Raphael | Paragon of the WANTED Artist - a Zero Point Journey Within

Journals - Major Programs
#61

Day 16: Rest Day

  1. After having my heart and throat chakras unblocked, I had this thought in my mind “Maybe I won’t be allergic to Joe Dispenza’s meditations anymore.”

  2. So I gave it a shot. I fired up the Space-Time meditation and what do you know, I enjoyed it!

  3. Previously, I used to be fixated on getting something out of the Dispenza meditations since people who use them report drastic life changes like wealth, health, etc. And even though I knew I shouldn’t be trying to force results from these meditations, my mind and heart couldn’t help but go towards those thoughts and feelings.

  4. Today though, I was able to finally enjoy the meditations for themselves. The results will eventually come but I now enjoy the “journey of meditating” more than before. And am so happy with that. What a dreary life it is not to have fun in the process and being impatient for the destination. I don’t think I will be happy for long with the results if I am not happy walking along the road to reaching them.

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#62

Day 17: Ultimate Artist Qv2 x1

  1. Was out and about yesterday and today. Noticed looks from both men and women. The looks were largely curiosity. But I didn’t pay too much attention since I had some work to do.

  2. When am in a group of people, I find that those who talk to my group always look at me. I was a bit surprised in the beginning especially when I am not the one in the group to ask a particular question, but the person responding looks at me. Then I realized, “oh yeah. Am WANTED, baby!”

  3. I carry myself as a gentleman. Am unruffled, polite and charming. Need to work on my voice through since I catch myself speaking in a low voice once in a while. But when I raise the volume, it’s crystal clear so I only need to push myself a little to be heard.

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#63

Day 18: Rest Day

  1. Had some reconciliation from morning to afternoon. Thankfully an afternoon nap changed that. So am making a note: “To defeat the nightmare of reconciliation, go to sleep”

  2. Just chilling out and enjoying watching The Falcon and the Winter Soldier. It’s woke in some parts but Sam and Bucky’s well-written fraternal relationship makes up for it.

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#64

Day 19: WANTED ZP x1, Paragon ZP x1

  1. It’s close to Washout time and am relishing the prospect of not having to run any subliminals for a while and also looking forward to the bloom during the 5 days of rest.

  2. ZP does have its own form of recon. But there are significant deep changes at the subconcious level after it. Was experiencing some of it myself yesterday in the morning and when laying down to sleep last night. Like a “soul mourning and death after which it is reborn”. I had vivid dreams but don’t remember them. But the changes after that is awesome.

  3. For example, I had decided 5 days ago to give up porn and masturbation. The initial days I do this is usually followed by sexual frustration and edging. After which I give in to the temptation. But now with ZP, I simply started not even thinking about fapping. Recon was there in which I lamented and died. And was born again as if I never had a PMO problem in the first place. So all in all, ZP has a “beautiful recon.”

  4. Must admit that I almost changed my stack day before yesterday. But somehow managed to stick through it through sheer force of…laziness lol. But being close to the “finish line” of 21 days makes it easy to stick to the stack now.

  5. It’s Sunday today. So am going off to relax.

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#65

Day 20: Rest Day

  1. I have decided to change my stack after these 21 days (and 5 rest days). Haven’t decided on what it will be but am looking to incorporate at least one custom. Won’t be removing Paragon ZP though. Paragon for life!

  2. I have been strict on myself during both the Private Test and Public Test (approximately 3 months). Not used any Custom or tried anything adventurous. I think it’s time to let loose (but still follow listening patterns when I do).

  3. It was a good run that helped me gain more insights into myself. Healed a lot of flawed beliefs and unblocked 2 of my chakras. Am more accepting of myself and the people around me. My face and hair has improved. I am also able to integrate different models of reality into my mindset. For example acknowledging the “Newtonian Physics” of human nature and being “realistic” while at the same time learning to wield the “Quantum Physics” of the subconcious mind and biocentrism.

  4. So will be running UA tonight to finish off the 3 weeks. And close this thread tomorrow.

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#66

:+1: :trophy:

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#67

Day 21: Ultimate Artist Qv2 x1

Please close this thread, @RVconsultant. My 21 days are over and it’s time to change my stack after a washout.

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#68