replied
ā€œawh how cute, you listenedā€
ā€œLooks goodā€

And she was like
ā€œI don’t usually follow orders, you should come out tonightā€.So I did, came to the bar around 1:00 am she was already drunk out of her mind. When I got there she looked so suprised… ā€œYou came! Wtf it’s 1:15, who shows up to a bar this late?

ā€œI was working, I’m a busy manā€ I said all nonchalant.

ā€œYeah, probably f*cking other girls :roll_eyes:ā€

Then one of the guys said ā€œBuddy was definitely smashing before comingā€ (Everyone thinks I’m a fuck boy now, it’s hilarious.) Anyways, as I go to the bar to get a drink…her stupid ā€œpromiscuousā€ friend peer pressured her into letting two dudes run a Thomas the tank on her :face_vomiting:

So that was a huge flop :rofl:
Whatever, she wasn’t that hot tbh.

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I spat my drink ma dude :rofl::rofl::rofl:

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Completely random, but I just found out I have a photographic memory…

Maybe not the greatest one, but it’s kinda cool nevertheless

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I’ve noticed something

I’m an extrovert at heart. See, I used to think I was a introvert; but it turns out I’m not. It was through bad experiences growing up, traumas that left a mark on me. They made me act more quiet, more reserved. But that’s not who I am at my core…

When I think back to all the lonely times in my life, (and their were a lot) I was always miserable. On one hand, I didn’t want to talk to anyone because of all the negative emotions I felt, but at the same time; deep down it was all I wanted…Just someone, anyone to lend out a helping hand. To say ā€œHey, is everything alright?ā€

But no one ever did… all the people I used to call my friends, not one of them ever reached out. Actually, their was one or two, but I already considered them family.

It’s kind of sad, I’d smile at them in the hallway; I’d wish them a happy birthday. But I never got anything in return… :frowning:

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Just got hit with some harsh recon after running my custom last night.

After deciding to drop CWON, Ive played Diamond, Sex Mastery, RICH, Primal, Primal Seduction and Wanted. I’m usually not one to run more than three titles, but this was as a result of not knowing what I wanted.

And honestly I’m still not entirely sure. For the moment I’ll be sticking with my Stark custom + Wanted. As for the third, idk. Sometimes I think Sex Mastery is the way to go, sometimes I think Primal Seduction is what I need, sometimes I think LBFW would be really nice. Ive even considered minds eye, and Heartsong.

I just can’t figure it out, why is this so difficult?

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What’s funny is parts of Diamond, Sex Mastery, Primal, Primal Seduction are in Wanted so that recon can be avoided :wink:

Actually I think Stark custom + Wanted + LBFH might be interesting to try for you, that’s actually what I’m thinking of trying but I’m not sure how it compares to Libertine.

R E C O N

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True, true

I was thinking the same, I’ve been feeling drawn to it for a while. Could be a interesting ride with Wanted and my custom :smirk:

Libertine was one I’ve considered too, don’t have much experience with it though

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I might try it if I do I will let you know if it’s not too powerful for you to use :wink:

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Libertine is good as well but I’m a bit worried that Libertine was the reason guys we’re aggressive with me when I ran it before. I thought it was Wanted but my custom and previous experience tells me otherwise (If anything people love me even more after putting it in my custom) but Libertine is a bit worrying for me.

What cached my eye about LBFH is that if I add Wanted with it could make people love me even more which could be an interesting effect.

Yeah that’s the kind of effect I’m after. It’s one thing to have girls want you, but having them head over heels in love with you, just completely obsessed and at your mercy… now that’s what I’m talking about :sunglasses:

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But I have one worry about LBFH, some have said that it made them enjoy their job less and put less effort into giving good work performance so I’m kind like in a confused situation because if that’s the case their is no way I’m running LBFH then.

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You kind of already have that with the curly hair girl and the two dudes from the bar :sunglasses:

That’s sounds strange… what about LBFH would cause that? I mean I get theirs some healing. Could just be recon.

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Here’s the post mentioning it: The Wanted Celebrity - The MĆ©lange Of Attractiveness - #149 by CyberTate

Now I’m really not sure if it’s LBFH causing this or the people running it already didn’t like their jobs (Similar to how Emperor makes you want to switch jobs) or already had issues with fatigue and LBFH just made it more apparent.

I mean maybe… idk. And what do you meant the two guys from the bar? The ones that ran a train on her? :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

Idc if she’s obsessed with me or not, she needs Jesus

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Exactly :wink: P.S you already know this but I’m 100% joking about this.

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I know :rofl:

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This dude looks like singer Future :slight_smile:

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Social anxiety is way down since beginning this custom. Socializing is starting to become normal and easy for me. I’m no longer overthinking every aspect of the interaction, making eye context is easier, I no longer feel the need to rush my sentences, or talk over the other person.

My pronunciation and eloquence has improved, my voice maintains a deeper tone especially when I raise my voice now.

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