Day 26
Fifth day of my five day rest/processing day. This was a good day off, got some gym time in and was somewhat productive. Felt pretty motivated that day, saw some pretty girls and got some nice eye contact going on. So this post is a little late, overall it was a good day off. Just ready to start my new stack with Libertine ZP.
Day 1
First day of my new stack of Libertine ZP, Primal Seduction ZP and Wanted/HeartSong Qv2 Custom. Just finished my one loop each of Libertine ZP and Primal Seduction ZP. Initial feels from listening to Libertine is the thought of me feeling a bit more attractive, now ten minutes later I feel a little bit tired; it is morning over here 6am. What I am looking to see with adding Libertine to my stack, women following me, getting more positive interactions with women, an increase in my handsomeness and more relationships with women.
Wow, just feeling liking posting this update. But I am just feeling the music I am listening to and vibrating with it, like Iām singing along with the lyrics. Like it is moving thru me and Iām just flowing with it and just love the feeling.
Day 1 part 2
Overall it was a busy day at work, it wasnāt bad though. I felt energized, plus negative thoughts were just not present. Found myself admiring one of my coworkers as I was working, just a deeper appreciation at the moment that hadnāt been noticed by me before. Got her to say that Iām really funny guy out loud. My mood is that I feel as if I could talk to anyone no problem of anxiety or other negative emotions. Did I mention the music sounding just wonderful, been hours since my last listen and Iām just loving music. Okay I believe that is everything, Iām gonna go eat and relax and then sleep.
Just lied, I remembered that time just flew by. I was aware that I just felt like I was moving thru scenes in a movie, can better attribute it to me being so in tuned with the present. That I would momentarily forget the past like minute of where I was standing, this does get you to be in the present moment.
Day 2
Rest/processing day. Late post, just went to sleep early yesterday and kept waking up and falling back asleep. Today was definitely a self questioning day, maybe a little bit of recon. Thoughts like would a libertine man be getting upset or angry that the work servers were down and we had to turn away people two days in a row. Could tell it was recon as it felt all encompassing at the moment, but I focused on overcoming it by realizing that it was happening and I had no control over that; I have control over how I respond and that is all. Like a few minutes afterwards the servers were working again, that to me felt like a manifestation after I overcame that hurdle.
Had someone compliment my beard at work, I have been making sure to brush it and apply some beard softener/conditioner. Overall I was more introspective and not as talkative as I normally was. Thoughts popped up about relationships from the past and those that I may be in the future, just like how I could learn from those lessons and what I would do in the future.
Day 3
My one loop of my custom. Had a lot of dreams today, feel asleep at 7pm and woke up at 9pm, 12am and finally just woke up at 3am and decided to listen to my custom. Donāt feel tired, felt like I slept for like a full day. Dreams felt pretty vivid, canāt recall too much at the moment. But do recall talking about subliminalās in my dream.
Day 3 part 2
Definitely late in posting this one, Iāll keep it short. Overall good day, was busy but slowly got better. Things of note that I had happen was my boss she called work while she was at home, then as we were hanging up she said okay love you bye 
She said sorry, you know what I meant to say. Cool thing that I noticed. Was just more calm in my interactions, not actively trying to start conversations, felt tired after work.
Day 4
Rest/processing day. Woke up early at 5am, just chilled and listened to one of the life chargers True Social before going to play Tennis with bro and some friends. Had a good three hour matches, was fun and got to move and be in the moment. Upon getting to work, they were definitely busy. Donāt feel nervous, just flowed and my mood was good. Was talking to my coworkers in between helping out customers, even had a female customer call my name to compliment my beard 
During my lunch break, just hung out with the store manager and just spent the time talking about past work experiences and just having her laugh and myself enjoying the conversation.
Before I started talking with her, had another customer just comment on how Iām just a kind generally nice person even when talking with others. Near closing, had a customer cuss out my pharmacist on duty. While he said nothing but nice things about me being true to my word when I would help him and that Iām a good guy. Didnāt feel nervous or scared, none of it was directed at me and I didnāt even know the pharmacist. I helped him out, left after a little bit and even had the pharmacist say it was pleasure working with me.
Then spent some time in the office talking with a cute female coworker about random things like shows we are watching/work/etc. Honestly just felt fun having a conversation with someone, making them laugh. Didnāt feel like escalating as this felt more like me just flexing my communication skills, building connections and learning about others. Hung out with her for like 30 minutes before I left and talked with some of the workers up front before leaving. Today was a good day, work was busy I didnāt get everything done. But personally it was a fun day for me 
Day 5
Libertine ZP and Primal Seduction ZP One loop listen day. Today is the last day of the year, crazy how much has changed for me. No longer in a years long relationship, living with my brother again, my body is getting back to how it was beforehand and Iām just doing whatever I feel like doing now. Feel like I should write down my goals for the new year:
Will run this same stack of Libertine, Primal Seduction and my custom til the end of my 21 day run and reevaluate my goals and or see if Khan came out by then and or change my focus to my finances. Feel really grateful at this moment, that I am able to focus on myself and my future. Tears for my old self want to come out as this is the start of a new year for me, not tears of me missing my old life. But for tears for my past self to know it will get better, to know your future is looking brighter and that you are truly living now.
As for my day, it was good. It was busy at work, but then that busyness died down and it was an easy shift. Got invited by that one coworker to hang with her and her roommate for new years, but wasnāt looking forward to the drive and pretty sure Iād be the one supplementing the good time with just the two of them. Just want to relax or go somewhere with more people and that would be a good way to have fun. Hope everyone has a prosperous and good 2022 
Day 6
Processing/rest day. First day of the new year, wow here it is. Had some insights while speaking to my brother as to why I am focusing on increasing my confidence and ability to get girls. One of my fears is getting my finances back in order and having a girl be drawn in and me getting myself sucked into her and not knowing how to handle one. So I wanna get that side under control before I start focusing on my finances. Today was a relaxing day, having some food my brother cooked.
Feels like a good way to start off the new year, slept some as I stayed up late last night. Had a vivid dream of me being with a girl and me trying not to release, as I am retaining for over three months now. She didnāt look familiar, just remember how intense it was and me trying to hold on to my control. My self in the year 2022 feels like I have a better start to my new year. Iām listening to ZP, I am my own man again and I got my brother and mother with me on my path.
Tomorrow Iām off, so things that I will do will be the gym, get my oil changed. The rest I am not sure of, but looking forward to my day off and my custom listen day tomorrow.
Day 7
One loop of my custom. General insights of the day, go to gym daily and aim for 4 days of cardio and 3 days of strength training. So I havenāt been to the gym in a little under a week, noticed my strength on the number of reps for my max weight had increased from max 5 reps to 7. Best way to lose weight is from cardio and your diet, really do want utilize my time properly to show off my internal changes via my body. Noticed some pretty girls at the gym, but I didnāt feel anything else besides appreciation for their beauty; wouldnāt mind being with them. But I am aiming for me to not be swayed by my lower head in relationships anymore and to think with my rational mind and be in control of the situation; so this a good sign for me.
While doing cardio today, I was thinking of what are my plans for this year and how time really does move swiftly. Hence why I wanna drop my weight already to my goal weight so I can move onwardās to one of my other goals. Really appreciative of having subliminalās in my life, to make all these inner changes would not have been so smooth without their influence. Just 14 days left of my current listening schedule, looking forward to my future progress and my growth. Feeling really grateful and just wanted to say I love myself and appreciate the thought that others are also on the path to betterment; always good to know your not on this path alone
Day 8
Rest/processing day. Nothing too big to note for today, did think a girl was cute; but immediately started to notice how much make up was on and could tell what she looked like without it. Not so cute after all, really interesting how I can be sexually interested and go uninterested the next moment. Another thing I have noticed is how it does feel as if I have got to the point of directing the ZP, what I mean is that I made the determination to lose weight; Iāve been cooking more at home and not eating out. My desires are more under my control as if it is aligning with my desires of retaining my seed, learning to better appreciate the person and see their individual beauty or charm.
Also my sense of self esteem is through the roof, feel good about myself and love myself as a person. Look forward to my ZP listen day tomorrow, love this journey and those that come my way on my path.
Day 9
One loop of Libertine ZP and Primal Seduction ZP. Today was my day off, took a couple of naps today; just felt tired today. Happy got to hang out with my mom, got her to remind me to do things that I had been neglecting with my car; plus got to hear about some of my relatives from her side of the family that I didnāt know about. One of them felt a little similar, it was I believe a great uncle who had been given up by his birth parents and was adopted. He was a smart man who was an accountant, got married to a women that didnāt respect him and took the money he made; even his own daughters treated him with disrespect that led him to drinking beer for relief. Could have been me, if I had kept forward in my previous relationship. Always something to think of familial history repeating, Iām glad I didnāt follow in his footsteps; hopefully he is happy about that.
Things I have noticed about primal seduction today, was when I was at the grocery store entrance. Noticed the girl give me more eye contact and maintained it , even so when I was leaving. Even while I was at this place to get new rims for my car, felt like I had people notice me more while I inside; attributing that to Libertine and a touch of wanted. Have had some thoughts of whether I was placing too much attention with certain girls and whether I should tone it down with them; ie like not talk to them as much. You ever feel like you know something is going on the periphery, but you look and see nothing. That is how I am feeling internally, trying to find the words to express it; but just eluding me.
Looking forward to the rest day tomorrow to see if itāll express what I am feeling going on internally.
Day 10
Rest/processing day. Forgot to mention yesterday how I got the price knocked down for my new rims, not sure to attribute that to Rich I ran a couple weeks ago or from wanted or the primal aspect in Primal Seduction. Had this cute brunette at work with very pretty blue eyes, that I just kept holding her eye contact; felt a little bit drawn to them. Had some good rapport with her as I was giving her a shot, it was a nice experience with a pretty woman. Had some good interactions with my coworkers, was funny and on top of my wit Noticed some conflicting feelings in how I felt when I looked at one coworker who works in a different department at work. She looked pretty up close with her hair down, but from afar I wasnāt feeling anything as she looked bigger than how she looks when she is right in front of me.
Could be some inner conflict of me liking her and then me trying not to get attached to her. Not gonna worry about it, gonna be free of desiring an outcome and just keep chill and run my stack. Thinking I may need to start sleeping earlier or something as I wake up early in the morning and have been sleeping later and then whenever Iām done with work. Iāll be taking naps instead of working out or doing other things that I should be doing.
Day 11
One loop of my custom. Felt pretty good mood wise, it was a good day for me. Went to the gym after work, got a nice good pump in. Had a dream that my exes mom and stepdad were in my childhood home and trying to be nice to me, in the dream I didnāt want nothing to do with them.
Day 12
Rest/processing day. Key things to note, my driving was fast and I moved between cars very fluidly and made it to work on time. Had a nice big meal this morning, was productive enough to get some meditation in and felt nice and energetic afterwards. Talked with my brother on what my goals were for my seduction stack, he did mention how I should probably be doing more active forms of getting girls; ie online platform etc. Maybe I need to run rebirth to help any image of myself not being successful with women, but then the other side is that I am liking my frame of mind.
Not to rushed on getting girls, enjoying the journey and getting to know myself and focus on me. Just know deep down that I will grab my reality that I want, it is within my grasp.
Day 13
One loop of Primal Seduction ZP, Libertine ZP. Read up on some literature about celibacy, went to the gym and got some cardio done. So definitely my head space is a little on the inwards as I am questioning what I really want in this moment, the ZP is kinda constant in making you ask yourself what you want. I am thinking of switching up my stack after I finish this 21 day cycle with wealth focus of Emperor ZP, Mindās Eye ZP, and maybe Rebirth ZP or Wanted ZP.
Hard to figure out which one to keep or not add on, I really want to switch out now; but will finish up my last couple of days first. Had an interesting dream last night after playing Dreams life charger. Got to see an apocalypse like event with balls of light disintegrating people, while people in buildingās or that was blocked off were safe. Saw an attractive blonde with a nice chest and a cute brunette or black haired woman with a nice rear, I told them to follow me inside this amphitheater like building where other people were running into. The girls followed me and it was a nice feeling of being there protector. Believe the blondeās boyfriend came up to her and I was trying to keep her, but not force her as I didnāt want to chase her; but then didnāt want to lose her. This one women gave me some m&mās and snickers and I was debating of giving this to my brother who was with me or giving it to the girls to get them back to me.
Think I may need more healing, so maybe Rebirth is the sub I should include. Also my backing away from sexual subs at this time, as I am feeling more pressed in keeping up with my retention as today is my 100th day. Never a bad thing to have more you time, Iāll do what makes me happy.
Day 14
Rest/processing day. A little late in writing this post. Had some interesting dreams on this day and this morning, one of them was me declining escorts being offered by my work place in some beach like place and the other was of me trying to finish up my work. Even though we were really busy and cleaning up a toilet of food that was thrown around it. Interesting day at work as I had left my glasses behind at home, so I could still see but had difficulty reading small print and the mask kept on moving towards my eyes all day. Had what I believe is recon due to that, as I was agitated and focused on what the cause was. One of me forgetting my glasses and the other with me feeling like I wasnāt starting off of with the work I needed to do. The work on myself, getting my finances in order, keep my head clear and not get distracted with women.
Speaking of that, it is my decision to change my stack to Emperor ZP, Mindās Eye ZP and Rebirth ZP. So I will do one day of Emperor and Mindās Eye and then the next listen day will be of Rebirth. I will take my five day rest period on my 21 day mark which will be in 7 days from now.
Day 15 + Day 16
On day 15 was my one loop of Emperor ZP and Mindās Eye ZP and on the Day 16 was my rest/processing day. So initial listen to Emperor felt good and then when it got to Mindās Eye it felt like a focused movement was going on inside my head. I woke up at 2am that day and was able to focus on reading my book, cooking some breakfast for myself and heading to the gym before my work began at 9am. Then at work I was so focused, getting things done quickly and efficiently. Felt like I was on a stimulant, thatās how focused I felt, not jittery but just able to focus on work. Wasnāt as talkative as I normally am, but when I focused on that part I was able to start talking to my coworkers. It can be one of those things were you are okay with just doing your work and being in the zone, I wasnāt to interested in engaging if I didnāt have too.
After work that day, I went again to the gym. Also had more accountability over my diet and was able to stick to healthier food options. Love the way I feel, even caught a bigger sized girl talking with her friend on the treadmill who just kept on glancing over at me Another thing to mention was I believe on day 14 was when I was clocking out and a coworker who is in her fifties with my store manager there started asking me if I had a girlfriend. Then when I said I didnāt she brought that I could have multiple and that when I said I have my mother thatās enough for now. She was like but thatās why you need other girls for your desires and she brought up that the condoms were on discount right now Really was questioning if this was happening.
So today I woke up at 1am, yeah seems to be that sort of pattern was happening twice in a row. Just focused on relaxing, reading up on some comics. Fell back asleep after 6am and woke up at 9am, got up to go get some sticker that I needed from the government building for my vehicle. Was a quick process, then went out to hang out with my mom on my day off. Listened to her and hung out with her for a couple of hours, afterwards went up and picked up something light from the grocery store to have my first meal of the day at 4pm. Wasnāt being bothered by hunger at all, just focusing on drinking my water. Got to hit the gym and do like forty minutes of cardio and thirteen minutes in the dry sauna. Today was a good day, interesting thing to note today was that I lost four pounds since yesterday; Emperor already at work
Day 17
One loop of Rebirth ZP. Had some thoughts pop up from my past, could picture them with clarity. Feeling pretty tired right now, went to the gym twice again, feel more comfortable in my role of emperor or being in charge of my own reality. Overall was a good day, nothing to big to report at this moment. May write it out tomorrow as I come across it.