Definitely enjoyed that.
Thanks for posting!
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Interesting things:
- While the immediate results of my Primal Nights listen were a bit lackluster with my wife, yesterday was a different experience entirely, at least the first half of the day.
For reference, the listen was 3 minutes of Primal Nights, 1 minute of RotNW Friday morning.
Before Work Saturday
Got laid again in the morning. Wife got upset because I went down on her without asking, knowing I expected the same in return. Despite this, she extracted the nectar.
Usually finishing like this means that I will have a big drop in my energy later on in the day. Perhaps it is my body switching over to replenishment. It’s noticeable.
While my aura was still strong, I got into work and started my day.
- Gymfather came by to voice an irritation regarding call offs and other work nuisances, exclaiming at the end of it that they could, “suck my dick!”
I started laughing internally, knowing where that exclamation came from.
Lunch was busier than expected. There was some sort of Music Department event going on, and more parents and students were present.
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This one mother kept coming back to the pizza shelf, trying to get her son to get some food…and trying to talk to me. “What’s your name? Oh, you’re PizzaShaman? I’ve heard about you, etc” It felt like she was interested in me, which also felt odd because her son and husband were right there as well. Big smiles from her.
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Another thing I noted: The young ladies whom I think “like” me or respond to me energetically were attempting to make conversation with me, and I could feel a heat flush from within myself while they were there talking to me. I had the sense that I was responding to them responding to me. That would have been a wonderful awareness to have when I was 18!
As the day wore on, I felt my aura drop, so to speak, as my energy switched over within. I’m 42, working on 43. It’s going to happen.
Active semen retention practice along with the cultivation of healthy habits, combined with the magic of Khan Black would result, imo, a healthy, robust aura. A strong aura (that you nurture!) with Primal Nights (loops) will likely give amazing results.
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1/22 Morning Time!
Wife’s birthday!
She’s out for a massage right now. Lunch will be at her favorite restaurant. Past that, I haven’t a clue. 
1.5 min Generator
30 sec Primal Nights
We’ll see what this does today and tomorrow. I don’t want to seriously give PN a spot in my stack right now. Could be fun in a RotNW/BDLM/PN custom though.
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The story of the half-elf was really good. As good as off a published copy. Keep writing, brother.
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Thank you gentlemen! There will likely be more, now that I had whatever block get unstuck and our DM figured out an appropriate written RP exchange.
It felt good to be able to get that out. I’ve wanted to write as such for years, and could compose wondrous scenes in my head, but always failed to get it out my fingertips. Some UWX bloom, I believe, is to be credited.
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1/23 Morning Time!
Primal Nights Results
Heh. A quick finger before heading up to bed showed that she was quite wet (I believe I used the word “sopping” at the time) without any previous foreplay or anything. Just my presence was enough? Damn!
What’s in this stuff!?
She was more grabby and into it when we got down to business.
At one point though I felt the vibe completely change. She was no longer into it and it was time to go to bed. >.> I was still in that …calm waters area of the orgasm waterfall system. I withdrew, rather abruptly admittedly, and we just fell asleep in silence.
I remembered the ending during my morning constitutional and went to tell her that I wasn’t mad last night, just the vibe changed and I wasn’t trying to force an orgasm.
I was right! Apparently, heh, when I pushed her ankles back to get it, her body weight shifting made it difficult to breathe. She felt too fat for that position and was then really tired.
hmm. Gotta say it was cool to wake up and see the discussion in the other thread. Getting confirmation of my suspicions was sweet. Come to think of it: I thought about it last night-----> Woke up today and had the answer.
Could that be Generator at work? 
Hell yeah! Good stuff.
Speaking of: The decision to go with 90 seconds yesterday was the right move. I still had a period of time yesterday where I intensely felt nausea and had things at the edge of my vision. Things similiar to the early ZP effects during the testing of it, from what I read over in that thread.
But yesterday, they stopped quite a bit earlier compared to last week. I think it was over with by 5pm ish; around 9 am listen. I don’t mind such things on a Monday either, as it’s my weekly day off from work. But it was good to experience the much earlier…lightening is the word, for some reason.
Also, no real headache or sense of brain tiredness today. I had that lasting until Friday last week from the 3 minute Monday listen.
I am undecided at the moment regarding changing this listening. It might behoove me to keep it here for another week, and note the immediate and after effects again.
More interesting ideas this morning. I actually typed out something that I would love to do. Feeling quite emotional upon reviewing the thought. Must be important. I would need help too. Still. Going to keep that one close for the time being. It needs time to incubate.
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“The Need to Win
When an archer is shooting for nothing He has all his skill.
If he shoots for a brass buckle
He is already nervous.
If he shoots for a prize of gold
He goes blind
Or sees two targets –
He is out of his mind.
His skill has not changed, But the prize
Divides him. He cares,
He thinks more of winning
Than of shooting –
And the need to win
Drains him of power.”
― Thomas Merton, The Way of Chuang Tzu
This has been in my head for some reason.
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1/24 Morning Time!
1.5 min E:WTP
And that’s going to be it for that one today. Thursday last week could very well have been recon rage at work, and I don’t want to do that again. On the other hand, I had legit complaints. 
Imma just cut the listening time this week and move forward. If I do alright tomorrow, I’ll add 30 seconds next listen.
Weeee…
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Get it boy!
PN seems like a smash hit. Definitely working for you!
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1/25 Morning Time!
More monk RP/creative writing
He sat near the fire, letting the warmth of the flame remove the imagined chill from his bones. As he hugged his knees to his chest, he struggled to replay his last moments in his mind’s eye, but his memories were hazy and incomplete.
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The group had been attacked by the honor guard of a corrupted god. Elven sisters, numbered three, standing guard over that decayed slimy husk for who knows how long. The guardians attacked the party as soon as they stepped foot on the stone platform where their deity resided. The swordswoman rushed the group as their wizard started slinging spells and their archer fired volley after volley. Thar had seemingly softened the guardians up with his Fireballs, but the swordswoman was very tough, taking both a Stunning Strike and a Radiant Punch from the monk before she fell, in addition to the many other attacks landed by the party.
The half-elf rushed forward to engage the other two, letting whatever anger he felt at the mental goads of “Halfbreed” fuel his strides. None could move as fast as he!
Once he was close enough, he invested most of his Chi into a flurry of Sun Bolts. Small orbs of golden light repeatedly left his palms and zipped through the air, landing on the elven sorceress while the archer dodged out of the way.
The elven sorceress, bleeding dark ooze from her numerous wounds, cast something as she thrust her staff forward with a shout. Ice streamed forth.
And that was it. He died.
Just gone.
And then back. His light surged back into his body from elsewhere. A seemingly familiar bird was merging into a stone cube held aloft by T. Feanoth; then it wasn’t a bird, but a crystal. The elven sisters were melting into ooze and that vile flow was seeping into the stone. The husk of a god was not in sight, and his companions were picking themselves up as well.
Then he could move again.
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He felt sort of stretched inside, in his spirit. It was hard to put into words. Maybe the feeling will go away at some point.
Not much point in dwelling on it.
His attention turned within, summoning his inner flame in his mind’s eye; feeding it everything. Anger, sadness. Rage, despair. Chills. Sweats. Hunger and Thirst. All fed the flame until his mind was empty, save for his flickering inner light.
He stretched his arms out to his side and abruptly sprang to his feet, inhaling the crisp night air deep into his lungs. As he exhaled, his eyes settled on a patch of grass near the treeline that looked suitable for formwork. The physical exercise would help nurture his body, and thus his spirit. The half elf excused himself and walked over to the spot he had picked out.
He stood there, feet and knees together. Hips lightly tucked. Back straight, eyes forward, ears up. Left hand over right, both resting just below his navel. Breathing slowly and deeply and fully.
After assuming the First Position, the monk held still for an endless moment.
He had access to all the many different exercises and meditations that he knew from this pose.
Which way to go? The initial thought upon seeing that patch of grass was to go through his martial art form exercises. He knew how each routine should feel, and the monk wanted to ensure that there was no lingering stiffness from being magically frozen to death. It would be a good choice. As long as he kept to the Initiate forms, there would be no disturbing his companions with the Radiance displayed in the advanced knowledge.
Then in his mind’s eye, in the void around his inner flame, a Golden Orb appeared. It hung there, in front of his Fire, glowing with soft light. His normal perception of Radiance came through as a clear piercing light, but this orb was translucent. While the majority of its light was reflected within itself, the small portion that was escaping exuded great power.
The Golden Orb meditation. He considered it. It was the most advanced meditation he had learned before leaving the monastery. One had to demonstrate thorough knowledge of it as one of the prerequisites to Sojourn. A complete working of his Chi, it had many applications, insight and understanding among them.
Very well. He inhaled deeply, pulling a large amount of air into his belly, then chest. He opened his feet while keeping his heels pressed together, creating a wide angle. Once opened enough, his weight shifted to the front pad of his feet, rising up on his toes as his heels then opened up. His hands dropped from his belly and then rose, each one slowly lifting up each side until his hands were over his head, palms facing the night sky.
His feet now shoulder width apart, he settled back onto his heels, and he exhaled slowly as he brought his hands down in front of him, parallel to his centerline. When his floor facing palms reached a spot below his navel, he stopped his motion and continued to breathe, feeling his Energy engage and Flow.
We got a Discord channel set up for written roleplay now, so between in person DnD sessions we can share RP and work on our characters.
I credit a UW:X bloom for this, and for my writing in general lately.
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1/26 Morning Time!
Not sure what to listen to today. Wife has her monthly visitor and is leaving for a church event with my daughters today, returning Sunday. PN might not be the best way to go. My usual line of thinking would be to just give whatever else is in the stack a listen.
But I want to expand the toolbox today! ASBR sounds like an interesting path, and I am curious about the fame scripting and what my aura could do with it. I have OG Stark, picked up when I thought a Terminus strength file was still in there. It wasn’t, and I never gave it a listen.
Well. Got it! I remembered my CC number without grabbing my wallet. That’s a sign!
I love that info there, letting one know about the NSE contained within!
Odd. Got it downloaded and I want to listen, but I feel some internal resistance. Irritation! Or, perhaps I don’t need additional attention today.
Well then.
1.5 min TWTP
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1/29 Afternoonish!
1.5 min of Generator this morning. No nausea, or weird headache, or seeing stuff outta the corner of my eye! I should be safe to add 30 seconds next week.
30 sec of TWTP
Just gave eartime to TWTP. I had been contemplating what to listen to, if anything else, today. I figured that this choice would be fine, as i made it to late afternoon with no ill effects. Not sure how/if I want to continue with PN. It’s fun, that’s for sure, but is it necessary at the moment?
- I have found some interesting reading material. I think it’s an Alchemist manifestation! Something that hits very close to a personal interest of mine that I’ve shared with …all of 2 people that I can think of. I hope I find something in there. I’ll know it when I read it.
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1/30 Morning Time!
Feeling beat today!
I neglected to mention that I slipped in 1 min of PN last Friday morning. It paid off when my wife returned home from the retreat. Got it in Sunday afternoon, late late Sunday night, yesterday afternoon, and then again at bedtime last night (her idea nonetheless!)!!!
Gotta make sure to take my supplements today, and I may have to row after work if I want to complete 3 of 3 workouts this week ( and I do ).
I think any reasonably motivated dude listening to PN can get himself some action.
What else…I wanted to note NLE core, in Generator, in Terminus strength. I am really noticing new things or having a new awareness of information these days. New details in what leads to what in foreplay with my wife, for example. The layering of new experiences into a foundation.
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More PN
She keeps asking for it from behind every time.
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I googled it because you always post the pictures – Concept 2 is a rowing machine? Are you training for something in particular? Or is it just your main form of fitness?
I’m living vicariously through your PN updates. Keep it going for those of us stuck in the desert 
Gives me hope.
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