Raphael | Paragon of the WANTED Artist - a Zero Point Journey Within

Journals - Major Programs
#21

Day 7: WANTED ZP x1, Paragon ZP x1

  1. Good “morning wood” when I woke up. “GoOd MoRnInG, wOoD!!!” That’s becoming quite predictable each time I play WANTED the previous night.

  2. Speaking of WANTED, once in a while I have this feeling of being taller than usual but when objectively comparing myself to the objects around me, I am not taller yet. This must be a case of “mind over matter” or more aptly “mind before matter”. As in my mind now believes I got taller. And later the matter aka physical body will follow.

  3. I think that the combo of WANTED and Paragon is pushing me to return to my One Day a Meal plan to lose some weight and be healthier. At the same time, I don’t want to go hungry nor lose out on physical shifting which requires more nutrition. Will have to mull on this some more before deciding. Maybe after a while, the Fat Burn component of WANTED ZP will kick in and then I will start losing weight. Since the plan is to run this stack for a long time, I guess it’s just a matter of time.

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#22

One HUUUGE Meal per day it is :joy:

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#23

Haha I might end up doing just that most probably.

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#24

Day 8: Rest Day

  1. I am in an in-between place where nothing is happening. This feels both good and bad. The bad being that I am feeling a bit stuck. The good being that I don’t feel so bad about it. More like waiting patiently in a calm manner.

  2. Paragon ZP is beginning to give me a mindset of not caring too much about my health issues. This is good. Previously I was too worried about my “disabilities” and how they get in the way of what I want. Now am more like, “okay, it might not be easy but I don’t care. I will do things whether they are difficult to do or not regardless of my condition”. I think this is an erosion of the victim mindset I used to carry around a lot of it for a major part of my life even though I tried hard to get rid of it. Self-pity is dangerous and will not only put you down but is absolutely unattractive.

  3. For the past few days, I was remembering the times when I was younger and discovered the concept of the Alpha male and thought I had to out-alpha everyone with stare-down competitions and having the last word. It’s hilarious when I think about it now. I won’t define the alpha male concept right now or talk about what it really is and really isn’t in this post because that’s not the point of why am talking about it. It’s more about taking on a personality that we are not competent to be.

  4. For example, suppose I have not fought a day in my life and then try to challenge a martial artist. It could be viewed as brave or stupid but either way am gonna end up eating dust before I know it.

  5. In the same way, a certain degree of success, strength (both mental and physical), money, etc are needed to embody a person who can look someone else in the eye and not look away. Not because he is looking to win staring matches or defeat someone else. But because through overcoming his own struggles and obstacles, he has become a man with no fear.

  6. And that’s what I want to become. Not a posturing fool who just thinks he is better. But who shows his courage by being useful and successful.

  7. It is an essential component of good story-telling whether in books or movies to “show, don’t tell”. And that would be an excellent way to live our own life-stories too.

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#25

This is textbook of what I am feeling especially on RICH and CHOSEN

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#26

Possibly Primer yes? What do you think? Any other feelings going along with it?

#27

I keep visualizing myself on an all inclusive luxury resort kind of automatically. My thoughts and dreams are also showing how my brain is subconsciously trying to come up with business ideas to implement in my life. Its like one of those combination decoders in spy movies is running through my head trying to find the right combination without emotion, just machine like.

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#28

That’s really good. Very visually descriptive. Am sure it will bear fruit.

#29
  1. Today’s realization:

The first realization about common sense is finding out that many people lack it.

The second realization about common sense is finding out the many times we ourselves lacked it.

The second realization is more powerful.

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#30

Day 9: Ultimate Artist Qv2 x1

  1. Had this surreal dream in the afternoon where I almost felt like I was in between conciousness and sleep where I realized that I was dreaming while at the same time felt that I could Astral Project out my body. Making it more interesting was that it was in the middle of a sex dream where I had slept with a younger woman and then was doing her mom when I had that lucid dream + astral experience. Then I woke up as if I was jumping out my body in a smooth way. Very interesting. Maybe ZP helps with being the person you want to BE even in your dreams so I guess am a WANTED man even when I am in La La Land. I had also wanted to lucid dream more often and experience better astral projections so maybe something might be happening in those departments too.

  2. Noticed that my cheek bones are wider and my chin is beginning to get that Chad Jaw look even though am eating like crazy.

  3. The first week on the ZP Testing had me a bit too easily irritated at people. But now am back to being nonchalant and kind again.

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#31

That’s right. You have to make the right discipline to fully enjoy freedom!
UA is very good. UA is artist genius. When I was running ua, many teachers saw my talent and cried. (I actually saw they tears)

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#32

@Lion How long have you been running wanted ZP or not ZP?

#33

I ran WANTED ZP during testing for 45 days

And WANTED ZP during Public Preview for 9 days

And WANTED Qv2 for around 2 months (I must admit I don’t remember this timeframe very well)

#34

Just read parts of this new journal. Totally relateable.

Thinking about running wanted because sometimes I feel unwanted by the women I love. Or I figure that out myself. I have time.

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#35

WANTED is also good for living in a reality where everyone (or at least most) people are very kind, helpful and polite to you. Both men and women. A WANTED man who is loved by all.

So sometimes when seduction isn’t working, at least I enjoy the loveliness of people.

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#36

Man, that is such an awesome result. Hope UA inspires me and inspires others through my writing too. Thanks for sharing this.

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#37

Day 10: Rest Day

  1. I was sitting in my chair in the evening just watching my mind shoot out thoughts (an unfocused daydream) when I felt a surge of relaxed energy come over me. I felt uplifted and comforted in a way. The immediate next thought in my mind was “is today the 10th day in my stack?” And yes it was.

  2. The reason the 10th day is significant is that I also had a breakthrough as a ZP Tester on the 10th of testing WANTED ZP. I had already talked about giving up religion publicly in my home and the sense of relief I felt after that happened on the 10th day. The sensation I felt today was similar to that but in a more spiritual way.

  3. My mind is telling me everything is gonna be okay. And I wore my pink-tinted glasses and soaked in the feeling for a while. I am still feeling the delicious aftermath of that right now.

  4. If you feel like changing your stack, I think you can wait a couple of days and experience something like this. Especially with ZP. As much as ZP is fast, it sometimes takes time for our mind, body and spirit to catch up to the Zero Point. Wait and be rewarded for your patience and determination. And remember that self-discipline, if it doesn’t reward you, is its own reward.

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#38

Day 11: WANTED ZP x1, Paragon ZP x1

  1. Noticed that am taking in too much information in recent years. Too much social media, youtube, webpages, music, movies, etc. Nothing bad with information but I need more time to just sit and think about things. Even boredom is good for the mind. Unfortunately in this day of easy dopamine fixes in relation to knowledge, my mind is overloaded.

  2. I was just sitting on my chair for a while and allowed my mind to space out. Felt good. Did more of that. Walked around without anything plugged into my ears. Sat on my bed without watching youtube. Now that’s freedom. We already have too many thoughts in our own heads. Imagine adding other people’s thoughts to that haha.

  3. Similar to that, am giving too much advice (both in real life and on the forum). I need to back out of that a bit. Walking the talk is better. Action speaks louder than words anyways.

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#39

I can totally relate about taking in too much information. 2 or 1 year ago I used to listen to a lot of podcasts, audiobooks and reading books. A some point, it was like my head could not take in any more information. I was having information overload.
At some point, you need to do something with the information you consume. I was just passively taking it in back then.

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#40

Absolutely agree. I need to channel all that into creating instead of just consuming. But what to create is my struggle. I think UA, reduced consumption and more free flow thinking will eventually lead me to some good ideas.

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