Raphael | Paragon of the WANTED Artist - a Zero Point Journey Within

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What is man without self-discipline in his life? He is slave to his emotions, to his urges, to distractions, to the failures he never learns from. But most of all, he is a slave to the wills of others. He is no king and will never be so until he breaks his chains and mends his ways.

And so will this stack be the breaker of my chains and the mending of my ways:

WANTED
Ultimate Artist
Paragon

At first, I did think it a bright idea to have a stack with Spartan ZP in place of UA Qv2 since the ZP version of UA will take a while to be made. But thinking it over, I realized that the choice of Spartan was a way of procrastinating my creative and wealth goals. It is good to be fit but of what use is a fit guy who is broke and, most of all, cannot live his purpose? Never mind Ultimate Artist is Qv2. It will get the job done. Use the tools I have now instead of postponing things under the excuse of “I don’t have that shiny ZP tool yet.”

Also, neither will I fall for CHOSEN now. It’s a great title am sure and might even help me with my goals. But I will delay my gratification for it and teach my mind to live with the consequences of past choices. And to correct them with necessary actions.

And thus is my plan:

  • To tackle my fitness and looks with WANTED
  • To push creativity and productivity with Ultimate Artist
  • To heal and maintain my body with Paragon

Time to begin within. At the Zero Point

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#2

Wow, bro, I like your art! Just imagine what UA ZP can be…

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#3

Thank you, man.

Just a bit of photo-editing using the box-art of the respective Main Store Titles. It turned out well.

The goal of that was to fix this stack in my mind instead of my tendency to change it and fall to shiny object syndrome.

Zero Point has largely healed my need for new things but we are human and easily influenced and hence the need for some self-discipline and personal motivation with this “quick art”.

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#4

Of course we are :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:
Curiosity is a basic feature which comes with human hardware. Lack of curiosity and novelty seeking behaviour is a symptom of depression :slight_smile:

But yes, some discipline will be good.

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#5

Loved that, bro. Will use that within my stack. Curiosity, especially with UA, to explore worlds built with words.

Discipline is Freedom

Someone said this and although it sounds wrong, is sound logic.

Discipline in the now is Freedom in the future.

Delayed gratification leads to more pleasure. Saving leads to wealth. Pain in the effort of moving and exercising leads to good health.

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#6

You nailed it perfectly about Discipline. Discipline now is a Freedom in the Future… damn, I’ll write it down.

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#7

Day 1: Ultimate Artist Qv2 x1

  1. Coming from an extensive washout of around 3 weeks after testing ZP, Ultimate Artist felt super-heavy when running it. I laid down to take a 1 hour nap while letting it play and slowly felt as if a burden was being put on my mind. Felt surprised since I thought UA Qv2 would be a light title. But I don’t think so. It handles a large number of goals as shown in its sales page.

  2. Even as I drifted off to sleep, I could feel a grinding down on my subconcious as if a rotating wheel was pressed on my head. It isn’t as bad as it sounds though. The heaviness was more psychological than physical. Sleep lead me to dreams of conflict. I remember having verbal matches with some of my cousins on a subject matter that I don’t even remember. But the dreams were vivid as it normally is when listening to something for the first time or after a long time.

  3. Am remembering the first time I ran UA (it was pre-Q then. New Dawn tech). Was running it with Khan. What a stupid thing to do. Khan ST1 Total Breakdown happening all around me while I tried to write something. Anger, despair, a heaviness of the heart due to Khan1 and me being totally unproductive. This is why I always advice others to run Khan1 (and DR1) by itself. Maybe ZP versions of these will change that. Anyways, am laughing at the memory of it now.

  4. Was scrolling down youtube and the usual content didn’t interest me. Ended up watching a YouTube video about kings and reading a couple of articles on Nordic and Arthurian mythology. Always been fascinated with the way authors of the fantasy genre used to mix such legends into their stories. GRR Martin and Robert Jordan come to mind.

  5. Talking about RJ, the Wheel of Time Episode 1 was so distasteful that it destroyed any desire in me to watch any more. Getting tired of this woke silliness. Instead of focusing on good story telling, all they want to do is virtue signal. RJ wrote such a beautiful masterpiece but they destroyed it in the first episode itself. At least Game of Thrones had a few good seasons. Maybe WoT will get better in time but am not holding my breath. Man, am I ranting haha.

  6. When I woke up, I did feel quite tired. But some chai made me feel much better. After an hour or two, I started this journal. Didn’t feel very creative when I sat to type it. But when I started, the words just came to me. Are you back, my muse?

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#8

Awesome selection. I tried UA in the past at times when I was jumping around a lot from one subliminal to another. It’s a title that probably will work wonders with ZP later.

It reminds me of the Russian hypnotist Raikov experiments. He worked not only with chess players, but also with painters. Let them identify with successful people in trance to get the skills themselves. The good thing about UA would be that the results will be visible and maybe even measure-able.

There could be the skill before and after.

This could mean writing history.

I tried on my path as a writer many obscure techniques. Most of them had no obvious effects. Some of them were to complicated for me. Deep trance identification (based on raikovs work) was one of the too complicated things. But running subliminals to have an effect on Art should be a sensation.
Most crazy artists like to experiment.

I am not sure if I have run ultimate artist in QV2 tech before. I guess it will be influenced by the ZP titles, too?

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#9

This looks amazing @SaintSovereign please check the art work out

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#10

Yes, I agree. Chosen can wait. I’m glad you went with Paragon. UA is also an excellent title. I’ll wait till UA comes out on ZP and rotate it, into a future stack.

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#11

I agree, I generally advice people not to run any title with a healing sub. It overpowers that sub.
With new dawn technology, how many loops did you use to run a day?

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#12

Yeah I remember that Matt. In fact, your journal is what inspired me to return to UA when I was reading it back then (must be over a year ago).

I was chasing Renaissance Man and Khan. They were both excellent but I needed some thing more focused. I think UA is focused. Especially in the beginning of mastering my craft.

I think my ZP Testing has indeed influenced UA Qv2. No recon so far although it felt heavy in the beginning. No irritation or depression. Will try to notice more over time.

THE RAIKOV? After the Q Store Module? Very interesting.

Haha tell me about it. I was experimenting like crazy but wasn’t disciplined to do so for a long time. We creatives need more discipline. I know I do.

Thank you, bro

Absolutely agree. And waiting for you join the UA club when it is ZPed

You can say that again!

If I remember right it was around 7 to 8 loops a day. So people were either running it when asleep (like me) or all through their work day on headphones. Crazy ancient days haha. Just like the competitor sub makers are still in lol!

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#13

Day 2: Rest Day

  1. Similar to StarkQ, there is something in Ultimate Artist that made me wake up an hour before the alarm clock. Curious to know whether anyone had this happen when running AM or Mogul since I do feel there is some similar scripting to those 2 but never really extensively ran them.

  2. Unfortunately, I squandered away the time laying in bed instead of rising up and going about my day early. Will not repeat this mistake again. The silver lining was that when I realized that and got out of bed, I was still earlier than the clock and took a cold shower immediately. So that’s still some improvement.

  3. I can still feel the heaviness of Qv2 (from UA) on my mind. It’s wasn’t as bad as yesterday and I felt more clear-headed today. When I was thinking about it, it felt very Emperor-like in some ways. An urge to be productive. Also, needed a nap in the afternoon and the slight heaviness returned when I woke up. It went quickly away though.

  4. I didn’t feel very creative today though but pushed myself to write a poem. Kept postponing it until evening and thought heck let me write one even if it isn’t good. So I wrote one and it was not to my liking but I liked that I at least wrote something.

  5. I should do more of that with regard to trying my hand at fiction or non-fiction but must admit that having read too many good books in those genres, does make it slightly intimidating. But hey, we gotta start somewhere.

  6. I couldn’t help comparing UA with RM (have run RM Qv2 for a good while since when it was released). In terms of unlocking creativity, RM shines and is specially good for writing poetry. But it doesn’t have the same productivity mindset of UA as far as I can tell. BUT I do think that when SaintSovereign and Fire will rewrite Ultimate Artist in Zero Point, they will incorporate a good many new ideas from RM into it. As well as make UA have its own special x-factor(s). I just know it.

  7. Looking forward to my first run of Paragon ZP and the official WANTED ZP tonight before I go to sleep.

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Day 3: WANTED ZP x1, Paragon ZP x1

  1. Was checking to see when was the last time I ran WANTED ZP (tester’s editon) and it was Oct 27. More than one month of being away from it. So when I ran it yesterday night along with Paragon, this was exactly what I felt when I woke up in the morning:

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  1. The feeling was that of a young James Bond in his prime. Not at all disillusioned with life but as if I took an anti-aging potion and went right back to when I was in college.

  2. Talking about college, my morning wood is back with a bang lol. Ah the fountain of youth. That’s what WANTED + Paragon is.

  3. I felt loved. One of my favorite effects of WANTED is no matter who you are with, they are always polite and kind to you. This result alone is worth the price of admission. Especially in a day and age where people are more tense than ever.

  4. My face looks more smooth. Hair looks healthier both on my head and beard. Am sure if I run this stack consistently, I will look younger again.

  5. Also felt a bit lighter today. Less bloated on my stomach. Need to lose that weight.

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#15

Great results man!!! Im really interested in seeing how Wanted and Paragon treat you.

Wanted has the effect of giving me a relaxed nonchalant attitude… sprinkled with a sense of joy.

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#16

Thanks bro. Am curious about this combo too.

Exactly! That’s the perfectly summarized way of putting it.

Do you see any changes in the way people deal with you when you run WANTED? I feel like I landed in a parallel universe where people treat me like royalty. Man, I love it.

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#17

There is a tendency of finding out people treat me with what I can describe as openess and closeness. Its more obvious to me that I feel that way about my feelings and intentions.

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#18

Day 4: Rest Day

  1. Okay there was some recon today. It was first triggered when someone mentioned that they felt like they were dreaming from their third eye and SaintSovereign mentioned he felt jealous of them. Am sure SaintSovereign meant it in a very wistful way and not as a “aaargh am jealous of you!!!” The funny thing about triggers is that it takes you even if you are rationally conscious of them.

  2. To elaborate, I have an eye issue which a very small percent of the population has. Which makes it difficult for me to do many things which many take for granted. So when I read about the above jealousy bit, I immediately went “oh people getting jealous of third eyes not functioning when here I am not even able to get my normal eyes to work”. It was childish. And I felt a mixture of disgust with myself for thinking that and sadness. We all know there are many who won’t even know what light is because they have been blind from birth and died blind. It’s a horrific thing to imagine from my side but somehow they prevailed. And some even thrived (like Helen Keller).

  3. So there I was struggling with my pain and sense of self-esteem when I had got a call from the courier guy to pick up something I had ordered. He couldn’t come up and I got irritated that I had to go downstairs. I went down and asked him why he couldn’t come up the elevator to deliver. I felt irked to the max really because it isn’t easy for me to go out with this vision. Anyways, I took the package and my whole mood was that of unnecessary brooding. I always hate it when it happens because I know better but at the same time thought it’s okay. I am human anyway.

  4. Which led into the 034 event where some guy was hating on SubClub on the forum here. This was a good distraction for me because it gave me the chance to remind myself why I was using SubClub products and what SaintSovereign’s and Fire’s aims are with the things they create. And how many times the results of using these products changed my life. After writing my reply to 034, I felt right again. I guess writing and journaling allows us to put our thoughts down into something concrete and more clear. Whereas allowing them to float in our head leads to chaos, at least for me.

  5. Another thing which I have to constantly remind myself is that I shouldn’t be frustrated with not getting results as fast as I would like them. Surely I would like someone to wave a magic wand in front of my eyes (and other health issues) and all my problems regarding that would just go away. But that’s not exactly how manifestation works. Some things can happen fast, some things take time and I need to learn how to take things in my stride while at the same time be grateful for what I have (including the powerful tools here).

  6. So if 034 is reading this, thanks man. Sometimes your enemy teaches you things they don’t intend to and today I learnt that despair is temporary. This too shall pass.

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Day 5: Ultimate Artist x1

  1. Woke up at 6am in the morning even though I set my clock to 7.30. It’s Sunday damn it! But I was pleased to see this part of UA working because I like waking up early and used to struggle with being the early morning bird before. Not anymore.

  2. My hair felt more fuller today morning. After showering, my head felt heavier with the wet head of hair. That felt good. As if my hair growth is accelerating. After a couple of hours, I even checked my hair by photographing the top of my head and checking the pics. It does look like more bald spots are being covered. Thanks WANTED ZP.

  3. Since today was a Sunday, I relaxed a bit. I was thinking about what SaintSovereign said a couple of days ago about All is Mind (AiM) and Panpsychism. I searched for AiM on youtube and digested around 4 to 5 videos on it. After this, I felt I very much needed this way of thinking in my life.

  4. I began to challenge my thoughts whenever I had negative ones. I met all of them head on and unafraid. Unashamed too. I started converting them into positive thoughts. Like my thoughts about being unattractive, I changed to the self-image of being a muscled-hunk with shoulder length hair. Felt really good. I continued doing this. Thinking about money, I began to feel grateful for what I had. And visualized receiving even more in my bank account. I then day-dreamed about having my own luxury apartment and chilling out in it. Imagining having sex with gorgeous, feminine women who desired me. And the list goes on.

  5. My mind and body felt very light and full of Light as the day went on. This is the way I was meant to think and feel. I should always remember this. All is mind. All is bliss. And I am all.

  6. Anyone trying out this way of thinking and feeling (and hence living) along with running ZP titles, will feel it easier to do so. Since Zero Point is the ultimate expression of the concept of All is Mind, you will find it natural to do so (and many times automatic since these concepts are surely built into ZP).

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Day 6: Rest Day

  1. I talked to a friend/mentor of mine regarding the concept of “all is mind”. He’s knowledgeable about law of attraction and manifestation. He adviced me to research the concept of Biocentrism. So went down the rabbit hole today with regard to conciousness and how it (scientifically) affects matter, space and time. It was an intriguing subject and I dived all in. Those who want to know more about it can look up “Biocentrism Robert Lanza” on youtube. He has some good books on it too.

  2. Had some crazy vivid (and explicit) dreams when I took a nap in the afternoon today. Too R-rated for the forum. Suffice to say I even felt it :grin:

  3. Also finding myself researching literature and the writing of it. Poetry, both short and epic, was one of the main topics I explored today. Am getting a few ideas on what to write about but it isn’t fully crystallized yet. Am sure it will come to me in due time.

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