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#164

Nighttime!

Got the cabinet down in a jiffy this morning! I was surprised how little time it actually took. Wife and son both assisted, with minimal frustrated moments. We had plenty of time to get to the movies. Oppenheimer was interesting. I like Cillian Murphy, and he was excellent as usual. I was surprised to see that guy I couldn’t quite name be Josh Hartnett, I haven’t seen him in a movie in …15 years? Something like that. He’s aged well. Good for him. :slight_smile:

Came home and rowed. I had the foresight to put a water bottle and a towel near the rower. Took a 30 second pause at around a half hour, to change music tracks and get a sip. I hit 15k before 75 minutes, and decided to keep going to 90 minutes. Well at that point, I was over 18k, so I aimed for the half marathon, and got it. At points in the row, past 45 minutes to the end, I found myself singing to some of my music. That was new.

Something was nudging me to add Dance Mastery to my HERO custom. I think there would be some synergy. The footwork stuff is no joke, and I enjoy it so far. I think it could help with some of the kung fu footwork exercises that I have access to. I recall seeing them for the first time and thinking it looked like some sort of bending from Avatar. I felt like I could almost see the energy moving around Master Jiang in the video.

Here:

Just watched it again. Still stirs me to tears! I pay attention to that. In the rewatch, it looked a bit different. :slight_smile: I feel I notice more energy then I did before. Yeah dude. I’ll be busting this instruction video series out again. Perhaps it is time now. Been sitting on this stuff for 2 years now. I do the qi-gong from time to time, as I’m able to retain for the practice and that is getting better thanks to KBC4 in InnerWork.

Sometimes I find things and do my deep dives long before I actually need the knowledge gained. I used to theorize it a little differently, but since SubClub: I notice some people seem to have subs preinstalled. My friend at work who works out 6’ 215lbs of MUSCLE ->Emperor Fitness Multistage is already working. Young friend has older women licking their chops often->His own Libertine aura. Me? I get good life changing knowledge from time to time, got a few nice book finds-> Sage Immortal preinstalled!

Life as a simulation theory: Was this a selected character perk? :laughing:

Back to Dance Mastery: I also feel like dancing sometimes. To music, by myself. Some sort of soul expression. I feel I could find something there, some sort of new synergy of music and qigongfu (HA!) I said as much to my wife tonight. It took a minute to do so, as I never thought I’d be saying something like that. She agreed with that sentiment.

I have to attend a birthday party tomorrow for a niece, wife’s side. Normally it wouldn’t be a problem, however… Earlier in the summer, her parents had another family party. My wife and our family were not invited. It was rather odd at first. I’ve gotten along well with this brother in law for many years now! Why not invite your sister? My wife was hurt by this, and I still have :slight_smile: some :slight_smile: anger. :slight_smile: I do not know how to approach tomorrow. My normal MO in this situation would be silence and to radiate some uncomfortable vibes. I don’t want to be there and I will make it known. I have been WELL practiced with this sort of personal aura manipulation since I was a child.

I feel I am different now. If I go that route it would be terribly effective as I feel …powerful there right now. Do qi gong when I wake up, go to church… my energy will be humming. But I don’t wish to go that route. I do not desire to make a scene demanding an answer, but I don’t care to be friendly either.
It’s already dreadful going over as that in law couple drinks often and yells at one another. I don’t drink, and while going over zaz’d outta my gourd is an option, I don’t want that one either. Fuck me! LOL

Hopefully that answer will present itself. I do not care for my in laws treatment of my wife. I haven’t seen them all gathered up for a while. It’s been many many (micro)loops, and I am changed.

Serenity Now!

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#165

9/25 morning time

Yeah, it’s a lowercase kind of day.

So, the path chosen was thus: 1 mid night, 1 morning depletion. Skipped church due to some abdominal rumbling, but watched online. Had to run to the bathroom right after Pastor announced council candidates! I was right, wouldn’t have wanted to do that at church.
:slightly_frowning_face:
The party. Well, let’s list some attendees. BIL2 and B2W were hosting the party. I have unresolved issues with them due to a previously mentioned occurrence. BIL1 and B1W were there as well. BIL1 is…well a fucking giant of a man compared to myself (6’4 350 compared to 6’ 265) and we have had times of not getting along in the past, so now I generally just smile politely and keep conversation minimal. Father in Law and wife. Father in law gets a neutral rating from me. Certainly willing and able to help out with house repairs here, but also does things to make my daughters feel uncomfortable from time to time. :rage: Strangely, never when I am around! Various assorted children. My son and wife.

BIL2 and B2W were drinking upon our arrival. I had previously taken an anti anxiety med prior to leaving. I fucking hate that. Yeah. I feel mad with myself that I chose to …make myself smaller as to not upset the cart yesterday. Anyway. My family and I got out of our vehicle and BIL2 moved to talk to me while B2W started talking to my wife. My brain was telling me that this was previously planned on their end.

He started talking about not seeing me for a while, how I missed the last party because I was working. While he was speaking, I could feel him attempting to …read me. Was PizzaShaman mad with us? You fucking right bro. My inlaws have talked mad shit about my family and how I was raised, the things that went on. While they are not necessarily wrong, their family dynamic dysfunction continues apace and is ignored for sake of APPEARANCE. A large portion of why my wife wanted me there, because it wouldn’t look good if I wasn’t.

Lots of feelings getting expressed today! Wonderful!

I decided to keep my tone level and replied to him with some talk about my recent rowing. The half marathon. Craigslist find, blah blah blah. When BIL1 and family arrived I went inside while those greetings were going on. I checked on my son, yup, chilling in the basement with the other kids.
So, I sat on the couch in the living room and watched football. I dislike watching sports. Nothing against the actual sport activity, but I feel it’s bread and circuses for modern times.

I did my very best to maintain a neutral vibe. I noticed that B2W did not speak to me at all. She’s aware of vibes and reading them. She knew I was not pleased with her but not going to wreck a kid’s party either.

BIL1 came in and watched for a couple minutes, initiated some small talk about my job. Sigh. I don’t do small talk, he knows this. Thankfully my wife entered and they started talking church topics, until food was ready a couple minutes later.

I didn’t eat. Yes, purely out of spite. I stayed in there the whole time, save to sing Happy Birthday. More drinks were consumed, and BIL2 couple were kinda sloshed by the time we left. I could smell the alcohol in the car on the drive home, to the point I asked my wife if she had been drinking. She had not, and was about to comment on the smell as well. A 3 yr old’s birthday party.

I suppose this entry will likely be the only outlet I get on this. My father’s mother would have sent the offending party a letter. I still have at least one around here, listing my flawed behavior one Christmas Eve dinner 19 years ago. :slight_smile: If my wife would rather ignore/forgive rude treatment in order to hang out with them again because she wants to be included, that’s her choice, and that’s fine, but I dislike having to go along with her choice.

This Channel of Judgement can be frustrating. Both in constant observation of what could be better, and the fact that just carrying this energy means I am judged by whomever I encounter.

Blah. I feel a bit better. A bit.

I suppose today’s listening will be a separate post. I have some things to do today as well. Gotta call the plumber for a leaky upstairs sink faucet, pay some loans, take the kid to work, pick up water, etc…

I have a HERO custom figured out. I’m still waiting on a support answer regarding a speech module. It would satisfy both ends of my spectrum I think.

OuterWork v1

HERO CORE *
SPARTAN CORE *
BDLM CORE

Soul Connection
Reignition
Prevent Premature Ejaculation
Stop Porn and Masturbation *
Physicality Shifter-Sexiness
Stonelike *
SPS Fat Burn
APS Torso
SPS Cardiovascular
Divine Will
King’s Radiance *
Inexhaustable *
Dance Mastery *
Stronger
Manipulus *
Speech Module ----> Gentleman’s Speech or Dragon Tongue or Power Talk *
Void of Creation *

  • denotes new modules for this guy!
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#166

9/25 Supplemental

I suppose I could drop APS Torso for something else. Could/would likely be covered by P.S-S. Maybe Victory’s Call? Carpe Diem Ascended? I’ve been wondering about those two. Either could be a good addition.

On deck today:
1.5 min ALCH1
1.5 min DR:LD
3 min InnerWork

7 min AsC.
Got my notes on my phone for this week. Last week, well, all goals save 2 of em got hit, and those guys probably need more time.

This time next week, Stage 2 of Alchemist!

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#167

Hmm. Typed out something Friday night. Came across my feed in a meme tonight. 3 days to manifest some nonsense. Lol.

I will figure this out.

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#168

9/26 Morning Time!

While woefully depleted this morning, I feel good with my trajectory going forward. I ended up conveying my post on the party to my wife yesterday and felt immensely better upon doing so. +100 Exp!

  • Wife has visible weight loss. She still hasn’t stepped on the scale, but she appears leaner. 2 weeks rowing, Genesis + Spartan + Symmetry. And Ascension Chamber! Got her on that one 2 weeks back, matter of fact.

We discussed our health choices compared to the ones my in laws are making. The next time we’ll see 'em all is Thanksgiving. Lots of time for change and improvement on our end, hopefully theirs as well.

I fixed the wall over the kitchen sink yesterday. There were some gaps in the drywall after the cabinets came down. I covered the whole bit with a new board. I’m not Mr. Handyman, and it wasn’t on my agenda, but it got done. It even looks good.

Plumber will be here tomorrow to check out that leak in my upstairs sink. Still in my service membership window from last year so I’ll save a few bucks on this.

Filled up over 50 gallons of water from the spring tap. Other people were showing up and getting annoyed my son and I were using 2 of the 3 taps. I just smiled, as these others had 2 to 4 gallons to fill apiece.
An older woman, entering and seeing us: “Where are we at in this process? …That’s a lot of water jugs there!”

“Yup. We like water.” :smiley:

Baked the family a batch of brownies, with Reese’s Pieces sprinkled on top.

  • All in all, I got quite a bit accomplished on this weekend off, compared to my usual.

I’ve decided to skip the Chromebook for now. There’s a good deal going for a new one of large size (which would work for my hands), but even that good deal $$ is most of the price of a new custom. Granted, I’d be getting it to write, but it was so I could write whilst smoking, and I’ve decided to take a break from that. After the next weekend off, I shall start anew, setting that habit down. I want to see what the difference is, now that I’m running subs as well. I also feel it would benefit the Alchemist process although I don’t know why or how. I don’t know if it’s a permanent thing. That is hazy when I try to look ahead. But it will, at least, be for a decent period of time. I didn’t have subs to help when I took a break last year. What is possible now? HERO + Spartan should certainly help with that goal!

Decided that, however, is making me rethink my custom HERO. Glad I didn’t order it yet. Nothing wrong with V1, but…stopping cannabis opens up dreaming again. This could be an opportunity to get Revelation of Dreams in. :slight_smile: Maybe set the BD down (with a thud).

Now, whenever I think about a new title, I think about limits. One can only listen to so much (3 titles per official recommendations) at a time. I think about if I’m trying to cram too much in muh brain when I build a custom and compare it to my current stack.

Limits. That word has a lot of impact on my life. Awareness came some years back when I came across a quote:
The greatest illusion is that mankind has limitations. - Robert Monroe
Resonance! His work prompted my own mental alchemy work. Later, I found this:
Left Angle Cross of Limitation: People who know what can and cannot be completed and understand the need to accept limitation in order to insure material success, to master our resources. Limitation creates the boundaries that hold our universe together. - Human Design, my Incarnation Cross or ‘Life Path’
Resonance as well!

Been trying to mush the two together ever since.

Reminder for later: Check roadmap for some sort of tradesman or handyman skill (x) sub, or post idea if not found. Son is 14 and wants to get into the trades, so plenty of time to see if such a sub exists or can be created! I wish I had subs when I was a lvl 1 adult, but I can help my son out that way instead!

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#169

Oh.

Fell into temptation last night, and curiosity hit me too.

Played 30 seconds of WANTED BDLM.

30 seconds only.
Of Pure SubClub MAGIC!

Had a great time at bedtime with my wife! I had read about 30 second results but never tried it before.

"Take what you want, and pay the price."–Someone, sometime.

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#170

9/27 Morning Time.

The plumber is on his way! Funny. As I typed “The”, my house phone rang with the courtesy call that he’d be here in about 20 minutes.

Had a revelation last night. I was thinking ahead a bit, what goals to set, how to tweak my stack, etc. What’s coming down the line, the future improvements, QTKS and ZP v3. The last two prompted me to think about what sort of experience it would be, where results flow in and you automatically do what’s required.

I realized I know what that looks like. Once, a few years back, after some ugly marital business my wife and I attended a …sort of healing session in a differing modality. I had already experienced some results from a previous session, and thought it would be beneficial for both of us.

A few weeks later, maybe a month, not sure. I came home from work and my wife was…different. All sorts of internal adjustments had taken place and settled in that day. Attitude towards me, tone of voice, body language, etc. All sorts of subconscious adjustments. I recall being angry because the version of her that had caused me pain was gone, and I remained.

Main point is: it was like a switch was flipped. Just different, doing different things, seamlessly.
That’s the future.

I recognize the plumber from my Fast Food work days. He’s recommending a new faucet. Of course. :slight_smile: Of course! Not just that my friend! It is also suggested that I get some sort of pressure regulator! An extra $1000 so I can have a weaker shower! No thank you sir. Just the faucet.

Listening Day!

I’m tempted to try 30 second listens of each ALCH1 and HERO. I am planning on this being my last ALCH1 loop though, and I question the wisdom of that… :thinking:

Well, the plumber is off for the part. Better get it in now.

5 min ALCH1

I got my speech module question answered by support. Not at all what I expected, to be honest, but I have my answer. I can proceed with my HERO order now; that mental friction is removed. But I also want to change it. The 30 second result that I got with my custom the other night…I can play it like that whenever, get that boost whenever. I don’t need to be constantly running BDLM. Hmmm. More growth?

<Sounds like less!> < :rofl:>

I have been experimenting with self-advice, much like…Lion speaking to his own inner Alchemist! I read that journal. I will note the inner Shaman talk with < >.

30 seconds HERO. I’m continuing with this guy, so I feel good with trying this out today.

So if I play my custom when I want a boost in that direction for a night or so, I can drop some of the modules in OuterWork. Not a shabby idea. It would be wise to remember this for the future, so I don’t needlessly construct any more sexual oriented customs. I still might as far as a planned stack, but yeah. I do have a higher focus, I should strive to keep it there. I’ll keep the Shifter- Sexiness module, as I want that look, but the rest can go.

HeroWork V1

HERO CORE *
SPARTAN CORE *
RM:UWx Core *

Carpe Diem Ascended *
Organization Perfected
Cosmic Navigator*
Negativity Displacer *
Stop P*
Shifter-Sexiness
Stonelike *
SPS Fat Burn
SPS Cardiovascular
Divine Will
Inexhaustable *
Dance Mastery *
Stronger
Manipulus *
Gentleman’s Speech *
Void of Creation *
DEUS

I will ruminate on this throughout the day. I think it’s final. We shall see. I am nearly to the next tier of SubClub Elites, so I will likely wait to hit that before the order. Less than a week, I’m sure.

If you read this: A PizzaShaman blessing upon your day!

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#171

Custom looks good!

:muscle:t5:

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#172

Ayyy! That was some good times even though my journey with Alchemist was pretty short. I do want to do it for longer but earthly goals and pleasures beckon to me.

You know the interesting thing was that today I was in the waiting room of a hospital (a routine checkup for mom) and I was thinking “I really enjoyed that back and forth between myself and ‘Alchemist From Within’. I should write more in that style”. Haven’t thought about that journal in a while and here I see that we were sharing that idea telepathically! Very interesting coincidence!

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#173

I don’t believe in coincidence anymore, brother.

Thank you for the think today!
I’m glad I picked it up. :grinning:

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#174

Thank you! High praise indeed! :pray:

Tempted to get Virtuoso de Musica in there somehow…maybe in place of Negativity Dispacer.

Still time to decide. :slight_smile:

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#175

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#176

9/28 Morning Time!

My energy is humming this morning! Tingling, from the underside of my feet, to my palms, to the top of my head, and awareness of everything in between.

:smiley:

There’s going to be some good pizza made today!

People often tell me my product is delicious, “This pizza is so good man!”, as they go for round two.
Seconds is the best compliment I get. :slight_smile:

I make the best pizza out of anyone on the staff, hence why I have my spot. I could be positioned somewhere else…but then I wouldn’t be PizzaShaman.

Why is my pizza so good?!? I used to wonder myself. It’s the same ingredients that anyone else would use, roughly the same amounts and variety per pizza. It’s not rocket science. Why was mine so much better? Students got to telling me they avoid the pizza station on my weekly day off, because it’s not the same. Why?!?

Then one day about a year ago, the Universe delivered the answer.

I was going through the instructional videos for the Grand Circle, a standing post qi gong. Grandmaster Jiang was explaining the difference in the hand positions and what that did to the energy flow. Cocking your hand like SpiderMan shooting webbing blocked energy flow, hands aligned straight with your forearms allows it. I’d seen this before, but this time I had the realization that I was doing qi gong when I made pizza. I will cock my left hand while keeping my right aligned, all throughout making a pizza (sauce, cheese, toppings… stretching is a separate step). I sometimes step differently with my feet as well. or pop my left foot on its heel. I send/allow my energy to go into the pizza and that makes it delicious. That’s what makes my food so good.

My Pizza Magic!

So, feeling my energy up this morning, I know I’ll be making some good pizza today. Students will be happy! Thanks to SubClub they are more vocal with their appreciation in front of my bosses, which is great for job security. Oldest daughter has over 2 years of college left and as long as I continue to work there, her tuition is free.

Hmmm. Not quite what I intended to write this morning. It happens. :slight_smile:

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#177

Btw where can we order your pizza, and do you have a menu?

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#178

Reminds me of the Daoist story of Master Cook Ding

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#179

So you are the guy who feeds the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles!!!

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You are the secret to their boundless energy!!! Shredder coming after you to stop this!!!

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#180

The first sentence, talking about limits…I see the Universe working through you for me in your sharing of that, Malkuth.
:pray:t2:

I found this insightful. I readily identify with moving by spirit, as Ding described. At least, I can with making pizza. :slight_smile:

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#181

What a coincidence you pick these guys! < No coincidences!>
:slight_smile:

It was these guys and my grandmother that got me into pizza when I was 8 years old. It’s a bit late to be digging around, but I have a photo album from that time period that my grandmother had put together. It still has the pizza cut outs from the action figure packaging taped to the inside cover. Probably some character bio’s in there too. I was a big fan at 8 years old!

I’ll take a gander around here in the next week or two, see if I can find it. It would make for a fun journal entry.

Still. Very coincidental!

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#182

My pizza doesn’t get ordered, per se. I work in the dining service department of a small college where I run the pizza station. I just make pizza and keep the shelf as full as possible. I don’t get too fancy with pizza on the daily; I prefer to keep to simple pizzas as the students like them better. Easy to recognize pizzas and they always look the same < Delicious!> as my consistency in pizza making is unmatched.

I make a garlic white pizza that gets a “PizzaShaman recipe” garlic oil brushed on the dough before layering Parmesan, Cheddar, and Mozzarella cheeses. After cooking the pizza, a sprinkle of my pizza herb blend before the cut.

So that pizza, a regular marinara 3- cheese pizza, a pepperoni pizza, either sausage or sausage and bacon pizza, and bacon pizza are available at all times. I have a rotating weekly special pizza, and sometimes I make a special dessert pizza.

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#183

Haha! Was a big fan myself. My previous username Raphael is inspired both from the name of the angel bearing it and the ninja turtle with the red eye band :grin:. Had a well made plastic action figure of him too. Red was my favorite color in childhood.

And for you, here’s the most kickass TMNT intro:

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