Thank you gentlemen! There will likely be more, now that I had whatever block get unstuck and our DM figured out an appropriate written RP exchange.
It felt good to be able to get that out. I’ve wanted to write as such for years, and could compose wondrous scenes in my head, but always failed to get it out my fingertips. Some UWX bloom, I believe, is to be credited.
1/23 Morning Time!
Heh. A quick finger before heading up to bed showed that she was quite wet (I believe I used the word “sopping” at the time) without any previous foreplay or anything. Just my presence was enough? Damn!
What’s in this stuff!?
She was more grabby and into it when we got down to business.
At one point though I felt the vibe completely change. She was no longer into it and it was time to go to bed. >.> I was still in that …calm waters area of the orgasm waterfall system. I withdrew, rather abruptly admittedly, and we just fell asleep in silence.
I remembered the ending during my morning constitutional and went to tell her that I wasn’t mad last night, just the vibe changed and I wasn’t trying to force an orgasm.
I was right! Apparently, heh, when I pushed her ankles back to get it, her body weight shifting made it difficult to breathe. She felt too fat for that position and was then really tired.
hmm. Gotta say it was cool to wake up and see the discussion in the other thread. Getting confirmation of my suspicions was sweet. Come to think of it: I thought about it last night-----> Woke up today and had the answer.
Could that be Generator at work? 
Hell yeah! Good stuff.
Speaking of: The decision to go with 90 seconds yesterday was the right move. I still had a period of time yesterday where I intensely felt nausea and had things at the edge of my vision. Things similiar to the early ZP effects during the testing of it, from what I read over in that thread.
But yesterday, they stopped quite a bit earlier compared to last week. I think it was over with by 5pm ish; around 9 am listen. I don’t mind such things on a Monday either, as it’s my weekly day off from work. But it was good to experience the much earlier…lightening is the word, for some reason.
Also, no real headache or sense of brain tiredness today. I had that lasting until Friday last week from the 3 minute Monday listen.
I am undecided at the moment regarding changing this listening. It might behoove me to keep it here for another week, and note the immediate and after effects again.
More interesting ideas this morning. I actually typed out something that I would love to do. Feeling quite emotional upon reviewing the thought. Must be important. I would need help too. Still. Going to keep that one close for the time being. It needs time to incubate.
“The Need to Win
When an archer is shooting for nothing He has all his skill.
If he shoots for a brass buckle
He is already nervous.
If he shoots for a prize of gold
He goes blind
Or sees two targets –
He is out of his mind.
His skill has not changed, But the prize
Divides him. He cares,
He thinks more of winning
Than of shooting –
And the need to win
Drains him of power.”
― Thomas Merton, The Way of Chuang Tzu
This has been in my head for some reason.
1/24 Morning Time!
1.5 min E:WTP
And that’s going to be it for that one today. 
Thursday last week could very well have been recon rage at work, and I don’t want to do that again. On the other hand, I had legit complaints. 
Imma just cut the listening time this week and move forward. If I do alright tomorrow, I’ll add 30 seconds next listen.
Weeee…
Primal Nights!
What a product!
I asked yesterday what’s in this stuff. Bossman SaintSovereign gave me a response!
heh. I suppose I should explain my perspective a bit before I get into my review.
I’m a 42 yr old man, been married for 20 years to the same woman. In retrospect, I have to give credit to the power of the internet for my marriage being possible, as my poor habits in my youth didn’t help me with the ladies. Starting in my teens, I became obese, had/have some level of bipolar disorder, and was a chronic masturbator and porn addict. When I met my wife, I think I had maybe dated 4 girls total, nothing longer than a couple months. I wasn’t some seasoned gent settling down.
Bah, I’m rambling. Bottom line is that I did not do well with women, and never saw that changing as it seemed not even my wife liked me too much.
All of that changed 4 years ago when I quit porn. I had an easier time losing weight. I quit jerking off too, as I wasn’t looking at porn to prompt the activity. My moods and reactions started improving. Everyone started treating me differently, including my wife!
I am aware of how things can improve when one improves oneself.
I wasn’t prepared to walk into work yesterday and experience (to me!) the huge change in the interactions with the various women around.
I found it unusual. We haven’t spoken before other than her asking me a couple work questions. ( Seriously, 2)
Normally only the 60ish F would greet me, and not quite as warmly.
She knows nothing has changed, or at least she should. I still don’t want to talk to her or have her around me. I knew PN was working then.
Female students who I think like me or have little crushes or whatever: Yeah these young ladies were smiling before I made eye contact. Some, who had only smiled at me before, spoke to me for the first time yesterday. Hair touching. The looks. Alla dat shit.
Another office lady stopped by, wanting to talk about allergen labeling on one of my signs. Late 20’s. Attractive. Married.The conversation wasn’t really necessary, IMO. She was smiling the whole time. The vibe–my goodness. I had the sense of an energy match, I suppose. The sense (or was it confidence) that if you were both single, it would be easy to seal the deal if you wanted to.
Then, an internal WTF observation of that…awareness. I am not a philanderer, I run subs to see what can attract my wife.
Biggest thing I noted was any woman I had spoken to before, someone I had rapport with, that encounter was “boosted” or better. Words fail me at the moment to adequately describe the sense or knowing.
Edit: Realized I didn’t mention the administrative staff ladies that came through. I don’t want to type so much. The above (boosted encounter) applies and the interactions were similar to the office ladies.
Edit #2: I’ll write this one. I owned Libertine already; I gave it a few plays in the past. The first time I gave it a loop, one particular woman, Imma guess mid to late 40’s, attactive, stopped by for pizza for the first time ever. She comes through on a regular basis for food, just like the rest of the employees and students there. Never pizza though, until my listen of Libertine, and not since.
At one point during lunch yesterday, I turned around and you know who was grabbing a slice and giving me a smile. Inner monologue : Yup, this stuff is working.
I think I noticed at least 20 instances yesterday of PN working with interactions. I’ll admit I felt my aura energy drop a bit after I ate lunch, which lead to the decreased effects during the dinner shift, in addition to me just being busier and not having any sort of time for chit chat.
End of the evening, at bedtime, my wife was very sleepy.
When I put her hand on me, she started jerking me off, and then switched to using both hands.
She’s never done that before!
I slept good.
This morning I figured most of that PN was out of my aura.
Felt super horny even after releasing right before falling asleep.
While my wife was getting ready for work, I asked if I could hit it from the back real quick?
Fake exasperation as she got down on all fours. heh
quickly turning to "oh god oh god’ “OH MY GOD” and some gibberish I couldn’t understand as I was finishing.
Get it boy!
PN seems like a smash hit. Definitely working for you!
1/25 Morning Time!
He sat near the fire, letting the warmth of the flame remove the imagined chill from his bones. As he hugged his knees to his chest, he struggled to replay his last moments in his mind’s eye, but his memories were hazy and incomplete.
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The group had been attacked by the honor guard of a corrupted god. Elven sisters, numbered three, standing guard over that decayed slimy husk for who knows how long. The guardians attacked the party as soon as they stepped foot on the stone platform where their deity resided. The swordswoman rushed the group as their wizard started slinging spells and their archer fired volley after volley. Thar had seemingly softened the guardians up with his Fireballs, but the swordswoman was very tough, taking both a Stunning Strike and a Radiant Punch from the monk before she fell, in addition to the many other attacks landed by the party.
The half-elf rushed forward to engage the other two, letting whatever anger he felt at the mental goads of “Halfbreed” fuel his strides. None could move as fast as he!
Once he was close enough, he invested most of his Chi into a flurry of Sun Bolts. Small orbs of golden light repeatedly left his palms and zipped through the air, landing on the elven sorceress while the archer dodged out of the way.
The elven sorceress, bleeding dark ooze from her numerous wounds, cast something as she thrust her staff forward with a shout. Ice streamed forth.
And that was it. He died.
Just gone.
And then back. His light surged back into his body from elsewhere. A seemingly familiar bird was merging into a stone cube held aloft by T. Feanoth; then it wasn’t a bird, but a crystal. The elven sisters were melting into ooze and that vile flow was seeping into the stone. The husk of a god was not in sight, and his companions were picking themselves up as well.
Then he could move again.
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He felt sort of stretched inside, in his spirit. It was hard to put into words. Maybe the feeling will go away at some point.
Not much point in dwelling on it.
His attention turned within, summoning his inner flame in his mind’s eye; feeding it everything. Anger, sadness. Rage, despair. Chills. Sweats. Hunger and Thirst. All fed the flame until his mind was empty, save for his flickering inner light.
He stretched his arms out to his side and abruptly sprang to his feet, inhaling the crisp night air deep into his lungs. As he exhaled, his eyes settled on a patch of grass near the treeline that looked suitable for formwork. The physical exercise would help nurture his body, and thus his spirit. The half elf excused himself and walked over to the spot he had picked out.
He stood there, feet and knees together. Hips lightly tucked. Back straight, eyes forward, ears up. Left hand over right, both resting just below his navel. Breathing slowly and deeply and fully.
After assuming the First Position, the monk held still for an endless moment.
He had access to all the many different exercises and meditations that he knew from this pose.
Which way to go? The initial thought upon seeing that patch of grass was to go through his martial art form exercises. He knew how each routine should feel, and the monk wanted to ensure that there was no lingering stiffness from being magically frozen to death. It would be a good choice. As long as he kept to the Initiate forms, there would be no disturbing his companions with the Radiance displayed in the advanced knowledge.
Then in his mind’s eye, in the void around his inner flame, a Golden Orb appeared. It hung there, in front of his Fire, glowing with soft light. His normal perception of Radiance came through as a clear piercing light, but this orb was translucent. While the majority of its light was reflected within itself, the small portion that was escaping exuded great power.
The Golden Orb meditation. He considered it. It was the most advanced meditation he had learned before leaving the monastery. One had to demonstrate thorough knowledge of it as one of the prerequisites to Sojourn. A complete working of his Chi, it had many applications, insight and understanding among them.
Very well. He inhaled deeply, pulling a large amount of air into his belly, then chest. He opened his feet while keeping his heels pressed together, creating a wide angle. Once opened enough, his weight shifted to the front pad of his feet, rising up on his toes as his heels then opened up. His hands dropped from his belly and then rose, each one slowly lifting up each side until his hands were over his head, palms facing the night sky.
His feet now shoulder width apart, he settled back onto his heels, and he exhaled slowly as he brought his hands down in front of him, parallel to his centerline. When his floor facing palms reached a spot below his navel, he stopped his motion and continued to breathe, feeling his Energy engage and Flow.
We got a Discord channel set up for written roleplay now, so between in person DnD sessions we can share RP and work on our characters.
I credit a UW:X bloom for this, and for my writing in general lately.
1/26 Morning Time!
Not sure what to listen to today. Wife has her monthly visitor and is leaving for a church event with my daughters today, returning Sunday. PN might not be the best way to go. My usual line of thinking would be to just give whatever else is in the stack a listen.
But I want to expand the toolbox today! ASBR sounds like an interesting path, and I am curious about the fame scripting and what my aura could do with it. I have OG Stark, picked up when I thought a Terminus strength file was still in there. It wasn’t, and I never gave it a listen.
Well. Got it! I remembered my CC number without grabbing my wallet. That’s a sign!
I love that info there, letting one know about the NSE contained within!
Odd. Got it downloaded and I want to listen, but I feel some internal resistance. Irritation! Or, perhaps I don’t need additional attention today.
Well then.
1.5 min TWTP
1/29 Afternoonish!
1.5 min of Generator this morning. No nausea, or weird headache, or seeing stuff outta the corner of my eye! I should be safe to add 30 seconds next week.
30 sec of TWTP
Just gave eartime to TWTP. I had been contemplating what to listen to, if anything else, today. I figured that this choice would be fine, as i made it to late afternoon with no ill effects. Not sure how/if I want to continue with PN. It’s fun, that’s for sure, but is it necessary at the moment?
1/30 Morning Time!
Feeling beat today!
I neglected to mention that I slipped in 1 min of PN last Friday morning. It paid off when my wife returned home from the retreat. Got it in Sunday afternoon, late late Sunday night, yesterday afternoon, and then again at bedtime last night (her idea nonetheless!)!!!
Gotta make sure to take my supplements today, and I may have to row after work if I want to complete 3 of 3 workouts this week ( and I do ).
I think any reasonably motivated dude listening to PN can get himself some action.
What else…I wanted to note NLE core, in Generator, in Terminus strength. I am really noticing new things or having a new awareness of information these days. New details in what leads to what in foreplay with my wife, for example. The layering of new experiences into a foundation.
She keeps asking for it from behind every time.
I googled it because you always post the pictures – Concept 2 is a rowing machine? Are you training for something in particular? Or is it just your main form of fitness?
I’m living vicariously through your PN updates. Keep it going for those of us stuck in the desert 
Gives me hope.
Yeppers! The standard, imho.
I believe there is a global indoor rowing marathon in May. I’d like to do that if possible.
It’s really just a simple effective workout. One turn lead to another and now I’m rowing 3 days a week. I’m glad I found the viking music that one day!
This I find funny, as it was your write up of RotNW that got me thinking in that direction; giving PN a try.
I gotta say I’m thankful for it though. I am pleased to see how my wife responds to that auric change; I had been feeling despondent as it seemed nothing I tried to change would get her to respond the way I thought I wanted. I didn’t think I had any sort of energetic effect on her. It wasn’t until Bossman SaintSovereign posted about what to look for that, in conjunction with my own observations, that I realized I was affecting her. Most gratifying and reassuring!
It’s likely a real good thing that I didn’t have my current awareness level of energy and these…(fucking awesome!!) subs when I was a young man. What meager discipline I possess now was completely absent then, and I’d likely have a bunch of kids to random women.
1/31 Morning Time!
Short one today!
1.5 min PN
30 sec TWTP
Guess I’m on that PN train for the time being, until the wife lets me off.
Seriously having a lot of fun.
OK cool! Good luck with the training 
Regarding Nectar, that day was nuts, but I have no proper outlet for it right now. Glad it helped you (help me 
) These auras are the real deal…
This is a crazy good result. I’m sure the sex is great but I’d imagine it’s been a huge psychological win. 
Bravo
