PizzaShaman’s journal - Ongoing

9/30 Morning Time!

Washout day 3

I was rereading the HERO copy a short while ago. One line about Bushido sparked a Knowing of, “The Ancient Mysteries are steeping inside you.” All my knowledge of the various shamanism of differing peoples and mystery methods are creating something special in me. It had a strong emotional component to it. Hmmmm. Feeling is the secret!

At least for me! Your mileage may vary.

My thanks to @Simon over in that Sub use and Astrology thread! I don’t know how I happened upon it yesterday; can’t recall what I was searching for. The Human Design chart there interested me. I’ve seen plenty, but everyone’s interpretation of the …original material, I suppose, is different. Her labeling of Gates as Gifts is interesting take. :slight_smile: The inclusion of strongest sense on her chart is what prompted my interest of what site it was generated from.

Screenshot 2023-09-30 at 09-09-15 myhumandesign-chart.pdf

She labels my profile as Responsible Adventurer, a bit different from the Role Model/Martyr that I’m used to. Strongest sense listed as Feeling? I knew that already, interesting to see it listed. Reinforcement.

I do not know if it would be wise to consider your chart when choosing your subs. Perhaps, but you need to have your (life)stuff in order if you expect your energy to be firing as it’s shown. You also need to Know your chart! I’ve had knowledge of mine for a while and as my understanding changes and grows, my sub choice does as well.

Not sure about play times for this upcoming week. Alchemist stage 2 starts Monday. I have InnerWork to listen to, and HeroWork arriving sometime next week. That’s the stack. I know I want to listen to Refinery separately for it’s first 5 minute loop. I can likely do 3 minutes of InnerWork. No Monday ‘spiking the punch’ with DR:LD or anything else other than AsC.

I am sure after all. Wonderful!


Work last night. Dinner service on a Friday means fewer students, but fewer staff as well. I’m making pizza, doing my thing. A couple young men are getting some food.

"Thanks for choosing Pizza! Keeps me employed…here, at least. " :smiley:

Guy on the left. Braces. “Oh thank you, I love your pizza!”

Guy on the right. Taller, baseball hat. “I don’t even go to school here. Eating on a guest pass.” Gestures to Guy on the left. “Pizza at my school sucks, but I hear this stuff is good, so Imma try it.”

“Well thanks bud. Come back and tell me what you think of it.” :slight_smile:

Guy on the right: “Ha! Alright.”

I don’t think it was ten minutes later before those two were back, grabbing more. Baseball hat was grabbing white pizza when he saw me.

“Holy shit, I’m going to transfer schools for this! They call you PizzaShaman huh?”

:grin: “That’s right.”

“Well that’s cool, you got pizza in your name! Our pizza guy is named Kyle, and compared to this, he can’t cook for shit.”

My thanks for the compliment!

Told my wife about it last night, she said I should get that story written somewhere. Why not here?

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I’m continually amazed to find so much wisdom in one place.

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New 4k PR: 18:10

35 seconds down.

Thank you @Enigma . Your journal motivated me this morning!

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7/12/23 306

10/1/23 263

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That’s incredible.

Good for you man.

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10/2 Morning Time!

Been waiting for this for a while. The moment is here.

5 min ALCH2

Interesting. A wave of calm one minute in. A new state of being washing over me. Energy tingling in my forearms.

I have some running around to do today for daughter #2. Driving lesson and work ride. After those are done, I will proceed with InnerWork and Ascension Chamber.

Hmmm. Wife is working from home today. A glance over and I see her calendar on the wall next to her desk. October 2023! Abstract flowers and stuff.
Starting Refinery today, 10/2. I listen MWF. So, if I go to 10/25 and washout until 11/1, that would be eleven loops of Stage 2. The reason I’m typing all this out is because I’m suddenly considering staying with stage 2 for longer. Interesting! I was eager to move through the Khan Black stages, even with stage 4 timelocked. I wonder what it means…


I have been keeping up with the girls trip thread. It is very interesting to read everyone’s responses! Everyone’s attempt to help filtered through their own experiences and perceptions. I wanted to comment, as I feel I’m qualified. :slight_smile:

  • 20 years married
  • Experienced infidelity

But I feel I need HeroWork before I get to telling any of my insightful tales.
In discussing it with my wife, we both agreed that while such a trip would be fun, it would also be full of temptation. Why risk that sort of exposure?

We are also thinking from our experiences and perceptions.

It got me thinking about my own experience. What happened, how I handled it.
< There was no other choice at the time.>
One thing I HAD to do was to craft a plan should it happen again. That’s how I work; what I needed to do to start moving from that point. I did. Not the greatest plan. Not even a good one. Just a plan.

Now, however, that plan has changed. Thank you, SubClub.

We’ll stash that next payday. Better to have it and not need it than need it and not have it.

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3 min InnerWork
7 min Ascension Chamber

Got some interesting sensations of energy swirling and twirling within.

This awareness is new and different.

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10/3 Morning Time!

Yesterday was interesting. I had some things to do with daughter #2, namely taking her to her driving lesson, about a half hour’s drive away, and taking her to work later on in the afternoon.

She was in a good mood, as she had weighed herself that morning and was down a couple more pounds. #2 has been slowly bringing it down, I think 35 pounds lost over the last 8-9 months. She came into the computer room and announced it. I told her my weight loss as well and we shared a high five.

That fun little interaction was witnessed by my wife, who then decided to go weigh herself, after speaking about NOT doing so the night before. She’s been working out for 3 weeks on the rower like myself, and being careful with her diet. Looking leaner too.

Hasn’t lost a pound.

Found this out later when I was about to get ready to leave. She had been putting off these angry, irritated vibes towards me, so I asked her about it. She was upset that everyone else was losing weight and she wasn’t. Wife listed her # of workouts, her diet, listening to subs, everything. She was happy for me and my progress but didn’t want the workout snapshot updates anymore, nor pics showing numerical weight loss of mine.

Kinda shat on my day. Drove #2 to the lesson and discussed it along the way, as she had caught a portion of that conversation. My wife was quick to bring up her results when she has them, and talk about nothing else, regardless of how her audience/other person might be doing, #2 noted. I agreed, having lived through all those things with my wife. Zumba phase, Isagenix, Optavia…blah blah blah.

We had to wait a few minutes for the driving instructor. I was excited, as there was a book store nearby and I had planned to spend the hour’s time browsing. It’s been a while! Found a book I’d been hunting for online, but never came across the digital file. I saw the massive last 2 books of WoT series, but I wasn’t dropping that much on books, at least right now. A good amount of blank journals, filed that knowledge away for later, and then it jumped out at me: The Book of Five Rings! Grabbed that one too.

Before I knew it, the hour was up. I was checking out as #2 came in from being dropped off. We decided on a food plan (home-local Taco place) and left. While texting my wife, #2 talking about the driving lesson and seeing homeless people in the city. Apparently driving instructor had been homeless once upon a time too.

Wife was not interested in food from taco place. No thanks.

Got some birria tacos, a fish quesadilla, and some flan. #2 got a burrito. I allow myself one carby meal a week, and this was it. Delicious as usual; I love this place.

I took a little nap after that meal until it was time to take #2 to work. She wanted to drive, and while I was initially going to say No (as there was construction backing traffic up when we were getting lunch), wife reported it had been cleared and posted about on social media. Yay. Thank you for the information dearest. Now I get to experience being a passenger for the first time with #2 as the driver.

#2 needs to increase her following distance.

I came home and got lit. Read some books. I had two different pieces of information pop out at me during my reading, to the point I felt prompted to take pictures of the pages to remember for later.

The first was from the book I had been looking for a digital copy of. I remembered reading a book as a teen where everyone in this world had their own particular magic. Might be something like being able to change someone’s appearance to being able to point out the direction of whatever you are looking for. Took me a little while to find the title again: The Source of Magic by Piers Anthony.

the line - “…a person’s nature may best be gauged through the questions he considers most vital.”

Later on I was reading Outwitting the Devil by Napoleon Hill. I want to finish that one again as well, refresh my memory on ‘drifting’.

The …well, lines:

My experience with prayer has taught me that so often all which results from prayer is a plan (if the prayer is answered at all) --a plan that is suited for the attainment of the object of the prayer through natural and material media. The plan must be transmuted, through self-effort action.

There. Those two bits needed typed out here, whether for me or someone else.

That’s about it for right now. I eagerly await the arrival of HeroWork. May try a LifeCharger workout today.

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The Xanth books. Read a bunch of those as a kid too. Packed with puns. haha. That was before I knew what a ‘dad joke’ was.

I think the first one I ever read was called ‘Dragon on a Pedestal’.

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I’m not sure if you’ve mentioned this to your wife, but if she’s looking leaner and putting in the work with exercise and diet it could be that she lost fat whilst gaining good muscle.

It’s often said that muscle weighs more than fat, which is likely why her results on the scale don’t match up with the results she’s feeling (and that you’re seeing). If she continues to build muscle, her metabolism will increase, and her body will inevitably target more actual fat by using that fat as fuel.

Being strong and healthy (or lean if that’s her goal) should be more of a goal than the number on the scale, since that number can be misleading and lead to discouragement.

Wish her good luck and persistence from this random person on the forum. :wave:

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I will, when the vibe settles down.

There is tension between us currently.

I could sit here and type it out, but I don’t think enlightenment is there tonight.

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Awesome! and thank you for your inputs.

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10/4 Good Buddy!

:rofl:

1 min ALCH2
1 min InnerWork

Going with some LIGHT loops today. I’m curious to see what pops up because of that.

I will say that some tension between my wife and I makes for easy SR, so…thanks AsC! lol
Goal accomplished so far this week!

I managed get some vacation time approved, so PizzaShaman is off for the entirety of Fall Break! I’m looking forward to a couple long rowing sessions, and getting a portion of my basement cleaned up. Odd, that last part. Ha! I’m having a tiny shindig this weekend, and past that I’m looking into a weight set for my son and I. Can’t have him getting a stronger chest than Dad! The basement has a good spot for that.

Alright, sent the apology message for my reaction to hers. Blah.
Thanks InnerWork.

Outta writing juice for now. 'Til next time!

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i-find-it-kinda-bussin-i-find-it-kinda-cap-meme

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Balance for me
Could possibly be
Equal time
At either extreme

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HeroWork has arrived!

gave it 1 minute today, along with 1 minute of ALCH2.

It is interesting. I think I like it.

Those words are close but not quite right.

It’s a good fit for me.

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10/7 Morning Time!

Well.

I read my wife the post by @dreamingheroes , wishing good luck and persistence.

Her reaction was exactly what I mentally (Thanks Mind’s Eye!) predicted it would be:

“What did you write about ME on there?!? Tell me NOW!!”

Naw.

So yeah, passed that along like I said I would. A friend from work, henceforth known here as Gymfather, gave the exact same advice, verbatim (!!) as well, so I mentioned that too. I think some portion of the advice stuck. We’ll see.

To note it here, somewhere, she dropped Genesis from her stack and replaced it with Sanguine: The Elixir. Spartan and Symmetry were kept.

Felt guided this morning to give HeroWork another listen, this time for 90 seconds, so I did. Monday will be ALCH2 and HeroWork again, along with AsC. After, I will be alternating customs along with Alchemist plays on listening days.

Listening to music is hitting differently after that 90sec listen. Its like more of my spirit is stirred and moves to the beat. Strange. I feel like dancing and crying.

That’s enough for now.

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Ah, that’s rough. I guess people need to want to be helped for it to stick, but I’m sorry she’s taking her frustration out on you.

She’ll realize it soon enough, but it’s easier for people to get support and encouragement if they are at least receptive to others trying to help them. She’ll come around. (Also, Gymfather must have some serious experience to have earned that title) :joy:

Take it one day at a time, buddy - you’re making fantastic progress and I always look forward to reading your updates.

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