Philemon's Wandering Thoughts

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#86

My capacity to process the subs ive been running since start of feb has gone up alot.

I was stuck with lots of recon at 1 min of LB for a while and suddenly I got a big bloom and could play more. I am now up to 7 min with no noticeable recon. I have gotten all the results I desired when starting LB and more. I will be ready to move on to summertime + WDB major name embedded when it releases. I will use LB for sure until the end of march to give it some permanence, With the name embedding it seems like my whole identity and personality has changed past present and future in a great way thanks to this sub.

C&C and RICH Trader name embedded is also up to 7 min with no recon. I dont feel a need to go up any time soon. Would that even be useful? There are so many positive changes I have had with this sub its hard to even write it all down. Many many small things that add up to be massive changes.

First impression of Raikov with Minds eye in a major name embed is great. In RAIKOV there is a perfect amount of focus scripting that helps in taking action but its very smooth. I dont feel wired but instead its made me enjoy productive disciplines more. I am doing these things more as a human behaviour rather than a skill that needs to be developed, and in this paradigm I can see skills develop faster. Visualisation is steadily improving but lots of work to be done there. I do have aphantasia so visual visualization still struggles alot but slowly improving. My ability to visualize concepts though… Dammm this has skyrocketed very fast from my very first loop.

I can instantly see how RAIKOV pairs sooooo well with C&C + RICH Trader. I have found it hard to find enough content (of Quality) to model but when I do spend time to model the sessions are very very productive and I come out of it with lots of valuable information and insights.

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#87

I spent time with someone I am very close too.

He made remarks about how much ive changed positively in the past year. Then proceeded to basically describe the objectives list of LB and the aura of C&C. Very cool to see.

I was really thinking of breaking my stack by removing LB for summertime when it releases. The remarks my friend made makes me want to keep going with LB and I think I will at least for a while. For the first time it feels like the Love aura has spread outwards and has a healing effect on others aswell very grateful for that.

Other than that 7 min of my subs gave me a big spike in recon. Its interesting I got 0 recon on the play day but on my rest day today it hit me quite hard. Taking 2 extra rest days to rest and integrate then going to build back up from 1 min. I think my new sweet spot is somewhere between 4 and 5 min.

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#88

I had a massive recon block I believe from LB in the past few days. Partly from overexposure and partly because I think the sub went deeper than ever before. After overcoming this major recon block I notice I can feel more. As in previously my feeling where very muted perhaps because I saw that part of me as bad or weak whatever it is. Now I love that part of me and allow it be. This also makes me realize the benefits of RICH trader more than before. Just because I feel more feelings now I am still very stoic about it and will not take action on a whim.

The LB aura is growing more and more. I am attracting good people and repealing bad people. (good an bad in the context of me). I am far more open to a deeper relationship than I was before starting the sub.

I realize that during this recon block I had stoped taking lions maine. I find out now from grok the forum says that it helps to reduce recon symptoms.

As for RAIKOV its really doing its job. Its very in the background but its causing lots of small positive changes in all areas of my life. Very cool to see. My mother tongue was very rusty but it is coming back very very quick.

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#89

Ive been running LB for a while now. Since the announcement of summertime I have been debating with myself if I should keep going with it or break my stack.

LB has been amazing. Ive looked back abit at all it has done since I started and it helped me make some massive changes. Recon at first was quite intense as if I was reliving all my embarrassing moments and failures that caused me to not like myself. From that deep healing self love, worthiness etc etc has grown massively inside of me.

With self love it spread to the external world. Loving things as they are rather than because I judge them to be good or bad. I enjoy and apreciate things more, I feel connections to things and people that I did not have before. The aura of LB has even had a powerfull positive effect on the people around me.

In relationships the warmth and glow has helped me deepen relationships to new levels. I also for the first time in a long time am able to see myself in a romantic relationship beyond shallow fun. Ive had multiple manifestations of potential ideal partners from this sub as-well.

Ive gotten all the goals from LB that I wanted and more. Thats why I feel okay to break the stack. I also have an inkling that the deep emotional healing from LB has taken alot of priority over the rest of my stack even though I have gotten great results from all the subs I am running. The idea of a WDB + Summertime major name embedded is just too atractive to miss out on. Now that I am in the best financial and emotional position I have ever been in my life, and so many of the goals I was aiming for since I turned 18 have been achieved. Now is the time to just enjoy it and embrace the journey over the grind.

Its funny alot of the revelations ive had on LB do lead to the conclusion that summertime is the next step. Also before making the decision to break my stack I did reduce exposure alot to make sure I was not in recon haha. Will do a 5 day washout when saint gives the word and make the final decision at the end of the washout.

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#90

Ive not really been keeping up to date with my online journal. Mostly because I have been so busy the past few days. (C&C shenanigans)

I am on day 5 of a washout and it is officially time to retire LB from my stack. It has been a great sub that keeps a special place in my heart. I will definitely come back to it in the future especially if/when it gets updated.
I didnt expect LB to cause so much emotional healing in me. It has been extremely powerful and have improved my life in all areas. The big standout is in relationships. I have been single (meaning no serious relationships) since 2022. I had quite alot of shallow experiences here and there but I was shut out from loving because of “traumatic” experiences in the past. I feel LB has definitely healed “all” of these past experiences through forgivenes and self love. This has shown outwards in my life aswell with lots of incredibly unlikely situations showing me that I am ready to love myself again.
Another big point from LB has been seeing humanity as inherently fallible. I always had high expectations of people and myself and I have let that go being aware that everyone makes mistakes and is imperfect. In fact I see mistakes and imperfections as a beautiful part of me and all of us.

My Dual Core (HFM) Major NE with RICH Trader and C&C has also evolved massively aswell. I have a strong feeling that I am on the precipice of a breakthrough aswell. The standout for me though has been C&C. My network has expanded massively in the past 2 weeks with people I already know encouraging me to meet others usually of high status wealth and competence. In business people come to me for advice far more and I feel that I give far better advice than before. My financial reality has completely changed since I started running C&C from “not great but lots of potential” to now that potential fulfilling itself. On top of existing avenues expanding itself in terms of revenue many new avenues in terms of fortune and physical freedom (with stability) has expanded massively. These avenues I did not even realize where an option before running C&C.

RE (dual core with Raikov and Minds eye) has worked as the copies described. However it has been abit lackluster. I dont think its a question of density in my stack though. I believe its a mix of 2 things. My expectations of the subs where far too high especially RAIKOV. Secondly I have not been taking enough conscious action on it. I notice RAIKOV really doing alot unconsciously IE absorbing language patterns of good speakers around me, overall pattern recognition. But I do need to take more dedicated conscious action on it. Minds eye has significantly improved my visualisation as the sub promised but I am struggling to apply it to my daily life. Ive put an astrix on this sub for the future because I see alot of potential in it however it is not the best time in my life for it. I will definitely keep it in my stack for now.

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#91

Today is the last day of my washout and tomorrow I start a new stack.

New stack:

HFM (Hedge Fund Manager) : Rich Trader + C&C Major Name Embedded.

RE (RAIKOV’s Eyes) : RAIKOV + Minds Eye Major Name Embedded.

and the new addition I am so exited about

DS (Dream Summer) : Summertime + Wanted Dream Boy Major Name Embedded.

After my previous message about my experience with RE I decided I will only be playing it once a week and put focus on the other two subs. I will play it with intention to spend dedicated time to actively using the RAIKOV modeling method in the days of and after the sub.

For the first few loops of this cycle though I will only play DS to put more focus on it. In addition I am happy to give some extra integration time for HFM and RE.

I played WDB in the past and really enjoyed it and summertime just seems like an amazing evolution to use after doing some deep healing with LB.

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#92

Played my First loop of DS (Summertime + Wanted Dream Boy) about 13 hours ago.

Only played DS today want to use it solo for a loop or two.

It feel GREAT! Even with the name embedding I had the initial pump from the sub that made me go straight back to sleep from the nervous system relaxation. Covered this abit in the summertime main thread.

I had two social scenarios today that I saw the subs shinning in.

Firstly summertime when I went to a freezing cold lake with a friend to swim. I was just enjoying the moment and having fun with 0 expectations. My friend had a hangover and was feeling super tired but I could tell my inner state was lifting him up and he was feeling better. It was very flowy just being there in the moment. It was rainy terrible conditions but I was just happy to be there and making the most of it.

Secondly I saw an initial impression of how WDB and Summertime is going to synergies and it is much better than expected. I went to someones house and for a while I was just sitting alone with a girl that was doing some work in the living room. I was just Vibing looking out the window in silence enjoying the view and listening to the music fully in the moment. I could tell she had hesitations and nervousness trying to start a conversation with me, eventually she did and started flirting right away. I had no agenda no expectations almost oblivious to her trying to flirt with me and it made her flirt even harder. When I was leaving she said I am welcome to come see her any time and I barely gave her any attention and replied to someone else that was talking to me haha.

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Main Disc. Thread - Summertime (Now Available! Q Module Available!)
#93

7 days since ive had exposure to HFM (C&C+RICH Trader)

Someone booked a call with me and asked if they could pay me a monthly fee for financial advice and tips. I had no idea it would happen and never thought of that as avenue for wealth definitely worth exploring.

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#94

DS (WDB + ST)

Is super fun.

I am just vibing feeling good living like I am on holiday, yet I am more productive than before. Explaining it to other people would just sound too good to be true.

The relaxation of Summertime is great, Ive been driven to do lots of stretching and regain some mobility that I lost from some big injuries/surgeries. The most amazing part of this is being in the moment. I dont even know how to describe it. This morning I was enjoying watching honey drip from a spoon. While stretching my hand was on a carpet and I enjoyed feeling the texture. Instead of going on my phone, watching youtube etc etc I am enjoying small things and being present and that has a positive effect on everything. Work, Social, romance etc etc. I can also see how this could have strong positive effects on trading but thats to be seen.

As for WDB, I havent given it an opportunity to bloom very well. I have gotten few extra looks here and there some smiles etc. Havent done any approaches or stuff like that yet. Something I am amazed at though is the physical shifting. It seems to have made drastic changes very fast that I wasn’t expecting. I am convinced that its more an effect on how I see myself in the mirror rather than actual physical change. Although I have dropped significant amount of weight in just 4 days just water weight obviously but I did not change my diet.

Summertime making me stretch more and posture scripting in WDB has likely made a good synergy where the stretching will cause my posture to change faster.

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#95

Summertime is completely changing my relationship with boredom and silence.

Throughout my life I have always had somewhat of a sweet tooth and I like to snack. I tried so many things to overcome it but the pattern was so deeply ingrained it would always come back. Overtime I diminished it but the compulsivity of the pattern remained.

Summertime making me comfortable with boredom and silence, in fact I almost seek it out via being in the present moment. It clicked for me that the pattern of snacking compulsively had been entirely linked to boredom. If things would get slow and I was not stimulated enough my default response would be to eat something. Since starting this sub I have not had any impulse to snack, infact I said no to others offering me food multiple times. I noticed there is a unconscious drive to avoid heavy foods and keep digestion light.

Its very interesting for so long I tried to break this habit and snuggled. I pushed myself to do strict diets that I hated, intermitent fasting, working out as soon as I had cravings etc etc. After all that I realize that I just needed to enjoy myself more. :rofl:
I wonder how many similar patterns I will uncover over time with this sub.

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Main Disc. Thread - Summertime (Now Available! Q Module Available!)
#96

I had a long conversation with Grok as if he was my trading psychology coach. The trade I made yesterday was a perfect setup but I was stoped out by a few tiks before the trade went in my direction. This is a pattern that has come up alot in my trading. I believe it is very linked to the idea of “would you rather be right or make money”. In HFM (RICH Trader + C&C NE) I have been very very happy with the results of C&C. Now I want to consciously focus on RICH Trader. I set the intention now to put the focus on that, before and after playing HFM I will be asking many questions about my own trading psychology patterns and making sure the adaptive scripting is working on the things holding me back from successful trading.

Nonetheless my reaction to a negative trade was much much better than in the past. I remained stoic and unattached. Rather than just saying it I actually saw it as a learning experience and an insight into my performance psychology faults.

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#97

I have been reflecting alot on my journey in the past few years since 2021. I am thankful that I experienced a powerful downwards spiral and saw how vicious and intense it can be. All because now I am in a strong upwards spiral in my life and I now know it can be just as intense and powerful. I am rising to new heights constantly things are going fantastic. I am super super grateful of subclub and how its helped me so much in this journey.

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#98

Summertime has made me far more aware of my state of processing and integration because I can really feel the effects of the sub much more than others.

With the new tech I was never really getting any recon, if I did it was very minor and came in the form of extra hunger and maybe abit of fatigue. I was playing the subs in order to not get recon but I didnt properly account for processing/integration cycle.

I had been playing my subs around 3 min with no recon. as I was building up the exposure on summertime the jump from 1 min to 3 min I noticed that the processing would go significantly into my rest day and the external results where very muted. This is likely why I noticed my blooms where mostly on washouts and extra rest days.
I asked support about this and they clarified that processing should ideally all be done on the play day and rest day is for pure execution/integration. So I decreased my exposure to between 1-2 min and I really notice that the subs becoming more external.

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#99

How do you notice when your brain is processing or executing?

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#100

With Summertime specifically it comes in the form of all those positive internal feelings and that flow state with increased energy.

Its early in my cycle and the baseline hasn’t risen enough to make it my standard, so there is a distinct shift when I just open up to the world more and get filled with positive feelings. Things as simple as deep breaths feel great.

I find the processing to be very subtle when not overexposing but to describe it with exaggeration it feels almost like a brain fog, heaviness, similar to the tired feeling after heavy exercise. (this is highly exaggerated for description purposes)

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#101

That’s nice
I hear lots of people saying they can feel processing but tbh I can’t …

#102

I think for me is the periods where I’m noticing my attention turn inwards

That’s when I know I’m processing. So, I’m journalling less, posting less on the forum, less drive to do things

More of a lull as I wait till this period ends

Executing is more when I start turning outward. There’s more action taking. I’m researching, posting, optimising, looking for opportunities etc.

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#103

Oh yes good point I also get that.

@jelly I know you are supper aware of you’re processing how do you identify it?

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#104

It’s a pretty intuitive feeling. Like if you were trying to solve a difficult problem (like a math proof) that took time. You’re thinking about it in the background and sometimes little things pop up in your awareness (like recon or old beliefs) for you to consider. Once that feeling/heaviness clears, that’s how I know I’m probably in integration/execution mode.

Dreams carrying symbolism is another good sign, bringing things up for you to consider in the form of imagery or very overt memories being replayed. When it’s a big concept or a little more advanced (like in Singularity), it feels a lot like solving a hard problem and that I’m stumped, so I won’t have as many mental resources available that I can use in my daily life.

While it’s intuitive for me, the best way I’d say to figure out what mode your in is to just write down the different emotions and feelings you get at different points in time when following your listening schedule. After like a month, it’s pretty easy to see the patterns of your typical processing traits.

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#105

Had a major breakthrough on WDB in my DS dual core with summertime.

I had run WB in the past for a few months and really struggled with getting results on it. I was new to subliminals and wasn’t running it properly wich is a big factor. I also ran WDB for a while in jan and now 2 weeks since I started this cycle.

Compared to other titles ive run the wanted line was a struggle for me. Now suddenly I had lots of realizations and releasing of negative experiences in my teens that likely blocked the scripts from expressing. Wont go too deep into it but as a young teen especially I was quite awkward and basically never attracted women and dealt with harsh rejections. I also had some bad experiences of being in the dreaded friend zone.

Feels like all of this has suddenly been released after last night I had great experience with WDB effects :wink: . This has been a part of me that I have been very frustrated with for a long time and it feels amazing to let it all go. Cant wait to see how blooms from WDB express now that I have overcome this.

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