Khan Black till end of 2024. 2 cycles per stage, also trying out micro loops, 5min loop each. KBst1+Daredevil+Boxing Mastery.
Day 1 - Daredevil + KBst1
Day 2 - Rest
Day 3 - Boxing M
Day 4 - Rest
Day 5 - Daredevil + KBst1
Day 6 - Rest
Day 7 - Boxing M + AsC
Let’s go 
Woke up this morning feeling fresh and calm. It’s true, lust is nowhere to be found, not a single thought or visual popped up in my mind. Coffee is another one I’m trying to get rid or drink less of, we’ll see.
My mother used to say she knows all her brothers and sisters faults but she never mentions hers because she doesn’t want to grow, I’m doing the same, wow.
“This is the art of captivating presence, where your genuine experiences and the sheer joy of being you become the narrative that captivates hearts and minds.”
Seeing alot YouTube videos about ‘fear of being seen’ lately.
Went home for the wknd for a funeral, colleague and his buddy jumped in for a ride, these guys are invited for a stag party already in a party mode. We took detours calling chicks along the ride to pop in, funny thing is, I almost skipped on the funeral and joined them, def an adventurous trip.
I stopped at a filling station in a small town, the girl working at the station asked me if I’m some kind of minister or big shot in the government lol, flattered much.
Earlier today I took my car in to fix a fault. I walked to a nearby restaurant for a coffee. The waiter that has some facial features as one of my exes served me.
Usually I would imagine myself with a woman like that, kissing; seeing naked; getting married; having kids; die old together. My expectations over a stranger I find attractive was usually very high.
Since I didn’t make any moves or run game on her I didn’t and still don’t kick myself for sleeping alone tonight. My desire for the opposite sex and sex is lower.
I have never interacted with so many people in one night, especially strangers. After the funeral I went home to spent some time my parents and siblings but later the evening I had a strong urge to join the family for the after tears.
I don’t really spend time talking or show interest in my family as I don’t know what to talk about because my life is boring. Now that I moved to different city and experiencing city life I witnessed some stuff and share.
I found out there were people at the funeral asking about me and wanted to interact but I looked occupied and closed off(I had no idea). The Daredevil in me really shined because I finally spoke to some family members, showed genuine interest.
A friend of a family member took my number as she can organize me a job, a guy told me if I ever need something he can assist, drunk talk but there’s some truth in that. A girl gave some ioi’s but she looked hella young, maybe it was an excuse not to talk but I know I’m making progress and not felt like I lost out.
Funny thing is, a few guys talked about how they used to fight back in their younger days, Boxing Mastery popped up too. Fun night 
Looking good in the mirror 
My voice sounds louder, when I talk to someone other people look at me.
This thought just popped up: “What if I sell my house and just travel the world, learn new accents and meet new people”. Then realization kicked in.
Had a craving for fish today. Ordered some fish n chips at this restaurant next to the harbor. Usually I would order and sit in my car or when I’m brave sit in a corner where no one sees me. I ended up sitting right next to the entrance where everyone walk past and could see me. I had a weird sensation in my stomach and ate really fast, I felt awkward but this fear have plagued me for far too long.
I can say no to lust.
Watched the Fury vs Usyk fight at a buddy’s last night, got me thinking.
I decided not buy coffee for my home beginning of the month, buying coffee from a shop or restaurant is getting expensive which forces me drink less of it.
Washout week, I really enjoyed the 5min micro loops. Greeting strangers and actually starting conversations is becoming easier, I don’t even think about my stutter or how I sound.
Had this weird dream, I had 3 grapes in my hand which I wanted to devour but the neighbor’s dog looked hungry so I let the dog ate instead, that’s when the dog decided to jump the fence, lost it’s balance and landed hard on its back which was kinda funny but then I remembered I have a dog too and shit is about to go down.
All of a sudden they sky turned dark, full moon behind the clouds and saw something in sky like a kite. As it came closer I saw it’s actually a lion with 3 tales and no wings, flying? The dogs were nowhere to be found so I make my way into the house. As I ran I saw the lion flying over my head that’s when I went through the back door, as I shut the door the lion blocked it with its paw.
I wasn’t sure if it wanted to tell me something or eat me but that’s when I woke up.
when i started Khan black i quit caffeine too. Went 7 days without it, had crazy withdrawals, but wasn’t even happy when i reintroduced caffeine.
Did ANOTHER 7 days without it to really test, and when i drank coffee again, i STILL wasn’t even happier after having the cup.
KB really rid me of my interest in coffee… but it didnt help with the withdrawals, DAMN those were tough
Good luck on this, whatever you choose to do 
I crave a cup of coffee no lie and yes after I drink it I feel off like post nut clarity when on no fap. I don’t buy it anymore but if someone serves me a cup, I won’t say no 
. I drink rooibos tea currently which is caffeine free. 
Had a good socially wknd behind me, I shot a real gun for the 1st time. Met some new people that really enjoyed my company, feels unreal if I have to say it myself.
Reunited with a cousin I haven’t seen in years. Was hit on by 2 women that’s not my type, they pulled all the cards they had but I didn’t fell for it, didn’t feel like wasting my seed just for sake of it.
Had a dream a woman tried to pickpocket my backpack I was wearing, when I caught her in the act I spat in her face which caused a whole lot of commotion(I never spit in anyone’s face before lol).
Finally ready to run OG Stark, I’ve been holding off because of this line: “If you don’t want attention, don’t run Stark ZP.”
Thanks to Daredevil I’m o.k being the center of attention now. Will purchase soon, too soon for Stark Black though. 
It’s winter season and I don’t have to wear socks no more, my feet are and stays warm.
After a good old wash out, got my stack in-line.
KBst2+GLM:TC+Muay Thai, don’t ask.
Did each of them already so far, 5min loops. So I went off at my boss today, not sure if it was recon but he deserved it, in that same breath he was glad he heard my voice because I let everything slide but acting like it’s all good. Apart from shadow strikes and elbows in my room I’m doing good. I did not run a single loop of AsC the last two months, will try this month.
Day 1 - GLM:TC + Muay Thai
Day 2 - Rest
Day 3 - KBst2
Day 4 - Rest
Day 5 - GLM:TC + Muay Thai
Day 6 - Rest
Day 7 - KBst2 + AsC