Saw this short video this morning. Brain starting telling me that it’s related to the coquette play from (OG before update at least) Wanted.
Have you tried the Bio-Tuner 9 from SOTA to help with any withdrawals?
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I have not. Raw dogging it!
Heh, I wish I knew how to type out the sound I made when I read your post there. Equal parts duh, doh, and desire. I read about it previously when you made references to it on the forums here. It is definitely up my alley, and I take your mention of it again as a sign from the universe.
I’ll have to wait until payday this Friday, but I have set a reminder now. Thank you, @RVconsultant !
I’ve been using Real Salt too.
I’m glad to see that Redmond has an electrolyte product, which I’ve earmarked for the next water fast.
I appreciate your knowledge sharing!
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About a device that is similar to the Bio-Tuner 9. Rumor is that this doctor emptied a drug rehab center in Scotland with her version of this device:
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It’s crazy to see that pdf covers an article from 1983!
8/18/25
EveningTime! Day 18 no cannabis.
I slept in a bit today. I did dream last night but whatever it was, it is gone from me now.
I handled a few errands with my son’s assistance. (It cuts the water filling time in half!) Spent some time looking for where I wrote about an experience regarding a trailer effect from a custom sub I made in the past; I recall my wife having two strong but differing emotions during a chat at that time, and I experienced them in my vibrational field as distinct shapes and textures. I wanted to find it for certainty; I think it was the Awakened Perception module, but I am not sure. That sort of energetic sensitivity and discernment is something I would like to build up in the future. It will come back to me, I’m sure.
45 sec NE Paragon
45 sec RoD
1.5 min Mountain
15 min Alch 4
One more week until I can get into the dentist. While I appreciate how NE Paragon has completely wiped out any pain in my mouth, I look forward to letting it’s listening time go to zero.
I reviewed the Grand Circle positions today. Some sort of Qigong tomorrow, be it that or the Buddhist form.
I read Book 3 in Meditations.
8/19/25
MorningTime! Day 19
Today marks 6 years at the current job!
Weird dreams again last night. 2 parter I suppose. First was centered around a baseball field. My retired Marine neighbor was “overseeing” things there, and there were a lot of people in the stands for no game being played. I was there with my wife, looking for some secluded spot for some risque sexytime. I recall the bright lights over the stands not piercing the dark on the field.
That dream ended when I woke up to piss. It was difficult to fall back asleep, but I did eventually. The next dream, well I was back in my pizza delivery days. Kinda. I had worked for a major pizza chain a couple jobs ago, and in my dream I was doing something I had always thought about: I put on the uniform, hat, grabbed my pizza bag and I was going to roll into a restaurant and get some free pizza. Load that sucka up in my bag and walk out like I was taking a delivery. Lolz
When I went inside the major chain pizza shop, it didn’t look like right. It looked like a mom and pop shop with red leather bar seats and Italian stuff on the walls. My conscious got the better of me and when I was able to get up to the counter, I just ordered a pizza instead of trying to take a delivery. When I pulled out my wallet however, I had no monies. My cash and cards were missing, even though I knew I had them earlier. I had to retrace my steps, looking for my stuff, and that when the nooks and crannies shit popped up. So I walked out the shop and it was in the middle of this:
Not exactly but fairly close to the dream setting.
Yeah man. That was a pain, looking for my stuff in there. I ended up finding it back in my wallet (the monies had changed color!) and getting my pizza. When I left the shop and was finally out on the street with my food, I awoke.
What does it mean? lol
I did two sets of the Buddhist Qigong this morning, followed by the Grand Circle, where I did 8 breathes for each of the positions. I felt real good when I was done. Body still a bit tired, but my energy body felt charged up.
Every day at work this week will get progressively busier, so I am ready for this easy-ish day. Looking to get a quick row in now before getting ready to leave.
Picked up GLM. Feedback and reviews are looking real good, and I’ll be able to get Paragon outta the stack here in less than a week. Weeeee…
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8/20/25
MorningTime Day 20
No ! today. Real bad dreams last night. I wrote in the offline journal/listening doc about those. Led to arguement with Wife. At this moment things are tense.
Looks like the foolishness being heavier than wisdom, like the pic, was prophetic for today.
45 sec New GLM
45 sec NE LB
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I tire of hearing, “Well, everyone is a little on the spectrum!”
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8/21/25
MorningTime, Day 21
3 weeks no Bud today. Massive, I suppose. I understand why I stopped early on my last attempt. Dreams can feel like too much at times, and the cannabis stops that.
Work was rough the first half of the day yesterday. I was not expecting the number of guests and while I had some prep ready to go, it wasn’t quite enough, so I felt as though I was playing catch up for the first portion of the shift.
Things got a bit better for the dinner shift; my station was steady, not busy; I can handle that easily enough. Ended up making 48 pizzas yesterday compared to 20 the day before. I suppose I tend to mentally black out this transitory build up week each year.
Treated myself to local Indian place fried rice and iced masala chai after work. Delicious. Watched some 3 Body Problem after chatting with my son. Interesting show!
It’s one thing to possess a strong vibe, it’s another to manage it responsibly. I definitely feel the onus to have a calm state within because I know it gets broadcast out, and everyone picks it up.
Things are calm again between wife and I.
No rowing today. Still have enough time to get a round of the Buddhist Qigong in prior to getting ready for work. Not quite sure what to expect today there; I know I’ll get through the day- I would prefer not to get stressed. It’s already hot in my corner.
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8/23/25
MorningTime! Day 23
Yesterday was very busy. First day of first year students moving in. Meal guest count jumped from 450 to over 1100. Good thing slinging pizzas is my craft.
I had listened to 45 seconds each of NE RoTNW (wanted some action with the Wife), NE GLM, NE Love Bomb, and AuraBoost the day prior.
I had my picture taken twice yesterday; kinda odd, I mean I’m just a pizza chef. Once from a mother who wanted a picture of my oven. I get that as she said her son was a chef, but wanting me in the picture too? Then later at dinner, the men’s lacrosse team wanted a selfie with me. Perhaps it’s the King’s Radiance module with Love Bomb affecting that. A couple autistic kids started conversations with me, which is normal, but this one girl kept going and my stock responses weren’t working too well to end the talking. How do the normies do it?
I had to work through my lunch to ensure my area was ready for the dinner shift, but it was alright. Ended the day with having made 72 pizzas, which compared to Tuesday’s 20 pie count felt huge. A ‘normal’ day during the first semester is in the high 40’s range so yeah.
I treated myself to some local Indian place fried rice and chicken Tikka last night, with iced masala chai. Mostly nom. I did run into a couple of “coworkers” from the school I work at when picking up my food; they were eating in while I was getting my take out. The lady smiled while greeting me and said, “I see you treat yourself well!” Sometimes, yes. Must be LB aura stuff.
Wasted employment slot new supervisor was coming into work when I was taking some trash out to the dumpster. He wordlessly got out of my way. It has been over 3 weeks since the poor interaction where he demanded respect, and while he’s made some ‘creeping authority’ comments to my one supervisor, nothing in my direction for which I am thankful.
I’ve been chilling in the lowest level of my house while writing this up. Since I’ve not smoked cannabis in over 3 weeks, getting red light time has been a challenge, but I’ve paired it up with journaling this morning.
I did check out the Bio-Tuner yesterday to purchase, but when I got the screen talking about the signature required upon delivery, my enthusiasm and will to purchase drained away. I had that with a purchase before and it was a pain in the ass, since I’m not usually here for the mail, can’t make sure someone will be and it wasn’t simple getting it at the post office. Maybe an Ebay option? I don’t know.
Might do some listening when I go up. Still need another microloop of NE Paragon- that appointment is on Monday. Last time, the dentist did the cavity drilling with no pain medicine administered. Crazy!
Today is overtime work. I offered up my services for a full shift, so 8.5 hours of overtime. Yeah dude.
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Holy Fuck
Just saw that Vampire: The Masquerade - Bloodlines 2 has a release date!
Finally!
I’ve waited years for this one.
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8/25/25
MorningTime! Day 25
Yesterday’s listening:
1.5 min NE Paragon
15 sec GLM, NE RotNW
Just finished 2 sets of the Buddhist health Qigong. Got out my tangzhuang to wear for that per a ChatGPT suggestion. A lil snug, but I’m just starting the busy time at work, and weight will come off.
The movements went well enough and I’m able to recall them all in proper order without looking at the video; I still play it for the music however.
Strange dreaming last night. The first was some restaurant setting: I was out to eat with my children, aged as they are now. My oldest was introducing me to a female coworker- late 30’s or early 40’s, dark hair. There was some energetic fit as we “hit it off” with conversation, and I remember leaving the restaurant all buoyed on that emotional high. All my children saw this, and they all seemingly approved. I recalled my wife when I got to my vehicle, and felt guilt. We got back home, and my father (12 years dead) was at my house, just hanging out! That never happened IRL. My dog was gone, and in its place was another. Different breed, dark fur. Lacerations all over it, including this nasty looking wound on it’s penis sheathe that leaked blood on the floor. Plans were made to go out again (immediately) because we had a good time at dinner. When my wife got home, I was prepared to either tell her myself or be outed by my children about this coworker of my daughter’s, but to my amazement ALL my children (and my father) ran interference and told my wife the same (albeit different) story of dinner. Wife was surprised but happy my outing with the kids went well. I was in shock that they would do that to their mother.
Woke up here and had to piss. Came back to bed, fell back asleep.
Now I was at school with my son, at his vo-tech program. Of course, it was set in some type of apocalypse and class was in a rundown warehouse. While he was off learning something, I was messing around with water and some sort of high pressure hose. I was able to (somehow) overcharge/overfill this hose with water and loop it back into itself, and when I would release the ends, a water bolt would go flying out and blast a hole in the wall. One shot only, but damaging! I charged it back up again and went to this rundown house next door, which was not clear. I walked into this entrance room, and off to the right was an archway leading into a kitchen, and there was a zombie toddler that had no legs below the knees, but it was moving around. It stood up on it’s stumps and turned towards me, eyes glowing dark red, and I shot it with the water hose bolt. It went down and then I heard it say, “I’m not getting up again.”
Then I woke up.
Daughter #1 left for her last first day of the semester, and I recounted the dreams quick for her. In telling her about the coworker she introduced me to, SHE HAD A NAME ALREADY.
Dentist appointment this afternoon- finally get this cavity fixed. Hopefully it will be fine and not need pulled. If teeth were currency I’d be heading for bankruptcy.
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Dentist visit completed!
No oral pain medicine injections needed! No topical novacaine either. Woooo!
Go Name Embedded Paragon Complete!
110% PizzaShaman approved!
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8/26/25
MorningTime! Day 26
Strange dreams again. One involved a resort/buffet. I don’t remember the dreams from last night as well as I would like. I do remember waking up from one and struggling to fall back asleep.
I completed one round of the Buddhist Qigong and one Grand Circle (8 breathes per position) this morning already.
Odd feelings I guess. I could feel an electric sensation in my hands and arms while going through the GC; still tingling as I type this. Coupled with feeling physically tired makes for a strange mix. Oh well. I’m certain that I’ll get the wind I need when I walk into work. It always happens like that.
I can’t seem to find where I wrote it down (I know I did!)…but I recall the trailer effect I got from Self-Enhancement custom way back when. I was talking with my wife while the sub was 
Trailering? In full effect? I might have been a little high too. Anyways, during that conversation, Wife reacted to two different things I said with a strong (but different) emotion each time. I remember “feeling” a geometric shape with “textures” coming from her and entering my bubble/aura/biofield.
“What’s that PizzaShaman? Your wife felt disgust and you felt a stucco pyramid from her?”
Something like that.
I’m almost certain it was the Awakened Perception module that gave me that interpretation and experience. Another strong contender would be Synergy: Way of Mercy, as I had all 3 constituent modules in that custom.
Either way, trying to get that back into my life. I’ve considered going with a name embedded Alchemist stage 4 and adding either Awakened Perception or Synergy: WoM as the additional module. Alternatively, I could wait until RoM is updated and then get Self-Enhancement rebuilt and run it then.
Side note: Learn from PizzaShaman and do not jump straight into Custom Subliminals here at SubClub. Do as you wish, your mileage may vary, etc. I look back on the list of customs I have and do not use, and while not extensive as some peoples, all in all the learning gained from the experience could be had for far less cost. More forum post reading and a more open mind might have deterred me from some of those customs I put together. I do recognize that I am how I am (I get very certain and have absolutely no problem experimenting) and this is not an expression of regret, only caution for future readers. I would not want my wife to tally up all my orders at the Q store!
That said, I do find the Name Embed title option to be very worthwhile and effective! So much so I jumped into Hero: TLTB with a NE Earth right off the bat, instead of picking up the store title and giving it a go first.
Time to figure out the listening for today. I find myself in a different spot in life at the start of the school year at my job; I have no desire to run anything like Wanted or WB and deal with these young ladies getting googly eyed at me. Perhaps it’s maturity? A side effect from not getting high every day? Maybe I am just getting old.
3 min GLM <—I read elsewhere on here earlier today that a user ran this first in his stack and there was a difference, so I’m trying that for myself.
3 min Mountain (TLTB Earth + Inexhaustible)
3 min NE LB + King’s Radiance
7.5 min Generator2.1
I was going to listen to Alch 4, but I got an intuit at the end of LB to save that one for next listening day and go with Gen2.1 instead.
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Mountain. Love the name!
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8/29/25
MorningTime! Day 29
The past few days were ups and downs.
Tuesday was interesting. Following my listening, I got ready and went into work.
Making my last street turn into work, I felt a resounding message within- “Be Of Good Cheer”
Turning into the parking lot, there was parking available! This is beyond highly unusual! First week of classes has meant in the past that I am parking much further away. Not that day (nor all this week actually)! God Loves Me!
I went inside and got clocked in. All of my bosses came by in succession:
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Sous chef was setting up my line for me. I asked her about a particular class/day combo for our customers, as in past years it would line up weekly and we would get fucking hammered in the dining hall. She didn’t know but said would relay it up for me as she left to do other boss things.
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Executive chef came by to give me a report on my freezer inventory and what stock he had coming in. Normally I have to chase this gent down; I think he finds my autism off-putting. Completely different interaction, but welcome!
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New Director Lady comes by, maybe 15 minutes later. I wasn’t quite open for business yet, I know that. She was following up on my question to Sous Chef, of which she knew nothing about but was going to reach out immediately to find out. She thanked me for my attentiveness and departed.
I had my answer to the question delivered by Sous Chef within an hour of asking it, and the entirety of the management team was glad I brought it up. We were looking at a possible surge of 600 guests at the convergence point of class and day, and with seating for around 300 in our renovated dining area it was important for everyone to know.
Rest of the day was busy busy busy, but quite doable. I get a surge of energy walking into work now, knowing that I am where I am supposed to be. Coworkers came by offering help, and ( in a first ) I accepted it, just giving out requests for grabbing food product from the back. Still a big shift for me!
Getting home from work that night, things took a turn down. Wife was feeling bad about something, I could tell, and then accusatory questioning started- She wanted my computer password to check stuff out for herself.
I didn’t want to give it out. I’m not doing anything infidelity related on here, not checking out instagram chicks nor trying to find a side piece or anything like that. No pornography or erotica. Nothing like that at all. But the thought occurred to me: If a cop follows you long enough, they’ll find a reason to pull you over. So…I didn’t respond to that question.
Later in trying to sleep it started again; she was telling me I wasn’t giving her any affection, I probably didn’t want to be with her (or ever did) and she brought up the girlfriend I had prior to meeting my wife that I admittedly spent time comparing her to in our early relationship. Still, that was over 25 years ago now. I responded as best as I could.
Further complicating this issue was the vegan chorizo I had eaten at work was destroying my intestinal track at this time. Lots of anxiety and just fucking big gas bubbles moving through me. It was a horseshit night, with maybe 3 hours of sleep total.
Wed. morning I got up and decided I wasn’t going to feed into Wife’s shit today. Took Dollar for a morning walk; he was a happy boy for that. Got home and walked into another mess: Internet was down on a work from home day for Wife, and Child #2 had been talking about moving out with her boyfriend while I was gone just then.
I had seen cable trucks working in the neighborhood while walking the dog, so that explained the first problem. It was going to be intermittent internet access for most of the day until the ‘upgrades’ were done. Confirmed by checking with the provider.
Diving into #2’s issue, found out it was due to continued poor conditions for boyfriend at boyfriend’s home, due to felon stepfather. He is a bad man; I met him once and he has the absolute worst vibe I have ever encountered. Wife and I have not been able to figure out why #2’s bf’s mother chose this man, as he has caused nothing but trouble for her. Anyways, I talked #2 out of moving out by pointing out the realities of adult living; she would be entirely responsible for providing everything for herself. I offered to allow BF to move in indefinitely; he could pay the same rent that she does. Complicating issue in the situation is BF’s sister; he wants to get her out of there too, which I understand, but we don’t have the room here for 2 more people. I hope that issue resolves well.
Work on Wednesday wasn’t great. I will still feeling upset from everything, and I have difficulty with emotional regulation. I can’t just leave shit at home like some people are able to, but I can’t do my job well (regarding the customer interaction portion) while feeling upset. The busyness and work stress wasn’t helping. I counted 2 autistic meltdowns avoided by choking those emotions and stuffing them down. I contemplated what to do if Wife pushed the computer issue. While I have done nothing wrong, I still didn’t want to open everything up to prove it. I started thinking if there were coworkers that would help me out with a place to stay if it came to that. Came up with a short mental list, but decided that if I were to go ask, I’d help summon that result. No bueno, so I didn’t bring it up with anyone. Lunchtime came and I read about a school shooting that morning in the midwest, and that upset me as well. Something in the line about how those kids died in the pews stirred great sadness in me. I can feel it now as I type this. That and grief over my dad’s passing emerged again, so I spent the very first portion of dinner shift staring into my oven as to not display wet, upset eyes.
I had texted wife about hanging out that night; one of her complaints of the previous evening. I told her I didn’t want a repeat of last night, it was affecting me at work and I couldn’t have that. She was fine with that thankfully. I got home and decompressed about my day; she explained her internal struggles as of late. The night before? A peri menopause hormonal swing. sigh
Slept better that night. Insert GLM results here! Sex in the nighttime and again Thursday morning. I felt like I was dragging a wee bit at work, but I still get that burst of energy going through the door. Another busy day at work. I did get ingredients for my dessert pizza product delivered so the students will have that to look forward to…likely tomorrow afternoon/night.
I’m feeling the energy for this recanting dwindle. I want to get my listening in and possibly do a 5k row before work. Sous Chef asked me yesterday if I had been exercising to which I responded “Not this week.”
More later
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8/30/25
MorningTime! Day 30
30 days no cannabis today! A crazy thought.
I’m still sleeping like shit. The dreams are still weird. le sigh
Things with the Wife are good. She has been more considerate these past two days and nights. Here’s hoping that continues, and that whatever I’m doing (if it’s prompting her) continues as well. She has been off subs for at least a month now, so yeah. I’ll give her a suggestion or reminder that she could be listening maybe once a week, but I’m pushing anything.
Did Qigong this morning. 1 round of the Buddhist Health, 1 round of Grand Circle. I would like to find energy for rowing, but it seems to be elusive. I am getting plenty of physical activity at work currently, so it’s not like I’m completely inert. I recall going for half hour rows after work, no problem, 2 years ago.
Aside from being younger then, I was also smoking and getting much better sleep. Maybe something to consider…since I’m not sure what I’m learning here without it, aside from it smooths out my autistic edges. Perhaps a thc fast day once a week in addition to avoiding it in the mornings as part of my usage? Something I’m going to think about today.
Yesterday’s listening:
3 min GLM
3 min Mountain
1.5 min NE LB
7.5 min Alch 4
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