Primal Ascension

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#21

Been hella busy the past 24 hours. Yesterday was the first of two rest days before I start the next cycle. It seemed like up to a certain point my stress levels were rising because I wouldn’t give into the urge to run my custom on a rest day. Took a considerable amount of mental effort to fight through the recon. It cleared for a few hours but then came back in a different form.

All the supreme confidence, swagger, inner strength and masculinity I’ve been feeling this past week didn’t totally fade but it was greatly diminished. It’s almost as if id never run my custom in the first place. Now that I think back on it, this might’ve been a subconscious attempt to convince me that I needed to run the sub again on an off day. I might’ve given in if I weren’t so busy. Taking one more day of rest and then it’ll be 3 loops daily for 5 days on, followed by next weekend off.

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#22

Did 3 loops overnight but right when I fell asleep so I had time to recover before I woke up. Still woke up tired but was able to get up and moving relatively quick. Basically played no games about preparing myself for the day and got my home in order prior to staring work, speaking of which I had to put my, or rather the department Manager in check (I consider myself my only manager so I’m careful about how I use terms and titles when referring to others, in order to avoid even subconsciously giving someone or something power and authority over me.) She can take my response how she wants, won’t change how I operate one bit. It was professional but stern and came from a place of truth in order to address her complaint.

More importantly, I forgot to mention this in my last update but a combination of modules in my current custom are driving me more than ever; to evolve myself not just as a man, but a multidimensional being altogether. It’s for this reason that I designed what will be my next custom, but it’s going to be large and cost a good penny (gonna have to be 2 parts) since I seek to have it do so much. Coincidentally, the new SAGE IMMORTAL title just dropped and surely will be included in my next custom as one of the cores, since it greatly aligns with the next objective of my evolution.

Being or becoming just a man, alpha, emperor, etc just isn’t big enough a goal for me. There is great power in being these things and I feel they’re necessary to help me get to my final “inner destination”, thing is, they are just pit stops along my journey of development. I truly see that now and have come to realize why becoming these things by themselves would quickly fizzle out my motivation when I imagined them.

I seek to understand and master, myself and reality, and discover what my place is here in all of creation. Getting to know, love and incorporate my primal and “darker side”, is the final pit stop before my priority becomes multidimensional evolution.

I of course will still be running my current custom and seeking to get the most out of it that I can before I move on.

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#23

Taking an off day unexpectedly. Yesterday recon had me pretty much ready to knock someone’s head off. I was still pretty aggressive for a good part of my morning until my subconscious had the social calibration scripting within the Primal core bubble up and advise me that going forward, it’s best if I carry myself with a sense of “dynamic dominance”.

Sometimes I’m Social interactions for quite a few years, I’ve noticed I have often been either a bit too aggressive or sometimes even slightly more passive than I should’ve. Being that I’m someone who’s proud of how far I’ve come with being assertive, I still sometimes tend to mess up when it comes to being such. So from now on instead of just reminding myself to be assertive, the mantra is dynamic dominance, my own version of assertion.

Dynamic dominance is a concept I had hit me out of nowhere. It’s defined by basically the dynamic part of the philosophy (or social strategy) being that I can adjust my level of intensity based on who I’m interacting with in order to help guide the interaction in the most positive way possible. Doesn’t mean that if I’m dealing with someone timid that I’ll act soft or timid myself, just means that I may adopt a more relaxed demeanor overall with said person or group. That’s also where the dominance part comes in, rather I’m expressing my smoother side, or my electrifying one (I’m a living spectrum), the goal is to maintain as much dominance as possible, that way even if I am coming across relaxed, it’s still with a demeanor of being authoritative and confident, basically dominance without aggression (yes that is possible).

Of course if I just feel like expressing myself one way or the other, I’ll do that unapologetically no matter what the occasion or circumstance, but I see this dynamic dominance concept being a fun one to play with consciously for now.

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#25

  • Emotions unfettered truly getting stronger, or rather I’m executing it quite well with profound results being seen quickly. Even under very emotional situations I keep great control over my emotions, despite how deeply I can feel them.

  • While going to get something to eat yesterday, I walked into a restaurant and the entire staff acted weird. The cashier seemed like he was scared to say the wrong thing while we interacted, and called me sir more times than I can count. His coworkers kept staring at me like I was from another planet, and his Manager stared me down like she wanted to make a kid right in the restaurant. She had an intense feminine glare. I payed it no mind as I didn’t find her attractive but it’s not because she wasn’t good-looking, I just was too damn hungry to care at the time.

  • Think I’ll be taking a 2nd rest day in a row. Recon can quickly build up with this sub but it’s fairly easy to deal with, especially if I give myself a couple days to rest.

  • Also had two small incidents in Walmart while shopping. One woman pointed something out to me about the checkout line (she was also a customer). She was about 25 ft away and it was kind of loud so I had to project my voice. When I did, a lot of ppl turned and looked at me like I yelled at her. Something like this happened a few weeks ago too. She didn’t take offense, just guess my voice was very powerful and caught everyone’s attention. She instantly showed signs of submission upon hearing my response, but it wasn’t my intention to come off in any particular way. The occurrence from a few weeks back in the same walmart happened in a similar manner when someone accidentally skipped me inline because he didn’t know where the line ended. This happened while I was still on the main store versions of Ascension and Primal. I simply got his attention and pointed out where the line was in a casual way. He reacted like he was scared to anger me and like I wanted to fight him; although I was pretty chill in the moment. A woman in front of me stared at me like she was waiting to see if I would escalate the confrontation into a fight but there was no need for that.

  • 2nd incident from last night in walmart happened around 5 minutes after the first. An older woman came and opened a register since it was late and the store was backed up with customers waiting to check out. She was pleasant to deal with and even let me know that she opened up the register just so I could get out faster. But ,she did it in a way where she didn’t seem to want anything from me, she just wanted to show kindness.

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#26

Today, really the past few days, I’m feeling very anti social and I’ve also been super tired. Even caffeine is hardly working to keep my energy up. I don’t want to interact with, or even be in the same building as another human being, not even my own family. I’ve also been mostly nonreactive towards acts of kindness or concern shown by others. Even when they’re being nice, ppl are just annoying the hell out of me by their mere presence. I’ve also mostly been ignoring the women that I’ve been talking to as well. I haven’t even wanting to be out and about to conduct business either. Today is a rest day so we’ll see if a loop tomorrow will help balance out whatever is happening beneath the surface. One last point is this, this custom has helped me identify how paranoid I’ve become as far as trusting other people as well.

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#27

Accidentally took a rest day yesterday but all good. All the recon ended up passing me by and i was astoundingly social. Favors and positive social interactions all day. Stares from women of all kinds, especially this one smokin hot latina at a bar, but…didn’t act on that since I was with a lady friend. By friend I really mean one of the women i’m talking to. At that same bar, there happened to be a guy there that likes my lady friend (that particular one) and I caught him staring at me out of jealousy a couple times before I stared back at him. The stare was unconsciously; one that I haven’t given in quite a while, one where I’m sure to let you know that if you want trouble from me, you’ll get it. That was the last time he even looked in our direction.

We hadn’t seen each other for about 2-3 weeks since she went out of town and got back over a week ago. She thought I blocked her number for some reason and seemed genuinely concerned that I wasn’t hitting her up. She decided to call me up yesterday and said she wanted to treat me to lunch. On my way to her house though, she got a little irritated and besides herself. I decided since I was going to pick her up anyway, that i’d confront her face-to-face instead of starting something on the phone. 10 minutes passed by and once I got there, she immediately gave me a gift (souvenir from her trip), and apologized for her bad attitude before I could even address it, she in fact apologized a few times for it during the few hours we spent together.

So here are the highlights of what I noticed about her behavior (which although she apologized, I was sure to still tell her that it’s unacceptable):

  • She called me “babe” way more than usual.

  • She kept wanting to grab my arm and have me escort her everywhere we walked.

*She kept wanting me to shop with her and go places, almost as if she were trying to find an excuse just to spend extra time with me.

  • She made 2 jokes and a comment about having my baby, and showed me a picture on IG of a little girl, stating that’s what “our child” would look like. :thinking:

  • She was eager to buy me whatever I wanted and even bought my daughter a couple small and thoughtful gifts, she thought it was hilarious when I playfully told her that I’m aware that she’s auditioning to be a Stepmother.

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#28

LOLLL! Good one, bro! Hilarious!

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#29

Lol thank you.

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#30

Main updates is that my lady friend is falling for me FAST. It’s like on days we don’t speak, her attraction for me multiplies and she’s acting more feminine and even closer to being “in love” every time we interact.

Not bragging here but this is the LEAST amount of effort I’ve ever put in with a woman that I dated or entertained for more than a few weeks. Yet she seems to be falling for me just as hard and fast as women from my past back when I used to pull out all the stops.

On another note I’ve become more irritable than ever, and no I don’t think that’s reconciliation, but rather emotions unfettered showing it’s strength. I’m able to control it but it’s a work in progress to master my anger. I’ve definitely been more confrontational and even a bit argumentative for a few days now.

I’ve also randomly had ppl tell me I put out good vibes, especially women. And finally, my sexual urges have pretty much evaporated over the past week. Initially the increase in sexual energy from the inner gasoline module made me have higher libido and I put it to use if you know what I mean. Now though, I have to damn near force myself to even get aroused. I felt this process happening gradually after the initial libido burst, but now it seems the control and transmutation aspects have really taken hold. Crazy how Evry time I achieve something I’ve had on my goal list for years, it’s anti-climactic. My sexual self-control has increased more in the past month than it has in the last 17 years.

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#31

Do you think those were results from Panther?

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#32

Davisnwc, I wonder in your own experience, is ascenion different than the Ascension in emperor?

I read that people experience Ascension different in ascended mogul

#33

From the wife yea possibly. I felt myself about to approach her even though I saw her with her husband.

#34

I get the same vibe from the ascension in emperor except it’s more clear where the influence on my behavior is coming from since ascension is standalone

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#35

Things have been a little hectic since my last update. Here’s what has happened:

  • The female friend I mentioned in the last update had been calling me “babe” for about a week before she even consciously realized what she was even doing it apparently. She called me that easily more than 10 times throughout the week; to either greet me or get my attention when we were talking on the phone, or physically together. She laughed when she finally noticed and kept trying to address me by my real name, but always kept going back to calling me babe.

  • We spent a pretty good time together during the afternoon about a week and a half ago. She laid her head in my lap, kept hugging me tight and wanting to be close. We even ended up kissing and she kept claiming that I make her feel different from other men. She feels peace and happiness when with me. She claims to have a cold heart but women with cold hearts don’t display the sort of behavior that she has been. She has some pretty good qualities but what I’ll say more than anything is that I had a moment where I looked into her eyes and could see that she meant what she said because she looked the most happy and peaceful I’d ever seen her since we met. I could literally sense they joy pouring from her soul. It was a true metaphysical experience. Not sure where we’ll end up just yet as I’m still in no rush to commit. I heard her jokingly tell someone she was face timing her boyfriend (me) a few days later and I felt a massive amount of resistance instantly rise to the surface. I didn’t show any reaction initially because I could tell she was joking. So instead of making shit weird I just made a face that made her laugh when I asked what she called me.

  • I feel there are for more changes that are happening to but ones I can’t quite put my finger on just yet so I’ll refrain from reporting them until I understand them.

  • Yesterday I caught another man talking shit about me under his breath over something that wasn’t my fault. I was already slightly aggravated so the slick comment didn’t help. I turned around to look him in his eyes. I was about a good 20 feet away and even after I looked him in the eye it was obvious that he still had a problem. Once he stopped talking I walked directly up to him and don’t even remember blinking. I held the same gaze I always tend to while when about to go wild. I told him to repeat what he said, loudly. All of a sudden he became timid so I kept asking him to repeat what the fuck he said when I had initially passed by him and even after I had turned back around, before I walked up to him. He up and would no longer even hold eye contact with me. He kept putting his hands up anyway like he didn’t want trouble and looking down at the ground. And even mumbled some weak ass apology. His wife walked up to him and asked what was going on. His response was “nothing honey”. I looked at his wife and she saw how angry I was. She was nice and courteous and I had already punked him and I’ve never been into fighting cowards so I looked him in the eye one last time before I turned around and went on about my business. Looks like that “fear-based” respect that the fearsome module is supposed to generate from others when they won’t respect you any other way helped to quickly de-escalate that situation.

  • I’ve become just as irritable as I was as a teenager, I’m back to being very impatient and confrontational. It’s balanced with an increased sense of emotional control luckily but lately I’ve been getting flashbacks of when I was a not so good individual. I still wouldn’t label myself a “good guy”, just…human. Right now I’m doing what I can to remain balanced.

*On another note I does feel like parts of me that I thought were lost or had been diminished are rising back up to the surface, while some of that includes “darker” aspects of my nature, it also includes my relentless ambition, desire to dominate, etc. these qualities are being brought back to the forefront and expression in my behavior.

Edit: forgot to add that a couple weeks back my ex and I fought, weird thing I notice about her for years now is that after we get into heated arguments she acts really sweet for a few weeks or even a couple months afterwards. Thing is I admit a got a bit more disrespectful than I should have, but she still ended up having this reaction. She hasn’t even so much as spoken to me with anything less than a sweet and happy tone ever since.

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#36

That happens to most of us here. The changes are not easily detectable by the user but easily detected by others in the environment.

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#37

Lol it’s almost like how other ppl tend to notice that you lost weight before you even do.

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#38

How is it going?

#39

What are your favorites modules from your custom so far?

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#40

Hey man sorry for the super late response. Even though sometimes I don’t feel it, my level of confidence has become astronomical. To the point where I can tell that it intimidates strangers at times. Attention from women has become ridiculous to the point of actually being slightly annoying. I notice them mirror my movements and habits, and also try very subtle ways to get my attention. Not all of them but a good deal.

Since my last update I’ve been fighting a lot of personal battles but somehow I’m still going strong. I’ve been super busy living life and trying to get some things re-stabilized. Not all bad though. Pretty much everything that I’ve reported on in past posts has been enhanced even further. Confidence, swagger, my lone wolf mindset and social selectiveness.

No favorite modules for me to truly speak of, as it all seems to work synergistically, so much to where sometimes it’s tough to tell what modules are doing what since many of them seem to activate at a time during social interactions

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#41

All from Primal Ascension?