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Journals - Major Programs
#142

So, went to a restaurant/bar tonight (I tried at least). Loud music and all, my social anxiety was very high.

Me and my mate arrived late so there was a huge line, we waited 45 minutes and it didn’t advance a lot so we went back to his place to grab a drink. When we were waiting, the girl behind me was with her male friend asked me how much did the coat check cost. Didn’t know if she wanted to launch a discussion, but she wasn’t my top attractiveness (I think! at the moment I was so anxious I couldn’t think about flirting!!)

When I knew we were leaving, my anxiety dropped a little bit. I believe I caught 2-3 woman looking at me in the station (eye contact), then I went to my friend’s place, we grabbed 2 drinks, and I went home, again, I caught a few eyes contact, but with two drink I had a lot less anxiety being around people :slight_smile:

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#143

Stop using conditional language like “I believe.” If you saw them and you know that you did, just say that and watch your results snowball. Trust me, by constantly wondering “was that a result” when something out of the ordinary occurs, you short circuit your results.

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Main Disc. Thread - Quintessence: Zero Point (Experimental) (Part 1)
#145

Yeah, well, definitly in the metro after my drink my eyes got locked in with a girl. And I was just “fuck why is she staring at me!”.

She was with her dad (or a much older guy)! I was like omg, so stressful.

#146

Ok, so I believe that switching to only Wanted and Primal Seduction was the right move for me.

As SaintSovereign underlined, I keep using conditionnal language and it is because I don’t trust myself to be this attractive.

With ZP, my reality seems to be in a shift. Somedays feeling attractive, some other feeling like my low confidence self… Listened to my two loops of ZP this morning, PS and Wanted, didn’t feel different, except a little bit tired.

So far, I’ve noticed on PS and Wanted (and remember were only few days in!!) :

  • More looks from girls
  • More confidence to look at people
  • Definitly more playful and teasy
  • Woman asking me questions (happened twice)
  • Day where I feel attractive (I just felt in flow)
  • More acceptance toward life and myself
  • More sex drive
  • Thinking about woman and sex more
  • More strength in the gym
  • More testosterone (it seems, numbers are not in yet!)
  • Lower fat

My next goals :

  • Accepting that I’m a hot piece of meat :sunglasses:
  • Reduce social anxiety to ZERO
  • Loving myself more and more
  • Having girls overtly coming to say to me I’m cute/attractive/hot

Before I start working I will focus on this part of my life. I want to try and use ZP’s power to make it as permanent as possible in my mind. For now there is still place where I can doubt myself, but once I get the engine warmed up more, I’m sure results will snowball like crazy!

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#147

@GoldenTiger once you got a grip on your career i feel that your romance life will automatically improve overtime.

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#148

Yes you are right, when I was working and making money I had more confidence in myself it was easier.

I think I’ll be able to make more than 100K so it will be good for my confidence. But it would be cool to still have the confidence without the money hahaha

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#149

Today a girl asked me question that why you not married yet and about personal life
Another girl looked at me and smiled
I don’t why I was very pretty low

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#150

You are hot too then :sunglasses::fire:

What do you mean?

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#151

are you eating enough?

#152

I meant today was my rest day…I felt terrible today…very tired
I didn’t even smile back to few girls…it’s like old anxiety came back…I felt very happy yesterday till evening… yesterday was wanted and I listened to that night before sleeping

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#153

I am eating more than usual actually…i am on diet since i am building muscle but I am eating extra carbs since i started zp

#154

are you drinking enough water and sleeping enough?

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#155

Yeah, I get these ups and down too. Your mind is getting used to your new reality!

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#156

Yeah i usually take 5 litre water because I do take creatine

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#157

Ohh then it’s good thing…I don’t care about current problems of my future will be bright

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#158

Here is my shape update

Before ZP - November 22 :

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Now- December 10 :

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My sleep was shitty as fuck, but I definitly lost fat on arms and shoulders.

Same conditions for both pics!

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#159

Your shoulders are more rounded and your love handles are smaller, good progress man :muscle:t3::sunglasses:

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#160

Yeah, and right now I’m working on my sleep.

Since I got my oura ring I keep seeing I get some “be careful” with my sleep because I don’t get enough REM and deep sleep… It seems I sleep like 5 hours a night so I dropped caffeine and see how it goes.

I usually have insomnia in the winter, but I never had an analysis of my sleep.

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#161

Posting my goals in my journal!

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#162

You are having good progress.

Maybe the only bad side effect of journaling (or journaling compulsively) is overthinking.

Overthinking leads to doubting. This gives more power to the old programming that resists change.

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