Present1's Khan Black journey

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Dusting off this journal. The cycle with KBst2 was I got no idea what happened even with using just microloops. I dropped Muay Thai ZP after just the one cycle because you have to join a gym in my opinion, Boxing Mastery was fun. I guess recon had the best of me. Adding my trusted title Emperor with KBst3. Work keeps me so busy and stressed my introspection work is lacking. I was thinking of doing another KBst2 cycle but nah.

Day 1 - GLM:TC + Emperor
Day 2 - Rest
Day 3 - KBst3
Day 4 - Rest
Day 5 - GLM:TC + Emperor
Day 6 - Rest
Day 7 - KBst3
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Monday 05 Aug 2024 at +/- 23h30. I was listening to this Spiritual Life Coaching Course I enrolled in a while back while falling asleep. In my drowsy state I dosed off between videos it ended up at a guided meditation. I had a dream about my mother and sister in a room that can breath, move and rearrange things on its own. I wasn’t really impressed by this room because how and why am I here?

My mother was reading a newspaper which she never does in real life, my sister was asleep which she always does and accidentally woke her up. I saw a briefcase across from me almost telepathically asked me to open it. I did not asked in those same words but I asked in what dump is this we in? It’s like everything stopped in it’s tracks, even the briefcase next to me locked itself. I apologized to the room, and slowly asked my sister: “is this intelligence I’m in?”, she said yes.

All of a sudden I literally felt something like a blob moving up my neck and drop inside my head like a water droplet inside a glass. It felt like an explosion through my closed eyelids filling my head with intense heat and electricity buzzing through my whole body. My heart started to race because this experience was unknown to it. I then woke up from this dream still feeling that same warmth and buzzing all over. It’s like an orgasm without genital stimulation but on steroids. Not sure what to make of it but I want to experience it again.

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I’m really blessed even though I never really acknowledged it, I was just being of service or its always good helping others that I could not accept it when people thank or reward me with something. With compliments the same, always down played it.

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I believe this is GLM:TC showing its colours. On a few occasions random people flash/brag about money or what they got:

I was at a laundry the other day, one of the clients had some difficulty paying with his card. While I was having a conversation with the staff the guy walked up showing us his bank account to proof he has thousands in his bank account?

Just now at the car wash sitting outside drinking a coffee, a guy ran up to his pickup truck telling me he completely forget about money still in the vehicle and while showing me the stacks.

Maybe these are coincidences or maybe I’m just jealous coz I’m broke lol.

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My current stack:

Day 1 - PS + Emperor
Day 2 - Rest
Day 3 - KBst4
Day 4 - Rest
Day 5 - PS + Emperor
Day 6 - Rest
Day 7 - KBst4

A bit heavy but with NSE it’s smooth sailing, micro loops obviously. Conversations gets sexual easy, for instance a childhood friend of my cousin started to open up about her 1st sexual experience, something she never mentioned or talked about. Others noticing stares I’m not even aware of. I’ve been cockblocked too this wknd, no lays yet but I’m also very picky.

I ran into a very low vibing guy during week, I didn’t give him any affection because that was what he was after, remind of the encounters i witnessed running Alchemist a while back. Planning to run KBst4 till end of Nov.

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It’s been 2 weeks and no coffee or tea cravings, I was offered a fresh cup of grounded coffee but declined, a first. When it comes to women, I don’t get ioi’s or even eye contacts? Thinking of going back to social media. Been three weeks and no porn either, barely no lustfull thought and images popping up in my mind too. Liking this stack overall.

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My current stack:

Day 1 - PS + Emperor Daddy
Day 2 - Rest
Day 3 - KBst4
Day 4 - Rest
Day 5 - PS + Emperor Daddy
Day 6 - Rest
Day 7 - KBst4

I finally upgraded to Ascended level, took me since 2021 to get there. I moved to a city where I thought my life would’ve changed for the better but i’m still broke and no women chasing me. The women that are interested in me are meh, I’m not all that but all the hot women of my liking (whom I barely see) give me no mind or attention.

I know I cannot compare the women I dated a few years ago with today. Maybe it’s my mindset, maybe I’m self sabotaging, maybe it’s because I’ve been out the game so long? Do I really have to go back on social media… I went to a club with a much younger cousin a few weeks ago and I felt out of place, even creepy’ish. I personally don’t look my age(41), women still guess me in my early 30s. I’m trying so hard to cold approach but not even a signal IOI, don’t feel like walking into a rejection.

Let’s see what Emperor Daddy has in store.

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Today marks day 30 of my washout. Spent 3 months on this stack and still reap rewards. Older women are more attracted to me. A colleague of mine introduced me to a lady in her late 40s, chat for a bit but I lost interest. I was introduced by a married woman to her best friend in her mid 50s but she was way too dominant for my liking.

This was one of my favorite stacks and didn’t do it much justice. I have met so many people these few months, I got their numbers but never reached out because I’m too busy or out with another crowd, almost felt like what is a party without me? I never knew I could be this interesting, felt fame like, I can only imagine what Stark must be like. I was told I’m every woman’s dream and that I need to accept it, felt good.

I stopped my carnivore diet and the angel numbers appeared again. My body felt solid with no heartburn or inflammation but consuming meat only everyday influenced my spirituality. I gave up coffee and tea for 3+ months which is a 1st and I don’t even miss it. I definitely need to journal more. I’m too picky or my standards are just unnecessary high because I had women lined up but fapped instead . Closing this chapter.