Hey all its been almost 2 weeks since my last post
I will be totally honest not much has changed for me. I have thought a lot about life since the last time i posted. I am still being inconsistent with things but slowly getting more insight on what i want to do with my life. I have yet to really put WB to much use, i don’t really expect to see much out of it till month 2-3.
I am still struggling with PMO but it is getting easier slowly to not do it. But man when those urges hit they hit hard.
I can see things changing in the long run but they are super slow to start.
Something i have noticed since i started my subclub journey almost 5 years ago is that i have had many better times being super inconsistent with my stacks then not ever starting subs.
I haven’t exactly been the most honest with the stacks i have run either. i tend to say only a few things i run while leaving others out. In essence of that for the past few weeks i have been running 3 customs, and 5 subs. I think that most of the growth i am seeing so far is mainly because QTKS mixing with these 3 healing titles i am running (K1 + KB1 + DR:LD) and the other 2 are (GLM + Spartan). The healing titles are certainly doing a number on me but in an awesome way. I plan on continuing on with this stack atleast with K1 + KB1 till atleast my birthday Oct 2nd maybe even till November.
I have noticed that since thursday i have had the thought of switching subs and wanting to change my QTKS up a bit. But i am not going to give into that mindset of stack switching right away anymore. I can feel that if i just push through these times that it will be 10x more worth it in the long run.
I am slowly trying to work on breaking bad habits that i have and replacing them with better ones. One thing that i have always done as a bad habit besides PMO is Gaming or Watching Tv not in moderation. I am not saying either one is bad but for me i just get so drawn in and time flies by especailly with CoD DMZ because each match is like 20-40 mins if you stay for the entire thing. Tv/movies aren’t the worst because i can usually do other stuff while i watch or listen. But those are 2 things in my life i have never wanted to admit to that i have a problem with. I just wish i could get that drawn in again to work or writing. In my early 20’s i had so much drive and ambition to want more and even with the subs i still haven’t reached that spot where i am so focused nothing can stop me. I am not saying that’s the fault of the subs because it is definitely mine.
I bet you all are wondering why i added the 3 healing titles… I decided that i need to break down everything holding me back and while i know it might take longer for me to see any results just from my dense stack. I thought i might aswell just see the full extent of what QTKS can do. I predict that month 2 and 3 if i continue the stack the way it is will be a lot of crazy changes and hopefully more consistent actions. I also predict it will be a lot of healing and breaking down of everything aspect of my life.
But with all that being said i am determined to see this journey through.
Hope everyone has a wonderful week
My next phase with QTKS custom is to do Khan Stage 4 + Stark + Wanted Black. I think Emperor is a great stepping stone for that. It may also be why i am running Khan Stage 1 right now. I plan on starting that either in December or January.
I plan on updating this journal more often again. I need get in the habit of journaling and meditation daily.