Things became clear for me today.
When I’ll get laid, Wanted will be able to click in my subconscious. There is some discrepancy between Wanted’s reality and my current reality.
It did the same with Khan. But actually I feel like Wanted continues to make me grow, I don’t need external validation… I even deleted my failed tinder account 
Not a care in the world.
I get laid, I don’t? Who cares. I know it will happened eventually… And from there it will snowball.
My old fwb just hit me up… I might see her… It would be a good moment to test out diamond and prove to myself that I’m sexually confident.
My sleep has been good the last night, it’s the only night Oura hasn’t told me “Be careful”
I’m pretty happy with that, the only change I made was opening my window to let the cold ass winter wind get into my room and lower the temp 
Maybe your body needed to cool down cause WZP is making you too hot 
That’s the only logical explanation, also, I’ll share this here too.
I suddently don’t care of getting laid or not. Of talking to girls or not haha. Pretty sure this is Wanted in action!
It’s like since I’ve stop trying to see “is it working??” It’s still working more!
Might do Wanted+Mogul+Khan St1 for my next 21 days.
Very different night tonight, I asked two girls to pay me a drink!
Unfortunatly, nobody wanted to do it, but I was very insistent on my goals hahaha I had fun and even the girl my friend is seeing tryed to hook me up with her friend (unfortunatly she had covid so she had to stay home).
Oh, also, my friend gave me his drink when he went to the bathroom… I don’t know why I told him I was going to put some GHB in his drink… So I went and asked like 5 person for GHB to spike my friend’s drink 
That’s Illegal, I’ll try to stay within legal boundary of stuff next time.
The gym are officially closed now here! I will have to put my plans on hold for the jeff nippard program. Will do it when everything reopen 
I must I feel very different from when I started, I listened to my last two loops before my 5 days break. I will be allowed to run my next loop on december 26!
I now feel like there are no right answer, which could be disregarded as minor, but it’s actually a very big shift in my perception of reality. It actually means that I can choose the answer I want, that someone else answer is as good as mine, and whatever people want to do, or I want to do, I should just be proud of what I do.
I’ve also regained a lot of contact with my lost sexuality, being able to say I’m attracted to a girl, feel that attraction, it’s very nice 
My life perception is changed after the first 21 days, especially since I was pretty much unstable mentally because of my “bad” thought, now I don’t have them anymore and I feel much more freer and happy!
So boriiing, all the people I was supposed to meet this week canceled because of the amount of increasing cases of covid.
Just learned few minutes ago that I’ve been into contact with someone who had covid, I’m going to do a home test tomorrow and see how it goes Hopefully I can see my family member without putting anyone in danger!
I’m thinking, after my first day break, should I only stack Mogul and Wanted? It would allow me to run 1 loop of wanted every other day, maybe it would be easier for my mind to grow through Wanted archetype and aura. As ZP contains innate healing, I wonder if Khan St1 is necessary, knowing how Qv2 was harsh on me.
Mogul would only help me manage my money and work, prepare for my career.
Ok, this morning a woman told me hi in the street hahaha
My eyes was lost, she was not so hot, but she just told me hi and I was so surprised like "were in montreal here, nobody talks to each other jk jk
A guy confronted me in the line where I was waiting for a covid test…
I was on the sidewalk, and he stoped asked me to move, I have to admit, I was like in the center, moving around, I wasn’t on the extreme side of the sidewalk… He still took some time to stop and asked me to let him pass… He could of just walk past me.
I don’t think he did this in good faith, so I just looked at him, and told him to move. He was not moving, or moving a little bit, I didn’t listen to him I just kept telling him to just go on and move… Fucking idiot can’t move 1 feet aside, he needs me to move the distance, I mean, how much energy is that.
Once he passed, he kept looking at me while talking about “having good manners”… I just stared at him, pointed at the sidewalk and told him “keep walking mate”. Everybody was staring at us in the line. Finally he was out of sight… I get that I was taking up space on the sidewalk, but it’s not like I was blocking the path… I felt like he had a large bubble and was in a bad mood, rather that saying “sorry, I’m gonna pass”, he had to stop and tell me to move. What an asshole.
Also, I saw my fuckfriend today, I can say, I had trouble getting an erection, finally we just talked and I masturabated her hahaha, I was there, gotta take care of her.
I didn’t had sex, I guess I still have problems regarding my relationship with my sexuality…
I also noticed that I was a lot more open about who I was and all, I don’t know if it’s Wanted or what, but I’m more comfortable with sharing myself.
Finally, all of my christmas event have been cancelled, we are officially in lockdown here in montreal.
Probably that I’ll try to put some focus on work with Mogul or … I’ll see if there are titles for work and carrer that are dropped for Christmas (Stark maybe??)… I’ll also see if I continue running diamond or if I run more of Wanted to try make me more attractive while everything in on lockdown. One thing is certain: Wanted stay (to continue and work of myself), PS is out (because I will have less opportunity to go out, I don’t want PS pushing me to go out)… We’ll see about the rest!
I know why I have trouble with my erection, I feel guilty if I’m focusing on my pleasure!! I feel like I should be giving!
Are you taking anti-depression pills?
I’m running Wanted Qv2 and my friend’s blood irrigation is improving though i didn’t have any sex health related issues.
yeah, I’m on 20mg prozac and 150mg wellbutrin, I know proxac is not so great for sex 
but wellbutrin is supposed to be good!
I had precum so I think it’s more psychological than physical!!
Soooooo
I soo don’t care about woman right now. I don’t want to settle for girls I don’t find attractive, I want to find her attractive, but at the same time, I really want to have a connection, that she can rival me intellectually (from my 118 IQ points 
, I’m the dummest monkey in my family!)
So, I want to connect with a girl, I want her to show me how smart she is before I want to make her cum! And all that stuff, I’m still thinking about what stack I’ll move on with on december 26, for sure Wanted is there, I want to continue developp that attitude and self acceptance.
Will see for the rest, but I’d also like to work on my research paper and be a little more serious about pushing my carrer (at least work on it a little bit more) since it seems woman are getting pushed back in terms of priority in my life.
You are very negative about yourself
You really need woman if you are not your own best friend?
Well, I write this, I actually compare to myself… I got 118… I don’t know if it’s depression for the past year that soften my brain but I always had a feeling that I was like 130… My verbal flow, analytic capacity and problem solving skills are too high! Engineering students are reputed to have an average of 120 IQ and I had a reputation for being pretty fucking good at solving problem when I was an engineering student!
So depression affected my mental capacity and I can feel it (especially my creativity, memory and problem solving ability - thinking outside the box). I’ll rebuild this! I don’t feel limited by this, I just realised that I still have some work to do, I’ll probably run Quantum limitless when it will come out in ZP to heal my brain
Wanted made me realise I don’t need hahaha, or I don’t want a companionship I’m not completly interested in!
You shouldn’t because you aren’t okay with yourself, the way you write it gives me an underbelly feeling you want to “do” stuff externally, but you can choose to be that already.
Be your own best friend, work on your inner world, you can’t find the woman you want if you aren’t there yourself.
I could write a lot, so I tried to keep it short. I’d say maybe it’s worth taking a look into Stoicism and Neville Goddard/Lester Levenson/Joseph Murphy
Start unrooting those negative charges, the rest will come fluidly.
I hope it helps
