Made it!
18:51
Resistance level 10
4017 meters rowed
Feeling pretty good. I wonder what is getting my ass to the gym? I mean, I am. I know this. But why now? This is a deviation from my normal pattern. Any sort of action could be viewed as such though. Hmmmm. I’m going to keep on with it. Perhaps it doesn’t matter what prompted this change and why. Maybe what matters is that I go with this one.
8/30 Morning Time!
1.5 min Alch 1
3 min WANTED:BDLM
That might have been an overlisten on the custom there, but we’ll find out if/how bad recon hits. I feel like I didn’t get enough rest sleeping, even though it was my usual amount of time. Might have been the late night yogurt and mango. Hmmm. I’ll be home earlier tonight, I’ll grab a protein shake instead this evening. Gym nights are cool but they go so late.
Looking out my window just now, the sun trying to poke through this wreath of clouds, looks like the DEUS module art. Sweet.
Oh let me just plop this one here.
Thank you, Mr. Lion, for taking a step I had only a thought about just recently! 
I am intrigued. Although, I’ve done this sort of thing before. Not with subs but other life purpose explorations. Another answer of “your life purpose is to experience life” would be quite irritating. 
Maybe. Maybe not. Perhaps there is freedom there, but it feels maddening. I know I don’t want to drift along, and I don’t have some life vocation screaming at me to fulfill it. I’m certain there is middle ground there, along the lines of : Set a goal and move towards that. It has been difficult in setting the goal. If I try to initiate things, it usually goes poorly. I have a long list of things started and left unfinished. Better to discontinue that practice!
I just had the thought that it would be cool if that list that Lion compiled was put together just right, in SubClub fashion, and released as a major title. Find your Life Purpose! Genesis 2.0 or some such. Ah well.
Ten days until some consecutive days off. Let’s set a short term goal of 4 more gym visits. I’ll have to get one in this weekend or go on my lone day off to have that goal met. I can do it.
Its been a while since this list was compiled. Maybe Genesis already has enough of purpose scripting to do the job.
You’re welcome, bro .
You may be right. I’ve only given it a couple loops. I remember it got me up early in the morning, not in a bad way. It would be worthwhile to give that a go before building another custom, especially since I already have it.
Dog walk in before work! 1 mile. Dollar was a happy boy.
Am just imagining your name as Cash and there goes Cash and Dollar taking a walk.
8/31 Morning Time!
Rest day today. So far so good on any WB recon. I may keep the listen at 3 min next week, however today would normally be a harder recon day so I’ll keep the jury out until tonight.
Pretty sure it’s Blue Moon day. Oldest daughter was rude again to my wife and I this morning. Anytime something deviates from her mental plan, everyone around her will experience her anger. Verbal altercations escalate very quickly around here from harsh words to shouting matches when daughter #1 is involved. Gets especially aggravating when she’s the reason I’m working where I am. One of the benefits of my job is free tuition, for myself and any dependents. I feel she pays lip service to appreciating the debt free college experience. Grumble.
Gym tonight after work, gotta get some rowing in. I’ll update after with stats, helps me be accountable. I’m still curious what got me moving, but I’m thinking it could be WB. As good a guess as any.
Saw some back and forth on here yesterday regarding PMO. I have my own cautionary tale to tell; I think I’ll stick it here at some point.
Luck to you all today, SubClub! Outta time before work.
Stationary bike
3 miles
12 min
Rowing machine
Resistance level 10
14 minutes
3015 meters
1 of 4 complete
I’m up way too late. So be it! Some mental wanderings.
One of the things that drew me in about SubClub was the Titles. Like the actual names of em. Dragon Reborn for one. I’m a big WoT fan, and that immediately caught my eye.
Just reread the description for fun. I know it is not an easy subliminal to run. Completing it seems to be considered a badge of honor in the community, as I’ve noticed a distinct level of respect given to those who have. It also appears to confer the tangible benefit of enhanced subliminal…capabilities? Capacity? Some kind of bonus like that. Could be…likely is dependent on the user.
Anyway. Rereading the objectives, I noticed the bit about reframing past adversities for learning replacing the manifest challenges scripting. I think that’s cool, but I wonder tonight if old DR was just brutal to run.
I wonder now what 4 stager has the best …completion rate? My gut says Khan, but I’ve only read so much on here. Not enough to make an educated guess.
Thinking of giving the Marriage Enhancement a 1.5 min listen on Monday. It’s Terminus strength. My theory is that it works on a different level than the usual zp store title or custom. It would be interesting because I roll WB in a custom on Wednesdays. Low or no recon today, btw. Quite nice. Yeah dude. I was thinking one listen every 3-4 weeks. Maybe every 4th Monday. Keep it going in there deep. Imma sleep on it.
Intending to have a ‘Malkuth Morning’, as I think of it, involving morning meditation (for me, Hemisync Focus 10) and qigong upon awakening. My wake and baking has dwindled a bit every day, to the point where having any less removes any point to it. Worth a shot to see how it sets up my day versus the other.
Malkuth Morning achieved!
Which is ironic because I had to attend a whole-day conference today, and I’m probably going to meditate at 8:30 pm.
Are we switching places?
Maybe for today.
I hope the whole-day conference was interesting. I would take that over making pizza for college kids provided it had intriguing material. Although I got something special for the young’uns tonight.
9/1 Morning Time!
Well, loops on deck. Let’s record times and get the listening done.
3 min KBC4
5 min Self Enhancement Custom
and done.
I need better names for my customs. Something shorter. The long names feel inefficient.
I want to get a list going regarding subs I want to run. Take the time to sit down, look over the storefront, see what looks interesting and speaks to me, and write down why. Maybe I can organize after that and figure out some stack combinations for myself. I KNOW I want to run PCC at some point, but I’m not sure with what, hence the list idea.
Saturday will be a long day. I’m planning on ‘eating the frog’ and going to row before work tomorrow. Should be doable even with the 10 hour shift. Getting that done will get me over the mental hump of the short term gym goal. With the holiday weekend however, work should be fairly slow. Just about halfway there on this work period slog.
I wonder what sort of action I can take or should be taking with ALCH1, to help Pathfinder along. I suppose I could reread my differing materials and texts to see what jumps out at me. Might be some interesting synergy there between ALCH1 and KBC4, the energetic channel purification interacting with the increased flow of my energy. Time will tell.
Feeling pretty good right now.
9/3 Morning Time!
Yesterday did not go to plan. How does it go? “Man plans, God laughs”?
Woke up early with a massive headache and nausea. Threw up twice. Called work 4 times before someone answered and I was able to be out sick. Threw up twice more. Smoked and slept until 2ish in the afternoon. Finally had a protein shake at 3:30ish and was able to eat solid food later on last night.
I’m not sure. I don’t think it was overload. I half believe it was a sub manifestation. It was very out of the blue for me to get ill like that, especially since I’ve been taking strides to be more healthy lately. I know, what kind of sub manifestation would get someone sick right? Don’t make any sense there, PizzaShaman!
Yesterday, early evening I started getting some messages from my daughter, asking me what happened at work since an email had gone out ‘talking about an incident’ in my area of employment. Mid afternoon, a couple of my coworkers got into a verbal altercation which escalated to a brief physical one, which resulted in the police being summoned. Had I been present at work, it is highly likely that I would have involved myself to diffuse the situation, whatever it was. So I was spared that by being off sick.
Found out when I woke up that a good friend at work was involved in that situation. (Like my wife found out before I did…jeez) I suppose I will start to see the fallout today, as I’m going in to work with this (now)head cold. Sudafed for the win!
I need this week to go according to plan regarding my work schedule. I want a nice padded paycheck for later on in the month for the rower!! Although, thinking just now, I may try to see if I can magic one up via Ascension Chamber. Can’t hurt to put some thought energy there.
Even with feeling a bit ill, I feel full of energy! Today is day 6 since last release. It is an odd juxtaposition, body feeling weak and weary yet energized. I am uncertain if I want to keep this little streak going or release some pressure tonight and start anew. I find that I have a far easier time with retention when my wife is on her period, and according to the tracker that’s 9 days out. If I let loose tonight and start fresh, I could get a 2 week streak in, easy I think.
Or I could say No. Keep my energy for my own use. I want to get to the gym tomorrow since I couldn’t yesterday and it was closed today. Half hour or so on the rower will take the edge off the energy level.
Might end up being a coin flip.
Sigh. If I was single, retention would be easy. Well, now. No wife in the picture ever, I would likely still be a porn addict. But that’s a story for another time.
Switching tracks: One (Of the many!) things I like about SubClub is the emphasis on Action! Psych-K was/is great for precise subconscious adjustments, but it falls short, IMO, because of the lack of weight placed on Action. “Consider” an action step vs. Take Action!
Maybe an Action Guide would be handy for my fellow SubClubbers? I saw one around here before. I believe it was written by Simon for EoG stage 1, a solid plan of steps one could/should take to get the most out of that stage, and a guideline for when you’d be ready to move on to the next stage. Sometimes its easy to figure out. KBC for instance! Feel free to disagree, but I think the first action step is to decide to retain your essence.
I don’t know too much about what steps people should take for each sub, but I know that amongst the community, it would be possible to craft a list of action steps for each sub (or stage in a multi stager) to get noobs started. Noobs was written with love, there. I’m still noobish too.
Motivated to create some goals today. Here goes:
Current Continuing Knowledge Goal: Find out what SubClub products are capable of based on personal experience.
Short Term Knowledge Goal: Construct list of desired subs, prioritize and plan usage. Finalize and order KBC4 custom when core is available. That name embed is NICE.
Current Continuing Mastery Goal: Obtain complete mastery and control over my sex drive.
Short Term Mastery Goal: Make it to the neurochemical/hormonal calm period after 2 weeks or so of retention. Not feel like I’m fiending for some ooey gooey.
Current Continuing Fitness Goal: Get a rower’s build. Lean and strong.
Short Term Fitness Goal: 3 more workouts by next weekend off.
Current Continuing Family Goal: Develop better relationship with my son.
Short Term Family Goal: I’ll have to plan some things for us to do together. We can exercise as an activity when I get the rower at the end of the month. He just wants me to talk to him. Sometimes I don’t know how to. We did have a good talk night before last. Set aside time for that.
Kinda wanna cram RM:UW in a custom with KBC4. I feel I could use the boost. It takes me so long to type up these entries! Oh well. Don’t force it, PizzaShaman. That ends poorly, you know that.
A big Wheel of Time fan here myself. Read the series 4 times.
Did you notice that the CHOSEN title was also Wheel of Time inspired? That’s what the darkfriends call the Forsaken.
The TV series was a big disappointment though.
Always pleased to meet a fellow fan!
CHOSEN honestly tickled my brain but I didn’t make the connection until I read your words. Thanks brother!
I read and reread the books so many times. I could devour one in two days at my reading peak in my teenage years. Last year I ordered most of the set off of Ebay. Pretty sure all the original covers.
It wasn’t til a few years ago I came to understand Saidin/Saidar as an allegory for sexual energy. YMMV
The breathing trick to ignore temperature and weather, I found the real world equivalent in Monkey Kung Fu. That series had a big impact on my life.
The TV show, I agree, was disappointing. It had its moments. The first instance of Moiraine channeling in the village, actually seeing it on screen after having read it so many times, well. I felt it powerfully. Past that I felt it was kinda rushed, cramming most plot points from the first book into what, 8 episodes? I may give season 2 a watch. Home sick today so not much else to do.
Now I know another reason why I want to keep running Mind’s Eye, even put it in QTKS. Couldn’t explain it til I read this.
The expanded box doesn’t show it unless you click, I think. Anyways, the questions referenced, paraphrased:
a. Does Mind’s Eye contain scripting to improve ESP type abilities
b. Does Mind’s Eye contain scripting to “detox and decalc” your pineal gland.
And that’s why I loved Robert Jordan’s writing. So many mythological and psychological references in these books.
Saidin/Saidar = masculine/feminine energies. Saidin need to be taken. Saidar to be surrendered to. And many more such inferences.
Also the women depicted in his books behave like real life women (even though modern takes say otherwise). For example, women group together with other women even if they hate each other just to confront a man. Things like that are so true lol.
Too many mythological elements like Arthur Hawking being a reference to King Arthur.
Also:
Rand al’Thor, the Dragon Reborn, is confirmed by author Robert Jordan as sharing traits with the Norse god Tyr, Mat Cauthon is clearly based on Odin, and Perrin Aybara draws inspiration from the Slavic god Perun. The three also embody aspects of the Hindu “Creator-Preserver-Destroyer” trimurti.
There are also several indications that the central character, Rand al’Thor, is patterned after Jesus Christ. He has several stigmata (namely, marks in his hands/wrists and a spear wound in his side). Prophecy says he will give his life to save the world. And he will fight in the final battle, Tarmon Gai’don. There is also reference to his rebirth (to live, he must die), another parallel with Christ. He also wears the Crown of Swords, which can be a direct reference to the crown of thorns christ wore.
(above copy-pasted from the Internet)
Perrin’s hammer reminds me of Thor’s.
Can go on and on. It’s rich in cultural and religious references too.
9/4 Afternoon Time!
1.5 min KBC4
2 min ALCH1
1.5 min DR:LD
7 min AsC
Going to see how this sits today. I like the DR:LD feeling. Gets me up and moving. Hopefully I’m feeling better soon.
Hmmm. A pause before the Ascension Chamber listen. What to aim for this week? What to boost? Can I magic up something? I usually just speak it in my mind while the loop is playing, and things happen later on. Maybe it’s time to record something prior, like a …goal? Ha! What sorcery is this?
Alright.
Boost Subliminal Processing. I’ll keep up my end and get plenty of water and appropriate food. Retention helps too.
Ensure I have a peaceful work week. Thanks to Mind’s Eye in a custom, this request happens consistently.
An affordable particular model rowing machine (RowErg Concept 2 Model D) within an easy pick up range on Marketplace. I’ll buy new if need be but I’d like to find a steal. Usually my luck is good that way. “I always find the best deals.”
Enhance KBC4 execution. 'Nuff said. This stuff is Fire.
Boost Health. I must get back to the gym and outta this sickness.
Unexpected Income! Receive some sort of income or opportunity for such.
Alright, not bad for me. Time to do it.
And done.
9/7 Morning Time!
Feeling hot this morning. KBC working some overtime so far today!
The morning wake and bake is still diminishing. Came down to smoke this morning but decided against it again. 2 days in a row. Hmmm. I’m not mad about it, just an interesting development.
Did my Buddhist Health Qigong this morning. Felt pretty good. Just reached 3 days again so it was appropriate.
I do want to record this, as it was most unusual for me:
I’m fairly popular at my workplace amongst staff and students. PizzaShaman is a good enough stand in for what I’m called. It’s been going on long enough that there are jokes I should have my own brand and logo, etc. Well last Friday, I was struck with inspiration, and I designed one. It just came and plopped itself down on my mental worktable and I had to go draw it, right then. Turned out alright. Kind of an elegant symmetry to it, also looks old and maybe runic, the rough draft at least. I was pleased. I haven’t had a creative expression like that since I was in my early teens!
Don’t know what kind of result that is. I’m thinking KBC. Sexual energy is creative energy, if it lasts long enough.
Oh yeah. Mental note here: Consider a sleep module for the KBC4 custom build, QTKS or ‘plain old ZP’ lol. Last night’s sleep was not good again. I’m not sure if it was due to sickness or what, just didn’t sleep well. Deep Sleep or Paragon Sleep or RoD would cover that end.
I am aiming for a post work workout. If anyone reads this today, I would appreciate a moment of positive thought to assist me there. Good luck today, SubClub!
More good stuff:
GLM being “lighter” is good to know. The info about Sanguine:The Elixir is useful too. Would it assist the stack as well as the custom if used in a custom? Ha. Looks like a yes as I reread it.