Like Ive already said, this morning I listened to a loop of Love Bomb, followed by a loop of Paragon. This was really early, starting at 6am aprox, with headphones and in bed.
After Love Bomb, starting Paragon I felt I had lots of repressed hate, so I decided to take care of it and I did with ease and felt pretty good afterwards, like I was somehow different as a person.
Still listening to Paragon I decided to explore the emotional cause of inflammation, since I was experiencing more than yesterday. This is what happened four times in a row… I ask my unconscious mind to show me the emotion thats directly related to inflammation and immediately felt despair, a pressure in my chest, but I felt like I was kick out from the feeling, my mind immediately went to something else, like I was fleeing scared from that emotion.
I had the intuition it was better to work without being consciously aware of what happened because It might be too painful.
Thats when it started to get awesome! I rolled to the side and fell asleep instantly and began to dream. It was so quick I couldnt even process I was asleep. Dream became lucid right away. I stood up from bed without realizing it was a dream until I became aware I was floating.
I moved my body so my head was down and feets up, I got scared but it faded when I remembered myself I was having a lucid dream (last lucid dream was like 20 years ago and drug induced) Im floating down until Im seeing the carpet fully detailed, that “uninportant” activity convinced me Im in a lucid dream.
I went “Cool!! Time to get things done!!!” I start to bring to me the emotion thats behind the inflammation, thats directly related to inflammation, I begin to feel it instantly… a mix of despair, loneliness, anger and whatnot. Then I traveled back in time to the first time I felt that way, to discover what happened. I visited 2 memories, one when I was 3 years old and one when I was only a baby.
While in those memories I was fully in, I was a child living that experience again, fully immerse, I had full access to my complete conciousness though. I relieved the experiences over and over again, until all the emotional charge drained completely and I could understand the situation differently, under a new light.
The one when I was a little baby, it was just me being scared and feeling alone, needing the help of my mother but feeling unable to call her attention in the middle of the night.
Anyway I woke up right after reframing everything, feeling absolutely wonderful!!! I still have physical pain, but emotionally I feel resolved, happy and light, with a strong sense of confidence that I will heal completely.
