My father is a rich guy(not very rich) and a politician in a society which power goes from father to son(a typical third world country) I want to be a worthy successor.
But I am facing some problems, at first I have to be a good leader and a good leader needs some qualities which I don’t have. He needs to be fearless and by that I mean to execute fast. There are two types of execution, in conversation and in doing stuff. In conversation I mean by leading the conversation even if there is a thousand people crowd. Coming up with new topics, expressing your ideas fast and not keeping them in your mind(when I talk about something like a persuasion, when I think about it later better ideas come to my mind that I could say and I get frustratedso it should come fast) humor, asking for others ideas, shifting attention changing the topic, reframing fast(when I have an argument with someone he outframes me or he says something that proves me wrong and after an hour the thought which could prove him wrong comes to my mind, it does not come in the time it’s meant to).so my main problem in this part is not sharing my views with people and thinking before sharing them, I listened to a 4voice hypnosis session named fealess living by george hutton and It helped me alot in this part but since it was a 4 voice hypnosis session the result were short term but intense.
The second part od leadership is leading the execution of stuff like planning(the fastest planning and the most productive planning among others) and then telling others what to do or start doing a part of it and telling others what to do(the one who give the and plans, leads.
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So my problem: I fear talking about my ideas and also executing my ideas and I think it’s a deep fear rooted in me because of my father. For example: in a 5 people crowd, someone says something about sth or he has a problem which needs guiadance about. I dont think about my ideas and speak my mind and tell him what to do or tell my opinion on the topic. I get just silent and and look up to others. Another ex: I say my opinion on a matter another person disagrees or vice versa and I cant outframe him in the moment(i think its because his presence and belief he has on his Idea) but later I come up with a reason which I can win the argument with.
Example: I am sitting with my father and others and my mom comes and says she’s sick, instead of saying hey lets get you to a doctor or what is your problem, I just stay silent and show no response and subconciously wait for others to solve the problem.
Example: we are going to the doctor and my driver is going the wrong direction. And when he’s turning wrong, I am thinking about something else and all of a sudden I see he is wrong. Or I come up with the idea of which way to go lately and my driver leads before me.
Ex: I am not present in the moment and conversations
Overall I am this dependent guy who does not have idea of himself and look up for others.
Tip: when I smoked weed I was brilliant( in executio,reasoning and coming up fast with new ideas and leading). So the physical shape of my brain as an ADHD guy does not matter, but it’s more about beliefs which repress me. And thc numb that part of my brain which is limiting me.
I want to know is there any subliminal in here doing that?
For now I am using ascended mogul
I am really waiting for your advice guys