QTKS: primal emperor

[themadsexyscientist]

So I decided to start this journal because it’s only been 3 days, only on one minute of my emperor and primal stack qtks and all I can say is wow, this is different.

1. Felt way more confident today, urge for porn is no longer there, granted its been only a few days
2. Went to get coffee today and usually I’m on my phone but today I was able to stand with confidence and felt dominant and didn’t care how people perceived me
3. My coworkers have been giving one of three responses: They either distance themselves, become very friendly or close or they get irritated, same with family.

I’m suppose to run wanted name embed but I don’t want to ruin this awesome run I’m on, I’m tempted to create a wanted qtks to run aside each and see where it takes me. Original plan was to run QTKS and wanted name embed but I don’t want to get recon, I rather run this QTKS custom alone for a month then see where it takes me then add wanted QTKS instead of breaking a good streak.

There’s a confidence and reassurance that I got this, that I can accomplish a lot. Recon isn’t present right now but it could be because I have anti recon in my custom…I think recon might be disguising it self where its not in my face

Socially I’m way more confident than I thought.

Edit:

I did get recon yesterday now that I think about it: I felt ugly and felt like I needed to better my skin

I also got recon today when I had second thoughts that one of my coworkers was jealous of the new me and might try to sabotage my success

[themadsexyscientist]

QTKS is so different, it’s so natural that it’s scary lol.

For ex, when I’m out in public, I’m usually like tense and inward but today I was very like outward and like free, and comfortable In my own skin. I just feel like I can talk to anyone, approach any woman and just talk to her and I’ve developed a teasing attitude of like “I can have you if I wanted to but I don’t want to right now, but I could if I was bored” type attitude.

I increased my listening up to 3 mins for my qtks, still running wanted, ran it for 30 secs only once and the tiredness and fatigue hit hard yesterday.

I think I slept for more than 10 hrs and still woke up tired.

Recon is also weird. It’s minimal and it comes and goes, but the main thing is how it makes me think the people around me are jealous of the new me and trying to actively sabotage my success. This wasn’t a thing when I ran wanted named embed, honestly I didn’t care.

I’ve noticed I’m more playful, confident, much bolder than before. I have a sense of like power deep with in where I don’t have to think much about anything, I just do it.

Non neediness is down most definitely.

I also think my neighbor, who is married, might be trying to make a move on me, I’ll have to see how this run plays out first. The reason I say this because women have been practically going out of their way to get my attention whether parking in my parking space “accidentally”, asking me for favors that are like unreasonable after I’ve said hi to them, most of them have been unattractive.

There’s this one woman I like, who I work with who I think might have a crush on my coworker. In the past, I would be crushed to see someone I like make a move on someone who I found very annoying but now I don’t really care. If she wants him, thats on her, I just move on and find another one.

The ability to just let go and not care about what other think and be less needy has been on this QTKS run and lets not mention, the urge to fap has gone completely, it feels like a thing of the past.

Tiredness is hitting still…is this normal for anyone who has run QTKS…I only have two cores, 20 modules and only running it for 3 mins, 3rd day listening to it. Only ran wanted name embed once for 30 secs during this run

*memory, creativity and being able to come up with creative ideas have been easy to come by.

*Edit: I’m starting to understand seduction and the importance of non neediness in attraction and how society has destroyed men’s chances of being with women. Like today I realized that men have been lied to about what attracts women. What we think would attract us we think would attract women but women, I’m starting to realize, don’t give two Fxxcks about men who chase them and would rather chase the guy. Rom coms have unconsciously taught guys to be stalkers and needy cucks who will bend over backwards for her and that only disgusts them more, and the reason why they tend to go for guys who ignore them, treat them bad and who don’t care about them. This is something I’m working to unlearn.

Small steps to building my inner subconscious empire that is unshakable and that draws gorgeous women, loyal friends and incredible wealth

[themadsexyscientist]

Went to the store today and recon hit. I felt like my old introverted self again, feeling self conscious on how people were perceiving me, but then I remember a quote from someone here, sorry if I don’t remember the user, but they said something on the lines of, QTKS is like taking two steps back getting ready to make the jump or something along those line. I used to just stare at my phone and avoid eye contact but today I felt weird looking at my phone, pretending to avoid eye contact. Its like my old self was like “ooooh people, be small, be invisible and look away” but the new me was like “look up, don’t look at your phone, walk bold, maintain eye contact” and the conflict between the two beliefs made me feel awkward and out of place, like an internal battle inside me pushing me out of my shell…its not easy though, even if its QTKS.

Good news is while in my insecure self, being self conscious walking down the aisle of the store, I saw one woman who literally was at first walking opposite where I was walking, out of my way and all of a sudden switched paths, walked right in my path, stopped and pretended to look at some drinks literally right in the middle of my path. If I was on my phone, I probably would’ve bumped into her no doubt. She was attractive but I was in recon and in my head to approach. She clearly liked what she saw and I didn’t realize that till later when I got home.

[themadsexyscientist]

The one thing that I’ve noticed with this stack is that I’m way more authoritative and have very clear boundaries as before I would waiver. Now I’m like no is no. I’m very clear on those lines. I make exceptions but if something is not aligned with my belief then I say no. There are a lot of people though who will try to cross the line or cross boundaries but I’m like no. The one issue I have though with this stack is more specifically wanted name embed. It seems to be bringing some recon and it sucks, not going to lie but QTKS has kind of balanced it a little.

Wanted might be getting upgraded to QTKS too just to keep everything running smooth like butter.

The one thing that has come up is jealousy. I seem to be overly jealous when it comes to guys talking with a coworker I like, I don’t know why. A lot of insecurities coming up big time.

feeling very groggy once I increased my time to 5 mins for wanted name embed and qtks and got hit with harsh recon… will take some 3-4 days and rest

I had a gorgeous woman walk past me the other day, I said hi and she didn’t even look my way, at first I was disappointed but looking back now after reading this, she was more likely then not, testing me to see how I would react and I failed because my body language got small, I didn’t say anything after she ignored me but my body language said it all.

The realizations on QTKS are pretty crazy like how women can be testing you, your masculinity and your core without even realizing it.

I also realized that a beautiful woman is getting hit on so many times that her brain can pick up on who the confident masculine guys automatically are without a second thought and who the weak non confident men are way before they open their mouths.

I also realized that one-itis is the single worst thing that can destroy your chances with women automatically. The minute you start thinking about just one woman and how you can “get her” no matter how hard you try, you will come off as so needy and eww that she’ll think you’ve never got laid before. One of my friends who is a total asshole, gets laid all the time, and pretty much doesnt care too much for the women, has women, even the ones who don’t know him, literally asking him for sex. I noticed also that women can pick up that he gets laid a lot and they don’t care, they all want a piece of the action.

I still have a lot to work on

QTKS has been smooth but I think it may have been muddied by wanted name embed which was giving me recon and causing me to watch porn or masturbate but haven’t since I started my QTKS run…

After this run, it will just be QTKS

[themadsexyscientist]

Today I had the craziest realization, so I don’t know if I’ve said this before but I was raised by an emotionally unstable mother who never really gave me the love I needed and it was detrimental growing up because I sought the approval of women, especially beautiful women, which never played out well. I also pursued women who were emotionally unavailable and ignored women who were actually interested in me. I’ve been running attraction and seduction titles but the one thing that I was missing deep down is self love. Deep love for myself that I don’t need to look outward for validation…

Would a sub like love bomb help with this

also noticed my female coworkers have been testing me recently. QTKs started out strong but when I introduced wanted back into the mix, things got kind of muddy…I guess my brain is recalibrating. I did noticed a woman checking me out when I went out to get food yesterday…a few women staring while walking but none attractive

[themadsexyscientist]

One subtle thing I’ve noticed besides the urge to watch porn or masturbate almost completely gone, is the things that used to

cause me tremendous anxiety, no longer bug me and if they do, I just seem to get over it in a few mins , this is only 10

or so days on QTKS for my emperor-primal stack.

I have noticed some self sabotaging tendencies though, like when things are going great, I find away to

unconsciously self sabotage almost like my brain is returning to the old self. I’m getting better at

recognizing it though

Before this, I ran emperor for 30 sec and it whooped my butt, before that, months before, I ran it for 3

cycles with my custom, recon was better but still noticeable hard to handle, now its smooth with QTKS.

I’ve been getting a lot of memories of regret and my belief system has been questioned… and have been needy as hell…looking for reassurance from women…I got a lot of work to do internally

the one thing that has been really hard in all this is the reoccurring thought that things can’t get better but I’m pushing through.

Also I seem to be having issues with the people around me especially those who are manipulative. Boundaries are getting stronger

[themadsexyscientist]

Today I was getting blatant stares from women, not all of course but a lot, some more obvious than others but still all I could think about it how needy, how desperate and how insecure I still was. I have a bad case of oneitis, basically there’s this one person in my life who I like and they don’t like me back…I don’t think…I’ve been on dating sites…clubs aren’t my forte but I’m forcing myself to go. My job is very anti social, trying to get a better more social job…I guess this is what happens when you increase your run time from 5mins to 15 mins…not sure why I did that, now my I’ve full of doubt, insecurity, neediness and everything you can think of, but in the midst of all that I still have hope. I started using red light near infrared , which has been very interesting because it seems to amplify everything. Like before yesterday, before I used it, I wasn’t noticing much due to recon but when I used it today and yesterday, its like my brain has extra energy to push through challenges. The one I used is an intranasal device and a vagus nerve using infrared red light…the times I’ve used it, I’ve noticed I’m more calmer, sharper and more on the ball… but maybe its all placebo, would be interested to see what @SaintSovereign and @Fire have to say about this and whether its okay to use this

not promoting them or affiliated with them, just want to be on the safe side of things. If it can help with more energy and brain function without adverse effects to the sub then cool, if so then I’ll easily drop it. Just not sure though

[themadsexyscientist]

last night I had a very vivid dream, two actually, and its been a while, so the first was me matching with many women online on the app I’m on, it felt so real that I had to check my phone to make sure it was just a dream.

Then had a dream where someone stole my identity and was trying to imitate me but did horrible things to tarnish my name.

I rekindled with an old flame, or at least started talking with her again and she was open about hooking up. I first met her while I was running PS the first time around but we went our separate ways but on QTKS with primal seduction and here we are again.

my boss the other day was in her car, I think she noticed me coming from far away and started blasting music in her car. I ignored her and went to my car and then she honked her car, got my attention and then pretended like she didn’t do anything…busy on her phone. When I say she was blasting music loud, you could hear it from far away. We chatted for a bit but I wasn’t really feeling it.

Then I got embarrassed by one of my male bosses, it was very subtle and most guys would never catch it but women notice right away and it was almost like a dominance thing that got on my nerves after the fact, when I realized what had happened. So basically one of my male bosses was stopping by and has stuff that he was unloading from his trunk. I helped but he did something that made me realize he was trying to establish dominance. He made me get something in his trunk when he could’ve easily gotten it himself and essentially was like his way of reassuring himself of his masculinity and power of his employees. I mean he’s a nice guy and I generally like him but that small thing got on my nerves. I guess its a good sign as before that wouldn’t have bothered me at all

I have this feeling though that people don’t like me for whatever reason…same feeling I had on regular PS when I ran It back then.

[themadsexyscientist]

QTKS has been fun, like its only my fist cycle but man its been interesting

1. old friends who I haven’t talked to in months or even years coming out of the wood work, calling me, offering me job opportunities or just wanting to talk and see how I’m doing(odd because no one ever does this in my life) at least not the offering job opportunities or ways to get those opportunities.

2. I just feel dominant and masculine, I don’t need to act or do this, I just feel dominant which women at work have been noticing

3. I’ve noticed when I talk to women long enough, they start initiating touch and strong eye contact and I’ve been having strong eye contact recently, like strong dominant eye contact that feels comfortable and if anyone knows me they would say that thats a huge change, because usually I’m not the type to maintain strong eye contact at all

4. I noticed women doing things for me, like being overly nice but they are not my type unfortunately

5. one particular female coworker at work was super playful, fun and almost pushing for me to escalate through her body language, looking back now. Only problem is that I was slow to read her cues. She would “accidentally” touch me, face me completely with her body or be very playful with me.

6. I feel more comfortable in my skin, I don’t feel like I’m pretending. I can walk into any room and own it.

7. Women test me a lot now

I haven’t been “laid” yet but the seeds are there and I can feel myself getting there to being the man women love and want to sleep with.

Actually, the other day, the female attention I was getting was crazy and only seems to get very obvious when I’m outside talking with someone, where I notice women literally, no joke, staring at me way longer then is socially normal. From reading a lot of dating books, this isn’t normal for women to do. A woman will only give you strong eye contact when they want you badddddddd…keep in mind this isn’t like looking two times and looking away, this is like walking and still staring without saying a word. This happened twice the other day

Why I didn’t make a move?

was talking with a coworker and the women were average, not worth it…also at work

can’t wait to go clubbing where PS thrives

So far…QTKS is worth it. I have this feeling deep inside that I’m going to soon start getting laid so much that it will become normal as brushing my teeth without much thought.

[themadsexyscientist]

Started my second loop, thinking of adding DR:regeneration because of something that happened the other day. I was invited to an event and literally chickened out of it to stay at home because I had some social anxiety because I would be around a lot of people and was beating myself over it because a day before I was excited but then bailed at the last second so I decided that I needed deep healing, mainly my nervous system.

I have this fight or flight reaction that tends to over stress me in social situations and makes me prone to being a homebody.

I have noticed that cold showers help but can be a little too much sometimes on my nervous system and vagus nerve stimulators work phenomenal and have noticed that when my body is completely relaxed, results are incredible but I don’t want to chance it using a vagus stimulator, I rather just stick with a sub, even if it means adding regeneration to my stack, officially now full.

Back to the good stuff…QTKS

The one thing I’ve noticed is women are very nice while running this, stealing obvious looks, some looking discreetly from their peripheral and others blatantly touching, some who know me very well and others who I’ve only met for a day.

I have been feeling recon but it seems like the women around me don’t seem to notice but then again who knows.

I still struggle with putting myself out there and being social. due to trauma from getting bullied when I was in middle and high school, which would explain why I’m a homebody and have self sabotaged and got jobs that were introverted in nature.

Hoping regeneration helps…stay tuned

Cognitive abilities: This has been the biggest thing. I’m remembering things I didn’t realize I knew, I’m thinking out of the box and unique ideas have been coming to mind that would help my financial slump right now. I just think more easily and creatively, and more efficiently. I understand concepts way faster and things just seem to flow. I fix problems easier and more quickly without mental strain.

right now I’m in 2% of the loading phase, I need to run this QTKS 99 times to have it fully load into my brain, thats the mindset I have right now. Whatever it takes.

[themadsexyscientist]

I manifested a good looking FWB from a dating app who had their own place… but hesitated…thanks to this QTKS, I can see myself about to self sabotage when I get close to achieving my goals. I noticed just when I’m about to achieve something and I know this subconsciously, I self sabotage, I do something that makes me mess up everything I worked for. It’s almost like my brain tries to return me to what feels “normal” or rather “comfortable”, which really isn’t comfortable because when I’m sitting at home rather than going out, I feel frustrated and mad, and angry that I’m not out there socializing and building social empires.

But through journaling I realized that maybe…just maybe…I have some things I need to heal from that are keeping me from taking the big actions that produce life changing results

-in comes dragon reborn: regeneration (added it today and just doing 30 sec micro loops and will only get to 3 mins max this cycle)

I want to see if that will help me heal some of the things I have deep inside that I may not be aware of consciously

[themadsexyscientist]

So I added DR regeneration to my stack and wow…only 1 min so far and the fears that once plagued me from taking action, had no effect on me yesterday. I had to attend this one event yesterday and usually any gatherings make me run for the hills especially if its people I don’t know. But for whatever reason I agreed and didn’t cancel the last minute. The whole time I was there I was confident, bold and calm.

There is a lot of anger and frustration that I feel deep within being worked on, one of them is I found out that the woman I like is crushing hard on my friend and I seem to be like in the way, even though my friend could care less for her. Crazy thing is she friend zoned me, so theres a lot of anger and frustration from that situation.

But even with all that, in my mind, I’m like ok, thats cool, I’m going to build myself up to the point where I’ll be the man women chase and want to be with always.

After a month with no masturbation, I relapsed two days ago. DR: R must be working on something very deep because I had no urges then all of a sudden I had this strong urge to masturbate. It could also be that DR is healing the sexual side of PS and emperor, and also my wanted stack, which is bringing up a lot of horniness that can’t be contained inside but must be released some how. Feeling the urge to be with beautiful women but feeling frustrated because I have none in my life atm.

A lot of insecurities have come up, questions of my character and when I have journaled, it has came back to my childhood and my coping mechanisms. I keep realizing that my narcissistic mother screwed me up pretty bad and a lot of the healing is from the chaos she created from her anxious/avoidant attachment parenting.

The one caveat that I noticed though that someone mentioned on the forum is that my inner world seems at peace but the outer world, I’m a beast. I literally worked a whole day the other day from morning to night and wasn’t as burned out as I would be, its like worlds apart. It’s like I feel more restored and it might be the traumas from my past were weighing on me so much that it was stressing my body to the point where I could only work for only 8 hours a day, anymore and my nervous system would be exhausted beyond exhaustion

Still keeping hope though…the one thing thats keeping me going is looking back one year from now and laughing and the old me, like wow I’ve really changed.

edit: I think I may have manifested beautiful women at the event who were super friendly but it didnt go anywhere.

[themadsexyscientist]

I had a lady today literally ask me a question, related to work and stuff, then give me the"ohh I like what I see look" then proceeded to banter with me. Funny thing is, if she wanted to, she probably could’ve ignored me, but she didn’t. She tried to banter but it didn’t go anywhere but was a good sign nonetheless.

Today people were just talking to me randomly: this never happens. Also some women smiling after looking at me.

I’m hooking up with an old flame next week but not necessarily attracted to her but it’s better than watching porn, and masturbating.

Still, I wish I got the women I really wanted. The type of women who go to the gym and workout.

And also one lady who I work with, who’s attractive, it would be awesome to have a consistent friend with benefit with her but she sees me just as a friend.

It would be awesome to have a woman who is very attractive, who takes care of her health and is very fit…but I need to get fit also.

[themadsexyscientist]

I just realized today that this custom has been helping me with my finances in a subtle way. For example, this week has been rough financial. I’ve been behind on my finances. I was in the negative and was struggling to pay off essential things. So I sold some of my old stuff and they sold online the next day. No surprise there, it’s the holidays. The only issue was even if I was to transfer the money to my account, I would still be in the negative, so what to do.

Then an idea popped into my head randomly…what if I used one of my Cash App account instead of my bank…well it was approved and now waiting to receive the funds. So now the money and any future money I make on my selling account won’t go into paying off my negative balance, instead it will go into a different account which I can use to pay off some debts, buy more stuff to sell and get more money.

This custom is subtle and you won’t notice certain things till like later on when you realize you are saving money without even thinking about it

One thing that I notice though while I go into my washout is

1. I’ve been feeling extra tired like I’m running 5 subliminals or something, like wtf
2. I keep having this paranoid feeling like my friend/coworker played an ultrasonic subliminal or something while I was hanging out with him the other day…no proof of course(might be recon, I’ve had this thought before…idk why I keep having this thought)
3. I tried to ignore one of my coworkers and I noticed she started doing subtle things to get my attention
4. I feel really really tired…haven’t run a sub since the 18th
5. I’ve been having really intense feelings of betrayal, like my closest friends don’t give too shits about me and willing to betray me…going back to high school and how one of my friends pretty much betrayed my trust
6. I was running regeneration with this stack so it makes sense

I had a fairly good looking woman spark a conversation in the most womanly way possible and I couldn’t help but appreciate her femininity

7. I feel just dominate today, like I need to be in control and lead people

8. Was horny asf today but noticed that taking a cold shower, especially when running cold water on your head for a min helped me beat a strong urge not to watch porn or masturbate

9. Yesterday I found out a way to achieve my body fitness goal of losing belly fat, increasing girth and becoming muscular…of course it’s going to cost money and thats the next stage, figuring out how to achieve that

10. The other day I was trying to get a box to ship my stuff in and funny thing is my boss gave me some boxes to throw away. Its almost like I manifested it when I asked someone I know if they had extra boxes but then I threw away the boxes my boss had gave me…and only realized hours later that I could’ve used those boxes because they were perfectly fine

For anyone wondering, I have the synergy dominion module in my QTKS

So for the sake of the module, I’m going to put this out there and hope that it comes true

I want to make millions of dollars doing something that brings joy to people, I want to be a high value productive strong, big man(10 inches minimum) who has strong boundaries and an amazing fun life filled with loving gorgeous women who are always supportive and help me be the man every woman wishes she had. I never want to worry about money, relationships, dating, loyalty, trust and safety ever again because my life will be the embodiment of everything fun, good, encouraging and uplifting

Not sure if thats how the module works but fuck it

[themadsexyscientist]

I got laid a few days ago and it didn’t feel like the way I thought it would feel. To put it in perspective, it had been a long long time since having sex. Its not that I couldn’t get sex, its that the opportunity came up where women would invite to have drinks with them and such but I either didn’t go or couldn’t or better yet didn’t know how to escalate to get there. This time around things just happened fast and we were having sex but wasn’t as satisfying as I thought it would be. I was kind of disappointed in myself because I could have done better. The sex was average but finally broke my spell of no sex that had lasting for a long time. No way I could’ve achieved this without my stack.

I’m starting at a lower place than most because I lack the foundation to get the results one would expect but still getting results especially a week into my washout

People seem to trust me way more
giving me things, going out of their way to give me something

I noticed if I talked to a woman and maintain my dominance intentionally, it turns them on very fast

Like I was training this one lady who I didn’t know, but we got to talking and while talking I held strong eye contact without showing any submissive and it felt natural, and she started touching me. Every woman who I talk to, I’ve noticed, seems to do this, more obvious when I’ve known her for a while. They sense like this dominance about me.

Online has been successful too, been getting numbers left and right but most either live far away, not attractive enough or just flake on the date.

I’ve been way hornier than usual and porn use has gone up but trying to stop it because I want to get rid of this bad habit for good. I feel like it’s draining all my mental, physical and spiritual energy.

The other thing I noticed is mixing QTKS and name embed feels off compared to using QTKS alone. When I used QTKS alone, I felt confident completely, like no recon nothing, when I added my name embed that I was running for 4-5 ,months recon hit…but everything seems to be coming together slowly but smoothly.

While writing this, I matched with a woman close by and seems like we might be meeting this week. It seems like she might want me to clap her cheeks who knows…will see how things lead

Neediness is down but still there. I found myself getting jealous over a coworker and realized that I was being dumb about it, this one coworker of mine who likes me, I thought was having sex with my other coworker without any basis of proof. But still I sense that jealousy deep down that is still lingering, I want to get rid of it but it’s tough because I realize that I have so many insecurities still that I need to work on asap.

I self sabotage when I see success because deep down it messes without my homeostasis which sucks because I wish my new normal was having successful with women and in life in general. I guess I have to embrace being uncomfortable